Esme loves Carlisle so much that the mere thought of ever losing him can send her into the worst panic attacks of her life....just think about that.
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where is your crown little prince? where did it go? did you lose it beyond the walls and cracks of your home?Ā headcanon based . original portrayal . marauders era . severus snape . hexed by lua .
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Iād seen Dr. Cullen before, of course, yet I couldnāt help but be struck again by his youth, his outrageous perfection. At his side was Esme, I assumed, the only one of the family Iād never seen before. She had the same pale, beautiful features as the rest of them. Something about her heart-shaped face, her billows of soft, caramel-colored hair, reminded me of the ingĆ©nues of the silent-movie era. She was small, slender, yet less angular, more rounded than the others. They were both dressed casually, in light colors that matched the inside of the house. They smiled in welcome, but made no move to approach us. Trying not to frighten me, I guessed.
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Then a doctor walked around the corner, and my mouth fell open. He was young, he was blondā¦ and he was handsomer than any other movie star Iād seen. He was pale, though, and tired-looking, with circles under his eyes. From Charlieās description, this had to be Edwardās father.
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Betrayal & Regret Sentence Starters
āI told you not to get too close to me.ā
āFrom the day we met, I knew Iād hurt you eventually.ā
āI wish you never had trusted me.ā
āI told you to leave, but you didnāt. I gave you the chance!ā
āWe were never friends. Iām so sorry.ā
āI did something terrible.ā
āIt was inevitable, but I regretted it every step of the way.ā
āIām mainly sorry that somewhere along the way, I started to care about you.ā
āI guess this is a lesson in not trusting people, right?ā
āHow long?ā¦Since the beginning.ā
āI wish I could just make a wish and become a better person.ā
āNone if it was real, but I wish it was.ā
āDo you think I liked hurting you?ā
āI hurt people. Itās all Iām good at.ā
āI did it because I had to, not because I ever wanted to.ā
āI -did- care about you, I just had no other choice.ā
āYou should have walked away when you had the chance.ā
āIf we had never met, it would have saved us both some grief.ā
āI know it hurts, but Iām still glad we had the chance to know each other.ā
āHurting you was the hardest thing Iāve ever had to do.ā
āI didnāt want it to be like this, but I had no control!ā
āI guess Iāve just never been a trustworthy person.ā
āI donāt blame you. I wouldnāt want to forgive me either.ā
āSo? Arenāt you going to say something?ā
āIf I tell you what I did, weāll probably never see one another again.ā
āWhen were you going to tell me about this?ā
āWhy me? Of all people, why me?ā
āYou planned this all from the beginning?ā
āI wanted so badly to think you were different.ā
āHow could you lead me along like that?ā
āNone of what we had was ever real, was it?ā
āSo, our friendship didnāt mean anything to you?ā
āI would have done anything for you, but youāve ruined all of that.ā
āAll of the things I sacrificed for you didnāt mean a thing?ā
āI wish I had known when we met that you were such a vile person.ā
āIf I could go back, I would just walk away.ā
āI forgive you, but Iām not going to forget what you did.ā
āNo. I donāt accept your apology.ā
āAfter all your lies, how do I know you mean it when you say youāre sorry?ā
āI hope you realized what you did was cruel.ā
āI still care about you.ā
āJust tell me that your feelings towards me were genuine.ā
āWhat on earth is worth betraying someone who loves you?ā
āIf you want to regain my trust, you have to earn it.ā
āDonāt just say youāre sorry. Show me that youāre sorry.ā
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not seeing esme practice fight in eclipse is a crime against me
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* cute father / daughter noises *
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You are not weak just because your heart feels so heavy.
ā Andrea Gibson
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suzy for vogue korea
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VISUAL SERIES + Family photos
ft. @voteno , @bearmauled & @empaathĀ
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Slender fingers glideĀ Ā e f f o r t l e s s l yĀ Ā over the keys of the piano,Ā his own mindĀ Ā lostĀ Ā in thought as the melody flows from his hands. The song so familiar it almost feels like anĀ Ā extensionĀ Ā of himself rather than something soĀ Ā separate,Ā something soĀ different.Ā Music had always been special to him,Ā something he kept close to the chest since he wasĀ human.Ā Even in those timeĀ Ā c l o u d e dĀ Ā memories of his youth,Ā he remembers learning to play piano with his mother by his side.Ā Her larger hands next to his small ones as they played herĀ Ā favoriteĀ Ā songs.Ā When he wasĀ sad,Ā scared,Ā upset or trulyĀ a n yĀ other negative emotion,Ā his mother would sit beside him and they wouldĀ Ā play.Ā This is a tradition he continued long after his own death,Ā and when heād been gifted anotherĀ Ā chance.Ā AnotherĀ Ā mother,Ā heād continued the tradition.Ā Often playing for her,Ā even if it was just to melt into theĀ Ā c o m f o r t a b l eĀ Ā silence of the room.Ā It was a way to communicate,Ā assure her of his ownĀ contentĀ without having to say it.
He notes the presence of his name within Esmeās thoughts,Ā but does his best to allow her whatever level ofĀ Ā p r i v a c yĀ Ā heĀ canĀ He tried to avoid the thoughts of his family,Ā a sign ofĀ good faith.Ā However,Ā his adopted siblings tended to take it as more of aĀ challengeĀ to see how often they couldĀ Ā annoyĀ Ā him.Ā Esme never did that.Ā The respect within their relationship had always been there,Ā and it was onlyĀ Ā strengthenedĀ Ā with love over the years.Ā But regardless of his efforts,Ā his mindās ear often caught theĀ Ā p a s s i n gĀ Ā thoughts.Ā His lipsĀ Ā dipĀ Ā in a slight frown at the mereĀ thoughtĀ of Charles.Ā But he attemptsĀ to refocus on the piano bellow his hands,Ā his attention only shifting at the thought of his name,Ā his chin lifting as he looks over to Esme.Ā The movement is just asĀ Ā normalĀ Ā as if sheād actuallyĀ Ā spokenĀ Ā his name.Ā Ā His hands pause on the keys for only a beat before he begins to play again,Ā this time falling into aĀ Ā differentĀ Ā melody.Ā One of the many songs heād written forĀ Ā herĀ Ā before he replies out loud,Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā Ā It depends on the person,Ā and howĀ Ā theyĀ Ā think.Ā I typically hear it inĀ theirĀ voice,Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā Ā Edwardās eyes stay on her,Ā t i l t i n gĀ Ā his head slightly as he considers his words,Ā fingers still playing theĀ Ā f a m i l i a rĀ Ā progression,Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā Ā Most people Iāve come across think in aĀ Ā stream of consciousness.Ā So itās just aĀ Ā never-endingĀ Ā monologue. Ā Ā Ā Ā ā
THE FAMILIAR MELODY REACHED HER AND immediately her whole mood brightened. There was nothing she l o v e d more than when Edward would play the songs he had written for her. It was still something she couldn't quite believe that he had written them for her, still completely floored by this o v e r w h e l m i n g love he seemed to show her through his songs. Sometimes, it made her feel guilty for not being able to give him something in return; only able to offer the gentle quietude of her mind as solace when everyone else's were just too loud. As he spoke to her, Esme closed her book giving him her full attention. Her golden eyes focused on him as she listened; tried to learn what he was trying to explain.
ā It's been years, and I am still so starstruck by the fact that you can read minds. ā She let out a little giggle, shaking her head. It was interesting to learn about how he understood his gift, and as he mentioned how most people thought in s t r e a m s of consciousness, thoughts never-ending, Esme was a little glad he had not met her when she was younger. Adulthood had shaped her way of thinking. Whereas as a child, thoughts would pop into her mind like l i g h t n i n g ā not concise, random ideas that often interrupted each other, as an adult she had learned to make them more linear. Not slower, for she was still much too bright, but now she could compartmentalise them. Which probably made things easier for Edward.
ā To hear never-ending monologues all the time must be exhausting... ā Esme mused in sympathy, once again t h a n k f u l for her ability to sometimes shut every little thought out, hoping that perhaps he'd find it comforting. ā What do you do when it gets overwhelming? ā
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VISUAL SERIES + Instagram
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Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā her lips purse, reminiscent of a child being scoldedĀ gently by their mother. less of the scolding and more of the thought of disappointing her souring the mood just enough to feel guilty.Ā ā i didnāt say it wasĀ āthe worst idea iād ever heardā . . i said it was oneĀ of the worst ideas iād ever heard. archieās exaggerating. ā
SHE TRIED HER VERY HARDEST TO HIDE the amusement from her thoughts, and just as hard to keep it from making her s m i l e. Her children were the joy of her life, and yet they could also be quite tricky to deal with. So, with all the patience her 24-year-old self could muster, Esme let her golden eyes take in Edythe and the guilty look on her face. ā I see... ā She began, trying to keep her voice as soft and gentle as possible.
ā Though It is still not a very nice way of dissuading your brother from his more... dangerous ideas, Edy ā Esme explained, and yes, it did feel a lot like she was speaking to a much younger child, but sometimes, it just felt right. Edythe could be too straight forward with her way of saying things, something that often upset Archie, who was more sensitive. ā So, have you thought of how you'll apologise to him? ā
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