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Session Two

Tom:... We don't have to talk. Not at all. We can just sit here and stare at the clock; or shift our eyes around. Or even do nothing.

Ron:...

Tom:...

Ron:...

Ron: Why am I even here? This is a waste of time.

Tom: You're here on a court order. Because you attempted suicide.

Ron: No I didn't (rolls eyes), it was an accident. I was just tired and wasn't paying attention.

Tom: You drove head first into a river. On a bridge. At 40 miles an hour. With light to moderate traffic. On a Tuesday? Please, enlighten me.

Ron: Look I'm telling you I was tired, and I just had gotten off of work.

Tom: According to police records you'd been fired from your job months ago. Alcohol related.

Ron: Yeah so? That mean I can't have a job? I'm a mechanic. I was working on something for a friend.

Tom: So you drove to a Starbucks. Stayed there for five in a half hours. Didn't leave according to surveillance video, and then went to your friends house to work on his car.

Ron: I needed coffee.

Tom: Slow drinker?

Ron: I'm more of a sipper to be honest.

Tom: Oh I know how you feel. I'm the same way. Love taking my time with a good cup.

Ron: Look I gotta get home my wife is waiting for me, I don't wanna scare her.

Tom:...

Ron: What?

Tom: (Sigh) Ron... According to hospital records obtained by police your wife died. Three years ago. With a child... two years old? Car accident... Does that? Ring any sort of bell?

Ron: Look, I don't wanna be here okay? Let me out!!

Tom: Ron, you know you can't leave this hospital. If you do you'll be restrained. And I assure you it will not be pleasant. Please, let me help you.

Ron: What?! You wanna put me on pills!?! Try to tell me to move on! Tell me everything's gunna be alright! Tell me people die all the time!! Tell me to push through and fake it! No. No thanks!!!

Tom: Ron. I assure you. You will not make it out of the hospital. But you may try.

Ron: I just want to go home!! Please!! Let! Me! Go home!

Tom: (Sigh)... Ron. Why did you drive head first off that bridge. We have CCTV footage of you suddenly swerving off the road so suddenly. Why did you do that?

Ron: Because it won't stop hurting (sobs uncontrollably)

Tom: What won't stop hurting Ron?

Ron: I miss them! I miss them so much!! I need to be with them!! Please just let me go be with them.

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Session One

Tom: Hello Kathy, how have things been going?

Kathy: Hey Dr. Gilgerhide!! I've been doing okay mostly

Tom: Oh you can call me Tom

Kathy: Oh thanks, I'm still getting used to whole thing

Tom: Is the feeling new?

Kathy: Yes, I'm not used to all of this?

Tom: And what exactly is "all of this"?

Kathy: Well.. the chair, the room, this rug, and you haha!

Tom: Hmm, so it's mainly atheistic?

Kathy: No! No! I just meant it's kind of crazy that I'm here.

Tom: And what exactly makes it crazy to be here?

Kathy: Um.. I.. I've never, or... No one has ever given me an opportunity to sit down and actually hear me out.. Like actually talk to me.. You know?

Tom: Of course, I understand. Most patients I know feel the same way you do. Especially on their first actual sit down.

Kathy: Oh thanks, that does actually make me feel better. I've... I've never met anyone that's cared, you know?

Tom: I understand. This is new, and it takes time.

Kathy: ... So.. What do we talk about?

Tom: That depends. What do you want to talk about?

Kathy: Oh, I have no idea. Seriously. I'm totally blanking out right now; I totally don't like spotlights haha!

Tom: Well alright. So tell me Kathy, why are you here? I read your file that was sent over last week but I always want to hear it verbatim from the person themselves. Its one thing reading what someone has written down on a paper about how they are interpreting something, it's another listening those words from the person who spoke them.

Kathy: Yeah, sure, of course... Um.. I.. I feel like I am here because I'm loosing hope - in myself. In the world. On life.. Everyone. Does that make sense?

Tom: Yes, it does. Let's take a more step by step approach yes?

Kathy: Okay. Sounds great.

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Is it Just Another Day..

Sam: I just can't get the feeling away...

Tom: And why do you think that is?

Sam: Because I feel like no one cares..

Tom: You feel like no one cares about what?

Sam: No one cares that I was... That he..

Tom: Sam - you're speaking present tense.

Sam: I know, I know.. I just.. I can't move past it.

Tom: You can't move past what Sam?

Sam: That look.

Tom: What look?

Sam: That look they gave me when I told my leadership.

Tom: Sigh*

Sam: It's as if they were disgusted, ashamed of me..

Tom: Are you sure it was them who felt that way?

Sam: Yeah, I mean.. I saw their eyes... It.. It!

Tom: It what?

Sam: It felt awful. I poured my heart out to these people. The people that I was told would have my back, the people who worked with me, came into my house, broke bread with, lived with, loved with.. And all I got was disgust.

Tom: Were they all like that?

Sam: No, not all..

Tom: And why do you think they weren't all like that?

Sam: Because all of them aren't bad..

Tom: Sam. Why do you think after all this time you've had such a hard time letting go?

Sam: Because I'm weak?...

Tom: You aren't weak Sam. What you experienced was.. awful and -

Sam: Will it ever go away?

Tom: No. I don't think it will.

Sam: How am I supposed to live the rest of my life living like this?

Tom: By living it.

Sam: ...

Tom: For seven years now you've been fighting. You've been fighting your dreams, your thoughts, your emotions, and even yourself and your friends and family.

Sam: ...

Tom: These feelings you have, these emotions, have sat still. Lingering and further manifesting into something else, over and over again getting worse each time it changes form. Why do you think that is?

Sam: Because I keep fighting?..

Tom: Because you keep fighting.

Sam: But if I stop fighting they'll win, if I stop fighting he'll win. They'll all win!

Tom: Sam. He's in prison. For the same reason of what he did to you to another person. He lost. He will forever live in shame for what he did to you and to so many others.

Sam: But I! Never! Got! Justice! No one ever cared!

Tom: Sam. When you were given leave, who was there at the air port?

Sam: My mom..

Tom: When you got home, and unloaded your bags, who helped you, and gave you the warmest of hugs?

Sam: My Dad...

Tom: And who shared a long cry with your room through the we hours in the morning?

Sam: My sisters..

Tom: Why?

Sam: Because they cared....

Tom: Yes. Because they cared.

Sam: ....

Tom: And do you think they care now?

Sam: They never stopped.

Tom: And your friends?

Sam: Oh they are super supportive, one of my guy friends even walks me to my car every night I come to visit him and his family.

Tom: It seems like a lot of people care Sam.

Sam: I know they do.. I know.

Tom: ... Sam.

Sam: Yeah?..

Tom: We've been working together for three years now, going on four. Why do you think you keep coming back? It's not for the coffee I assure you.

Sam: I was just about to say the coffee haha!! - No um, I don't know.

Tom: Sam, don't do that. Deflecting is so first year.

Sam: Right right, I know.. Um, I feel like.. There is something more..

Tom: Something more?

Sam: Something more that I'm missing..

Tom: Something more than you're missing?

Sam: Yeah. I feel like there is something left for me here. Something more for us working together. Something left for me to do here before I can move on.

Tom: And what do you think that is Sam?

Sam: Myself.