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Here comes the day when I feel like a loose cannon ready to explode at any moment. There’s so much rage inside that I just want to scream out loud. It’s just so hard to keep moving when all these judgments are suffocating me.  I have kept these thoughts for a very long time; I have shelf them and avoided them for so long. It feels like I have taken so much and I’m starting to throw myself some questions like ‘what have I been fighting for?’ and “how much can a person take?’ It’s just not fair for anyone to feel this way. I know that I do not have to keep on running myself into this wall because I know that I was never meant to win this battle. Seeing me stuck in this same old place is devastating. Nobody really knows what I have been going through all they know is what they perceive and believe. 

Pls, help me find my way out, I need to find the light in this dark and lonely road. 

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“Stop breaking your own heart by trying to make a relationship work that clearly isn’t meant to work. You can’t force someone to care about you. You can’t force someone to be loyal. You can’t force someone to be the person you need them to be. Sometimes the person you want most is the person you’re best without. You got to understand some things are meant to happen, but just not meant to be. Some things are meant to come in your life, just not meant to stay. Don’t lose yourself by trying to fix what’s meant to stay broken. You can’t get the relationship you need from someone who’s not ready to give it you . And you might not understand WHY NOW, but I promise you your future will always bring understanding of why things didn’t work out. TRUST ME. Don’t put your happiness on hold for someone who isn’t holding on to you.”

— Trent Shelton (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

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it’s easier to say “im tired” than “im so sad and lonely i feel like there’s a weight in my chest and my body is so heavy i have no energy emotionally, physically or mentally to even move from my bed”

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“I keep personal shit private so don’t think you know me. You only know what I let you know.”

— (via missedlynn)

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i hope someday, when you go back to this day, you’ll realize how shitty of a person you are for not valuing enough a person like me. i hope it creeps the hell out of you for not having someone who has loved you when you couldn’t even love her the way she deserves to. and i hope someday, when you finally see me happy with someone else, it haunts you until the very end and regret every single bit of the things you have done to make me leave, and the things you haven’t done to make me stay.

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i think it’s important to realize that no matter how good you are to people, it won’t make them good to you

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you must teach your heart to accept what cannot be changed.

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do you ever get so disgusted with yourself, like you can not believe how stupid and thoughtless you are and it’s so frustrating because you keep telling yourself that you’ll do better next time but then next time rolls around and the same thing keeps happening and you end up in this pattern of mediocrity.

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It’s okay to have no idea how you’re going to get through a heartbreak or a loss or a failure and to have to take it hour by hour. Not sure when you’re going to break down next or when you’ll finally be able to eat something without feeling nauseous. Not sure if you’ll ever be able to go back to how you were before and definitely not sure how. Because getting through one hour without thinking about it leads to getting through a night without crying about it which leads to days without letting it affect you at all. And before you know it, you’ll be you again, just a scarred yet wiser version.

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You’re gonna survive. And good things are gonna start to happen again. And one day you may even look back and even this will not be such a bad thing.

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Be kind to yourself while blooming. I know sometimes it feels like your soul doesn’t always fit. It’s all a part of the process.

Emery Allen from Become (via buhaybabae)

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Do not allow your wounds to transform you into someone you are not.

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The saddest truth is realising you have fallen madly in love with what can never be.

Michael Faudet   (via quotemadness)

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“Don’t cry.”

But so, sometimes, we must. It is often the only way to heal, through the river of all we have held inside.