I am stronger than my old habits. Getting this tattoo represents my 9 months being clean of cutting. It was 2 years but past trauma and old coping mechanisms got the better of me. This tattoo is the promise to my husband, my children and most importantly myself that my old habits are in the past now.
There aren鈥檛 enough bandaids to fix me,
And I鈥檓 already dying inside,
So I might as well reflect that on the outside,
Despite the fact it hurts my pride.
My skin bears scars all over,
Some of them even spell things.
I don鈥檛 want to look like this,
But don鈥檛 know how to stop the mood swings.
When something pulls that hair trigger,
And simply sets me off,
I feel myself leaving my body,
I have to make it stop.
But that just leads to more of this,
More scars and stares and shame,
I shouldn鈥檛 still be doing this,
I really need to change.