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matzofficial · 2 days ago

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the christmas feels are in! ateez during christmas mayhaps 👀

#rune.txt #i'm on vacation! and we walked around town and it's all decorated for christmas and there's jingles playing from the speakers #i love christmas sm :(((

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matzofficial · 2 days ago

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thinking about ex!boyfriend san who is still very much in love with you but can never bring himself to admit it.

he still looks for you in the morning haze, still seeks out your warmth on colder nights, still hopes you'll walk through the front door again, chipper smile on your lips as you press kisses to his face. but san wakes to an empty bed everyday and an even emptier home: the walls of the apartment were stripped bare, with only faint dust marks along the way to serve as proof there were dozens of pictures once hung there; the potted plant you kept by the kitchen window now sits in a secluded corner on the balcony because despite everything, san can't bear to throw it out or to let it die, not when it was one of the few things you left behind. there's a stillness in the air of his apartment now, like even the room held its breath in your absence. some part of him desperately wants to hate you for it. but for all his ire, san just wants you to come home.

he'd never admit it out loud though.

no, never aloud, where anyone could hear his want for you if they listened closely enough. where the air in his lungs expands and expands and expands until it's pressing against his ribcage and heart and suddenly he wants to fall to his knees from the pressure in his chest. it's painful — to know that there's air in your lungs and yet, not be able to breathe properly. that's what it's like without you. he's alive, he's breathing, and yet why does it feel like he's not at the same time? why does it feel like he's stuck in some sort of limbo, living just half of his life? san has always wanted to live a fulfilling life and to live it to his best ability but he always imagined you there with him, living your lives to the fullest together. but he's here, going through the motions and you're out there somewhere. he hates himself for thinking you're as miserable as he is, hates that little bit of hope in his heart that maybe you'll realise life was better with him and come back. but then he remembers the finality in your words and the cold gaze in your eyes and that bit of hope dies quietly in the same place it was born.

#*concept #san x reader #choi san x reader #san imagines #san headcanons #choi san imagines #listen. i'm not into astrology or mbti but san is a cancer (like me) and we're both INFPs and i have a hunch we love in similar ways #and with that knowledge i know (like me) san would never EVER admit he wants you back #pride; spite; anger — those are just a few of the emotions #so rather than tell you he wants you back he'll sit and stew in his woe. he'll yearn for your presence in silence (everyone knows) but —#— you'll never hear a word about it come out of his mouth #(this is just my opinion btw! feel free to hop into my askbox so we can discuss! i'm interested to know what you guys think too <3)

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matzofficial · 7 days ago

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i fear ateez and i would have been too powerful as irls and that's why god made them celebrities and made me a struggling uni student 😔

#rune.txt #it's the little things that tell me we'd be besties #hj and i have VERY similar music taste like his 6k global playlist may as well have been taken from my own personal playlists #yh as well #wy and i have severe rbf + we're both middle children and therefore are government assigned best friends #san + his love for dessert #jh + his dry humour #i think mg and i would have very interesting conversations. ppl don't give him enough credit for his intellect and it always irks me #because mg actually thinks deeply about a lot of things and if everyone just took a moment to listen to what he says without jumping in with #a joke you'd realise he's one of the smartest people in the room #lastly sh and ys! ys and i (+ yh) would be gaming besties #while me and sh would bond over the shared relief you find in quiet time. we'd be the kind of besties that coexist in a shared space and —#— consider that quality time

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matzofficial · 7 days ago

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hi hi! since there's a lot of new people here (hello! welcome!!) i'll be doing a blog check sometime later — minors, ageless and blank blogs will be immediately blocked.

#*notice

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matzofficial · 7 days ago

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💭 — DAILY TEXTS WITH BF!ATEEZ (EP 01.)