marchtomydrums

[marchtomydrums]

Wildcard 22

Y/N POV

You were barely conscious. The air was thick with gasoline and mildew. One eye was nearly swollen shut, and every breath came with a sharp stab of pain in your ribs. You had no idea how long you’d been here—days blurred into nights.

Footsteps echoed again. You tensed.

Hector entered first, holding his phone. “She’s in the city. My guy saw her outside the precinct this morning.”

Mateo followed, his grin all teeth. “Told you she’d come crawling back.”

Luis dragged a chair and sat across from you. “You’re bait now. Isn’t that poetic?”

Your head dropped, but your voice was steady: “She’s smarter than you. Stronger than all three of you combined. You don’t know what you’ve started.”

Hector crouched beside you and grabbed your chin, forcing your gaze to his. “We’ve started the end.”

⸻

Olivia’s POV

“We found the van they used,” Fin said, sliding the photos across the table. “Abandoned on the outskirts of Hunts Point. Traces of blood in the back. Matches Y/N’s DNA.”

Olivia’s hands trembled, but only for a moment. She looked up at the FBI team. “You said they were sloppy. They’re getting desperate.”

“We believe they’re hiding out at an old meatpacking warehouse,” the agent said. “It’s off-grid. Last owned by a shell company tied to one of Hector’s fronts.”

“Then that’s where we go,” Olivia said, standing.

Alex caught her arm. “You’re not cleared to go in.”

“I’m not asking.” Olivia looked to Fin. “You ready?”

“Ride or die,” he said simply, grabbing his vest.

⸻

Y/N POV

Your limbs were heavy. You kept fading in and out. You thought you heard shouting—but you couldn’t be sure anymore. Your body had stopped registering pain, which somehow made it worse.

Then—BOOM.

A thunderous sound above. Shouting. Gunshots.

You jolted, adrenaline rushing in. Doors slammed. Someone screamed. Another shot.

You curled tighter, tears leaking from your eyes.

Then you heard it—clear, firm, and fierce:

“Y/N! Where is she?!”

You knew that voice.

“Olivia…” You croaked.

⸻

Olivia’s POV

The second the door blew open, Olivia moved like muscle memory. Tactical precision. She and Fin cleared the upper floor first—two men down, both alive. She didn’t even stop to watch them fall.

Luis was waiting at the top of the stairwell with a crowbar. He swung—Fin ducked and tackled him down the stairs. Bones cracked.

“I got this one,” Fin growled. “Go.”

Olivia sprinted into the dark hallway below.

“Y/N!” she called again, gun raised, heart hammering.

From the end of the corridor, a door creaked.

Mateo stepped out, blood on his sleeve, knife in hand. “Well, well. Look who—”

Olivia shot him in the leg. He screamed and hit the floor.

“I said, where is she?!”

He only laughed. So she kicked the gun across the floor toward his face. His smirk vanished.

“In there,” he choked, nodding behind him.

She burst into the room.

There you were. Curled up, barely moving.

“Y/N!” She dropped to her knees beside you, pulling you into her arms. “I’ve got you. I’m here. You’re okay. You’re okay now…”

You sobbed against her shoulder, body trembling. “You came back…”

“I never left you.”

⸻

Hector POV

He tried to slip out the side exit. He had no idea Fin was already there, waiting.

“Going somewhere?” Fin asked, gun drawn.

Hector ran. Didn’t make it far.

Fin tackled him hard—shoving his face into the concrete, cuffing him tight.

“That’s for Liv,” he muttered.

He cuffed his other wrist.

“That one’s for Y/N.”

⸻

Olivia’s POV

You were wrapped in a blanket, an oxygen mask over your face, barely conscious but alive.

Olivia didn’t leave your side. The EMTs kept urging her to sit back, but she refused.

“You found me,” you whispered.

She held your hand tight. “Always.”

You blinked up at her. “I love you.”

Tears slid down her cheeks, soft and silent.

“I love you too. And I swear to God—I will never let anyone hurt you again.”

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Wildcard 21

Brooklyn, 3:47 a.m.

The streets were quiet, bathed in the eerie orange glow of the streetlamps. Olivia stepped out of the black SUV with her hood up and her eyes sharper than they’d been in months. She didn’t look like Janice Wells anymore. She looked like herself—Detective Olivia Benson. The woman who didn’t run. The woman who didn’t let fear win.

Fin was waiting just inside the station entrance, jaw clenched and eyes heavy with guilt.

“You look like hell,” she said softly.

He cracked a smile. “You should see the other guy—my conscience.”

She gave him a tight hug. “I saw the tape.”

He pulled back and nodded. “I know. I’m sorry.”

“I will never be able to forgive myself. She got away from me for two minutes and they snatched her. I’m so sorry.”

Olivia shook her head “it’s okay Fin. I know you did your best. It sounds like they have been tracking her for a while now so eventually they would have got to her. It’s not your fault.”

“Olivia!” A voice screams her across the precinct.

A flash of hair swings across her face and shes enveloped into a warm hug and smell a of Chanel No. 5.

“Alex.” She sighs.

“I came as soon as I heard. Are you alright?”

“They took her Alex. They took her because of me and now…I”

Alex shakes her head “ No. Olivia this isn’t your fault. We will find her I promise.”

“Where is she?” Olivia’s voice broke slightly at the end, but she stood tall as looks back at Fin.

Fin sighed. “We still don’t know. But we got a hit—security footage from a gas station in Yonkers. They had her two nights ago. Alive. After that? Nothing.”

Olivia clenched her fists, her nails digging into her palms. “They used her to pull me out. This was always the plan.”

“They know you’re back now. That’s what they wanted.”

“Then they’ll come for me,” Olivia said, her tone sharp with certainty. “And when they do—we’ll make them regret ever touching her.”

⸻

Unknown Location

You – 4:12 a.m.

The cold floor scraped your knees as you knelt, shivering, in the center of the concrete room. The light overhead flickered, casting a sickly glow on the walls. Your face was bruised, lip cracked, wrists raw from zip ties that had only just been cut. You were exhausted—but not broken.

Hector paced in front of you like a lion in a cage. “She’s back in New York. You got her attention.”

Mateo leaned casually against the wall, flipping a butterfly knife open and shut. “Think she’ll come for you? Think she cares that much?”

You didn’t answer.

Luis crouched beside you, his breath foul and eyes empty. “Or maybe she’ll stay away this time. Maybe she finally learned that everyone who gets close to her ends up ruined.”

You met his gaze, bloodied but defiant. “You’re right… she will come. And when she does—none of you will make it out of this alive.”

They laughed. But their laughter wasn’t as loud as before. They were starting to sweat.

⸻

FBI Safehouse – 6:00 a.m.

Olivia was seated at the table with Alex and Fin as federal agents briefed her. Maps, photos, and red string filled the room.

“They’ve moved her three times,” the lead agent said. “They’re being sloppy now. Paranoid. That’s good for us.”

“She’s strong,” Olivia whispered, more to herself than anyone else. “She’ll hold on.”

Alex studied Olivia carefully. “You’re not going to wait for backup, are you?”

“No.”

“You’re going to do something stupid.”

“I’m going to do something right,” Olivia said firmly. “I’m going to get her back.”

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BabyMoon

Cordelia has been driving for what seems like forever even though she claims it hasn't been that long. But Mina was kind enough to add that you would already be at the cabin if it weren't for the fact that you've asked them to stop three times already to pee.

Meanwhile, Billie is asleep in the backseat across from you. Cordelia is quiet as she focuses on the road ahead of her. She's been trying to defuse the tension the whole ride. Looking over to the passenger seat you see Mina and you can tell she seems tense by the way she's gripping the cane that lies next to her which only makes you more nervous as you call out to Cordelia.

“Umm, Delia,” you called out to your wife.

“Yes?” she answered, sneaking a peek at you and then back at the road. You gave her a small smile, causing her to breathe heavily. “Really? Again?!” she asked.

“I'm sorry. I can't help it.” you frowned.

“I know baby,” she says giving you a small smile.

“We have stopped this car three times in the last hour. You can't possibly have to go again,” Mina yells.

“Mina!” Cordelia shouts at the redhead.

You sighed looking out the window as you squeezed your legs together. Cordelia sighs heavily pulling into a gas station just up the road.

“You need any help?” she asked putting the car in park.

Without looking at her or Mina you got out in search of the restroom. A few minutes later you walked to the car got in and buckled your seatbelt.

“The cabin is only a few miles away you think you can make it without any more stops?” Mina asked in a sarcastic tone.

You didn't respond opting to ignore her and her bad attitude. For the rest of the drive, you stared out the window trying to hold in your emotions. Mina has been in a pissy mood all day and she's been taking it out on you. What was the point of this “babymoon” anyway if Mina was going to be a bitch! You thought to yourself as you wiped straw tears from your cheeks. Finally, Cordelia pulls into the long driveway of the cabin.

Putting the car in park Cordelia relaxes her body leaning back in her seat.

Billie stirs in the back stretching her limbs and yearning.

“Were here already?” she asked.

Mina scoffs “Yeah we're here four stops later.”

Shaking your head you exit the car slamming the door behind you as you walk toward the cabin.

“What was that about?” Billie asked.

Mina sighed. “It's me. I'm being a bitch. I'm just in a bad mood.”

“Yeah, honey we noticed.” Cordelia huffs getting out of the car to go after you.

Mina sighs as she watches the blonde run after you.

“You should probably apologize to y/n. She's been very emotional and uncomfortable lately. She's weeks away from giving birth, Venny. She's scared. Even if she doesn't want to admit it.”

“I know. I'm sorry.”

“I'm not the one who needs to hear it,” Billie says as she exits the car.

An hour later Billie and Cordelia managed to get everything from the car and set up in the cabin. Once they were done they joined Mina on the couch.

“Where's y/n?” the redhead asked looking at Cordelia.

“She's taking a nap. She was exhausted.”

“Oh.”

“Mina, what's going on? Talk to us, please. Why are you so tense and taking it out on y/n of all people?” Cordelia asked.

“Seriously, that girl adores you Venny,” Billie adds.

“I know and I feel awful. I'm just scared.” Mina says.

“Scared of what darling?”

“She's going to give birth. She's going to be in pain she could die. I won't be able to help her. I can't bear to watch her suffer. “

“I know it's scary but that doesn't mean we take our fears out on her. She's scared too. And she needs support.” Billie says.

“I know Billie! Don't you think I know?!” she yells back at Billie.

“I can't do this! I can't be a mother and a wife. I can't do this.”

“Yes, you can love,” Cordelia says softly.

“No! I'm already falling as a wife. I won't be a good mother Delia. I won't. Y/n will have a physical bond with this child, you're such a nurturer, and Billie will shower them with gifts. And then there's me...what can I possibly give this child?” she asked with tears in her eyes.

“Unconditional love and security,” you say standing behind them.

The three women turned to see you standing there. Walking around the couch you take a seat on Mina’s lap careful not to hurt her.

“Mina you're right Cordelia is a natural when it comes to mothering, and Billie loves to spoil us rotten, and I do have a bond with this child but you.. You're special Mina whether you want to believe it or not. You understand what it's like to be different to be bullied and to feel unsafe. Which is why you go out of your way to make sure I feel safe and happy. You never judge me for my flaws or insecurities. You love me at my worst and my best. You're always there beside me ready to take on anything or anyone that tries to come against me. And that my beautiful, loving, and caring wife is why you will be a wonderful mother.”

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Your Mother

Your mother has been acting weird lately. The three women have been keeping something from you, but you didn't know what. You asked Misty if she knew, but, of course, the blonde denied knowing anything.

You were old enough to know when something was up but decided to wait it out. That was until you heard Ally and Cordelia talking in the kitchen this morning.

“You've got to take it easy Delia,” Ally says caressing her cheek.

“I know. I'm just not used to this. I never thought I'd be able to carry a baby and now that I am it's just an adjustment.”

“I know honey but Mina and I are here to help you with the heavy lifting okay?”

“Okay.” Delia smiles as she pecks Ally’s lips softly.

At that moment it feels like your heart stops. Cordelia is pregnant with a baby of her own. A baby she planned with Mina and Ally. A baby that no one has even mentioned to you. A baby that will have no blood connection to you at all.

You ran upstairs quickly shutting the door behind you. Zoe and Madison pause their conversation as they look up to you in confusion.

“What's wrong?” Zoe asked.

“My mom is having a baby,” you whispered still in shock.

“Really?!” they asked in unison.

You nod your head as you sit on your bed.

“Wow, Cordy finally figured out how to replace you,” Madison smirks.

“Shut up Madison. That's not true!” Zoe shouts.

“Come on you remember how sad she was when she found out she couldn't have a baby? If it wasn't for y/n’s mother dying she would have never been able to raise a child. Now she has one of her own. And Ally and Mina will finally be able to raise the baby they wanted.”

You listened in silence as tears pricked your eyes. Madison is right, Cordelia got stuck with you. Mina and Ally too. But this baby was Cordelia's chance at being a real mother. A chance for the three of them to experience something together start to finish.

“Dude if she has a girl I bet she'll look just like her and she will finally have a kid that can do magic,” Madison adds making Zoe roll her eyes.

You hop off the bed running out of the bedroom leaving the two girls behind.

“Look what you did!” Zoe shouts at the blonde making her roll her eyes.

You ran as fast as you could out the back door into the field. You didn't know where you were going but you knew you couldn't stay in the house any longer.

•••

Hours later Mina was walking around the academy in search of you. Coming up empty-handed handed she went to Cordelia’s office finding her and Ally.

“Hey have either of you seen y/n? I told her I’d help her with a project.” Mina says.

The two women looked at each other and shook their heads.

“Come to think of it I don't believe I've seen her all day,” Ally says. Mina sighs but happens to see Zoe walk by and calls her over.

“Have you seen y/n?” she asked.

“I saw her earlier. She was upset and then Madison made it worse. She took off after that I haven't seen her since.” Zoe tells them.

“Upset? About what??” Cordelia asked.

Zoe looks down at her shoes “Umm...” she mumbles not wanting to tell them.

“Zoe?” The supreme question.

The young girl shrank lower into herself.

“Out with it Zoe. If it’s Madison I will deal with her.” Mina says.

Zoe sighs deeply as she looks up at the woman “She said you were having a baby.”

The three women gasped.

“How did she know that?” Ally asked looking between the two women.

“She heard you guys talking about it. Madison made it worse by saying how the baby would look like Cordelia, and replace her.” Zoe explains.

“See this is why you should have just let me handle that little bitch.” Mina growls looking at Cordelia.

Ally sighs “Thank you, Zoe.”

Zoe smiles and nods her head as she walks off.

“How do we find her?” Ally asked.

“I know a spell to track her. As long as she's wearing her locket I can find her.” Cordelia says standing from her chair with Mina and Ally following behind her.

•••

You didn't realize it was so late until you looked up to see the sun setting. Looking around you realized you were lost.

“Great. Just great,” you mumbled.

You wandered around for a few crying as you tried to find your way back home before you gave up sitting on the ground. You pulled your knees into your chest as you cried.

“This is just perfect. I'm going to die out here.” you cried.

“Well, at least you made 12 years I guess..” you mumbled to yourself.

“Y/n!” a voice calls out to you. Snapping your head up you see Cordelia and Ally running towards you and Mina not far behind.

“Oh, sweetheart are you okay?” Cordelia asked.

“Yeah, I got lost. I'm sorry.” you cried.

Cordelia pulls you into her arms holding you tight against her.

“It's okay baby we got you,” she whispered kissing your forehead.

Cordelia helps you up and you look up meeting Mina’s harsh gaze.

“Don't ever scare us like that again little one!” Mina shouts as she pulls you into her chest hugging you tightly.

“I'm sorry,” you mumbled.

“Sweetheart look at me, please,” Cordelia whispered.

“Why did you leave?” she asked.

“I heard you and Ally talking about the baby. I was upset. And then Madison said if it's a girl she will look like you. And at first, I was mad at her but she was right. The baby will be your baby. It will look like you, it will have magic like you. It will be your real child.” you sobbed.

Cordelia cradles your face in her hands as she tries to control her tears. “You are my real child y/n. I may not have given birth to you but you are my daughter. I've raised you since the day you were born. I fed you, changed you, sang to you, everything that mothers do for their children I have done with you. You're my child. You're my baby and nothing will ever change that. Do you hear me?”

“Yes,” you mumbled.

“What is it, honey?” Ally asked.

“You guys planned this baby. You wanted it. Madison said you always wanted to have a baby. I was just something you got stuck with.”

Cordelia shakes her head “That's not true.”

“Yes, it is! Madison said you made a promise to my birth mom. And that Mina was already with you so, of course, she had to agree because she loves you. Same with Ally she loves you two so she got stuck with me too.”

Mina shakes her head as she crouches down on the ground in front of you. Ally is quick to help her along so she doesn't hurt herself.

“Now you listen to me little one. I didn't get stuck with you. Cordelia and I both chose to raise you as our own. We loved you from the moment we saw you. I'll admit I was scared at first. I didn't think I could be a mother. But here you were this tiny baby who had me wrapped from the moment you opened your eyes. You've shown me love, and happiness, and I for one am extremely honored to be your mother. We chose you and you chose us.” Mina says with tears in her eyes as she kisses your head.

“As for me, I knew about you as soon as I met your mothers. They couldn't stop talking about you. I knew what I was walking into. However, I never imagined loving you so quickly. It was as if we were all meant to be. You're my child and that will never change.” Ally smiles.

You chuckled as you hugged her. Cordelia smiles as she helps Mina up.

“Y/n we were going to tell you once I was further along. But I should have talked to you before. I love you more than anything in the world. You're my sunshine, my sweet beautiful baby girl. I am and will always be your Mom.”

You smiled as you hugged her tightly.

“Let's get you back to the house little one,” Mina says as she and Ally lead you and Cordelia back home.

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Wildcard 20

Olivia kept her word. She attended AA meetings twice a week, took some leave from work to focus solely on her recovery, and even started therapy. You’ve been keeping an eye on her from a distance. And while Delana insisted you shouldn’t you couldn’t help it. You wanted so badly for her to be okay again.

It all seemed like it was going well. Olivia looked good. Until one week she missed her meetings. Okay, what’s one week? You think to yourself? One week turned into two weeks and two weeks turned into two months. You hadn’t seen her in two months. Against your better judgment, you went to her apartment in search of her expecting to find a mess of a woman but instead found out that her apartment had been empty for two months. They had seen no sign of her. Now you were worried. You called SVU and no one had answers for you. You tried to contact Alex and no answer. You were going crazy. Olivia was gone and you had no idea what was going on.

Olivia’s POV:

“You have no choice, Benson. This is how it’s happening. “

“ But sir I have someone I need to see before I go!”

No! Don’t you get it your life is on the line here. “

“I need to see her. I have to explain.”

“I’ll watch after Liv I promise,” Fin says.

“No, she won’t forgive me if I just vanish.”

“You forgave me.” Alex chimes in.

“Years later! I argued.

“We don’t have time for this!” The FBI officer shouts as he slams his hand on the desk.

“Right now there is a hit on your head. Benson, they will kill you and not think twice. You have to go.”

I nod my head but sigh. “Fine. But please can I..”

“No! No one can know where you are. They can’t even know you’re in Witness Protection. We can’t trust anyone these guys are powerful.”

“I’ll watch over her Liv I promise,” Fin says trying to reassure me.

“Where will I go?”

“New location, new Identity, new job. You know the drill.”

————————————————————

So here I am two months into my new life. I go by Janice Wells now and I’m a secretary at a doctor’s office. It’s pretty boring stuff but I think that was the point. I live alone obviously in an apartment in the middle of nowhere Wisconsin. They really do love stuffing people out here. I had to join AA meetings out here because this was a test for my sobriety but I made a promise to you and I plan to keep it.

I’ve been doing well so far although it is incredibly lonely here. I wonder how Alex did this for so long no wonder she wasn’t the same after this. The Feds are hoping that this will be over soon and that the brothers will be busted but so far no luck. It seems they will do anything to find me. Unfortunately, I had no idea what they would do until I received a tape on my welcome mat.

I notified the feds as soon as I received it and they requested I not watch it but of course, curiosity got the best of me. The tape is fuzzy at first, looks like a camera is trying to zoom into focus, and once it does I see your face.

Your beautiful face that is now beaten and black and blue. Your eyes filled with tears as the brothers' voices filled my ears.

“Where is she?” The male voice asked. It only took a couple of seconds for me to recognize the man’s face. Hector Santos the oldest brother.

“I told you… I. I don’t know.” You sobbed.

The man angrily backhands you across the face.

“Stop lying bitch!!!”

“ I’m not! I don’t know. You sobbed.

Your sobs only caused the brothers to laugh.

“Listen to me. I’m not playing this game for long. You tell us what we need to know or I’ll beat it out of you.”

“Maybe we should take turns? The youngest brother suggested. Mateo Santos is the smallest of his brothers but just as deadly. While his brothers get straight to the point Mateo loves to torture his victims slowly. He gets a thrill out of their pain.

“Or are you only into hot female detectives?” Mateo asked with a grin looking back at his other brother Luis.

“Hmm, let’s see what makes her tick boys.” They all grinned and the screen went black.

“No!” I scream as I reach for my phone.

“I need to come home now.”

———————————————————————

Back at headquarters:

“I want to know who leaked the video to Benson right now!” The FBI agent screams as he enters the precinct.

“It was me,” Fin answers without hesitation.

“I should have your badge.”

“Take it! I promised Liv I would protect her and I failed. She’s been missing for two days and you’ve done nothing. Liv deserves to know. She'd want to be here.”

“Well, you got your wish. She’s on the way now.”

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Wildcard 19

The next day you got ready to meet with Olivia. Your anxiety was on high alert after not seeing the brunette for so long. Walking into the diner you see Olivia already seated waiting patiently for you. You smiled at the waitress as she follows you to the table.

“Hey, Liv.”

The brunette looks up at you and smiles. “Hey.”

Once you were seated the waitress asked for your order and drinks. You gsve her a small smile as you thankes her.

“Thanks for meeting me.” you smiled looking at Olivia.

“Of course. I didn't think you'd ever text me back,” she says.

You give her a small smile. Alex was right Olivia doesn't look like herself. She's paler than usual, the dark circles under her eyes are darker. Her mannerisms and personality are off as well. She didn't look anything like the Olivia you once knew.

“Liv. Are you okay?” you asked hesitantly.

“I'm alright. You?”

“I'm okay. But you don't look so good Liv. “

“Well, that's what happens when you get dumped. Not once but twice within the same week I might add,” she says in a bitter tone.

“Liv. You know Alex didn't dump you. You pushed her away. And as for me, I told you I needed space. “

“Yes, I know. But hey it was only a matter of time, right? Everyone leaves me eventually. “

“That's not true and you know it! I'm all for checking up on you Liv and talking but I won't listen to this woo is me bullshit. You're better than this.”

The brunette chuckled “So now you care about me?”

“I've always cared about you.”

“Did Alex call you?”

“I don't see how that matters?”

“She did, didn't she?”

You remained quiet a little worried to tell her the truth.

“I swear when I see her...”

“You’ll what? Scream at her? Hit her? What Liv? What will you do? She was worried about you. She had no other choice.”

“She's not worried she's just using it as an excuse to see you.”

“So you aren't drinking every night?” you questioned catching her off guard. She opens her mouth to speak before you cut her off once more.

“You aren't missing work? You aren't destroying the apartment in fits of rage? You aren't passing out all over the apartment for Alex to find you the next day?”

Olivia silently looks out the window as tears prick her eyes.

“Answer me, Olivia.”

Again she's quiet. You sighed reaching your hand across the table to grab hers.

“Olivia even though we aren't together right now that doesn't mean I don't love you. It doesn't mean I want to watch you dive off the deep end. I don’t want to watch you turn into…”

“ My mother.” She whispered.

“Yes. Please Olivia don’t be mad at Alex okay she’s just sacred. We both are.”

Olivia nods as she wipes her tears.

“I don’t want to be like her. I just…feel so lost.”

“I know. I do as well.”

You smiled as the waitress comes by dropping off your drinks and meals thanking her as she walks off.

“Soo… how’s it been staying with Delana and Casey?”

“It’s good. They’ve been really nice about it.”

“That’s good.”

“Yeah.”

“And your job?”

“Well they finally got back to me and told me I was free to come back to work. Once the investigation started they realized that myself and April as well as some other teachers went to Cliff about Ian. They fired Cliff, and as of right now I am the head principal.”

“That’s amazing y/n. I mean obviously, I wish it were under better terms but I’m happy that they didn’t try to pin this on you. And I know Cliff is an ass.”

You chuckled “Yes he is. But thank you. I’m glad it all worked out as well. But I wish I did more to help Ian.”

“I know. But you did what you could.”

“Yeah.” You sighed giving her a small smile.

“Listen y/n I know I that fucked up okay. I know I wasn’t there for you like I needed to be and I’m sorry. Please what do I have to do to make this right? These last two months have been the darkest and saddest months of my life. I love you so much and I can’t live without you.”

You sighed you knew this was coming.

“Liv. You know I love you. I will always love you. But I need a break from all of this. And you need to focus on yourself right now. Your health is more important.”

“So this is it? Were just over?”

“I don’t know. I hope not. “

“Me either.” She whispers.

“Liv I need you to focus on yourself for awhile. I don’t want you to lose yourself because of this. I love you and I always will but right now I think it’s best to take a break. Find ourselves and then maybe once we come back to each other it will be better.”

“I don’t want anyone else.”

“I know. I don’t either.”

Olivia sighs “I’ll give you space. And I promise I will go to some meetings and get this drinking under control.”

“Good.” you smiled.

“I'm happy you came here today. I miss seeing you.”

“I miss you too Liv.”

She smiles as she cuts into her omelet. You breathed deeply causing her to look up.

“Olivia, can I ask you something?”

“Of course.” She says dropping her fork and knife to give you her full attention.

“If you had to pick between Alex and I which would you choose?”

Olivia breathed deeply “ Honey it was never a question who I would pick. I love y/n.”

“I know but you love her too.”

“It’s different. I…I love Alex yes but it’s not how I love you. It never was.”

“But you will always love her?”

Olivia sighs “yes I will always love her. Just like I will always love you.”

You nodded hearing everything you needed to.

“I promise you I will get better.” Olivia says.

You smiled “I know. But get better for yourself not anyone else.”

“I will.” She says smiling as she finishes off her food.

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Title: After Midnight

Pairing: Casey Novak x Female!Reader

Synopsis: You visit Casey at work with the intention of taking her home.

CW: Smut, Top!Casey, Bottom!Reader, fingering (R receiving), office sex.

You walked with a purpose through the DA's office. A late night here and there was one thing, but it had been at least a week since Casey had been home before 2 AM. She was going to work herself to death, and more importantly, you missed her. You missed your girlfriend and planned on making sure that you didn't go to bed alone tonight.

"Casey!" Your voice was big and authoritative, but you shrunk back a bit as soon as you saw her. The last time you had seen Casey was when she was running out of your bedroom for work. You had tried to sleep in since you were closing the bar, so you had just barely caught a glimpse of her.

"Uh oh, you look mad. D-did I forget something? I thought I told you that I was working late again tonight," Casey said. She placed some papers inside of the legal book on her desk before she shut it. You glanced down at your watch, the same one Casey had bought for you a couple months earlier when you were promoted at work. That had felt like the end of the world when your bosses told you that your promotion came with a schedule change. You thought that you'd never see Casey again, but she was getting home later than you these days.

"Casey, they let me off early tonight. A late night at the office was never this bad. If you were anyone else, I'd think you were cheating on me." Casey's face fell at the mention of cheating. She quickly stood up and walked past you to shut the door of her office. "Casey, I'm not accusing you, and I don't want to fight. I just, I made sure to leave early because I wanted to spend time with you. I'm sick of going to bed alone."

"I'm sorry. Time got away from me, and um, honestly? I forgot you were getting out early tonight. There's a bit more work I want to do, but you can come sit with me if you'd like," Casey offered. She placed her hand on the small of your back, helping to lead you over to her desk. You knew it would be a bit cramped, but you still sat on Casey's lap as she flipped open the law book again. "Don't look at the file, this is a pretty rough case. Look at me instead, I hear that I make a pretty good view."

You smiled at Casey's little joke. You did like looking at Casey, even if you preferred to watch her stretch in the mornings. There was something about watching her like that which made your stomach drop. You were used to seeing Casey dressed up when she went out for work, but you always found her most attractive when she'd go out for a day at the batting cages or her softball games.

"Is this okay?" Casey asked as she placed her hand on the inside of your thigh. Your breath hitched a little as her fingers curled, brushing dangerously close to your core. Casey's hand paused, silently daring you to let her continue. You knew Casey wouldn't move until you gave her the okay, she'd wait forever if you wanted her to. "Did you hear me?"

"Casey, it's not nice to tease. This isn't what I came here for, I want you to go home," you told her. Casey pouted at you, and all you could think about was kissing that pout off of her face. "This isn't going to get us home faster."

"I know it's not, but I can't help it. You're so pretty in my lap that I don't think I can focus unless I'm touching you. Please, I want to touch you," Casey begged. You spread your legs open a little more, pushing your hips against Casey's hand as you made yourself more comfortable. "Thank you."

You hummed as Casey buried her face into the side of your neck. She knew exactly how to wind you up. You could feel her breath tickling against your skin as it raised goosebumps. Casey kept steady pressure as she rubbed against your core. Her other hand slid up your shirt and underneath your bra.

"Casey," you warned as you felt her begin to tease you. Casey mumbled an apology as her hand drifted from your breast down to between your legs. Her work was long forgotten as her hand pushed past your waistband. "We won't get caught, will we?"

"Cleaning crew likes to be out of here by 11:30, it's past midnight now babe. You could be as loud as you want," Casey said. She wanted you to be loud. She always wanted to hear you absolutely scream her name. There was a time and place for that, but you didn't feel like this was it quite yet. You hadn't passed anyone on your way to Casey's office, but that didn't mean nobody was there.

"Only in your dreams Case," you laughed. Casey laughed sarcastically along with you, only stopping when you pushed against her fingers. You let out a small moan, just loud enough for Casey to hear. The noise spurred her on, and Casey slipped two fingers inside of you. "Fuck Casey."

"Be patient, we're getting there," Casey told you. She wanted to tease you more, but Casey could feel how wet and ready you were. Your cunt was practically trying to suck her fingers inside of itself. Casey turned her attention completely towards you, leaning over your shoulder to watch as your cunt hungrily took in her fingers. "Jesus Christ, you're so fucking hot."

"Casey," you whined. Your cheeks were burning from her praise. Even when she had your legs spread like this while you were on her lap riding her fingers, Casey knew how to fluster you. You could feel the curve of her smile as she pressed her mouth against your shoulder. There were no soothing kisses, not yet anyway. She was fucking you with the intention of ruining you, and Casey was not someone who lacked the determination to do so.

"I'm gonna take you everywhere in this office," Casey whispered into your ear. You were too far gone to respond with anything more than a gasp. Casey held your body against hers as her fingers slipped out of you to rub your clit. She was being a bit rough, but you were soaked enough that you craved the pressure. That was how you came, soaking Casey's lap below you with her fingers frantically rubbing circles over your clit.

You pushed back against Casey, and she let you have your space. The work on her desk was a bit scattered, but it was easy enough to hide until the morning. Casey helped you straighten up your clothes and offered you her coat as the two of you made your way out of the DA's office. You had caught a cab there, but Casey drove, so you happily sat in the passenger's seat with your hand on the inside of her thigh, teasing her just enough to earn yourself a second round back at your apartment.

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Are you gonna write more for Old Habits? I LOVE THAT SERIES

Yes I plan to write at least two more parts.

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ooo okay thank you for replying 🥹 is it okay if I request a wilhelmina, cordelia, billie, reader smut fic? (That's if ur okay with writing smut)💜

Yeah of course. Is there anything specific that you’d like?

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heyy!! I love reading ur works, I'm wondering if you take requests or not? 🫶

Hi thank you for reading! 🫶

Yes I do. I try to get to as many as I can.

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My Girl

Wilhelmina Venable x Reader

It's Saturday night and you can't wait to spend it with your girlfriend. Yes, Wilhelmina Venable will be solely yours for the next two days and that makes you happy. What better way to spend the night than cuddling up with your favorite person, eating snacks, and watching movies?

You already brought the snacks and drinks and set them up while Mina got the movie ready. You finally talked her into watching Harry Potter and you couldn’t wait. You just finished setting everything up when your cell phone starts ringing. Looking down at the screen you smile.

“Hey, Becca.”

“Hey girl what you doing?” The girl asks loudly clearly already out on the town.

“Hanging out with my girl,” you said winking at Mina.

The redhead rolls her eyes but you can see the faint blush that coats her cheeks.

“Oh damn. I was going to ask if you wanted to come out tonight.”

“Ohh. Sorry, I already have plans. Maybe we can do it another night?”

“Boo, you’re no fun. Well Alright, I'll talk to you later You two lovebirds have fun. byeeee.”

“Bye.” You laughed as you ended the call. You smiled softly as you cut the lights off in the living room leaving only the glow from the TV.

Mina settles in on the couch as you put your phone down on the coffee table and cuddle up beside her. You buried yourself under the big warm blanket and cuddled in further to Mina’s side resting your head on her chest.

“What did Becca want?” She asked.

“She wanted to know if I was going out tonight and I told her no.”

The redhead hummed as she played in your hair.

“You know you could go if you wanted to.”

“What?”

“I said you could go out if you wanted to.”

“Okay? But I don’t.” You said dismissively.

“Alright.”

“Why would you say that?” You asked sitting up to look at her face.

“What?”

“Do you want me to go?” You asked quietly.

“Of course not my love.”

“Then why…?”

“ I just meant…I. I don’t want you to miss out on things because of me. You’re young y/n you should be out having a good time.”

“But I’m having a good time here with you. Somewhere I would much rather be. I don’t want to be out getting wasted when I can spend the night in with you.”

The redhead sighs. “Just know that I would never stop you from having fun and spending time with your friends.”

“I know.” You said with a small giggle. “But tonight I want to spend time with my girl.”

“Ugh. Do not call me that.” She grumbled rolling her eyes.

You smiled as you kissed her temple, then her eyelids, her cheeks, her chin, and then her lips.

“But that’s what you are…my girl.”

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Bad News

Wilhelmina Venable, Cordelia Goode, Billie Dean Howard, x Reader.

Today Mina had a doctor's appointment and normally she would allow at least one of you to accompany her but that was not the case today.

Lately, Mina has been pulling away from the three of you. You could feel the distance and it was taking a toll on you and your girlfriends. Cordelia took it the hardest, she's used to the redhead opening up to her. Billie knows how stubborn Mina can be and knows eventually she will come around.

But with the redhead continuously shutting them out time and time again they start to lose hope. Today, for example, Mina came home pissed off at the world slamming the front door behind her. She ignored Cordelia’s attempted hug, her questions, and her look of concern. She didn't even spare a glance at you or Billie she simply went upstairs and locked herself away in your shared bedroom.

Defeated once again Cordelia sighed as she sat on the couch. You could hear her soft cries as her shoulders began to shake. Billi rushed to her side pulling her in close.

“Shh. It's alright honey,” she says softly trying to calm her.

“I don't understand. She's been so distant. It's like she wants nothing to do with us.” Cordelia cries.

“Honey, you know that's not true. She's just going through something.” Billie adds as she kisses her forehead.

“I don't know how to fix it. Why won't she let me help?” Cordelia cried.

The sight of your sweet and kind Cordelia crying and giving up lit a fire underneath you. Cordelia was always so calm and understanding but seeing her break down was too much for you. Before you could even register what was happening you were upstairs in front of the bedroom door.

You knocked making your presence known.

“Go away.” the voice called out.

You shook your head opening the door and slamming it shut.

“I said go away!”

“ What is your problem?”

“Y/n, please I have a headache.” the redhead sighs from under the covers.

“No!” you shout snatching the covers back.

“Cordelia is downstairs crying her eyes out because of you. She's hurt and she doesn't understand how to fix it. So tell me what is going on. Please Mina, I just want to help you. To help Cordelia, all of us. What is it?”

Again the redhead says nothing she just looks back at you with a blank stare.

You huffed shaking your head “Fine. That's fine. Don't talk to me about it. But at least talk to Cordelia. She doesn't deserve to be iced out.”

You move towards the door to leave when you hear a sniffle. Turning around you see tears streaming down her face.

“My back is getting worse,” she whispers.

“It's getting worse and the doctors won't be able to help me. The pain will increase and I could eventually lose the ability to use my legs. I didn't tell any of you because I didn't want you to worry. And I didn't tell Cordelia because she already does so much for me. She doesn't deserve to spend the rest of her time on this earth taking care of me. None of you do.”

“When did you receive this news?”

“The doctors told me a couple of weeks ago and today they confirmed it by my scans. It's getting worse.”

You sighed walking towards her. You gently sit beside her on the bed taking her hands in yours.

“Is there any way for us to get a second opinion?”

“It won't matter they will say the same thing.”

“You don't know that…”

“YES, I DO!” she shouts cutting you off.

“Well…if that's what it is then we will take it one day at a time.”

“No! I will not allow you to take care of me!”

“Why not? You’d do the same for me?”

The redhead shakes her head as she stands walking away from you. “You’re too young for this.”

“ You don't get to decide that,” you shout shaking your head at the stubborn woman.

“You can't just go back and forth. I'm old enough to date, I'm old enough to love but I'm too young to make my own choices. That makes no sense.”

“You don't know what you're asking for y/n. This isn't going to be easy. It will be painful, it will be hard for someone to watch. And you won't be able to fix it. You can't fix this y/n!”

“I don't want to fix you, Mina. I just want to be able to love you and care for you the same way you do for me,” you yell as frustration takes over.

“It's not that easy. “

“It is! I love you. You love me. You take care of me and I take care of you. That's it! It's that simple. I'm not going anywhere, Mina! No matter how hard you try to push me away I'm not leaving you!

The redhead sighs staring out of the window trying to keep her tears at bay. You slowly stand and walk to her wrapping your arms gently around her waist.

You breathe in deep as you lay your head on the top of her shoulders.

“I love you, Wilhemina Venable. Cordelia loves you. Billie Dean loves you. We're all in this together. We will not leave your side. And I will spend the rest of my life reminding you if that's what you need.”

“That's what I'm afraid of.”

“Don't be. You're exactly who and what I want. I chose this life, I chose to be here and I would choose you every time.”

The redhead crumbles in your arms as her emotions take over. You hold on to her tightly keeping her upright.

“You're never getting rid of me Mina so stop trying.” you chuckled kissing her temple.

She chuckles as she turns into your arms.

“No, it would seem I've finally met my match. “

“Indeed my love,” you say with a small smile.

You kiss her lips softly before taking her hand in yours.

“Now let's go downstairs, make some coffee and talk to the others about your options okay?”

“Okay.”

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Old Habits 2

Y/n POV:

It's been about an hour since my whole world has come crashing down. Well, that's a little dramatic but it feels like my heart is breaking. Before today I never had any doubts about my girlfriends and where their loyalties lay. I never once thought of what my life would be like without them and now it's all I can think about.

What if Billie wanted to be with Ally? What if they all decided I'm not worth the trouble? Maybe I should just cut her some slack. I mean they did have a life before me. I keep going over scenarios in my head over and over again. It isn't until I feel the bed dip that my thoughts stop.

I roll over to see the redhead looking down deep in thought.

“Mina?” I questioned looking up at her.

She smiles at me as she tucks the loose strands of hair behind my ears.

“My sweet little one. I'm so sorry,” she whispered as tears pricked her eyes.

“It's not your fault.” my words come out chopped as I hiccuped from all of the crying.

“Mina..”

“Yes, sweetheart?”

“ Do you think I'm overreacting?”

She shakes her head softly “No. I don't. Your feelings are valid. I'm sure walking in on her with someone else was heart-wrenching for you as it would be for any of us.”

I nod. “It was awful. I felt like my heart dropped out of my body.”

“I can't imagine,” she whispered.

“But… I mean she's a friend of yours. Do you do you wish to be with her? Does Billie wish to be with her?”

“I can't answer for Billie although I would imagine the only interest she ever had with Ally was sexual. As for me, I do not wish to be with her in any sort of nature. I am happy with you, and Delia, and Billie. I don't want anyone else.” she says smiling down at me.

I cry a little as I smile up at her.

“Can you hold me?” I asked.

“Of course,” she answers standing to pull back the covers and prop her cane by the nightstand. She crawls into the soft sheets curling up behind me as I turn in her arms my back facing her front. She leans down and kisses me softly behind my ear and then my temple.

“I love you little one. Don't you ever forget it,” she whispered as her strong arms held me as I finally drifted off.

An hour before:

Billie’s POV:

Just as Ally texted me the phone was taken by Cordleia and Mina. They both read over her text with looks of concern. Mina wasn't thrilled at all. The idea of meeting up with Ally was not one that she was entertaining.

“We are not meeting with her,” she says sternly.

“Of course not,” Delia mutters.

“Well, shouldn't we explain to her what is going on?” I asked.

“ We owe her nothing. We all knew the arrangement was simply out of convenience. Why would we meet up with her?” Mina asked losing more patience with me as the conversation continued.

“Well, I mean to explain to her why we will no longer be seeing her,” I added.

“We were never seeing her!” Mina shouts.

“Okay stop it!” Cordelia says holding her hands up between the two of you. She waits a couple of seconds for both of us to stand down.

“Mina if you don't want to see her you don't have to,” Cordelia says looking at the redhead.

“Billie if you feel that you owe Ally some sort of explanation you're more than welcome to meet with her. However this time you know where we all stand. If you sleep with her again I can't promise you there won't be consequences.”

“Are you saying that you would leave me?” I asked shocked by her statement.

Cordelia sighs as she looks over at Mina.

“Yes. I would. I think we all would.”

“The first time was a mistake a second would be a choice. “ Mina chimes in.

“I never said I would sleep with her. I just wanted to catch up. God! I can't believe I'm in trouble! We did this all the time. None of us ever said we were done! I didn't want to hurt y/n I swear but I won't stand here and be treated like a child!”

Mina scoffs as she walks away from me.

“Where are you going?” I ask.

“Upstaires to comfort y/n. You remember her right? Our girlfriend? The one whose heart you broke. “

I sighed looking at Cordelia.

“I never meant to hurt y/n or anyone.”

“And I believe you. However, you feel it necessary to be involved with Ally in some nature whereas we do not. I don’t care if you’re friends with her Billie and while I’m not mad at you the same cannot be said for y/n. She was never a part of our old habits and for all she knew the four of us were exclusive. I’m telling you that if you sleep with her again then there will be a problem. .”

“I’m not sleeping with her!” I shout angrily.

“Okay, so we have nothing to worry about then,” Delia adds before she leaves me standing alone.

I huff as I text Ally back.

“See ya tonight.” I text before I hurry to get ready. There is no reason why I can’t be friends with Ally and I won’t be told what to do.

Hours later I’m ready and headed out the door. I tried to speak with y/n but she didn’t want to talk and hasn’t let Mina out of her sight. I swear that woman baby’s her. They’re both livid that I’m going to dinner with Ally. Cordelia has stood firm on her feelings. She doesn’t care if we’re friends or if we go to dinner but if anything more occurs then we have a problem. I’m not sure why they think I can’t keep my hands to myself but I digress.

I met Ally at her favorite restaurant that we used to all go to during our time together. I walk in about to give the hostess my name when I hear “Billie Dean”. I turn to find the brunette dressed in a stunning red dress and black heels. I smile as I walk over to her and she pecks my cheek.

“Hello, beautiful.”

I blush. “ Hello, Ally.”

We sit. It takes some time for our order to get here and during that time there is a lot of small talk. We discussed how you guys acted and the way Cordelia and Mina treated me. I can tell she’s hurt that Delia and Mina don’t want to see her.

“Well, that’s their choice.” She says clearing her throat.

“So drinks?” She asked.

“Oh no, I couldn’t.”

“Awe come on…just a couple. For old time's sake.” She says with a wink. I smiled and nodded my head.

The next morning I wake up with my head pounding and my eyes blurry. I look around the room trying to piece together the night before. I noticed the lack of clothes on my body and the brunette lying beside me.

“Shit,” I mutter.

I try quietly to get out of bed and slip my clothes back on. I have no memory of last night but I don’t think I did anything. Ally and I were just laughing and chatting it up at the restaurant and then everything else is blank.

“I’ve got to get home.”

Of course, as soon as I enter the house I see the three of you sitting at the table. I look at y/n with her puffy red eyes and she looks pitiful. Before I can speak to you the cold voice of Wilhelmina hits me.

“Where were you?” She asked.

“I was with Ally.”

“So it seems. And how did that go?”

“Just ask me what you want to ask me Venny?!”

“Did you fuck her?”

“No… I don’t think so.”

You and Cordelia’s heads shot up.

“What?” Cordelia asked.

“You don’t think so?” Mina adds.

“I can’t remember much. I had some drinks but after that everything was hazy. “

“You shouldn’t have gone in the first place!” Mina shouts.

“You cannot tell me what to do!”

Cordelia gets up and reaches out for me. “Let me see your hands.” She says.

“What?”

“Your hands.”

I slowly rest my hands in hers and she gasped.

Cordelia’s POV:

The moment our hands meet the gift of sight shows me Billie Dean and Ally in the throes of passion. The sight sends a crack in my heart especially since this is the second time the sight has shown me a cheating partner.

Tears slipped my closed eyes as I whispered “Get out.”

“What?” Billie says.

“She slept with Ally. I saw them.” I say telling y/n and Mina. Mina growls low as she consoles y/n. The poor girl has cried for hours and I’m not sure how she has any tears left.

“Cordelia,” Billie whispers.

“I swear I don't remember anything.” she cries.

“Get. Put.” I said sternly.

“We warned you, Billie,” Mina adds.

The blonde nods her head as tears fill her eyes. “Please just let me grab a few things.”

I nod as I join Mina to comfort y/n. We look at each other silently as tears fill our eyes. The hardest thing I’ve ever had to do is watch Billie Dean walk out that door and my heart aches as if she’s dead and gone.

Ally’s POV:

I chuckled as I listened to Billie rushing to get back home. It won’t matter. We had sex last night. Cordelia will see and they will leave her. This plan will work. It hasn’t been easy but Billie Dean is the easiest phase of this plan. The other two will be a lot harder to fool. A date rape drug can only do so much ya know. But I’m patient and I can wait. I will get them all back one by one and take back what y/n stole from me.

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Never-ending cycle

Wilhelmina Venable x Ally Mayfair Richards x Diane Sherman x Reader

Reader’s POV:

Here we go again the never-ending cycle of doom. Although I thought those days were over. I thought we finally had it under control but I guess that’s why it’s called never ending. I’ve been like this my whole life… up and down. Happy to sad in a blink of an eye. A rollercoaster of emotions constantly floating around.

If it’s not the ups and downs of my emotions it’s the constant voices and thoughts in my head. Telling me to check the locks three times. Hold your breath. Are you sure you want to eat that? Or the most favorite of them all is No One Loves You!

Yes, this is all normal to me but I thought we figured it out. I thought I was getting better. A couple of months ago Diane and Ally both sat down with me and said maybe I should think about getting on medications for my anxiety and depression. I usually fought them on this topic but recently I’ve felt this battle was too much for me to carry alone so I agreed. Wilhelmina told me to make sure this was something that I wanted and to not let them bully me into it but I assured her I wanted this too.

So after a couple of tries of different anxiety medications and adding in some depression meds I’ve been on a high for the last month. I felt so good in the beginning, the best I’ve felt in a long time. My mind was quiet, my body was full of energy. I felt happy. This didn’t go unnoticed by my girlfriends and they were extremely supportive and happy for me. I felt good for once and I was so happy that by me being okay I also brought joy to them.

Here we are now two months in I feel like I’ve been dropped off the Empire State Building. I’m so exhausted, sad, and drained. I’ve felt so low these last few days and now it’s been weeks. I’m extremely moody and I’ve noticed my anxiety is back with a vengeance. I thought this was over.

“ Of course it isn’t you stupid girl. You thought you’d be okay? You? You’ll never be okay. You’re worthless. You’re a burden. Did you check your locks? Where is your life going? You’re a disappointment. You will be alone for the rest of your life! They will never love you! “

The voices echoed through my mind.

“I can’t take this anymore” I whispered to myself as I got out of bed.

I’ve been in this bed for hours. Ally and Diane tried to get me to come downstairs with them but I refused. I’ve been doing that a lot lately. At first, they tried to be understanding and just thought I was going through a phase but now they’re worried. But their worried expressions and soothing voices piss me off. Why can’t they just let me rot?

Wilhelmina however has not been so understanding and this morning let her frustration known.

“You can’t just stay in this bed all day y/n!” She shouts at me.

“Wilhelmina please she’s sick,” Diane whispered.

“She has to push through it. She can’t just give up.” Wilhelmina shouts back.

“Stop it!” Ally shouts between them.

“This isn’t helping.” She adds.

They all went back and forth as you tuned them out. This was your fault. You did this. Now they’re turning on each other. You couldn’t be bothered though. It wasn’t until the voices got so loud that I couldn’t take it anymore. I rose from the bed in search of comfort. In search of the one person I knew could scare anyone away. Imaginary or not.

I stood in front of the office door knocking on it slightly.

“Come in.” The voice said.

I open the door closing it softly behind me and standing awkwardly until she notices.

“Little one?” She called out.

“Mina.” I choked out as my words got caught in my throat.

She sighs as she opens her arms out to me.

“Come here, baby.”

I scrambled to her open arms, not caring how childlike I seemed at this moment. I just need her. I need her to make it all go away.

“It’s bad Mina.” I cried holding on to her tightly afraid she would disappear.

“I know.”

“I can’t do this. I need help.” I cried.

“I know baby. We will help you. I’m sorry I snapped at you.” She added kissing my forehead.

“I’m letting you down.” I cried louder.

She shakes her head vigorously as she rocks me back and forth “Never. You could never let me down.”

“I’m sorry.” I cried.

“It’s okay my love sleep. I’ve got you. I will never let you go.” She whispered the words slowly dying out as exhaustion creeps into me.

A month later I’m feeling better. My meds have been adjusted once again. I started therapy once a week and I’m keeping my mind busy with hobbies, my studies, self-care, and my girlfriends. Diane and Ally are quick to remind me that unfortunately, I may need to adjust my medications again and that it’s okay. Needing adjustments does not equal failure. Needing help isn’t weak. Needing comfort and love isn’t a burden. Mina has always stayed by my side throughout this process knowing that she is my comfort from the big bad world. A role she holds like a badge of honor. I’ve never had the support system I have now and I truly feel that will make all the difference and maybe this cycle will finally come to some sort of an end.

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Beach Day

Sally Mckenna x Reader

Dating a ghost had its challenges, to say the least. Besides the main issue being Sally was dead and you were very much living. There were so many challenges the two of you faced being together but you would have it no other way.

Sometimes Sally expressed guilt for holding you back. She said she felt like she was keeping you from being the best version of yourself and keeping you held up in this evil hotel. You always assured her that wasn't the case. You didn't care what the outside world held because it didn't have Sally so you weren't interested.

It's late July and it's extremely hot out. You made the mistake of saying how much you missed the beach. Back home the beach was only an hour away from you so from June- August you were a total beach bum.

Sally smiled a sad smile. “ I will never get to experience the beach with you.”

You sighed as you watched fresh tears form in her eyes. From there you set a plan in motion.

You remembered seeing a pool in the basement. You got some of the employees to help you fill it up.

You got Iris and Liz to help you set up telling them they owed you from a previous endeavor you helped them with.

The floor around the pool was covered in sand that the three of you poured out. You found a way to Hook your phone up to the sound system and the sound of beach waves and seagulls filled the room. You set up two beach towels, a picnic basket, and sunglasses.

You left Sally a note in her room attached to a red binki that read “ Put this on and meet me downstairs. Iris will tell you where to go.”

A few minutes later Sally walks into the door with Iris behind her. The blonde gasped as she looked around the room.

“Thanks, Iris,” you yelled to the woman as she walked out of the room.

“Baby. “ Sally says breathlessly.

“What is all of this?” she asked gesturing to the room.

“It's the beach. Our first beach trip!” you said happily.

“Do you like it?” you asked nervously as you watched the blonde look around the room.

“I love it!” she says with a huge smile.

She runs over to you picks you up off the ground and spins you around.

“I love you. I love you. I love you.” she chants as she kisses all over your face.

You giggled “I love you too.”

“We have towels, sand, water, food, drinks, music. The day is all ours” you said.

She smiles as she gives you a long kiss. “ I love you so much, baby.”

“I love you, Sally.”

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Group Chats 7

Cordelia Goode x Mina Venable x Billie Dean Howard

Mina💜: “This generation is doomed. The whole generation. I can't fathom how people can be so juvenile and so…so ughhh! I can't even put it into words. “

Billie ✨: “Well hello to you too Venny.”

Delia🖤: “Darling are you alright?”

You: “ Mina? You good?”

Mina 💜: “ NO I'M WORKING WITH CHILDREN I SWEAR!”

Yn: “ Awe come on Mina they can't be that bad.”

Mina💜: “ They called me Mommy.”

Delia🖤: “What?”

Yn: “ 🫢”

Billie✨” I heard that's a compliment now. Right y/n?”

Yn: “ It can be yes. Wait did they call you Mommy or Mother?”

Mina 💜: “ What does that matter? There is no difference.”

Yn: “ Yes there is!”

Delia🖤: “ Wilhemina honey I wouldn't let them get you worked up. They're just here for their internship and then they will be gone.”

Mina💜: “ I overheard them talking in the break room. They think it's hot when I yell. Called me a milf or mommy whatever and talked about how hot my cane is. They said I wish she’d hit me with it! I caught some of them staring at it when I was getting on to them. What is wrong with these kids?”

Billie✨: “ 😂🤣”

Delia🖤: “ oh my.”

Yn: “ Okay to be fair you're a milf. A sexy one at that. If you were into it I would totally call you mommy or daddy. But only in the bedroom. Being called mother just means you're hot which you are. Hello! It is extremely hot when you yell or get mad unless I'm in really big trouble then I'm scared. I sometimes do wish you'd hit me with your cane. Or spank me with it. So I get where they're coming from.”

Billie✨: “ 😳 🫢”

Delia🖤: “ I'm speechless.”

Yn: “What like y'all never thought about it?”

Mina💜: “ Like I said DOOMED! 🤦‍♀️”

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Birthday

Cordelia Goode x Mina Venable x Billie Dean Howard x Reader

Today is your birthday and normally you don't make a big fuss about it. You love celebrating others but not really your own. Gift-giving others is always more fun in your opinion. However, your girlfriends had other plans. This was the first birthday you celebrated with them and they wanted to make it memorable.

Billie and Cordelia made sure to cancel all weekend plans for the four you to spend quality time together. They both cooked your favorite meal and Mina brought home some wines for you to try. It was the perfect night. Just a quiet night in with your three favorite women…what more could you ask for?

Billie cleared the table and then she came back quickly as Cordelia grabbed your hand rubbing it softly.

“This has been the best birthday,” you said smiling at the women.

“It's far from over babydoll.” Billie smiles.

“What do you mean?” you asked looking at them in confusion.

“Sweetheart you know how the three of us have our own special place in the house? You know our space for just us,” she says.

You nod. Of course, you knew this. When they bought the house it was just the three of them and each woman wanted a space that was just theirs. Cordelia had a greenhouse built for all of her herbs, and plants, and her spell books.

Billie Dean got her very own walk-in closet which was home to her many expensive bags, clothes, and shoes.

Wilmeina had her office/den that once she entered she was not to be disturbed. Unless you were dying or something. You had never even been in there.

“We wanted you to have your own space as well,” Cordelia says as she softly pulls you up and leads you down the hallway.

“We all thought long and hard about what you might want and we finally came up with an idea,” she says.

“You can change it if you don't like it.” Mine adds quickly.

The three women stand in front of the double doors which you now noticed looked different like they had just had a fresh paint job.

“The home offices?” you asked.

They smiled as they opened the doors. The smell of vanilla and books hit your nose as soon as those doors opened. The office had been removed into one huge library. The walls were floor-to-ceiling with bookshelves. The wood was a dark oak color and the shelves were deep. It looked old and expensive. Some of them had been filled to the brim with the books you already had which you had stashed down here. There was a ladder that would be able to slide across the room.

You smiled “Just like Belle.” you thought to yourself.

Two arms wrapped themselves around your waist as lips kissed your cheek softly.

“Just like Belle my love,” Cordelia said with a smile.

Normally you would be mad about her listing in on your thoughts but right now you were too happy.

You smiled with tears in your eyes as you looked back at them.

“It's so beautiful. I don't deserve all of this.”

“You deserve everything. “ Mina corrects you.

“I. I don't know what to say,” you said shaking your head.

“I. Thank you! All of you. I've never been given something so wonderful. So personal. I'm speechless.” you said looking around the room.

“We all agreed you deserve your own space plus you love to read,” Billie says kissing you softly.

Cordelia nods as she also gives you a small kiss. “Happy Birthday sweetheart.”

“Thank you.” you smiled.

“Thank you. Thank you.” you cheered as you ran and jumped into the fluffy oversized chair that you would definitely be living in once you were in this room.

They giggled “You're Welcome.”

“Listen I know this is my space and all but all three of you are welcome. Especially you Mina I know you love to read,” you said smiling up at the woman.

The redhead walks closer to you and leans down gently to kiss your lips.

“Thank you little one.”

“Thank you!” you smiled looking over the library once again.

“I can't believe y'all did this for me,” you whispered in awe.

The three women smiled at you and then at each other.

“We would do anything for you,” Cordelia said, and the three of them shared a silent agreement.