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an entire heaven grows under my skin

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i feel like myself only when i detach from reality and people in it. this feels bad to realise but i truly cannot stand being so aware when present

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Lately thinking quite a lot about the lack of genuine places for people who need an artistic output. Being artistic or having imaginary visions isn't enough to build up a foundation for future creations. Mainly meaning Arts here but this relates to anything of expressive nature. Internet has been a gateway to that but it requires us to be extremely selective and careful, it is easy to get lost in the awe of the trend epidemic and shallow consumption. Spaces for artists or even just people being into cultural media are somewhat nonexistent... If there are - they have already been turned into a performative ornament, often with an elitist feel. Where to seek for inspirational exchange of insights? Where to seek for a role model? When I was younger I used to believe that as long as I stay true to myself it wouldn't influence me, but, oh, it does. My work has been decreasing in its form and I'm struggling to link different perspectives together. People need to hear from others and seek the autonomy of things. No matter how much of an individualist you are. This issue has linked some arrogant traits in me and I've grown fully aware of their company. The only thing that really makes me thrive creatively at times is music, movies and museum visits when I have the time for it. That doesn't satisfy the need enough though. As I mature I notice much more in the need for a conversation or maybe simply an observation with the other. Hence why I believe we don't see much creative greatness and genuine communication anymore in that context. Everything is rushing and falling into a cryptic mess. Degradation is everywhere truly. What was the last time you had a truthful conversation about music or a film you watched? I don't believe I am the only one feeling how wrong it all feels lately.

I was thinking about restricting myself more when it comes to socials and media online... Last month I did a weekly break from everything and it felt great and next year I will most likely try to disconnect completely for a couple of months. Maybe I could start a youtube channel but make videos private. I would love to build a small community of people who relate to what I talk about...

Goodnight xoxo

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my thoughts are an ecstasi of sweetness and their scent emanates with each step i take.

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Marina Tsvetaeva, from The Essential Poems of Marina Tsvetaeva; "For Anna Akhmatova,"

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Grief is eating me alive. Her light will be in my memories forever, I love you my baby girl.

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日光東観荘

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Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry featured in The Selected Diaries of Virginia Woolf

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i think i finally grown tired of pretending i'm one of them

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you are truly a kindest soul. you are adored by me. 𝜗𝜚˚⋆

thank you dearly ♡

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does your blood match with mine?

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Anne Carson, from "Glass, Irony and God," originally published in 1995

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i guess im too autistic for that all. i need meanings i need connection i need genuine talks i spot fallacious people too easily and it throws me off

am i the only one that feels like people got used to perfomative way of living that even friendships are just decorative and shallow or am i unlucky

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am i the only one that feels like people got used to perfomative way of living that even friendships are just decorative and shallow or am i unlucky

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made of marzipan and cream