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Sometimes you meet someone, and it’s so clear so immediately that the two of you, on some level, belong together. As lovers, or as friends, or as family, or as something entirely different. You just work, whether you’re in love or creating things together or foxhole buddies or partners in crime. It’s so clear, right off the bat, that this is what you’re supposed to be doing, that this is what you’re for. You meet these people throughout your life, out of nowhere, under the strangest of circumstances, and they help you make a life. I don’t know if that makes me believe in coincidence, or fate, or sheer blind luck, but. It definitely makes me believe in something.

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You were my constant. My one stable factor.

And then you weren’t.

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You know, I still look for you wherever I go. Last week I drove through your neighbourhood. I don't even know if you still live there. I didn't come there for you, I just had to be somewhere near. But of course I looked for you. Like I do every fucking day. Every time I drive over that crossing leading into your block. Every time I visit a shop near your place. Every time I see a little black car like the one you used to drive.

And I still think about you every day. How could I not? Everything I do reminds me of you. Of the time we spend together. Of all the things you taught me. Of all the jokes we shared. Hell, your name is written on the wall, I see it every day. And it hurts, but I won't remove it because everyone should know who you are. I made a promise that you won't be forgotten and I stick to my promises even if no one else does.

And I go on like this, because I have no choice. But how am I supposed to keep doing this without you? I don't know how much longer I can take it.

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"Maybe we’ll meet again, when we are slightly older and our minds less hectic, and I’ll be right for you and you’ll be right for me. But right now, I am chaos to your thoughts and you are poison to my heart."

-Gabrielle Zevin

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I’m done with the past, it’s no more than a ghost

You’re not coming back, but tomorrow’s unknown

I’m used to this pain but what hurts me the most

Is knowing I’m wrong when I’m letting you go

<3

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Ti amo, sempre

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If you don't want to be in my life, would you please stay the fuck away from my dreams as well? I can't handle you haunting my subconscience.

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I truly hope this never happens with you. I don't want to not think about you ever, even though it hurts as fuck.

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2-7

So the other day I got my first COVID-vaccination, and that’s quite a big thing, and all I wanted was to tell you about it because you are still my person even though you won’t be in my life anymore. So now I’m sitting here on my couch, staring at your picture, wishing I could just talk to you. I miss you so, so bad and it hurts like hell, still.

Why do you not want me in your life?

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"Dimmi le tue verità"

If only I knew why.../ All the songs are still about you

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22-6

I fell in love with you without realising it and then you left. And I didn’t understand why. And I missed you so bad, all this time. And I didn’t understand why. I cried for you, I prayed for you to come back, I even dreamt it and still I didn’t understand why. I tried to run away, but I couldn’t leave so I ran away in my head, but you followed me and I didn’t understand why. I was angry, I was sad, and sometimes I was thankful and happy, and I didn’t understand why. But now I understand.

It was you. It has always been you. It will always be you.

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Nee, weet je wat? Het is helemaal niet hetzelfde als vorig jaar. Vorig jaar was jij er nog. Sinds jij weg bent is het één grote puinzooi hier. Niemand kan iets, niemand weet iets, niemand doet iets. En het is lang niet zo leuk meer. Zonder jou kan het nooit meer hetzelfde worden. Dus nee, het is niet hetzelfde als vorig jaar.

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4-5

Nine months.

Nine months of pure cold grief.

And just when my heart dared to start healing the tiniest little bit, there you are. And in three minutes you managed to rip all the wounds open again, tear it all up in a million little pieces.

You made me into who I am today, you created me. And you destroyed me. I will never get over you, you are the end of me.