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Camp robber

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Bela Lugosi and Helen Chandler in Dracula (1931)

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I saw this study that said you should scream MUM/MOM instead of HELP if you're in trouble because statistically more women came to that person's aid

And that got me really emotional. I love women with my entire soul.

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So, I have an impulse to 'like' every cat video I see on tiktok because I feel guilt for not liking the kitty.

Doesn't matter how popular or great the video is, I will like a video of someone's cat with zero views.

And because of this, the algorithm is showing me more and more of people's cat videos and I'm stuck in this endless loop of guilt and pressing a heart button on badly shot videos of cats with like Russian music playing over it

What do I do

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Hand painted, exceptionally rare miniature bat fan.  On thin shaved wood.  Circa 1900.

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Morels

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Misty night 🌀

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I'm definitely also experiencing some autistic burnout.

Masking is something I have done since I was a child and I find it hard to not mask, and masking is EXHAUSTING. The more I'm around people the more I mask and the more tired I am, the more closer I get to burnout.

I am burnt out. I don't need more human interaction outside of being with my partner.

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I wish people understood that I am not only pregnant but I'm fucking chronically ill lol.

And I have so many days where I am already devoting energy and time to going to important doctors appointments. It seems like they are multiple times a week. There is always something. And I have to travel so far for these appointments at my maternity hospital.

I'm. Just. So. Tired.

People feeling entitled to my attention and energy because THEY are excited about my pregnancy, is not something I was anticipating.

Calling me unexpectedly, showing up to my home unexpectedly, because you want to give me something for the baby or just talk to me about the baby.

I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but I want people to just leave me alone.

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People feeling entitled to my attention and energy because THEY are excited about my pregnancy, is not something I was anticipating.

Calling me unexpectedly, showing up to my home unexpectedly, because you want to give me something for the baby or just talk to me about the baby.

I don't mean to sound ungrateful, but I want people to just leave me alone.

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Like

A former coworker of mine messaged me being really sweet saying she had baby clothes to give to me, and I was like amazing thank you that's so nice and so helpful!

She asked if I'd be home the next morning, I reluctantly said yes (chronically ill, fatigued, and also pregnant and just not a morning person at ALL) - so I use my precious limited energy to clean the house, then I set an alarm the next morning. I get showered and dressed and I wait.

She doesn't show up.

Now she wants to intrude on my weekend. My precious precious weekend, to come to my home then instead.

And I'm just like aaaaaa no no no that's my space and my time and I'm giving so much of myself to other people lately and I feel stretched so thin.

The amount of people demanding my attention and company lately is overwhelming and making me want to shut down.

I feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions. My phone's notification noises make me anxious. Seeing the amount of messages and notifications I'm getting makes me want to throw my phone away.

I have had so much on my mind and so much to do and I just want some peace and quiet in my own little bubble.

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The amount of people demanding my attention and company lately is overwhelming and making me want to shut down.

I feel like I am being pulled in so many different directions. My phone's notification noises make me anxious. Seeing the amount of messages and notifications I'm getting makes me want to throw my phone away.

I have had so much on my mind and so much to do and I just want some peace and quiet in my own little bubble.

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Bothersome beast, comforting friend

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