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every time I am reminded of the adult I dated this year, 6 lines of cocaine magically fly up my nose.

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I miss drugs I'm gonna kill myself actually.

5 days sober this shit sucks but it'll probs help.

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I'm still sick guys I'm gonna shoot myself

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post incident pre murder jeff

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she's the closest to heaven that I'll ever get and I dont wanna go home right now

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Toby is a porcelain doll

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teeyeth. gouache watercolor from 2018ish?

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idfk what im doing anymore so heres a self portrait ig ;-;

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went a little out of my comfort zone for this assignment cause I wanted to practice lighting/rendering/environments

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Sing to your stuffies. They love it.

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Screenshots from a video by "imogen" on tiktok. The original video, which is still up if you want to view, was a response video to "date a trans man" as "being a trans man doesn't automatically mean a good experience or good person", which is of course a reasonable take. People are people. She explains that the trans man she dated had a "friend she was told not to worry about, until that friend commit suicide", and that was the bad experience.

Captions of the comments viewed in screenshots: "Heavy on the trans men are men [crying emoji]" "Trans men will do you wrong if not worse" "This is all too real many trans men/masc are super shitty and misogynistic" "The difference is they'll turn around and weaponize their "lack of power" lmao" "Trans men without mood stabilizers should be illegal" "my ex broke it off after feeling poly envy from their partner and gave me chlamydia... so yeah. trans men are men" "They will play with you the exact same way as cis men do LMFAO" "Trans inclusive misandry [liked by creator]" "I bet they [cat emoji] smell insane" "Trans men pls go on mood stabilizers once ur on T [crying emojis]" "Jesus... we really are the worst just across the board [crying emoji]" "As a woman, men are some of the biggest threats to me. You being trans does not exclude you from that fact" "ive heard some t4t HORROR stories and its always the dude fetishizing or cheating on the girl" "Every trans men I dated are either evil asf or lazy idiots" "No because why are half of them just annoying and why are half of them incels" "Trans men treat and talk about trans/cis women way worse especially within their "private" community spaces. let's address that before throwing yet another trans woman under the bus!" "literally why im just transmasc, i could not be a man [100 percent emoji] its also such a man thing to do to be like "not all" so.. i guess theyre doing it right?" "Its like trans men really are the men of the trans community [laughing emoji]" "Do you even see trans men as men? trans men are men, and its ALL men. Choose the bear because men are less predictable." "misandrist isn't a thing. it's ALL men, cis and trans"

The first half of these comments were under the original video, the second half are from the creator replying to a comment that states "wow ur so right bestie lets open up a space to make disgusting comments towards fellow trans people. real queen behavior"

In the reply video, the creator states that "men are terrible, trans or not" and that most of her followers are just trans women sharing their experiences. She ends it with "welcome to manhood. you are now part of the more problematic gender. you're never going to stop hearing 'men suck' 'i hate men'. But if i did hurt your feelings, I would like to formally issue an apology to" and she lists a few "stereotypical" trans man names.

Tell me I'm not crazy. please.

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oh btw hai guys I missed this acc

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Transmasculinity Throughout Time: Lou Alcott

Yes, you heard me. There is substantial evidence that the author of Little Women was in fact a transgender man! He actually didn’t go by the name that Little Women was published under, with family and friends he would go by Lou, Louy, or LM. His children called him “papa” and “father” and his father, Bronson Alcott, called him his son. He said in 1882, “I am more than half persuaded that I am a man’s soul, put by some freak of nature into a woman’s body.” As a child, he said in a journal, “I don’t care much for girls things. People think I’m wild and queer.” He would pass as a man at masked parties for fun, and delighted in people’s reactions. For his entire life, he expressed this identification as a man, and the character of Jo in Little Women was in part a self insert character based on this. So why don’t we hear about him as a trans man? Well, it’s just not convenient for most people to believe that a beloved book about girls becoming women was written by a man.

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5 days sober this shit sucks but it'll probs help.

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Janey <333