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“Never let the sadness of your past, and the fear of the future, destroy the happiness of the present.”

— Unknown

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“You are the only person you need to be good enough for.”

— Unknown

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I'll always love the moon. But it always fathoms me how far it is from me. I guess in this case, I'm the star in the picture. Always near, yet so far from the things I love.

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“You can run, run, run away from a lot of things in life, but you can’t run away from yourself. And the key to happiness is to understand and accept who you are.”

— Dale Archer

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“I stopped explaining myself when I realized people only understand from their level of perception.”

— Unknown

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“If you find someone who makes you smile, who checks up on you often to see if you’re okay. Who watches out or you and wants the best for you. Who loves and respects you. Don’t let them go. People like that are hard to find.”

— Franz Kafka

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“If you ignore your feelings they will get your attention in other ways.”

— Kathy Kalina

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This week has been weird. Well to be fair everything is weird nowadays. But this week in particular is just different. First, our class reported a professor of ours because of a not so great way of teaching. Then the prof reacted the most immature way possible. Second, I keep looking forward to interactions with someone. You know the feeling of wondering how the day would go? If that person would even speak to you that day. That type of thing. And lastly, the exams apparently got moved. Nothing's for sure yet, but it's kinda nice to have a bit more time to handle stuff.

Anyways that's that. Don't really have anything to say. I hope things get better soon.

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This week has been weird. Well to be fair everything is weird nowadays. But this week in particular is just different. First, our class reported a professor of ours because of a not so great way of teaching. Then the prof reacted the most immature way possible. Second, I keep looking forward to interactions with someone. You know the feeling of wondering how the day would go? If that person would even speak to you that day. That type of thing. And lastly, the exams apparently got moved. Nothing's for sure yet, but it's kinda nice to have a bit more time to handle stuff.

Anyways that's that. Don't really have anything to say. I hope things get better soon.

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Virginia Woolf, “A Passionate Apprentice: The Early Journals, 1897-1909.”

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"Delusions Of The Fragile Mind"

Pretty simple concept with a deep rooted meaning. As the title suggests, it's mainly about our delusions in life. But... This isn't about the people who can think clearly enough that they can distinguish fact from fiction.

This is for the people naive enough to give their all. But in the end they end up losing more than they gave. These delusions of ours gives us false hope. Hope that someday, your imaginary world will come true. That everything will finally be in your favor. But in the end?

It's nothing but delusions...

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Such a mixture of emotions

Y'know, you could say tonight was a night of friendship. Coz on the other hand, one of my closest friends (well there's only two of them now so that really doesn't matter if I say it) gave me the most heartfelt message I've ever received. I then got so emotional because I haven't been feeling like anyone was my friend at all.

And on the other side, I visited a social media app I don't really use anymore after everything that happened. And I saw how those "friends" were now. 1 of them wasn't posting at all. And the other, well they were falling apart. Something about seeing them not okay just makes me sick to my stomach. I could've been there, if I hadn't done anything wrong. I'm questioning myself if I should even be there. Because despite what happened, they were still there for me when I was on a tough spot. So I just want to return the favor.

Idk man, idk.

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Episode 2: Confusing, but Fun Encounters

The next day at Lightwood University felt a little less intimidating for Finn. After his first encounter with Ren in the library, he was still a little nervous about making friends, but there was a faint buzz of excitement beneath his usual awkwardness. Who knew school could actually be interesting?

Finn strolled through the courtyard between classes, clutching his books tightly. He thought about Ren’s drawings—those weird, wonderful worlds she created. He had barely said a word to her yesterday after their brief chat, but he couldn’t help wondering if they’d cross paths again today.

Lost in his thoughts, Finn nearly walked straight into someone carrying a stack of papers. The person stumbled, dropping everything in a flurry of sheets.

“Whoa! Sorry!” Finn exclaimed, bending down to help the girl gather the papers.

“Oh no, it’s fine,” the girl said, crouching beside him. Her blue hair made her stand out immediately, the tips dyed a soft lavender. She wore a bright yellow hoodie that contrasted sharply with her hair. Her laugh was light, as though she was used to things going a little off track.

As they gathered the papers, Finn realized some of them weren’t just notes—there were doodles all over them, weird little creatures and shapes lining the edges.

“You like drawing too?” Finn asked, holding up a page with an alien-like creature doodled in the corner.

The girl smiled sheepishly, taking the paper back. “Kind of hard to focus in class without it.”

“Same,” Finn chuckled, feeling oddly at ease with her. “I’m Finn, by the way.”

“Sydney,” she replied, standing up with the stack of papers clutched against her chest. “You’re new here, right? I saw you yesterday but didn’t get a chance to say hi.”

Finn blinked, a little confused. “You did?”

“Yeah, you were in the library,” Sydney said, shrugging. “Kind of hard to miss someone pulling a wrestling move over a book.” She winked, clearly teasing.

Finn’s face flushed. “Oh... right.”

Before Finn could say anything else, another voice cut through the conversation. “Hey, space boy! Making friends already?”

Finn turned to see Ren strolling toward them with her usual carefree confidence. She gave Sydney a nod and then turned to Finn, a smirk tugging at her lips. “Didn’t think I’d run into you again so soon.”

“Well, I didn’t knock anyone over this time,” Finn said, feeling a little flustered. It was strange—he was so used to feeling awkward around people, but with Ren, it felt like they’d known each other forever, even though it had only been a day.

“You’re making progress,” Ren teased, folding her arms. “But don’t get too confident.”

Sydney chuckled beside them. “So, you’re the famous ‘space boy’ I’ve been hearing about.”

Finn blinked. “Wait, famous? How?”

Sydney pointed to Ren. “She was talking about you at lunch yesterday. Something about your little book tug-of-war.”

Finn groaned. “I swear I didn’t mean to yank it that hard!”

Ren laughed. “Relax, I’m just messing with you. But hey, since you seem to like space so much, I have something you might like.”

She pulled a small folded piece of paper out of her pocket and handed it to Finn. It was a flyer. “Astronomy club meet-up tonight. It’s nothing official, just a group of us who like to hang out on the roof and stargaze. You should come.”

Finn hesitated. He had never been one for clubs or gatherings, and social situations weren’t exactly his forte. But the idea of stargazing? That was different. That was something he could get behind.

“I… I’ll think about it,” Finn said, tucking the flyer into his pocket.

Ren shrugged. “No pressure. But it’s fun. And confusing sometimes, but that’s what makes it interesting, right?”

Sydney grinned. “Yeah, you never know what’s going to happen with this crew.”

As the girls began chatting, Finn found himself caught in a whirlwind of new faces and personalities. It was confusing, trying to keep up with their rapid-fire banter, and Finn often felt like he was one step behind in the conversation. Ren’s quick wit and Sydney’s laid-back humor kept him on his toes, and he wasn’t sure if he was supposed to laugh, add something, or just nod along.

But the weird thing was—he was having fun. Sure, it was a bit dizzying, trying to follow everything, but it was also… nice.

As the afternoon wore on, they ended up sitting on the campus lawn, talking about random things. Ren and Sydney traded funny stories about their teachers, while Finn sat quietly, trying to figure out the rhythm of the conversation. Every now and then, they’d pull him in, asking him questions about his interests, his thoughts on the school, and, of course, his obsession with space.

It wasn’t the most comfortable day for Finn—he was still awkward and unsure of himself—but it was better than he expected. He didn’t feel like he was just watching everyone else from the sidelines anymore. He was part of it, even if he was still figuring things out.

By the time the bell rang for the final class of the day, Ren gave him a quick pat on the shoulder as they stood up. “So, you coming tonight or what?”

Finn hesitated again, but the idea of sitting on the roof, looking at the stars, was too good to pass up.

“Yeah,” he said, giving a small smile. “I’ll be there.”

“Awesome,” Ren said, already walking off. “See you at 8. Don’t be late!”

As Finn walked to his next class, he couldn’t help but smile. Today had been… confusing. But it had also been fun. And maybe, just maybe, things were starting to look up.

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“The best portion of your life will be the small, nameless moments you spend smiling with someone who matters to you.”

— Ritu Ghatourey

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“if big changes are coming, you got this. you’re strong enough”

— Unknown