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D. Alan Holmes, Enlightenment // Signet Amenti // @cryptonature // Alan Wilsom Watts // Evan M. Cohen, "Oceans" // Nikita Gill // @pauladoodles // Julian Gough, "Minecraft End Poem" // Sleeping At Last—Saturn

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R.M. Rilke, The Man Watching // Euripides, An Oresteia (trans. Anne Carson) // Oscar Wilde // Hanya Yanagihara, A Little Life // @bitsbyt3s // Mary MacLane, "January 20", The Story of Mary MacLane // Trista Mateer // see 4 // @kafk-a // Olivia Laing, "Loneliness: coping with the gap where friends used to be"

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@januaryhoney // @naynawrites on Instagram // @sunflorally // @geloyconcepcion on Instagram // @lucidloving // @petrichara

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do it scared do it weird do it alone. holy trinity

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from letters to a young poet, rainer maria rilke

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Carmy + tumblr text posts

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THE BEAR, 02.06 + Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents by Lindsay C. Gibson

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To love life even when you have no stomach for it as they say!

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the roy siblings, part I

where things come back by john corey whaley / succession's all the bells say / unknown source / frank ocean's ivy / jenny han / erica e. goode / adventure time's i remember you / jane mersky lader / succession / maurice sendak / jewish literacy by rabbi joseph telushkin / succession / you are jeff by richard siken / brother, sister, rival, friend: the longstanding effects of sibling relationships by oshua a. krisch / antigone by sophocles.

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I love seasonal fruits they're like girl we're back lol

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1.01 // 4.10

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the responses i’ve seen to shiv’s ending seem very quick to write her off as just another sad victim of the cycle, which isn’t without truth BUT!!! that is not even remotely the summation of shiv’s story.

i don’t think she votes yes to “save kendall” or to try to finally set her brothers free. and i don’t think her main concern was that ken was becoming their dad. she absolutely noticed and didn’t love it, but that was not her motivation in betraying him. she was thinking about herself.

it’s tempting to make a martyr out of her as she is the only female child and we see her suffer the onslaught of misogyny that comes with that. but to make her into a saintlike figure who got beat takes away the power and intelligence behind her decision.

at this point she’s stuck between two non ideal choices, but she recognizes that they have accidentally made her the single most important player in the game. because while she can’t have the outcome she’d prefer, she has the power to decide the fates of everyone else. the written off lone woman now holds in her hands the fate of every man in her life.

so she thinks about the long term benefits of both options and realizes that one side leaves her completely without any leverage.

her brothers have proven to her multiple times in the last few days alone that they will cut her out and walk all over her the first chance they get. siding with them leaves her nothing to bargain with. she would just have to hope that ken would actually take care of her. and that level of vulnerability is not only unacceptable to her, it’s stupid. and shiv fuckin roy is not stupid.

so she thinks about the other side and about what she actually wants for her life. and against her better judgment, it’s becomes unfortunately clear that she wants tom. the way she wants him is not altogether loving or even good but it is necessary to her. she sees relationships as having winners and losers and she chose this man specifically so that she could be confident in her ability to win. except now he’s grown some balls and made himself unavailable to her.

she may not like the way her husband is evolving but she already placed her bets on him, so she’s sure as hell not losing to him now. there’s also a part of her that feels intrigued by this new man she’s married to. it’s interesting to have a sparring partner in him instead of having to looking for excitement outside of their marriage.

so for maybe the first time ever, she processes what tom has said to her and thinks about what he actually wants.

he needs her to prove that she cares. he needs to know that she is capable of sacrifice. if she can’t find it within herself to do this for him, then she will lose him, and by extension, she will lose.

siding with tom gives her the opportunity to once and for all make a grand-stand gesture of love, but more importantly, it creates leverage for her. never again will he be able to hold the moral high ground over her head. never again can he say she doesn’t love him. never again can he call her selfish or uncaring. above all, he can never betray her again, because she just removed all of his moral justification for turning on her. he doesn’t realize it yet, but she’s just taken back all the power in their relationship. just in a more subtle way than she’s used to operating.

and just like that, she has the ceo of a multi billion dollar company in her pocket, while situating herself as the only descendant of logan roy to still be playing the game, having removed her brothers from the equation permanently. she may still be far from the top but she’s creating a path for herself to climb.

so yes, she’ll let tom play king for a day, and she’ll have his baby and say “congratulations,” and play the gracious wife, but tomorrow is a new day with lots of room to maneuver. and when her husband puts out his hand, she’ll place her own on top. but she won’t grasp it because she doesn’t need to.

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okay me

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need it on record that i do not condone roman sending the dick pics after gerri told him not to

that being said, she also said ‘this is unacceptable this is completely inappropriate’ when he turned up at her door and propositioned her for a horny conference call and then she put him in that bathroom, so you can imagine his confusion

you can imagine how roman can’t quite understand that she was setting a boundary when she’d been drawing lines in the sand and then jumping straight over them before that point

you can imagine that roman is never going to understand that words and actions have consequences when his dad hit him in front of waystar employees and didn’t even get reprimanded for it. when he’s seen his brother try to kill his father and get pulled in for a hug the next day. when he’s seen his sister start a divorce and end up back in bed with her husband. when he’s seen his dad sign off on the murder of several hundred people and for it to turn out that those people aren’t actually considered real.

you can imagine that roman assumes these same rules apply to him to. you can imagine that roman thinks he can shout at his ex-mentor, ex-partner, ex-something in a room by themselves and threaten to fire her because she’s hurt him and he’s emotional and his father’s body isn’t even in the ground. and you can imagine that maybe roman thinks, when he regrets it immediately, that he might be able to walk it back. after all, everyone else gets to rewrite their mistakes. or hide them away so no one else hears about them.

you can imagine that roman might believe he would be able to cross a line and walk back behind it and for no one to notice the footprints.

but roman can’t do that. roman can’t tell his dad he loves him one more time. roman can’t unfire gerri or unsend a dick pic to his dad or unfuck his personal trainer. but kendall can rewrite the dog pound game and logan can rewrite slapping a tooth out of his head.

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roman roy fails to handle grief and emotion (1568000 fired employees, 533 lawsuits)

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More stories from hell (retail) today I was ringing up this lady and she goes oh I want to do part of this on a gift card and the rest on normal card and I go ok and then she hands me a folded piece of paper. I think oh OK it must be folded around the gift card, right? Wrong. It is a folded sheet of 8×11 printer paper with "$40" written on the inside in ballpoint pen. I go what is this. She says a gift card. I say this is not a gift card. She says yes it is. I say this is a piece of paper with "$40" written on it. She says "well it's a gift card." I say it absolutely is not. I am grinding my teeth. She says well I want to use it. I say you physically cannot do that bc it is a piece of paper. I cannot scan or swipe it. I apologize, as if this is my fault, and not because she is completely insane. I hate it here

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bisexual and brainless