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message to all bitches

please survive

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how are you holding up?

the vibes have been pretty dismal today! but i mean what would you expect given the outcome haha.

i’m hanging in there though. i’ve had my anxiety spells. the heart racing. the moments where i just let myself cry a bit. but i’ve been doing everything i can to not turn it into a wallow. it’s tough, i’m definitely doing worse than i would be had things gone right, but i managed to get up and do at least some semblance of my job and provide a nice bit of respite for people also going through it. i consider that a win.

so the plan is to take it one day at a time. i did good today. gonna try to do good tomorrow. rinse. repeat. simple as. 4 years can be a long time for things to be getting worse, that much is true. but even when they were getting worse the last time, a lot of stuff also got better if i looked in the right places. and thankfully the world is really big, so there’s always another place to look.

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the fact that Donald Trump will die in my lifetime is a very comforting thought

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American trans pals, life is going to get hard. We know that. I could write a long post about strategies for coming years, but I feel like that will only create decision paralysis here on Day 1.

So, some little things to do today and tomorrow towards becoming a more resilient person:

Refill your meds / schedule your next bloodwork appt or other healthcare visits you need - prioritize your health. If you can only do 1 thing today, do this, because it's the end of the year and you might not get on the books for a while.

Cancel a subscription you don't need, or that free trial that is about to expire - small steps to saving money

Pick up a passport form at the post office. If you don't need it, get one for a friend who does

Get a notebook and/or folder for printouts. You will use it soon for collecting hard copies of future healthcare options outside your home state, while the information can still be found online

Get a box or bin. You will want to start collecting items around your home to sell/donate/trash in the interests of downsizing. But just get a box or two today.

Talk to a friend

Get some rest

I can't promise we'll be ok, but we can try to set ourselves up so we bend instead of breaking in this storm.

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no “carrd.” you learn things about me based on what you can piece together from the vague details of my life I disclose in rare moments of vulnerability

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if you're feeling powerless right now—and god knows I am—here's a reminder you can donate to the National Network of Abortion Funds, the Trans Law Center, Gaza Soup Kitchen, the Palestine Children's Relief Fund, and hundreds of other charities that will work to mitigate the damage that has been and will continue to be inflicted

life continues. we still have the capacity to do good, important work. that matters

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This too shall pass but like holy fuck

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rosarosarosa

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you're gonna see a lot of jokers today saying stuff like 'make sure you vote for biden!' and i just want to remind everyone that this is no time for jokes. we need to work together to get hillary in no matter what.

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SO SOMEHOW MY YAOI SHIRT ENDED UP IN MY DAD’S LAUNDRY BASKET HELP I CAN’T BREATHE

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Posting this again because not enough of you were forced to see it the first time

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the children. they yearn for a monster of the week show

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Like with my Asteria transcript, I made one for Rays as well! This one includes stuff like the character bios and skits and a model viewer too!

It's a bit buggier than my Asteria one (missing scene names, some broken NPC images, the models need to be manually edited in a 3d editor), but after six months I think it's about as complete as it's going to get for a while.

I hope people will find it useful!

Link here.

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makes you experience a placebo effect