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sorry about not being on here and only coming on to rb edits and fcs dksfhj i’ve been taking some time away to try and figure out what i should do w this blog because while i do love all of the threads and dynamics i currently have (and i do mean this with my whole ass chest and heart), i’ve been feeling bad about some stuff... 

like there are drafts i haven’t touched in 1-2 months that i’m not even sure if i should still tackle. most of my partners are fast-paced and i worry they feel like i’m not the partner for them and just don’t want to say it 😭 ik some ppl have expiry dates and have probably already considered them dropped so i’m at an awkward point where i don’t know what to do. i also have a lot of insecurities when it comes to my writing and stance with people that adds to it

most of this is just a Me problem too honestly... i find it hard to communicate and feel insecure about our threads if we aren’t close or if we don’t interact much ooc, if someone stops replying to me ooc i start to worry i’ve done something wrong so it puts me off from replying to threads which i’m 100% aware is honestly SO dumb and unfair. i never blame anyone but myself for this and it’s something i should and have been trying to work on.

because i’ve always been aware of these insecurities, my initial idea for this blog was to keep it private and friends only, but at the same time i want to meet more people and don’t want to close off potential new partners 😔 so i was never really strict w that rule. 

i want people i can rave about our muses / ships with when we’re feeling musey while still being able to talk about other stuff. bc that’s really only why i’m here. no weird vibes just pure pals who talk and write sometimes<3 i feel like everyone but me has Those Partners while i’m just floating here like pennywise’s red balloon...

maybe this blog needs a big clean up overall, idk. i’m thinking of moving (again... i know) and taking w me the people who are genuinely still interested in writing whether it be w our existing stuff or new ones. or... just disappear quietly and start completely fresh on a new blog w new muses (those i have long term stuff with, we could either continue on d.iscord or on a private sideblog)

if you do end up reading all of that mess, i’m sorry dsfksjfgf i’d love some opinions on what you think i should do... or maybe a show of hands who here would genuinely still like to write together? that might help me w my decision-making but if not, pls just scroll past this post and move on with your day<3 i know this is really awkward so i’ll just assume you didn’t see this post, no hard feelings!

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Accidentally unfollowing one of your mutuals is the Tumblr equivalent of stepping on your pet

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VERNON CARAT MEMBERSHIP RENEWAL CONCEPT TEASER

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best of both worlds?

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double identity jeonghan 🔍

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Happy Birthday to Jonghun’s Favorite Ghost Hunter ADRIAN! @mellowdisco

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hey (with the intention of shipping together)

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"I'm glad you're okay" but said by someone who has just had the shit beaten out of them, to someone who is not hurt at all, is a brilliant trope and I lose my mind every time.

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RAVN | TRICKSTER Concept Film

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the five moods of joshua this entire ep

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castle,  2x07

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reminder that it’s okay to have boundaries, it’s okay to curate your rp experience to suit your needs, it’s okay to do what you need to do to feel comfortable. roleplaying is supposed to be a fun hobby, do what you do to make it a fun, safe, enjoyable environment for you. put your own needs above all else.

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⌕   did you mean   …   lovenders?

🌼          ୧          𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒓   𝒇𝒐𝒓     ﹡     @mellowdisco​‘s ravn      ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭

ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭     🌼                      “    𝑖𝑡'𝑠   𝑦𝑜𝑢    !    𝑖   𝑠𝑤𝑒𝑎𝑟   𝑡𝑜   𝑔𝑜𝑑   𝑖𝑡'𝑠   𝑦𝑜𝑢   .    you   sold   this   to   me   and   it’s   fake    !    i’m   going   to   call   the   cops   on   you   .    ”      and   to   show   that   she   is   serious    ,    she   fishes   out   her   phone   to   dial   them   whilst   turning   to   face   him   .      “    don’t   you   know   that   this   is   a   crime    ?    god    ,    don’t   you   and   any   of   your   co   -   workers   know   how   to   work   without   committing   something   illegal    ?    this   is   forgery   and   scamming   .    do   we   look   like   we   just   poop   our   money   to   you    ?    we   work   hard   for   it   .    every   .    single   .    day    !    and   this   is   what   you   do    ?!    ”      she   continues   to   ramble   on   at   him    ,    hearing   the   phone   ring   .    and   just   when   she’s   about   to   speak   to   report   it    ,    her   phone   got   snatched   from   her   hand   and   ear   .    wide   eyes   stare   in   disbelief   at   the   snatcher    ,    processing   everything   before   yelling   for   help   .       “    someone   snatched   my   phone    !    help    !    ”      then   she   turns   towards   the   guy   she   was   rambling   on   awhile   ago    ,    accusing   of   criminal   activities   .      “    please   help   me   catch   them   .    ”      bianca   pleaded   .

          the forger blinked a few times at the woman going frantic before him, head tilted to the side. he held no memory of the woman, no idea of who she was, or how she knew it. stealth had always been his forte and biggest concern when it came to his job, however, there’s a saying that curses, like chickens, come home to roost, and so he prepared himself to accept his fate. this was it. years of forging documents only for it to be carried away with him in it. although when the other’s words finally sunk in, he briskly snatched her phone off of her and ended the call before she could say a single word. ‘ whoa, whoa, scamming? what the fuck are you talking about? ’ the next thing he knew, she was pleading to pass-byers which caused him to widen his eyes in panic. he mastered his most convincing smile at the suspicious eyes peering over at him. ‘ lover’s quarrel. don’t mind her. babe, let’s sort this out at home, shall we? ’ he said so casually (and through gritted teeth), slipping an arm around her and leading her to an alley, away from the crowd. ‘are you insane? you do know you could get fined for making a false call? whatever you think i did, i didn’t do it! ’

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⌕   did you mean   …   lovenders?

🌼          ୧          𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒓𝒕𝒆𝒓   𝒇𝒐𝒓     ﹡     @mellowdisco​‘s woobin      ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭

ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭     🌼                      𝑛𝑎𝑚𝑢   ℎ𝑎𝑑   𝑙𝑒𝑡   𝑤𝑜𝑜𝑏𝑖𝑛   𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤   that   he’ll   be   coming   over   to   his   university   later   this   day   .    for   what   reason    ?    something   else   that   doesn’t   really   concern   his   cousin   .    he   just   decided   to   see   him   since   he’s   along   the   way   .    besides    ,    namu   is   feeling   great   .    after   getting   promoted   and   his   salary   increases    ,    who   wouldn’t   want   to   celebrate    ?    usually    ,    he’d   celebrate   with   the   gang   .    treat   them   pizza   .    however   now    ,    since   he’s   in   a   good   mood    ,    he   doesn’t   mind   sharing   some   with   his   cousin   .    upon   seeing   him   exit   the   campus    ,    a   wide   smile   slowly   spreads   upon   his   lips    ,    arms   wide   to   pull   him   into   a   tight   hug   .      “    how’s   my   favorite   cousin    ?    what   are   you   craving   for    ?    name   it   and   we’ll   eat   it   .    ”      he   asks    ,    pulling   away   from   the   hug   .

          while most peers around his age would be embarrassed to be fetched after classes by an older figure, woobin took it in stride. he made sure to proudly announce to his closest friends he wouldn’t be taking the subway home with them because his cousin was coming to fetch him. and this was namu, someone he had always raved about and looked up to. he embraced the hug with a wide grin on his face. ‘ i’m alright. living independently is hard but being able to have nesquik whenever i want makes up for it. don’t tell my mom that, ’ he chuckled. ‘ oh man, maybe something spicy? i live on instant noodles and nesquik, clearly i’m not an expert in the food department. i’m sure you know more good places to eat than i do. ’

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          i’ve grown a liking for doing memes lately so feel free to send in some whenever, especially if we don’t have a thread yet or if you feel our current one is going nowhere / outdated and you’d like to start new ones ... or even simply because we want to throw them in diff situations 0:) basically everyone should send me memes... if they want to. i say this all the time but i almost never do starter calls because i’m terrible at writing baseless starters 😭 but i do want to meet all of your muses so yea. write me starters or send me memes or im me if you want to plot <3

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🐝  *  ―  𝐅𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐃  𝐅𝐀𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐘  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄  𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.   (  found  family  is  one  of  my  all  time  favorite  tropes  so  i’ve  decided  to  make  these  starters  ,  including  both  fluff  and  angst.  feel  free  to  adjust  to  better  fit  your  muses.  )

❛  you’re like the family i wish i had.  ❜ ❛  i trust you with my life.  ❜ ❛  please don’t ever leave me.  ❜ ❛  you’re the only person i have left !  ❜ ❛  you’re more than just a friend to me. you’re family.  ❜ ❛  i don’t want to be alone anymore.  ❜ ❛  you’re the closest thing to a brother / sister i have.  ❜ ❛  come on , give me a hug.  ❜ ❛  i love you , [name].  ❜ ❛  you’re my favorite person in the whole world.  ❜ ❛  thank you for always being there for me.  ❜ ❛  this means more to me than you can imagine.  ❜ ❛  i care about you and i will always care about you.  ❜ ❛  you’re acting like my mom.  ❜ ❛  shut up and let me comfort you.  ❜ ❛  i’ve never been part of a group before.  ❜ ❛  you have no idea just how important you are to me.  ❜ ❛  i seriously regret letting you move in with me.  ❜ ❛  can you just hold me for a while ?  ❜ ❛  i couldn’t ask for a better friend.  ❜ ❛  is this what family is supposed to be like ?  ❜ ❛  i wish we had grown up together.  ❜ ❛  it feels like you’ve always been part of my life.  ❜ ❛  you know me better than anyone.  ❜ ❛  just leave me alone , okay ?  ❜ ❛  this place is the closest thing to home i have.  ❜ ❛  i’m so lucky i got to meet you.  ❜ ❛  if you ask me , this whole ‘blood is thicker than water’ thing is nonsense.  ❜ ❛  you’re making me feel a little less lonely.  ❜ ❛  just face it , you’re stuck with me now - whether you want to or not.  ❜ ❛  i want to grow old with you.  ❜ ❛  you’re the first person who has accepted me for who i am.  ❜ ❛  i’ve finally found my people.  ❜ ❛  will you still love me even if i tell you my secret ?  ❜ ❛  no matter what you do or say , i’m not leaving you.  ❜ ❛  you don’t have to deal with this on you’re own.  ❜ ❛  i want to help you , but you have to let me in.  ❜ ❛  this is the nicest thing anyone has ever done for me.  ❜ ❛  i’m here fore you. today. tomorrow. every day for the rest of you’re life.  ❜ ❛  if you need me , i’m just one call away.  ❜

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⌕   did you mean   …   sunsilkens?

₊    𓏲 ˖ *    ⸝⸝  𝑙𝑒𝑒  ,  𝑗𝑢𝑛ℎ𝑦𝑒𝑜𝑘  :  @mellowdisco​  .

‘   what   you’re   saying   doesn’t   change   anything   and   it’s   not   fair   ,   either   .   ’   junhyeok   almost   doesn’t   want   to   believe   what   he’s   hearing   .   ‘   you   can’t   want   me   while   being   with   someone   else   .   it   doesn’t   work   that   way   .   ’

          ‘ why not? i know she’s been fucking around behind my back, why can’t i do the same? only i’m not fucking around. not with you. ’ he knew what he wanted and had no problem being blunt with junhyeok. his relationship with his partner was built mostly out of convenience rather than one of attraction. ‘ does it really? ’ he approached the other with a stride before stopping only mere inches away from them. ‘ it’s not that you’re jealous and want me all to yourself? ’