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Happy Birthday Fyodor 💜

11.11.2024

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old fucking rat

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Not even art block will break my now 4?5? year streak of posting Fyodor for his birthday‼️(Yes it‘s back help me😭)

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for his birthday we should execute him by guillotine

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happy birthday, fyodor. may you live up to a 100 more birthdays my love

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'omg dazai treating akutagawa like he did literally makes no sense he just did it because he sucks and i hate him for it'

can we. have a conversation about this without being fucking stupid please. yes dazai fucks him up and its really awful and sucks so bad. yes it isnt necessary for akutagawa's improvement. but like everything with bsd, theres nuance to it that you are ignoring.

the initial meeting between dazai and aku is aku wanting a reason to live and dazai wanting to give him one. a repeat of what mori wanted to give him. (this does not mean those two relationships are the exact same. please guys. please things are different sometimes). Now. dazai assumes the way to give aku a desire to live is to give him purpose. he ISNT training aku to be a mindless killer - thats literally the Opposite of what hes doing. he wants aku to be More than a sword without a sheath. hes teaching aku to be efficient. not just killing people, being smart about it. being what the mafia wants. giving him a purpose through making him useful.

it also probably comes back to the fact that dazai is WRONG about what made him want (barely) to live. he believes it comes from being surrounded by death, thus making the mafia the perfect place for him. booo hes stupid boo hes wrong!! bc it doesnt. hes bored by it and he says that directly in dark era. that he thought being around death would content him with life and it HASNT. bc he was wrong in fifteen. he didnt suddenly become interested in life bc he was doing violence and masterminding for the mafia. it was bc Someone intrigued him.

dazais whole problem stems from apathy, he wants to die because hes Bored with life. nothing interests him. Except people. so he meets chuuya in fifteen and is Interested by him. and that happens to coincide with his first mission for the mafia so he thinks its the death aspect. but it isnt. and we see this repeated with the other people he cares about (oda and ango most obviously). dazais motivations for his plans arent fucking around w death for his own personal entertainment. its looking after his friends. thats the same no matter what canon material ur looking at. and that same reason is why hes alive.

his misinterpretation of that leads him to be wrong abt aku too. aku needs people, he needs a gentle hand to develop best (beast). dazai says himself that aku needs to find someone to be his sheath and that dazai cant be that person (he doesnt know how to be). ofc, the sheath is eventually atsushi and now that we see aku gain strength both with his ability, with strategic thinking, and just emotionally in general its bc of the development hes gone under w atsushi. but guess what? this is more to the thing of bsd being based on human connection. dazais alive bc of the people he cares for. aku does better around people he cares for.

this isnt to say dazais actions are at all justified, and thats not the point of this. bsd is full of grey characters. but i do wish that u guys at least understood the dynamic u want to complain about.

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i love you visible brushstrokes. i love you glue warped scrapbook pages. i love you awkward poems. i love you junk journal with faded receipts. i love you poorly composed journal layout. I love you unintentionally blurry photographs. i love you asymmetrical beading. i love you curling freeform crochet. i love you fingerprints on pottery. i love you reused materials. i love you improvised instruments. i love you mistakes. i love you bravery to make it anyway. i love you creativity that hasn't been wiped clean of every drop of humanity and sanitized and commodified.

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The girlies again :> No thoughts just silly

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Assassinate Him.

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about to take the fattest bong rip

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We are a very very dumb, stupid people

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im,,,,,,,,, not reallt one to speak much abt poltiics n shit ….. esp not us politicis since i dont even luvd in the su. regardless modt of the western cointrise i cran think of r goinpgn to be affected in spme capacity btuy the outscome of thdi election. itd seriiusly steresing me out because. whiel i wilkl not be directly affected by the resutlf of the ongiong us electedojl. the rnadin disgusting pro-rapist bullshti tgats beings pieped on socisl medis has already affectdd people in mycountrj and radicalsde ygiung bemn who donts known much better;;;;; if the red (derogatory) asshile actually, wind, then it dojesng just afefcts the us; it affedts the entire planst. it affects the midnsst of shcooldkis. what it rrealsky does it ruin a lot of chanches the us has to fidd past mistakes. it has me seriiusly stressed otu abt it bcs it sill severaluy affect thibsg like peopls livelihooodd both in anf out of the us. it wills affectd me and peoples i care abt very deepely. it will affects public sentiments on differenet cfrouspmof peopel…… whiled as far as i gant tellelectison day is over,,,,,,wwhat happesn now is maelk or breaks. what hapiens now chsnged more thinsk than just,,,,, politicsl leadrs or righfts for minoruty groups its changesn lives outside of thenus. it wikdm atfetcs the publsic opiniosn on trnas and inerssex and gay and bisexuals and sroace and a agenders and poepls who dont fit insides the isdeas of peoplse who r very narrows mindde or bigored. whsr i say now changed absoltuely nothings anyway and it doesntb matter at allll<<<< btu thsi electjisn seriously worriedme. im badically stressufnoing as i wsatch dlections results ocme in. ths idea thtd the pro-rascism pro-rape pro-assholyery pro-mispgydny canditated will actaulkyt winn feekdj like a strangs dystopians fever drseam. i dont wnats it to be reals. for the sakss of the minority gorusp. for the saksx of the ioressed, for the daked of peopel overseas…..for the furutre kids who willf have sto luve and grow up intderethe regine this will resutlt in. for the dameged done. the us realsy is a dystopians hellydhole. i feelsk bad for everyone who hasa had to luve therexfore the spats feew yeras. its digsuting this is happeneighf in a country tahts meanst to be ‘deveeloped’ or whatever. adn it feedkk nasty to carse so mcuh abt a coutnrh taht i have made every attemtog to ignore the piktiivsl discussdioj of (((depsitd being in manhd pooitival areas onliens)))))))btu the realsuty of the situsjtion is freaksung me lut snd itnfrelskinda like the workd ends in a way if the prgange asshoke wijs. liek im tyligng this and actuevtly fighting back teasr and whats feeld liek a panicd attacks. i feelk liekd someth8ng terribels is. abt to happen,,,,,,,,,and i dont whats it do. but it willsk happens in my head and thens eveurhting is just balsnk after,,,,,and i donst wants that. its kidnd of selfidh to be otusidd of the us and to acknoknwlsoedge taht and then sya’but i wansg X to wind for my own stupdi reaosjs’ without atcyslykk. trying to say anythign???? or do anything????? its just me vegnitng ant this point nd it madeks me feels o nasty for thisj. but im so anxious. i wants peopls to be ableh to be themselves in this stypdi fuckjgn world. it erally stupdi. hoss they csngh bcs istjdust……..so studoid,,,,,,,anduts stupdi to be anciius. abt somethihgd liek this. but americsns make upf som cucu of the ponlines prsdencds of humanity and r so passitonate abt somethignd that thdy can creates way in othr countires. and sffect glbals oublsi sentiment. it scares me.

and because it’s not my direct business to say things on it

i just feels?? bad?? for having storngs opiniins and not voicing them sooned. somethigns abt this electuosn feels disgusting and soulwrehcingand off and liemx half trhe palnstes luevs will be totally over?……. im sorry

osorry 4 bad typign btw.

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The aroaces love ranpo!! :D

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STOP DOING THINGS TO HIM

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babe wake up new colored sskk spread and they’re both right side up