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Gavv ep 15

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another day of loving someone who puts up a wall. let's break it down

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“I want to take someone back to the cloud recesses… take him back and hide him.”

📖 Mdzs | Wangxian

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I’d like to think that On helps Cale with his hair when he’s too lazy to do it himself. And Cale, being the dad that he is, would do On’s hair cus he likes it even though he’s grumbling while doing it!🤭🥰

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The wall closes in, one letter at a time.

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what i learned in the 2.7 quest is that most of sundays feelings about his own actions are based on guilt and self hatred. he feels guilty about what he did and thinks he deserves failure and pain because he was proved wrong. so i think whats so cathartic about sunday saying goodbye to his past self, is that hes telling himself he wants rest. that he wants "departure". that he wants a new beginning despite all the guilt, failure, and pain hes experienced. that he needs failure and pain to be able to experience a new life. and trying your best to start over while struggling with guilt and failure is soooo human.

like robin said, people assume that bc of sundays strong demeanor he’s superhuman in a way. godlike perhaps? that he can get back up immediately. but that’s not the case. robin knows him to be more hesitant and contemplative with his decisions. sunday thinks he doesn’t deserve to get back up. robin knows him to be more human than people made him out to be. and sunday talking about “descending to the mortal realm” goes along with that. sunday isn’t superhuman. he’s mortal like everyone else and struggles like we all do.

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if i had a nickel for every time a guy read a torturously long novel only to end up in the same novel and change the entire story,while having a homoerotic-stand off with the main character, i would have two nickels which isnt alot but its weird that it happeden twice.

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Sachika :33

I hope you like this drawing, I drew Sachika and Shouma but I decided to add Hanto so as not to leave him alone

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I will never get over the fact that, Our strong and magnificent Dragons’ constant source of stress is Cale!!😭🤣 Cale is the Ancient powers, Eruhaben and Ron’s problem child. They love him so much but the stress is too much!!😭🤣

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kim dokja and yoo joonghyuk are both so fucking lonely at the beginning of orv it's actually driving me a little crazy. they both see themselves as the only real people in the world in a way that is so incredibly isolating and so clearly bad for them. it makes me want to hit them with hammers.

kim dokja is already such lonely person when we first meet him. like he pretty clearly already had a barrier up between himself and the rest of the world. he sees himself as a 'reader' aka an outside observer whos unable to truly interact with the 'characters' of the world (e.g. yoo sangah). and then that dynamic gets turned literal as twsa comes to life (and suddenly kim dokjas survival depends on his ability to disassociate from others). the dehumanization he hits yoo sangah with ('oh what a perfect protagonist, so distant from me') suddenly extends to like, the entire world, as everyone becomes characters. forget it being just a coping mechanim now hes grappling with real questions about the personhood of everyone around him in a way that is so isolating. combine that with the way his future knowledge keeps him apart from everyone, putting him in a position of power that only increases the distance between him and his companions as he manipulates them like pieces on a chessboard rather than like, friends and you get this overwhelming feeling that kim dokja is the only real person in the world, yknow? the 'reader' has become the 'only son' as the world becomes a novel. and now hes stuck questioning the personhood of everyone around them, forced into situations that either allow or encourage him to discard it - to think of them as characters and little more. which is so isolating!!!

and yoo joonghyuk is in almost the exact same boat! yoo joonghyuk's loneliness comes from his status as a regressor - this is the third turn, and he's starting to realise just how lonely it is to stay the same and keep his memories as everything else regresses and everyone else forgets. life becomes an optimized speedrun rather than, yknow, a life, and everyone is either an obstacle or something to be used. he stops bothering to save people anymore because thanks to the regressions he's losing the ability to even see them as people, in a way that parallels kim dokja's similar inability to see them as more than characters. he's settling uncomfortably into the role of lone pilgrim of the apocalypse, and everyone around him becomes less real as a result. this sense of isolation is compounded, just like with kim dokja, by his knowledge of the future and the lonely position it puts him in, although tbh kim dokja fucks up his plans so bad it's significantly less severe.

so both of them have this incredibly desolate feeling of being the one real person in the world - and they don't know each other well enough to help each other combat that. instead they both move through the world - making plans, manipulating others, even working with each other - as though theyre the only ones in it. which culminates in giving early orv this very lonely feeling, where the two main characters are both incredibly isolated and actively perpetuating that very isolation by centering their identities on being the only real person in the world. and it gives early orv this very eery feeling which i am both discomfited by and enjoying.

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Merry christmas !

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i've got new hyperfixation hellp

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“He hates me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk accepts him as a companion.

“He doesn’t care” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk waits 72 hours on the bridge.

“This is poisoned” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk offers him a meal.

“I’m stealing his story” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk decides kdj is his◼️◼️.

“He’ll get his revenge” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk keeps him safe.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk reaches out his hand.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk prevents his self-sacrificial plans.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk cradles him in an embrace.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk fights to save him.

“He’s going to kill me” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk pierces his heart with a sword.

“I am alone” says Kim Dokja as Yoo Joonghyuk chases after him for 74000 years.

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Readers from different genres

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CAKING 🎂👑

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Kamen Rider Gavv's CaKing Form in Episode 14 🍰

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Cake season