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my blog is, and always will be, a safe place for people who are not confident in their english speaking abilities. you will never be judged or mocked here.

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find someone who knows you’re sad just by the change of tone in your voice

be with someone who loves the feature that you hate the most

fall inlove with someone who looks at you and knows they don’t want anyone else

R'J

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i cannot decide which one i wanna sit on more.

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just checked the score for the first time today. what - and i can’t stress this enough - the fuck.

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klaus hargreeves deserves all the love in the world. thank you.

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i love this man.

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Touchy girls are my favorite

Grab my hand, I don’t care if you have to take my phone out of it. Make me look, if you want a kiss then turn my head by my jaw. Pull me close, it doesn’t matter wether it’s by my hips or my collar. Like put a hand on my thigh, no motive needed. I’m all over that shit.

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One thing that most people fail to understand about having abusive parents is that they aren’t always terrible or horrifying. Sometimes they’re fine and calm and sometimes they even buy you gifts or take you on trips or get you ice cream when you’re sad. The thing is, abusive parents don’t want to always hurt you. They want to make you feel good sometimes so they can make you feel bad for hating them.

They want to make you think that they’re really the good guy.

They want to make you think that you’re wrong for being upset.

But the thing is, you don’t know when they’ll snap again. You don’t know when they will stop feeding you and yell at you for walking too loudly upstairs or call you worthless or yell slurs at you or threaten to kick you or hurt your pets again.

You can’t always stay on your toes and be prepared for everything. After years and years of dealing with it, it gets exhausting trying to stay on top of everything all the time.

Living in an abusive household isn’t always scary. Sometimes it’s just exhausting. It’s impossible to always stay on your feet and sometimes all you can do is sit down amidst all of the noise and chaos and pain and try to plug your ears the best you can.

Living in an abusive household is absolute Hell, but it isn’t always chaotic. Sometimes it’s just tiring.

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pride should not have ticket prices. pride should not have cishet people in the spotlight instead of lgbt+ people. pride should not be just another party that straight people gravitate towards for the music and to treat lgbt+ people like we’re a zoo.

this is extremely personal but I’m 21 and I’m not even in a safe enough place to go to Pride yet. I’ve ID’d as gay and trans since I was about 14 and I still can’t go to pride and know I’ll come home to a safe bed to sleep in and wake up to loving parents and it’s so exhausting to go to work the next day and hear that Homophobic Hannah can’t come in because she’s so hungover from ~partying at pride~ all night when any other night of the year she thinks I’m God’s Mistake and that I should shut up about liking girls. it’s disgusting that straight people can be safer at Pride than gay people. it’s not for you.

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u can tell who the ancients of tumblr are bc they’re the ones not posting anything abt where to find them if this site collapses…we know this site isnt going anywhere….the apocalypse couldnt stop this garbage…..it has the cybernetic code of a cockroach

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(my favorite) ways to say i love you

you’re really something, aren’t you

come here

sit next to me?

you’re my favorite

i was just thinking about you

i notice you all the time

here, i made this for you

this instrumental reminds me of you

if you do it, i’ll do it

i miss you so much

i wish i had known you sooner

you’re warm

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are u ever in so much emotional pain that it turns into physical pain and people ignore u or get annoyed w u bc they think ur being dramatic when really there is a war going on inside ur head and u can’t stop it alone but everybody leaves u alone bc they’re annoyed or think u need to be alone but u just really really want to curl up in somebody’s arms and listen to their heartbeat become louder than the endless battle in ur mind

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‘Cause I-I-I can’t get you off my mind Can’t get you off my mind

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Shoutout to any trans friends that’ll be misgendered by family during this holiday season. You’re strong and you’ll get through this. I love you and wish you the best.

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So I started watching Brooklyn 99 and I’m only like three episodes in but Jake Peralta is like??? such an ADHD icon???? I mean

has his own organization system that no one else really understands 

fidgeting, always, like, always

ALWAYS talking, usually to say that he just figured something out or remembered something unrelated to the situation at hand 

like in the first episode he interrupts the arrest and is like “Oh my god I just figured it out!” like not the best time 

Impulsive

that desk is a MESS but it’s a system he understands 

incredibly bored by repetitive tasks such as paperwork 

constantly taking on a new case (starting a new project)

boredom is I.N.T.O.L.E.R.A.B.L.E. 

wants to be challenged

just, distracted, always, but also on task

like they accept him, and Holt even does things to help him work better and challenges him to not just be arrogant about his abilities 

smart

creative

but again, just, distracted, always, all the time, just, it never ends 

a true ADHD icon, truly

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Sometimes I feel a little guilty that I read fanfiction way more than I read actual books nowadays, but then I realize why.

It’s not just about my ships being canon. It’s about great, well written stories where the characters are LGBTQ. Fanfiction has way more representation than actual books and I love it.

If I want to read an actual book with LGBTQ characters, it’s going to be a dramatic coming of age thing or a side character where their identity is heavily coded/barely mentioned.

With fanfiction, I can read space operas, high fantasy, rom coms, horror, or whatever  and the characters being LGBQ, while important and part of who the characters are, is not the entire plot.

 It’s part of why I liked the Captive Prince. I get gay/bi rep, but I also get an interesting story of betrayal and war and intrigue. I shouldn’t have to read coming of age novels in order to get LGBTQ characters.

And that is why I love fanfiction.

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IN LIGHT OF ASEXUAL AWARENESS WEEK—

i’d like to say a few things.

if you’re asexual;

you’re valid.

you’re part of the lgbt+ community.

you’re important.

everyone else;

asexuality is a thing.

please be respectful.

don’t play stupid if someone comes out to you as asexual.

if you don’t understand, i’m here to talk and help you out.

you could also ask them and tell them that you’d like to learn more to help them feel more comfortable.

be patient.