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sometimes i think about how i remember practically everyone i knew in school in vivid detail and constantly see them and recognize them and think fondly of them but they will never do the same for me, let alone recognize me. i dont think the people i cared for the most even remember me no matter how close we were. knowing them im sure theyve accepted and forgotten, or never liked me to begin with.

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i hope the guy tells 372&3$:!.!::$, that he has csrts soon,, im feelingm anxious and i was excired flr these and they only just keep getting delayed... i want them

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i love her and i respect when she needs time to be alone or feels upset, but i do worry a lot when her tone changes. not that he's mad at me lr snything, but i always just hope he is alrigjt? like i hipe he is just tired and not too upset about anything. i try to help the best i can but i know its hard to feel better from a few words over text;;

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she picked arknights back up and i know it wasnt inherently for me but the fact she likes it makes me so happy.. she makes me want to play more and it makes me so so happy to share an interest thst isnt like genshin... it makes me so happy

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i feel whole even calling her she makes me so warm and happy. i feel alive in her presence. i never want to lose her, I'm so genuinely grateful for her and everything she's ever done. i want to be infinitely apart of her life and know all about her famkly and where she's lived and where she went to school and everything. i want to know her fully

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i think about her constantly and its so comforting to have her on my mind. I'd feel so wmpty without beingn able to daydream about her while i'm doing the most boring stuff ir just anything

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I'm in love and I'll admit i hope we stay together for ever. i love her

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i wish i could experience her in every single way. I want to know what its lkke to be a stranger to her. a customer. a classmate. a random caller on the phone. someone driving next to her. anyone. i want to experience her in every way so badly

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im going to bed but i i love my girlrfriend

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she looks like light and all thst it embodies. she's so positive and so beautiful and seeing her smile is more than a blessing in of itself. her voice is so beautiful and she is so charismatic and

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I feel like my heart is going to explode looking at her. I feel like the butterflies she gives me will flutter out of my throat in the best wave of nausea anyone could ever feel. I feel like I've stumbled upon my own new religion, finding something or someone so extraordinary and incomprehensible to devote yourself to. I want to kiss the ground she walks on. She is anything and everything anyone could possibly want and I love her and am loved by her. I feel like im going to burst with the happiness she makes me feel. she is so incredible. I wish I could make her feel the way i do when I see her. the way i do when i even talk to her. I'd do anything to see her truly happy and I'd do anything to protect that

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I wish i could tell her just how beautiful she is to me. words cant properly describe how effortlessly incredible she looks. she is radiant, she looks like the sun in the best possible ways. I dont know how to explain myself but she is amazing. She's gorgeous and I'll never regret twlling her she is the prettiest girl I've seen bc she is the prettiest i ever will see. she will remain the most beautiful person I have known until the day i die

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Anyways. Small update for myself. I'm dating The One and Only mew. Since june 20th 2021. Best decision i couldve made, I havent regretted it one bit . No matter what I thought before, I was wrong. I love her and she makes me comfortable and happy and I only want the best for him too. I'll never go back on my praise for her.

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I read through my posts on here and I'm disgusted with myself. how could I be so dramatic and violent with my thoughts like that jesus

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I'll never complain about her ever again. nothing i said here has any merit to me anymore. I was ignorant to how much she cared for me and blind by my own stupid anxiety and indecisiveness. She matters so much and only ever wants the best for others and I love her more than anything.

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nothing is good anymore. only peach and even then i dont matter that much

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i wanna kms i hate being alive