I wish I could love you
Hard enough
To take away the pain
That sits
Behind your eyes
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There's been a rock in my chest
For three days straight
And as I spoke the words to lift the weight
Hopefully, off my heart
I felt like it did more damage
Than if I'd kept it to myself
I bit all my nails off
Trying to gnaw away at my thoughts
I'm sitting at the wrong beach
Looking for your car nonetheless
I'm wearing the shorts
You know, those ones
And as I'm trying
And failing
Not to cry in public
I'm so scared of what I've done to us
I've loved you for so long
And now that I can scream it to high heaven
My worries try to sabotage me
I'm tired of hurting the people I love
I can only hope you'll forgive me
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And I hope that one day
One day
You will see me
As a safe place
To be true to your emotions
Unabashedly
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I came home
Smelling like you
Barely paying attention
To the cars in front of me
Feeling like
A bundle of nerves
Like I was 14
And touched a boy
For the first time
The gentle strokes
Of your fingers
Reverberating on my skin
I came home
Smelling like you
With fire on my cheeks
Barely able
To hold your gaze
Teenage-nervous
And a stupid smile on my face
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This is a puzzle
With a missing piece
And I'm stuck wondering
Why I can't finish it
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I've been waiting all week to tell you I love you
"there is such a thing as bad timing"
The only problem is
There's no guarantee the timing
Will ever be right
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The Vanishing
There is a sadness that permeates my bones
Leaking out of me through a hole in my heart
I wish the lake would swallow me whole
Tears and all
My heart breaks for thwarted hopes
And the inability to untangle the mess
Like a bundle of strings
Tug at one end and the whole thing unravels
Collapsed in the midst of repeated betrayal
With only myself to blame
I feel
I feel
I feel too much
Too much at one time
A heart so swollen it can’t bear another thought
The glue that held me together is fraying
And I can see myself coming apart
Incomplete no matter the decision
Selfishness a brand new word for me
I can feel myself disappearing like a sunset
Slowly sinking
Both hollow and heavy from the weight of my tired heartbeat
Trembling fingers and frantic thoughts
I need
I need
I don’t know what I need
But this sorrow is threatening to take me alive
The only person able to save me
Is the one person I should stay away from
Every time is like a brand new grief
And the pain
Has yet to dull
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I only hope you know
How important you are to me
A brave face for others' sake
Please allow yourself
The same kindness
You always drown me in
2 am with worry in my throat
I only hope you know
To allow yourself time
Time to heal from hidden wounds
To ride out the wave as loudly as you dare
Without ever guilting yourself
Love is not a weakness
And what is grief but love
That has nowhere else to go
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We talk about our favourite candies
The next day
He brings me starburst to work
My heart
My heart
My heart is gonna explode
He goes to bed
But not before
He makes a point to tell me
Why he enjoys our time together
He gives me a nickname
And I clutch it to my chest
Not wanting anyone else to refer to me that way
We stand so close together
I think he can't resist touching me
If only to joke
Be it habit or familiarity
Remnants of high school tenderness
I still can't look at him
And yet my heart is set to bursting
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Plus j'ai envie que tu sortes de ma tête
Plus tu t'y enfonces
Accrochant tes griffes pour t'assurer une prise solide
Et moi qui me jette dans le gouffre tête première
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I wish I could be fucked up
In the broken, beautiful way
But unfortunately
I'm just fucked up
In the "shattered into a million ugly pieces" way
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Jealousy like liquid fire in my veins
A poison quickening my beating heart
A sour taste on my tongue
Yet with only myself to blame
Grin and bear it is all I can manage
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De tous les souvenirs cuisants que tu m'as laissés
Celui-là plus que tout autre continue de brûler
Hantée par cette flamme éternelle
J'y repense encore, les mains moites et la nausée tiraillant mon estomac
Le coeur au bord des lèvres
J'ose croire que peut-être tu as réalisé
La portée de tes gestes
Tes mains comme une empreinte sanglante sur mon corps
Souillée de par ton simple toucher
Un sacrifice au nom de l'amour aveugle
10 ans plus tard
10 ans
10 années à traîner ton lourd souvenir
Les dommages encore trop présents
J'ai besoin de te vomir comme un se débarrasse d'un poison
Éradiquer toute trace de ton passage
Pour enfin arrêter de me regarder avec les yeux d'une victime
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2 am
Can't get you out of my head
With heavy eyelids and hungry breath
22 hours straight
And still your face won't leave my thoughts
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I've already written about you too much
So why, why, why
Does the worry grab me by the throat
I want to lay these thoughts to rest
They are relentless when all I have left
Is the blue light in my hand
Scrolling endlessly
A pounding in my head I can't seem to shake
I want to stop
Thinking
This way
When I can barely put the words together in front of you
Still unable to fully look you in the eye
I stumble, yet again
Every time I think you have gone
Something brings you back
Every single time
Enough
Enough
Enough.
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Que la terre m'absorbe
Que je ne fasse qu'un avec le sol
Et disparaître avec les ombres au soleil
Que la terre m'absorbe, et qu'on en finisse
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