mason-alexander24

[mason-alexander24]

~Noticed~

Tsukishima x reader

genre: hurt/comfort

warnings: mentions of cheating, sensitive topics and mental illness

“ you look sad”      

     Your eyes stayed trained on the pavement in front of you. Watching as the rain dropped on the already wet stone. “ do I?” - you paused, glancing up at the tall blonde who had stopped in front of you before resuming your languid stares at the ground “ didn't think you'd notice” 

     You heard a small noise of annoyance, the typical from a guy like him. You'd known him for years, stuck by his side since the two of you were kids. It was only natural that the two of you would know each other well. Your mothers were best friends. 

“ your getting wet” his voice snapped you out of your daydreaming once more. It had been raining for a while. Your parents were supposed to pick you up from school, but here you are. Drenched to the bone and left to think.

     You looked back up at him and gave him a lazy smirk “ well aren't you just a regular old sherlock” you pushed yourself off of the wall that you were originally leaning against. “ how was practice?” you asked, trying to get his unusual attention off of your current emotional state. 

“ it was fine, Hinata hit Kageyama in the back of the head with one of his serves again” he rolled his eyes slightly before looking back at you “ why are you still here?” You half smiled 

“ if I didn't know any better I'd say you're disappointed to see me” he gave you a look and you sighed “ parents forgot to pick me up again. I was gonna walk home but I guess I just got lost in thought. “ you shrugged your shoulders before straightening up “ hey where's yams?” 

“ he's coming, he stayed behind to help clean up” you nodded softly before letting out a soft sigh.

 “ I'm gonna start walking home, I'll see you. “ you were honestly just desperate to get home. 

“ do you wanna walk with us? Is pouring and you already look like a wet cat” he said so bluntly you almost punched him.

“ wow you really know how to sweet talk” you gave him a look and then smiled softly “ it's alright, I'll just run for it. You wait up for yams.” you didn't really give him a chance to say anything back and just started making a run for it.     

     Opening the door to your house was always a gamble, it was either silent or there was some type of argument going on. “ I'm home!” you gave a half hearted shout before realizing that no one was even home. Tracking your soaked self to the kitchen you saw that your mom had left a note saying that your dad had gone on a business trip and she was going out tonight. You let out a soft sigh before going up to your room. You pulled your wet clothes off and put them in the laundry, leaving your phone in your room before going to shower.

Tsukishima    

 I can shake it. I know something is wrong but I don't even know if it's my place to say anything. 

     He thought to himself while walking.“ Tsukki? Are you ok?” he heard Tadashi and looked over to him. He let out a soft sigh before nodding. Tadashi knew better than to push it so they continued their walk home in silence. 

     Once Tsukki got home he went straight to his room and spent a bit just scrolling through his phone, before he decided to text you. He just couldn't get rid of this nasty feeling in his stomach. 

8:25~Hey. 

Then, he waited. 

y/n

     You took your time in the shower, you tried to convince yourself it was because you were cold but now you sat there. You were not entirely sure just how long you had been in the shower but it was enough time to feel the water starting to turn cold before you stepped out and wrapped yourself up. Stepping back into your room you felt empty, hollow.

     You looked over at your bed, staring at your phone and debating whether you should answer the text notification. “ well..nothing better to do I guess.” pulling on some sweatpants and a big hoodie you threw your hair up into a bun and picked up your phone, quickly plugging it in before opening it. Your brow quirked up 

“ hey? Why is he texting this late? He's usually reading or studying” you pondered over whether you were gonna answer or not. It was hard, he was your closest friend but here you are, in love with him. Classic, you know that.

 8:46~Hey, what's up. 

     You sent it then quickly put your phone down. Trying to control your anxiety. It didn't work, especially not when you heard the front door open, hushed giggles and things being bumped. You went to walk into the hall but stopped, hand hovering over the door handle.

 “ he's not home” “ promise?” “ of course”

     You felt your stomach churn. You backed slowly away from the door, trying to rationalize it. Maybe it was just a friend or something. Then you hear the noises no kid wants to hear from their parents...parent. It was like that was the last straw and it all came out. You sat back and just cried. Your sobs were silent but it felt like your ears were ringing. 

    The last months you have dealt with your parents fighting with each other, your grades are dropping. You've been up countless nights studying, losing sleep and skipping meals. Your body was tired. Your mind was broken. 

~Ding~

You looked over at your phone and read the message

 8:52~You're not ok, are you?

Part of you wanted to laugh, he was blunt as usual, but you couldn't. 

8:54~No. 

8:55~Can I help at all

     You could feel the awkwardness through the phone

8:56~Can I come over? I'll explain it all in person.

 The noises from the other side of the wall got louder and you gagged. Trying to calm the impending anxiety attack.

 9:00~Yea sure, front doors unlocked.  

     You didn't wait. You grabbed your phone and phone charger, threw on a jacket and made a run for it. Your anxiety drives you forward. You couldn't stop crying. You knew his parents loved you so when you got there you just went straight in, quickly taking your shoes off before making your way up to his room. You knocked softly, trying to calm your breathing before he opened the door. 

“ hey y/n what's- whoa hey your crying..” he looked shocked, he gently pulled you into his room. Slowly he wrapped his arms around you “ tell me what's wrong” his voice was soft, it wasn't anything you were used to hearing from him. You spilled everything from the last few months. 

    You sat with him and cried while telling him what happened tonight “ and to top it all off I fell in love with my best friend who has the braincells of a spoon when it comes to relationships' ' you spurted out before you realized what you said. You didn't even want to look at him in fear of what his face was gonna look like.

 “ Wow, you really know how to sweet talk” you heard his voice, slowly looking up at him you saw him smirking slightly. You started to blurt out apologies. “ y/n” you honestly didn't hear him “ y/n!”

     that made you stop, you barely had any time to catch your breath before you felt his hands on your cheeks. His thumbs brushed away stray tears falling from your eyes, before he leaned in. Your eyes widened before they closed, his lips were warm and soft as they pressed against yours. You couldn't help but feel safe, melting away in his grip. His fingertips rough from volleyball. You weren't sure how to react when he pulled away.

 “ I fell for my best friend too” your cheeks were flushed and you didn't know what to say. “ come here” he said softly before pulling you under the covers with him, “ you are not going home, i don't want you to have to deal with that. Stay with me tonight” 

“ ok” your voice was quiet and gentle, you gently laid your head on his chest. He gently ran his fingers through your hair. 

“ hey, your my girlfriend now right” you laughed quietly,

 “ yes Tsukki..hey your blushing” you mumbled, on the verge of falling asleep. Just before your eyes closed you heard him laugh softly 

“ didn't think you'd notice.”