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BRINGING THIS BEAUTY BACK!!! HAPPY GF DAY!!!

“HAPPY NATIONAL GIRLFRIEND DAY” — ot7

synopsis: your enhypen!bf wishes you a happy national gf day

tag: ot7 x f!reader (separate) , niki x idol!reader, established relationship, canon compliant, fluff, humour, crack

warning: spelling and grammar errors, swearing, might be ooc

reblogs + comments appreciated

authors note: HAPPY NATIONAL GF DAY!! well it’s over for me but for many of you i think it’s rn as i post this 😻 i hope you enjoy my first ot7 ALSO you should definitely watch my youtube video i made with my friends for national gf day 🫡

희승 | heeseung

rest under cut

제이 | jay

데잌크 | jake

성훈 | sunghoon

선우 | sunoo

정윈 | jungwon

니키 | niki

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it’s a hard life being a stem student when all you want to do is write and read fan-fiction

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#needthat.

NO #DONOTNEEDTHAT where you read the most heart wrenching, gut punching, organ stealing, finger tingling, brain swelling angst ever and would never wish it on your worst enemy.

may this NEVER FIND ME. MAY IT DIE ON THE HILL IT WAS BORN ON. MAY IT BE TERRIFIED OF ME

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post-fanfiction clarity when you just spent 16 hrs + straight reading a fic and you catch up/finish it

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LaDs x non!mc , angst

non!mc idea where in every universe, in every timeline, you’re only there to watch one of the Lis fall in love with MC. you, as their closest companion, stuck by their side since the dawn of time, bare witness of a love story never for you.

and now we’re in the current timeline and you watch it happen all over again.

You've grown to watch silently, in the background. In the shadow of MC. Her beauty, her confidence, her kindness.

You've seen in all before, the way they look at her, love her, yearn for her; sucked into her gravity. And like your love for the Lis, you're pulled into too, forever following, watching, but never experiencing. 

You've mastered silent devotion, a writhing, numbing ache that you can never seem to rid. Heavy on the chest, suffocating to the heart. Since you couldn't  love them loudly like they do with MC, yearn them in the same way they yearn for her; you sit back and grow hollow, more empty. 

Even when tragedy strikes, perhaps a fatal injury by a wanderer, a horrible collision with a car, a terrible drowning, a freak accident; maybe pure exhaustion. You're left to revel in your own patheticness, of loving someone untouchable. 

In many ways, you're just like them.

Because, even in your final breath,  you think of them, and how much you love them despite all it all. 

Maybe the gods pity you, lord knows you've done enough yourself. Now reincarnated to a new world, our world. where Linkon is just some made up place in a game everyone’s been raving about on twitter. where you’re happy; whole; complete. 

Where you hold no memory of your past life. No memory of them. 

In your new life, as you play Love and Deep Space and design your MC the way you’d think the LIs would love. They’re looking at you. Really look at you, maybe for the first time since the duration of your friendship? relationship?

because after your death, something unspeakable till this day. they’ve finally noticed your absence. the silence. 

Unable to fill the hole you left, not with work, not with time, not with love. 

so when their phone lights up, months after your death, and they see you. Alive, and look it too. much more alive than they've ever seen you. Your face is so bright, almost glowing. and you bar a smile they have never seen. or at least, they don’t remember.

you’re alive and you’re happy.

Soon, they find the pattern of your appearance, when they’re phone lights up and your beaming face appears. and so they wait, daily, to see you again.

when you talk to ‘them’ through your phone, about your life, your troubles, your joys. they just sit and listen, listen to all you have to say.

Because their version of you isn't here anymore. They can’t hear your voice, see your face, feel your touch.

This time, they'll love you right, like how they should have all along. Pulled into the gravity that is, you. So they cling to you, through their  phone. 

Close enough to hear you, to see you, but never touch you.

have fun

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#48 with Ni-ki for your 1k celebration event. You can use whatever you’d like for the trope (maybe fake dating or childhood friends?)

7:55pm — nrk

tags: ni-ki x reader, fake dating, prompt #48, "okay, that's it. we're leaving. come on.." , fluff, crack

word count: 1.3k , not proofread, likes + comments + reblogs appreciated

°❀⋆manny's 1k celebration event .ೃ࿔*:･

After 4 months of faking your relationship with, equally as infamous, famous Ni-ki, people are starting to suspect something. Because, Ni-ki being Ni-ki, was known for his physical touch and his closeness to people. He drapes a lazy arm around his friends, leans on them, punches them, literally anything as long as he glues himself to their side.

But after getting together with you, people startb to notice how you and Ni-ki barely interact. Sure they see you two always together in the hallways, lunch, sometimes even catch you togetehr after school. But there's always been a distance between you two, a barrier that was unspoken. For all the time theyve seen you and Ni-ki together, theyve only seen you hug once, hold hands twice, and possibly a finger graze one other time.

Outsiders assumed that you– in particular– were not much for PDA, with your quiet disposition, standoffish personality, but with how his friends ended up befriending you too, they come to think otherwise.

Ever the observant. Sunghoon was the first to notice, to see how you and Ni-ki bickered with eachother— like a married couple— but still standing within arms length of eachother. How you’d walk side by side, but never bump into eachother. not even once.

Then it was Sunoo, who was quick to take in how you never shied away from Jake’s constant high fives and aggressive back pats, but never seem to even come close to the minimal effort you and Ni-ki put into the relationship.

and later, each member had their encounter with you’re down to earth ness, and attraction to physical touch despite what you lead others to believe.

Now you’ve started to pick up more eyes on you than normal. you’ve gotten used to the lingering gaze of others, becuase Ni-ki being Ni-ki, you were bound to be the talk of some conversations. How you’d here some defend you and your shy (not really) demeanour, but not Ni-ki’s (now yours too) friends.

You’re all out at the theme park, after begging from Jake and Ni-ki saying it’d be good for your relationship’s reputation.

After the obligatory rides forced by Ni-ki, and a queasy amount of overpriced carnival food and a blurry hour of god knows what, you’ve all settled down together, on one of the picnic tables.

you sit across from ni-ki, who’s finishing off what’s left of your red bean bun. Despite how tired you are, you’re still inclined to tune into the conversation.

“We just had our first kiss last week!” Sunoo recounts, just getting into a relationship of his own barely a month ago.

Absent-mindedly, you reach over to Ni-ki, silently asking for the bubble tea you guys decided to share.

“That’s crazy! The honeymoon phase is so strong with you too!” Jake exclaims as he stuffs his face with various fried foods. “i think it’s normal” Jungwon adds as he reaches a hand over to jake to stop the inhalation of food.

“yeah you’re right” Jake nods, though he doesn’t relent in the food in his hold. Then his eyes flick towards you and ni-ki.

He observes you both silently, how you’re chewing on your straw, completely zoned out while Ni-ki stuffs his mouth with more taiyaki.

“hey, did you guys have your first kiss already?” Jake blurts out, which instantly snap both you and Ni-ki’s attention.

you share a brief gaze to each other, silent panic in your bones.

“why?” you retort back, short and curt.

Jake simply shrugs, “you’re nearly at your 5 month anniversary, and i barely see you too even bump shoulders” he says it like it’s the most obvious thing in the world.

“it’s because his shoulders are at the ceilings” you’re quick to reply, but you know it’s true.

you got into a fake relationship for your family to get off your back about setting you up with a family friend and his to stop the rapid flow of confessions heading his way.

you were merely strangers at first, in two completely opposite ends in the social circles. barely even knowing each other's names before you decided to strike up a deal with each other.

and despite how annoying he is, you’ve become unlikely friends— maybe likely with how often you spend around others. Nonetheless, you guys are close.

But you hope that it isn’t just you who notices the lingering gazes you give each other, the smallest presence of electricity when your knees knock into each other, the way your pinkies graze; the way you seek for him when you walk into a room.

You hope.

“don’t be weird, we like how lowkey our relationship is” Ni-ki quips, punching Jake's shoulder for good measure.

until Heeseung decides to add his 2 cents.

“Jake’s right, for all the time we see you two together, you seem to not be close”

For obvious reasons, you can't reveal your relationship, and you can’t reiterate enough about how the mere actions Ni-ki does makes your heart skip.

“it’s like you guys aren’t even togeth-“

“Okay, that's it. we're leaving. come on.” Ni-ki suddenly declares as your eyes instinctively follow his standing figure. you’re mid sip when Ni-ki pulls you along by the wrist hearing cheers coming from your friends as you leave.

Ni-ki drags you all the way to the ferris wheel. his fingers around your wrist leaves a burning sensation. Your cheap soda was discarded at some point, leaving you undeniably parched as your eyes follow the leading figure in front of you.

You don't even know when he bought tickets for the ferris wheel, only that you're suddenly in a carriage, sitting awkwardly across from your pretend boyfriend.

Ni-ki is slumped over, in a sulky position, as you stare out the window to watch people turn into ants.

“You know” you start, as your eyes flick to glance at Ni-ki. “I wouldn't mind kissing you, you know, to shut them up” you choose to leave out the part where your heart is patter so irrecoverably hard against your chest that you're sure would rattle against the cart’s walls.

Ni-ki all but stares at you, eyes of bewilderment finding your figure. Your own staring out the window, the sunset shining into the carriage, the slight wobble of the cart– doing everything but look at him.

Suddenly, the space inside the carriage seems too tight, too small, as your feet somehow knock into Ni-ki’s.

And then there's a hakting pause that swings your cart, shaking it hard enough to lose your seating.

When you find yourself on top of Ni-ki, hand securely around your waist as the other one braces himself.

You try your best to not make eye contact as your hand finds home tucked into his chest.

“Im gonna kill myself” you mutter to no one in particular, though he doesn’t miss the reddening of your ears as you look down, and you sure don’t miss the creeping blush on his cheeks.

A deep, reverbated chuckle erupts in his chest, and suddenly you're pulled deeper into his chest and feel his chin settle on top yours.

“Not here” he laughs, and your eyebrows knit.

“Huh?”

“Killing yourself i mean” he jokes, stroking your hair softly.

“But a kiss, i'm totally up for”

So you lean up without hesitation, lips on his like it's the simplest thing in the world.

And time stops.

Until you hear Ni-ki’s phone vibrate once. And then twice, and then it's a cacophony of buzzing that unfortunately pulls you both away with a frustrated sigh.

“These idiots” he sighs, pulling out his phone and being welcomed with an array of sneaky videos recorded from the bottom of the ferris wheel.

You laugh heartily as you settle yourself back on your seat, much to Ni-ki’s dismay, peering over to look down to your group of friends, camera pointed up like paparazzi.

At least now, faking it will be a little easier.

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bro is draco malfoy 🙏

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stem/humanity student writing fanfiction pipeline 🤩

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love nonchalant dreadhead ni-ki agenda 🙏🙏

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to those who love —

it’s the quiet moments, he thinks, that he loves the most.

Of course, he loves your personality, your many quirks and several qualities. He loves the way your presence fills the room, how it consumes and leaves nothing but you in its wake.

the way your laughter, ever enchanting, spreads through him, how it sends him into a silence that no one can bring him out of.

you’re so captivating, so loveable, so unapologetically

you.

the most you that you can be, and he wishes nothing less (or more) from you, because all he wants is you.

In the dead of night, away from the troubles, away from the worries. away from the world.

where it’s just you and him. your hand caressing his jaw, so gently, as it glides to follow his sharp line.

it travels up and to his ear, then to his cheek.

He leans into your touch like he doesn’t know what else to do; like it’s the only thing he knows.

he tilts his head and kisses your wrist.

He can feel the patter of your heart against his. how it beats so loudly. how he can hear it, the silence, you’ve talked about.

when he takes your hand between his, and let your presence envelope him.

he just listens. like you always do.

he yearns for silence the same way he yearns for your loudness.

because ultimately, he yearns for you.

“i love you”

i love you i love you i love you i love you

you cock your eyebrow to the sudden declaration. Though, you hold back a snarky remark when you take in the way he’s looking at you, like he had a million things to say, and not enough words to say it with.

So you lean in, a sweet kiss to the corner of his lips and he can feel your lips twitch into a smile.

“i love you too”

so maybe he was lying when he said that he loved the quiet moments the most, because as you lay underneath him, with a smile on your face, staring into his eyes like he’s the only person in the world, like he’s the only person that matters, he thinks about how much he just loves you.

and just being with you is enough.

we love men who yearn

⤷ NI-KI, Jungwon, Sunoo, SUNGHOON, Jake, Jay, Heeseung, myung jaehyun, HYUNJIN, felix, beomgyu, soobin, your faves

⤷ GOJO, nanami, megumi, yuji, sakusa, AKAASHI, sae, nagi, rin, peter parker, honourable DICK GRAYSON mention, tim drake, percy jackson, CALEB (lads), rafayel, zayne, KAZUHA KAEDEHARA, shinso, todoroki, your faves

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men who yearn.

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yall don’t even know it but i just read one of the BEST manhwas of my life and currently entering withdrawal 🙏🙏

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omg yall IT WASNT MY FAULT 🙏🙏 thankyou tumblr chris for fixing the problem 🤩🤩🤩

girl im crashing out because my anime blog i think is shadowbaned or soemthing LIKE WHY ARENT YOU APPEARING ON ANYTHING, I CANT EVEN BLAZE IT. i even tested out if its just not a popular tag but legit, the random posts i did here get more traction than the entire other blog. SAVE MEEE

(im rn talking about my nagi posts)

pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease helpme i do NAWT want to start a whole new blog beauause i spent so long revamping it...........

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all i see on my dashboard is me crashing out 😐

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girl im crashing out because my anime blog i think is shadowbaned or soemthing LIKE WHY ARENT YOU APPEARING ON ANYTHING, I CANT EVEN BLAZE IT. i even tested out if its just not a popular tag but legit, the random posts i did here get more traction than the entire other blog. SAVE MEEE

(im rn talking about my nagi posts)

pleasepleasepleasepleasepleasepleaseplease helpme i do NAWT want to start a whole new blog beauause i spent so long revamping it...........

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i can’t stop thinking about eliminated nagi ITS ACTUALLY TRAUMATISING

GET A GRIP GIRL!!!!!

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can you get shadow banned on tumblr 🤔