mealtrkingandwght

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I don’t want to be the fat girlfriend in my bfs friend group. I want to be the gf that all his friends talk about when they’re alone. I want them all to want me. I want to be doing him a favor by being with him. But then this is what I let myself look like. Right now I’m the charity case and I hate it.

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I have had this blog since February and I have not lost a single pound. I’ve lost them but then I gain them right back. It’s like I can’t control myself at all. I’ll literally eat lunch and then by 7pm all I can think about is food. I go insane and then I just binge. I won’t even feel hungry I just can’t think about anything other than food and I feel like a psycho. I’m literally so fucking fat and I feel so ugly and insecure and still I can’t seem to control myself. Do I want to be skinny????? THEN STOP FUCKING EATING

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Claiming

the aboslute CHOKEHOLD this has on me

ana loves you

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I was successful but then I binged yesterday. So I’m a failure

I will be fasting this weekend. I’m claiming it here and now so I don’t somehow convince myself not to. Food is not going anywhere, I can last 48+ hours without eating. I WILL NOT BINGE WHEN I END MY FAST!!!

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I will be fasting this weekend. I’m claiming it here and now so I don’t somehow convince myself not to. Food is not going anywhere, I can last 48+ hours without eating. I WILL NOT BINGE WHEN I END MY FAST!!!

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every time you look in the mirror and hate what you see, just remember—you did that to yourself.

every unhealthy meal, every skipped workout, every time you chose the couch over the treadmill, you were making a choice to stay exactly where you are.

you can keep lying to yourself about 'starting over' on monday, or you can face the harsh reality that your lack of commitment is the only thing holding you back.

if you’re not willing to do the work, then stop complaining about your weight—because it's the result of your own actions.

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This is what I meal prepped for the week: yogurt, salad, and curry with quinoa. It’s so sad that I think I’m starving while eating a regular 3 meals a day. That’s how fat I’ve gotten. I used to eat less than 300 cals a day for months at a time with no problem.

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I wore a shirt and long shorts all summer. Fucking disgusting.

just a reminder, spring is in 28 days and summer is in 121! are you wearing ur bathing suit proudly or are you hiding behind an oversized shirt?

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it really is just control

My 3D comes back HARD when something doesn’t go my way. I basically did so bad on two midterms that there’s no chance of getting an A in either class and this is my last semester to bring my gpa up. Whatever. Guess I’ll starve.

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your bf doesn’t want to be with u because of how fuckin fat u are

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just a reminder, spring is in 28 days and summer is in 121! are you wearing ur bathing suit proudly or are you hiding behind an oversized shirt?

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the only way to make it all better is to lose weight

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I binged so bad

I had almost finished a 36 hour fast and then I ruined it

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Any @na stoners? Feels like I'm the only one...( ಠ⁠_⁠ʖ⁠ಠ)

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damn not even normal…

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help

I’ve lost 80lbs in three months before and then I re0vered and now I’m trying to lose again but I’ve lost the power I used to have over myself. I just can’t. Stop. Eating. Maybe it’s my boyfriend because I try not to let him know what I’m doing? Maybe I’m just fat at heart and I’ll never be able to be skinny again??? Any tips?

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~237cals

Serving of strawberries: 48cal

half a cucumber: 29cal

3 celery stalks: 21cal

2 hard boiled eggs: 140cal

+hot sauce for eggs: 0-5cal