mamajwall

[mamajwall]

She has two faces.

One face that she shows the world, loved ones, and in public.

The smiling one.

The happy, friendly, and talkative one.

The confident one full of laughter and positivity.

The face that everyone is used to.

The second face is the real face.

The one she tries not to show anyone.

The face behind closed doors, when she's alone away from the world, in the security of her own emotions that she doesn't want to show anyone else or have to explain them.

It's exhausting trying to look happy and like nothing is bothering you.

The face that stares off at nothing or patterns on the floor or drapes.

The face that cries in the shower, in bed, car rides alone, cries sitting on the couch, or doing things around for house.

The sad face that stares back at her in the mirror and looks nothing like she used to be.

Well to her anyway. Others say she looks the same. The face that looks strong to the people she knows, but is really just shards of broken glass inside.

Yes, the girl that was there for everyone, and strong for others..is now split into two.

Two faces, one broken spirit.

She can't bear the losses.

It feels like a chapter of a wonderful book closed never to be open again.

All she has are memories and visions in her head that she plays over and over.

Nothing is the same to her.

Everything is different. She can't cope with daily life, her Doctor said. So she writes to help herself, and she has her two faces.

What's funny is, the sad face is the face worth a thousand words underneath in the depths of complexity.

While the happy face full of laughter, love, positiveness, and fun..is a straight shooter."

-️ Michele McKenna

- Artwork : unknown

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“Never give up on something you really want. It may be difficult to wait, but it is worse to live with regret.”

— Unknown

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i really hope we never lose each other

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“How long they choose to love you will never be your decision.”

— Drake; Thank Me Now

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i hate how quickly my eyes gets filled with tears whenever i'm hurt or angry

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“How long they choose to love you will never be your decision.”

— Drake; Thank Me Now

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“You are every reason, every hope, and every dream I’ve ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, every day we are together is the greatest day of my life. I will always be yours. And, my darling, you will always be mine.”

— The Notebook

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“Letting go of someone who owns your heart is hard. Sometimes holding on to that person is even harder.”

— J. Sterling, The Perfect Game

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Back to hating Mondays

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This is nearly impossible for me

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The feeling of when you need someone but you don’t have them in your life anymore so you just sit there thinking about what you could’ve done to change the outcome but realise it was inevitably going to happen.

-I love you

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“You owe yourself the love you so freely give to others.”

— Unknown