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It’s like my gender dysphoria and body dysmorphia made one of those Dragon Ball fusion dances and my ED came out

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All I've done is struggle and trying to be happy only made me fat and pathetic.

11/28/2021

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If I had not fucking gained 50 lbs after highschool I could have been binding so much easier. Work fucking kills. I could have been better looking for him.

11/28/2021

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tw//eating disorder mention

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it makes me so sad to see young transmasc people on this app fueling their ed with their dysphoria and pushing stereotypes that you have to be skinny to be recognized as your gender. i wish i could tell them all that thats not the case and that their minds are tricking them.

they make borderline transphobic comments in relation to themselves, saying "boys don't have thighs like me" "i'm too thick to be a boy" etc etc. it makes me so sad. boys DO have thighs like you. there are fat and chubby cis boys. there are cis boys with thick thighs and wide hips. and even if there wasn't, you would still be valid. if you see yourself as a boy, if you are a boy, you have thighs like a boy. your body is a boys body. trans people are beautiful and perfect how they are. trans peoples bodies are different and thats ok. you don't have to be skinny to be valid in your identity. i know how it feels to think that your gender expression is tied to your weight and appearance, but please try to deconstruct that. its so untrue and toxic.

so many transmascs are pressured to be skinny, androgynous and perfect. this isn't something everyone can achieve. wanting to be like that is killing so many young people, hurting so many children. all i want is for trans people to accept themselves. its so hard to get acceptance from other people why do we have to keep tearing ourselves down like this?

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I want to be a pretty boy too..

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God I fucking love thinspo on Pinterest.

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androgynous hand/wrist thinspo

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My fbi agent watching me download tumblr again after another failed recovery

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me @ me: just talk to them u guys are mutuals

also me @ me: BUT AM I MUTUAL ENOUGH????

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i think its kind of funny how ppl dont believe me when i say 'i forgot' bc i genuinely say it so much that theyre just thinking to themselves 'shit man theres no way this dude actually forgets that much' and then i get to watch them slowly realize that yes, i do actually forget That Much after watching me forget what i was saying in every convo the moment smth distracts me

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I don’t think people realize how different losing weight makes you look. Like yeah maybe your tummy gets smaller but the real difference is in your face. Once that double chin is gone and those cheek bones and jawline pop out you’re looking like a whole new person. It’s crazy.

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3 mile run in an hour

05/23/2020

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am i the only one lmao

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Things I’m looking foward to...

-Feeling my bones (mostly my hip and collar bones)

-Being able to wear crop tops

-Felling dainty 

-People noticing and telling me

-Fitting into clothes and jeans again

-Feeling confident and skinny

(comment to add to the list <3)

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i hope u lose 6 lbs this week! u don’t have to like or reblog this just sharing the good energy

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Quarantine be like that....