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nobody at this university fw 2hollis like i do

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i just hate that sometimes religion enables people to justify tragedy. i get that some folks need to find peace in awful situations, but the idea that everything happens for a reason implies that there is some sort of better purpose that the evils of the world serve. idk it just seems insensitive to me, i saw a reel of this guy defending gods decision to let people die of brain cancer online and it was on instagram so it actually probably wasnt worth using more than 2% of my brainpower on but i think about this all the time and its why i cant bring myself to convert

I love jesus so much but i just dont understand why god lets bad things happen to humanity. why hasnt god punished us for destroying his earth, destroying eachother, creating the vicious cycle of capitalism and fascism? i just dont get it. why wouldnt god intervene during the slave trade, or during WWII, or during colonialism? i need to talk to a preist

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i too am guilty of wanting to be sedated and happy under capitalism since my needs are being met, but heaven is unethical.

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i am the king of being chalant

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being super chill and laid back this week to make up for all of the times i was insane and chalant last week

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how it feels to have a crush when you lowkey a chopped ho

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i can’t go out with anyone i turn into an obsessive freak who can’t stop reeling through their thoughts overthinking everything idk how to be nonchalant im trapped in my chalant prison someone help

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i can never open up this fucking app in public because everything will be so normal and then all of a sudden ASS comes on my screen no warning or gore sometimes like bro.

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too young for a brock hampton phase too old to be listening to nettspend just old enough for 2hollis

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party party party

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biggest learning curve: pity isn’t the same thing as love

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i told myself that i hated my father today, but i love him and i think that hurts even more than hating him

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I walk through the snow

the cold kisses my nose

and my hands hurt so deeply from freezing

but I keep up my stride

warmed up by pride

because spring is silently waiting

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this entire week i have been going back and forth between feeling immense hope and unwavering mourning

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everyone always said that once i got older i would become more jaded and less sensitive but i think its been the opposite

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i legit hope this is just me feeling hormonal before a period because i can’t do another depression slump while im in a school

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i don’t feel masc or femme anymore i just feel tired