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We’re both so difficult.

I really don’t like this.

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Please turn your cellphone on, answer my call, text me or go online I'm so worried.. I can't stop thinking on what you're up to there or what's on your mind.. You've been so down lately and i can't do anything about it. I don't know if I'm capable of making you feel better even just a tiny bit or i just add up to your burdens in your chest. It's so discomforting to see the person who uplifts you in your worst situation become sad and down and having negative insights about life.. Please be okay.. everything's going to be alright..

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one of my all time fave song 

~~~~~ <3

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pak me too, fml, fffff

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Sige, pakyuol

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Garo mayong improvement sa buhay ko, mayong development. Ibahun, ibahun sa feeling na garo dae mo aram kung ano gusto mong mangyari in the future. Syempre siguro kada college student may vision na sinda kang future ninda, kang magiging work ninda, pero ako mayo. Nakakasuya na. Nakakasuya. Habo ko na lang mabuhay, pirmi na lang mamundo, madalas nagtuturog akong mamundo, mamata ako iniisip ko bagong aldaw na naman na kamunduan. Habo ko naman maging arog kaini, gusto ko naman maging positive sa buhay. Aram ko nasa tao naman lang yan, pero dawa anong pirit kong maging maugma, dae ko mananggad maloko sa sadiri ko na sa kairarumiraruman kko, mamundo ako.Nasusuya a ako sa buhay ko, dipukal. Marautun ako, pero mamundo talaga, pirmi na alng akong maundo, gusto ko na ning matapos. Anong way para matapos na ning kamunduan ko? Habo ko na. Gusto ko ng dae maghangos pero dae pwede, pano si mama. Matios na lang ako. Titiusun ko na lang ning kamunduan. Fuck my life.

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I mentally killed myself a hundred times already.

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Nothing bad happened but fml..

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Ugh. Please, be happy .

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I wanna die :l I want a hug from Jesus.

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I want to accomplish something.

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I want to collect like a  thousand good memories before I die.

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I’m trying so hard to be positive.

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Sanay naman ako sa ganitong feeling, kaya ayos lang :)

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I feel like writing anything.

Haha. Just wanted to write here (for myself) that there were so many things happened that i didn’t typed here before. Right now, I just want to feel nothing. I’m tired of being me. I’ve caused the death of my pet, I’ve been an irresponsible fur parent. My rabbit died, my fish died, my two kittens died. I’ve been a burden and useless one to my partner. I’ve been so selfish to a close friend and it’s just uhm, she don’t deserve a friend like me cause i’ve done something impulsively wrong that i didn’t think first of how it will affect her. Ugh. Also, why can’t I even love my major? I feel so disappointed to myself whenever i think of not liking my major. UGH. Ihmyself. Maybe I was born to be like this. Yah life is really beautiful but i'm so stupid that i don’t even know how to add colors on it. Coward, afraid, terrible, stupid, dull, boring, annoying.

I don’t want to cause any more trouble to anyone.

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In the mood for an indie music.

Nothing Lasts

I pray to God To stop these thoughts It works for me Can't you see I know that I'm better I'm writing this letter To my past self Sitting on the shelf Nothing lasts Its for the best I won't stay here I won't stay there Cause' now I'm happy For you have changed me I am so thankful No longer painful

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I like this song.