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if i survived a slasher it’s because i fucked him

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its fucking gross that dd!lg and k1nksters hurt actual people who actually age regress 

ag3 pl4y is always sexual and involves k1nk

whereas age regression is involuntarily regressing to a younger mental age - result of trauma and is a way of coping. or someone in a system (DID) that is a l1ttle (system-l1ttle). it is not nor has ever been sexual and people who actually age regress are repulsed by dd1g and its variants (cg1/abd1/etc) 

dd1g actively and continuously disrespects peoples spaces and in some cases, send disgusting hate to age regressors. theyre often disrespectful and just plain awful 

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Rambling about age play and how it hurts victims

Trigger warnings: CSA, pedophilia, and mental illness. If you are a minor I strongly encourage you not to read or interact with this post.

So I have a confession. When I was younger I used to be into “ageplay”.

I say this in air quotes bc I was introduced to this “kink” at the age of 12. At this point in time I had just barely began to recognize my own history of CSA and incest, and I was also struggling with sh and mental illness. I also (unknowingly) experienced impure age regression in response to certain triggers and would regress to childish behaviors. (I still do this but I am more self aware)

Overall this combination mixed with how normalized predatory behavior towards me felt was extremely detrimental to me and only served to worsen my trauma and ptsd symptoms.

I was not properly educated on the difference between age play and age regression and assumed that my age regression was inherently sexual. Overall this was extremely detrimental to my already traumatized and developing mind. Even after I stopped engaging with this kink, I still was stuck in a continuous cycle of compulsive seeking out predatory partners who would take advantage of me and sexualize my perceived childlike behavior and tendencies. I was groomed by multiple people online which I learned to justify in my head and I was overall indifferent to my own mental suffering when it came to toxic and abusive dynamics.

Because of my own experience and because of the behavior I’ve seen from others who engage in this kink I wholeheartedly believe that this kink is a way for pedophiles to engage in their fantasies of abusing children by taking advantage of survivors of CSA and incest.

I can understand and empathize with people who engage in this kink as the “little”. Many are csa victims much like myself who have normalized this behavior as acceptable (mostly due to their own negative self believes they developed from the abuse. Believing it’s acceptable behavior because it’s happening to THEM) and if you are someone who engages in this kink as a little I see you and I understand you. I cannot control your actions or behaviors however I do implore you to seek help and therapy if you can to work through your trauma in a healthy way.

However I do believe there is a-lot of harm that you as the little contribute to when talking about and advocating for this kink does, not just to yourself but to other victims. I was introduced to this kink by someone my age who was a little and while I luckily did not engage in this kink in any public spaces and did not talk about it often, I do feel shame and disgust at the thought that I could’ve unknowingly introduced someone else to this kink and continued the cycle. To clarify, most of the fantasies I engaged in were engaged through reading and writing, and occasionally role play. For the most part I kept it to myself.

I do ask you as a victim to question why anyone would find sexual satisfaction in someone behaving and regressing in a child like manner. Not just because it is you who they are engaging with, but because they fetish childlike behavior. Please recognize that you are most likely enabling a pedophile in acting out their fantasies. Just because both of you are able to consent does not mean that this should be acceptable.

“But why would you care so much about what two consenting adults do” I normally don’t. Generally I am a very accepting person when it comes to most kinks, even one’s I personally am uninterested in, but I draw the line at anything that corrupts or defiles childhood.

This is not “harm reduction” for pedophiles. Research shows that people who watch violent pornography are more likely to normalize and engage in those behaviors, and I wholly believe this logic can be applied to pedophiles. The only harm reduction that exists for pedophiles is therapy (if they have not offended) or death (if they have offended)

If you are someone who engages in this kink as the caregiver, you disgust me. Regardless of whether you are engaging in this behavior with a consenting partner or not, you are still taking advantage of a SA survivor and I hope you seek help before you harm an actual child because once you do you are irredeemable garbage who deserves a fate worse than death. Pedos are less than human in my eyes and should be put down like a rabid animal to protect the rest of the world from them.

I wanted to talk about this because I rarily see people who are former littles talk about this due to shame, and I am hoping that with me doing this it will encourage other littles to speak out and hopefully stop engaging in this behavior.

Up to a certain extent I believe that former littles should be offered grace and the chance to grow as a human being. I think shaming them only serves to continue this harmful cycle for everyone involved. I say up to a certain extent because I do believe there are littles out there who cross that threshold into irredeemable behavior.

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Girls don’t want someone to tell them they are beautiful , girls want someone to tell them “this can be your entrance “ with the most sexual innuendo vibes possible

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Femslash February 2024: Margot Verger/Alana Bloom

"And with precious and royal perfume you anointed yourself."

— Sappho of Lesbos

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I’ve thought often of Alana and Margo’s son.

When Will frees Hannibal, they flee, presumably to go into hiding. Or at least to go somewhere Hannibal hasn’t already laid waste to.

Hannibal has issued a promise to kill Alana and declared that her wife and child belong to him.

On the flip side, Hannibal enabled Margot to kill Mason and helped her and Alana get the semen they needed to conceive their son. We know Will put the pieces together about Hannibal goading Mason into terminating Margot’s pregnancy and sterilizing her, but we never get confirmation that Margot knows that. It’s possible that to Margot, Hannibal was the TRex that ate the Velociraptor. Terrifying, but the hero in her personal story.

We also know (from the commentary track I think?) that Alana’s S3 change in wardrobe and attitude was her adopting Hannibal’s mannerisms to cope with the trauma of Mizumono.

So this little boy is growing up in a steel bubble of paranoia and protection with one parent who owes a significant emotional debt to Hannibal and another who has integrated much of his personality into her own.

The wolf at the walls is the one who made his life possible.

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rest in peace margot verger you would have loved chappell roan

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Hannibal is literally the only show where the gays bury everyone else instead.

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Alana bloom is hilarious

She’s like ‘I hate will and Hannibal they are gay and kill ppl’

And then she sees (1) pretty traumized girl and immediately does THE SAME DAMN THING.

like girl you CANNOT blame them.

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I support Will Graham’s right’s AND I support Will Graham’s wrongs

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a comic about meeting your younger self :)

Thank you for reading :)

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Hannibal (2013-2015)

1x01 || 1x12 || 2x08 || 3x06

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Me in outer space, chillin’ on Saturn’s rings 🪐