lyrabyeo

[lyrabyeo]

i go to hell in 20 years (they better crucify me now.)

hello, i know i've been gone but i wrote a poem the other day. it's not sg or any fandom related, but it's up to u to imagine how u'd like. i listened to see you in hell - yves and fable - gigi perez during this <3

I don't know how much longer I can keep this up.

I know it's hurting you,

it's hurting me to know you're hurting.

I can't do this,

call you by how you don't like,

and that's what we both know.

You said,

"They'll kill me - for being me -

or you,

for loving me for who I am."

But rather it kills me as well.

I know who you are, I'll always know.

If they kill me for loving you,

love the real you,

they'll have to burn me.

They'll burn me,

but I know who you were.

And I say this;

If they kill me for loving you,

I'll gladly die while holding onto you.

They can crucify me,

rip each part of me open.

If it means you'll get to see another day.

For you my boy, I would.

<3

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LIAR!!!!!!! they yell as they swing tomatoes at me . realistically schools been eating me up and my own life is in shambles plsplspls let me stand up rq

errrrrr....... hey? [tucks hair behind ear] trust ill get back into writing.....

[lyrabyeo]

errrrrr....... hey? [tucks hair behind ear] trust ill get back into writing.....

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thinking about baby!saebyeok.... who can only babble and takes naps all the time..... so tiny..... so soft..... so small..... so cute..... so baby..... feeling so little in carer!jiyeong's arms..... baby.... saebyeok....

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getting new fic ideas while having 5+ other ideas and one long unfinished fic up my booty isnt . nice

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I JATE IT JERE!!!!!!!! why did my h stop working

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IM going to cry. eats them

(🖍️) — little!saebyeok just loves to be held…. caregiver!jiyeong just loves it,,,, GRAHHH >_< !!!

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no bcs i dont even have a title for it im MORE than cooked gn

ill try to finish my new fic soon.... just had my senior ball and im beyond Exhausted

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ill try to finish my new fic soon.... just had my senior ball and im beyond Exhausted

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thinking about little saebyeok.... ohh lord.... my perfect precious beautiful sweet baby ohhh.....

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why is it taking me forEVER to finish my next fic aughhhhhhhh i need to lock in

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from thrusday onward ill have a free week btwn exam week and next semester so i have time to write..... mue he he he he....

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fly me to the moooonn 🎶🎶 and let me ??? among the starrrsss 🎵🎶🎵🎶

[lyrabyeo]

how it feels to be the only (active) s1 focused writer

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pls tell me good ideas to write im so blank in my brain rn

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you can ask me, (and i'll come)

Jiyeong has to go out to run some errands and leaves Saebyeok alone, who's unregressed. But maybe, things dont always go as planned.

a/n: this is STUPID OKAY i rlly can't get good ideas but i just wanna write LITTLE SAEBYEOK🙁 leave a girl to be.. title is from a song in my native language [proud]

notes: mama titles, jiyeong calls saebyeok baby and angel, accidents, mentions of diapers/diaper usage, use of pacifiers, THIS ISNT ANGSTY (i hope), THEY ARE DATING 😭😭😭

"Okay then, I'll be back in half an hour. You sure you don't need to come along?" Jiyeong asked, holding Saebyeok by the waist. Jiyeong had to make a quick run to buy some groceries, but was a bit hesitant about leaving Saebyeok alone.

"Mhm. I'll be fine." Saebyeok said, not wanting to worry her girlfriend, who was inches away from her. Though Jiyeong was a lot shorter, Saebyeok much rather prefered being held.

Jiyeong then placed a quick kiss on her lips and took off. As soon as the door closed, Saebyeok returned to her (and Jiyeongs) bed. She did love spending time with her girlfriend, but a few alone moments couldn't hurt anyone - but she did understand why Jiyeong was so hesitant on leaving her alone.

When Jiyeong had found out about Saebyeoks age regression, the girl had became hesitant on leaving Saebyeok alone, in case she regresses and there's no one to help her or be with her; So it was best to play safe. But it did get annoying fast.

Now, as Saebyeok laid in bed alone, she took a few deep breaths in. She was really sleepy. Jiyeong had convinced her to watch a movie till late, and they didn't get much sleep, as it was a horror movie. Heh, look. I can handle being alone very well, Saebyeok thought to herself, before she cradled herself into the sheets and took off to dreamland.

Her deep slumber didn't last for more than 10 minutes. Saebyeok shivered, memory hazy from all thats going on. All she remembers is seeing a nightmare. And now she felt overwhelmingly little. Oh fuck. This can't be happening, She thought to herself, scared out of her mind. She was scared, cold and really tiny. Where was Jiyeong? The realization that Jiyeong was no where to be found, Saebyeok started crying.

Oh, now she'll never get left alone again! But it was the last one of her worries right now. She just wanted her mama to make everything all right. That's all her cloudy and fuzzy mind knew; If she had mama, everything will get fixed.

Like Jiyeong had telepathically heard Saebyeok's thoughts, right then the door opened. "Saebyeok?" Jiyeong's voice rang in the empty halls, but when she listened closer, she heard the soft cries. Oh shit.

Jiyeong quickly kicked her shoes off of her feet and ran towards their bedroom. The door was slightly ajar, good thing it wasn't locked. Jiyeong bursted into the room, quickly cradling Saebyeok in her arms.

"Oh baby, I'm here, I'm here..." she whispered, holding her baby close, only to realize the wet spot on the bed. Oh.

"Hey, angel." Jiyeong whispered, trying to calm Saebyeok down. "You had an accident."

Then the bigger waterfalls erupted. Saebyeok hadn't had an accident in a long time. Last time she did, she was deep in baby space and it was really, really embarrasing, when Jiyeong bought it up.

"No, baby, it's alright. It's all okay. Shh," Jiyeong lulled, voice soft with nothing but love for her baby. She didn't know if Saebyeok understood her words right now, but hoped that she'd understand that she's safe with Jiyeong.

"It's no biggie baby. We'll get you cleaned up. Please don't cry." the carer whispered, but to no avail. Saebyeok kept on crying, cries getting louder as the moments passed. She must be so uncomfortable and cold, Jiyeong thought.

In a moment, Saebyeok's cries slowed down. Jiyeong's pants now had a wet spot, but she paid no mind to it. As her little had cried in her arms, she had time to look for her pacifier.

"Sae, you want this?" Jiyeong cooed, holding her littles beloved pacifier. The littles face lit up a bit, opening her mouth for it. "There's my baby." Jiyeong giggled, when Saebyeok cuddled closer. "We still need to get you changed hun. You must be so uncomfy and cold."

Saebyeok started tearing up again. She did feel cold and uncomfortable, but she much more hated the feeling of humiliation. Having an accident meant that she was super little at the moment of it happening, though she might not be as little right now.

"Oh I know baby. But mama promises," Jiyeong said, petting Saebyeok's head, "When you feel all warm and cozy, we can come back to bed." After she changes the sheets, of course. But she's not going to tell Saebyeok that.

With that, Jiyeong got them both up from the bed, struggling to carry Saebyeok, but managed just fine. Saebyeok had curled up so small in Jiyeong's arms, she swore she could've fallen asleep right there. The carer had taken a change of clothes for the little and a diaper. Yeah, Saebyeok didn't need diapers that often when she was little. But right now, maybe it was more logical to be safe than sorry.

"Won't take long baby, I promise." Jiyeong said, as she laid Saebyeok down on the floor. The other girl had seemingly slipped further into her headspace, possibly teetering on the edge of babyspace. She fussed and kicked while Jiyeong tried to change her.

"No baby, you're okay." Jiyeong hushed, as she closed the diaper. "Please stay still for a second. Mama is right here." She said gently, other hand petting Saebyeok's head. Saebyeok did calm down and stopped kicking. She just babbled when Jiyeong put on the change sweatpants.

"There, all done! You did so well baby," Jiyeong praised, lifting the other girl up and placed a quick and small kiss on Saebyeok's cheek. "Wanna go back to bed now?"

The little nodded, almost falling asleep right there. Saebyeok had never felt so warm and tiny, being in Jiyeong's arms made it even better. Being so tiny and warm, but still safe with mama.

"Okay, sleepyhead." Jiyeong giggled. While she had completely forgotten about the sheets that needed to be changed, they could just sleep on the other side of the bed.

The two climbed into bed, snuggly and warm. Saebyeok had definetly slipped into babyspace, more tinier than she usually was.

Oh, how Jiyeong loved tiny baby Saebyeok. When the little had no other clue in the world, but just her and her mama. And in baby Saebyeok's head, her mama was the world.

The two fell asleep slowly, enjoying each others company and sharing the warmth between them. The world was so big, but the only thing that truly mattered in this moment was the two girls being safe, with each other and nothing else.

a/n; hope this makes more sense than the previous one. this took me a DAY my attention span is so shit AUGHSHSGS