mackstate-ofmind

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you know you're in a dark place when you can't even enjoy music anymore

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I genuinely want to kill myself. As a matter of fact, I’m developing a new plan. I will go out with a bang

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friendly reminder for the new twitter refugees:

change your icon/pfp and put something coherent in your blog description or you're going to get blocked bcs people think you're a bot

this site is built around reblogs, so please actually reblog posts(especially art and fics!!)

you can set your likes and follows to private

checkmarks here are a meme and mean nothing

follower counts are private and we like it that way, so get used to not judging people by that metric

drama and discourse is boring, use your blacklist and block button liberally

DON'T CENSOR YOURSELF!! we can swear and say kill and make fun of corporations all we want, and if you tiktok-ify your tags people who have things blacklisted for whatever reason will still see them, and people who want to see that content won't be able to find it!! spell words out normally, you won't get in trouble!!

tumblr live is sketchy as hell and full of fake accounts, if you decide to use it anyway may god have mercy on your soul o7

be nice to the reddit refugees, they're our friends <3

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Wake up

If I never draw another crystal again I will be ok with that.

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Ayo wassup with all these porn bots following me??

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Second choice … always second choice

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One of the worst parts of self harm and suicidal ideation is when you’re sitting next to someone you love so much and all you can think about is how badly you want things to end.

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I think I’m getting better and then everything gets bad again. 

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On this day one year ago, I was fired from Crumbl Cookies because my grandfather suddenly died and I cried when I found out and was on the clock. They make you sign a waiver to not talk about the recipes that lasts one year after your termination. Well guess what babes. That day, is today. RIP Nanu, you’ve been missed. But for anyone who likes the Chocolate Chip Cookies or the Iced Sugar Cookies, check out the recipes in the links. Feel free to ask about other recipes, it’s been a year but some things are just reskinned versions of these lol. Good Luck and Happy Baking.

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Darkness you are gentler than my lover.

- Walt Whitman

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Ok so I’m watching a MKX tournament on YouTube. Erron Black vs. Kitana. The commentators are talking about Erron Black’s lore and one was wondering if he was a cowboy before he became a bounty hunter bc he is also from Texas. I would like to imagine a headcanon in which Erron Black is good with livestock and actually super gentle with animals

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I just wanna say I don’t like BLACKPINK’s new song. Are the Blinks going to attack me for this? Probabaly. Do I care? Not in the slightest❤️

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So I got the job at the hospital…hopefully I won’t struggle as much since I’ll have two jobs

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What’s the point of me being alive? All I do is suffer and get told I’m not good enough and that I’m not working hard enough. Why did I have to be alive in this time period? I have parents who act like they can’t do shit for me and I have to do everything myself and then they fucking complain when I don’t do the things I need to do. I don’t have any fucking money!! I make $10 an hour just so I can’t make my car payments. I have a job interview this Thursday for the hospital and I’m feeling confident in getting the job, but I still feel like it won’t be enough. Nothing I do is enough. I get to sit back and watch people draw checks for sitting on their ass. I watch people my age have their own apartment, cars, and great paying jobs. I’m watching my old school peers graduate college and wtf am I doing? I’m just a fucking failure and there’s no reason for me to be on this earth. What do I possibly gain from being here?? I’m battling mental illness caused by abuse from family and they get to go on about their lives as if they’ve done nothing wrong and I get to be reminded of how shit I am. WHY TF AM I HERE?? And then when I try to speak up about my feelings everyone just tells me to get over it and that it’s my fault for feeling like this. I’m so fucking tired. I’m fucking done

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I’m convinced my mental disorder will prevent me from being loved