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Sana dumating yung araw na kaya ko na.

Sana dumating yung araw na mawala lahat ng tong sakit na nararamdaman ko.

Lord, when will I be happy? Nagmamahal lang naman ako. Pero bakit ganito?

Yung pain sa arawaraw, yung sama ng loob. Grabe.

Hindi ko ginusto ginawa ko. This is my fault now.. pero I became like this dahil din sakanya.

Whenever I talk, or share my problems, he just let it pass.

Or.. nagagalit.

Hindi ako makapagshare ng kahit ano or makapagkwento, hindi pwede hindi magalit, or madalas hindi nakikinig or nagppay attention. 😂

Tapos tatanungin, bat nagkakaganyan ka? Galing.

Pero kapag siya, problema niya, problema ko din.

Kwento niya, napatingin ka lang phone habang nagkkwento siya, galit agad kasi di ka nakikinig HAHA.

Partners.

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Why did I let this happen. Ha.

Wala nko ginawa sa relasyon na to kundi umiyak. I am trying to be the best of me.

I never wanted this.

Siya din naman dahilan bakit ganito ako. I was never like this but he made me do it. And now, he kept on asking "BAT NAGKAGANYAN KA?"

I am emotionally abused. I am being gaslighted. He's narcissistic.

I wanna runway, but I can't. I don't know how, when at what will I do.

My heart is so tired.

It is always my fault.

Oh love. This is what love can do.

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“Yan yung downside ng pagiging mabait, akala nila maiintindihan mo ang lahat. Na okay lang na magpakaselfish sila at iasa ang lahat sayo. Na ipitin ka sa isang sitwasyon na wala ka namang kinalaman, kasi mabait ka. Ang laki ng expectation ng mga tao sa paligid mo. Pero ang hindi nila alam, pagod ka na. Pagod ka nang umintindi at magparaya, gusto mo rin naman maranasan na alagaan at tanungin kung okay ka lang ba.”

— (via dakilanggerlpren)

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Still the same but now, I give up. Wala ng patutunguhan to.

Masyado na ko pagod. Masyado na matagal pagtitiis ko. Hangga kailan? Haha. Deserve ko ba to? Haha. Shuta hahaha

Ha. Ha. Ha.

Hindi ko alam sasabihin ko kapag ganito sinasabi niya. Arawaraw wala ako naririnig kundi insulto at panlalait. Wala ako narinig na positive na galing sakanya. I am not sure if I deserve this. Oo, mataba ako. Oo, hindi ako maputi. Oo, ang dami ko flaws pero lahat naman ng gusto niya, binibigay ko.. kahit wala na mapunta sakin, sige lang. Go lang. Kase oras at attention lang niya, ok na ko.

Hindi na nga siya sweet eh. Hindi na nga siya clingy. Linalayuan ko mga tao na ayaw niya lapitan ko para wala ng away.

Pero bakit ganun? Sayang parin ako sa oras? Panira parin ako ng araw? Gago pa din ako sakanya? Hayop pa din ako sakanya?

Do I deserve this? Kailan niya marerealize ung mga ginagawa ko sakanya. Haha.

Nakakainis, it’s been two years and I am still crying for the same reason.

No, hindi ko siya iiwan. I know darating yung time na marerealize din niya. Darating yung time na magiging worth it mga ginagawa ko para sakanya.

I am not tired. I am not giving up.

I hope he knows that I will stay. I hope he knows that I have no plans replacing him.

I’m hurt. I’m sad but that does not mean I have to let him go. I’ll stay. I know this will be worth it.

I KNOW HE IS WORTH IT.

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Hi,

It's been a long time.

Here are my kids. Time fliea too fast, they do not want to be carried anymore. They don't want to be called baby, kuya and pretty is what they prefer.

I missed posting stuffs here. I miss making kwento.

But life lately, haaa, is not as good as you think it is. It is tough, a lot of rough road, but hanging in there.

🫥

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You'll outgrow my lap, but never my heart ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/Cixw5EdhRyfZRZa2EwzIOojs4JynfkWZVdBpn40/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Cotton candy 🍭 https://www.instagram.com/p/CgrqOSqB60JJDwVeycuB4gGf9obXbNGoJr5YBs0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Brekkkkky ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CgNp1dvh7F9rvTZ9L8iYc9DXJAOQqJokxiNGzE0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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Breakfast date with Papa ♥️ Zac: Iwan girls 😂 https://www.instagram.com/p/CfnlJT_BCDw5XIR21RPvY5-FYIAFjVzbw5UgsE0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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You have to start noticing things. The direction of the rays of sunshine, how it touches and warms your skin; the sway of a leaf in a mild breeze; the simple beauty of the flowers; the strong smell of your morning coffee; the wind in your hair and on your face; the liveliness of the city; the calm of your soul. You have to start noticing this and start living for it.

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💞💖 https://www.instagram.com/p/CdFzqegh1dkvYfl5Op2kp3HTZN07ZakZVJVPQA0/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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My heart ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CbjD__KhmG0KrazJWMPyQDYULTj5kE8q8sj0tI0/?utm_medium=tumblr

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Loveeees ♥️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CZnfdCwBAXfO4gr6RV0bKlpgrCTvItxp9KYRYw0/?utm_medium=tumblr