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Te juro que si me dices “te necesito”, dejo todo y voy corriendo hacia donde estés.

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Quédate con quien te bese las heridas que nadie tocó, te ame los defectos que nadie aceptó y te despierte los demonios que nadie conoció.

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Piensa como un adulto, vive como alguien joven y aconseja como un anciano, pero nunca dejes de soñar como niño.

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Madurar es darte cuenta que el amor de tu vida no es una princesa ni un príncipe de un cuento, sino una persona perfectamente imperfecta.

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Couldn’t sleep last night.  Knee is definitely not okay.  Today I’m icing, hitting up the Advil, and rocking KT tape.  This video is my preferred application for knee issues because it really does provide a lot of support and as soon as I taped things up this morning, I could feel a difference.  

I think I’m still going to call my doctor and see about getting some Cortisone though since this is not a great time to just “wait and see”.  I’d rather do everything I can to get this taken care of quickly.  I feel like the problem is the fat pad in my knee (yes, that’s a thing).  I hurt it two years ago and the sucker is full of scar tissue now, so it seems the likely culprit.

Have you ever had a Cortisone shot?  What was the verdict?

UPDATE:  Have appointment scheduled for Monday, which isn’t the greatest since I would like to run this weekend but I’ll take what I can get. Also, can we just talk about how ridiculous healthcare pricing is?  I called my normal ortho clinic and they wanted a $600 deposit.  Um, no. Fortunately the sister practice for my chiropractor was able to agree to a $300 max.  Healthcare price comparison shopping- it’s a thing.

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Totally !!! Me 4 years ago of an ACL torn and 5 months ago of an LCL in the same knee

Anytime I get injured.

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Ya habrá tiempo para estar tristes. Años para estar tristes. Y toda la muerte, que es tan larga. Ahora no. No tenemos derecho.

“La canción de nosotros” - Eduardo Galeano. (via viejaculturafrita)

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El día es para trabajar, la noche para estudiar y la muerte para descansar.

Mi maestro de Metodología Jurídica. (via escondida-bajo-la-luna)

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Sé paciente, a veces hay que pasar por lo peor para conseguir lo mejor.

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Be careful with your words. Once they are said, the can be only forgiven, not forgotten.

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One of those nights

It has now just passed four months since I tore my ACL, in another week it’ll be four weeks since surgery. 

   Why am i always pissed off? Wanna know why… Because I can’t casually do what I love everyday, like everyone else. I can’t relieve my pain or anger anymore like I used to. So Sorry, but I take it out on people now instead. Talk about me, call me a bitch, but I’m sorry I don’t give a fuck. 

   I can’t participate when friends or family ask to do something. “wanna go ice skating? Wanna go for a run? Come skiing! Com’ on it’ll be fun.” Sorry I just can’t. Thanks though. You can read over and over again quotes and twitter accounts to try to help not being lonely and have people there for you, but realistically no. I read some thing about this process and the people menioned how lonely you feel. THere’s no one there that understands, thats willing to only do what you do- maybe thats why PT is my favorite part of the day. 

 Someone’s there knowing the pain, but pushing me forward not saying “oh sorry that must stink”. This fucking injury of course the only bone I break has to be the extreme. I can deal with the pain, but the mental pain is something that can drive a person crazy. The relief when this is all over will be great. But then think about it… this will never be over. Metal will always be in my knees, pain and swelling, stiffness and aching is always there with me. All of that, that no one can see but a scar with a tale. Almost seems like a nightmare that cries a kid to sleep each night. A fucking nightmare that I hope no one else has to experience.

   As time ticks down I try keeping my head up. But the big question pops, thoughts of PTs and docs freight me “oh. Did you work on it over break?” Oh no sorry doc I just sat here….. of course I fucking tried working on it. I really hope after this ends the anger will go away. The joy of saying i’m cleared will take over. The power of freedom. Achievement and accomplish. With a Super FU to ACL tears. 

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