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The devil himself

Hot headed & moves for his own

On a pedastle, drapes down his thrown

The yearning of my heart

like melodic tunes

I danced with the devil

A few times in my room

Then leaves in a line of fire

I’m left with a body of desires

A broken fan & a million chances

Hate to admit how my heart still prances

I rebuke you

I cleansed

I prayed

I fasted

I stayed

I convicted

And forgave

I improved

And burnt sage

A thin line of love & hate

I eat from both sides the plates

So close to drowning you in tears

And poison words to match toxic fears

& dumping what’s left of him in a lake that’s near

But then the song of the devil I hear

Sweet sweet words unaligned with action

Should I pull the trigger & end our dance .

An indefinite answer to another chance

For me to choose what to remember

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Ring ring

Do u feel me calling?

Or was I left alone, in heart brake station

We’re you lyfted into another sensation?

I wonder how long I’ve been here alone

Do u hear me calling

I’ll redial the dail tone

I can feel the lack of kisses she gets an abundance of

The void of your back rubs in bathtubs

You were all I knew

Can you blame me?

After all we been through

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We were connected

Until you unplugged

I feel your frequency

But not on my current

I feel your love

But not for me

I can tell your cuddled in her sheets

entangled down to her feet

You enjoy energy with someone u haven’t defeat

You enjoy a fresh start and new heart beat

I had only one moment, to wish it was me

Nothing went as planned

My heartbreak wasn’t neat

We only needed space

We didn’t have to compete

You won; you have too much power over me

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it always rains when I think of you

Ooooo how the thunder surrounds me

If you listen closely

You can hear the times you said u wouldn’t leave

Lies strike like lightning

It’s Rhythmic like waves

Giving space is the right thing

How to accept it with ease?

The void should grow like trees

Let go to let time flow in the breeze

Our moments fall off into the ground like leaves

Leaving space for new love to grow

It’s starting to flood

I may just drown

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It’s truly been 3 long months... Idk why I’m missing you.

I miss how you made me feel, when you made me feel good to love you.

These words go unread, your words go unsaid.

I’m missing you baby.

I missed you so much on your birthday, that was all pride. I thought we was playing a game, but you quit.

At least we had that last time for closure.

At least we have the ability to still be friendly one day In the future.

I thought you’d fight. You were supposed to recognize who tf you dealing with & BOSS tf up

I thought the space we needed would bring up closer.

Instead you brought another child

And a wife

Maybe I should have stfu and listened to you more.

Maybe I should have defended you and bragged even when you do wrong,

Maybe I loved myself as much as I do now, I wouldn’t have been so insecure.

Maybe I shouldn’t have let you fuck every night for 6 yrs straight.

Maybe I should have kept our first baby, maybe we wouldn’t have lost the second. Maybe we wouldn’t be arguing about spending time with our 3rd.

Maybe I shouldn’t have let you tell me how to dress or not to work out, since you were insecure.

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Milky Way at Dwellingup Rapids, Western Australia

Nikon d5500 - 35mm - ISO 3200 - f/2.5 - Sky: 17 x 30 seconds - Foreground: 26 x 15 seconds - iOptron SkyTracker

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