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The reason I love ivantill is not because it's mlm (which seems to be something that the fandom is getting heated about right now) it's because of the yearning, the desperation and the deep unrequited affection and obsession Ivan has for Till. The tragedy of their parting just cuts so much deeper for me than mizisua does.

Mizisua is reciprocated and it's one of the reasons why I can't blame Ivan for calling Sua selfish. In his eyes, Sua has what he wants AND she knows what her death will do. Sua just can't bear to live without Mizi so she'd rather be the stepping stone that allows Mizi a chance to live. She does this knowing full well that Mizi has no idea that Sua is going to die in her place. It is inherently a selfish choice but it is also, in its own way, intrinsically romantic, beautiful and tragic.

Ivan's sacrifice is tragic. That's it. You can't say there was anything intrinsically romantic and beautiful in the way he died for Till. Ivan sang with so much desperation to get Till to look his way. To try and get Till to pay attention and what he got instead was Till simply giving up. Almost as if he couldn't be bothered to even acknowledge Ivan's existence within those moments on the stage. And Ivan just wanted him to look at him one more time without him having to force it. Because Till only looks at him if Ivan gives him a reason to.

They don't have a proper duet and you can't say their final moments together were even gentle excluding that final kiss (more like a peck). Everything about Ivan's sacrifice is tragic. It's not romantic or beautiful; it's desperate. It's a man who couldn't even get the man he loves to look at him until the very last second but still can't stand the idea of living without him.

Mizisua was heartbreaking to see and watching Mizi lose it against Luka physically hurt, but there's nothing quite like the truly tragic sacrifice of Ivan, who remained unloved to the bitter end.

I exist to suffer I fear.

It's even worse if you look at the lyrics for Black Sorrow.

Sometimes, I wonder if Ivan sang this song knowing that this was also going to be how their story ended?

Anyways, that's why ivantill lives in my head rent free.

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Remember how Till has a heart beat monitoring ear piece that would make it impossible to play dead? I did and I was like “till is so dead the aliens will just shoot him again if they see a faint heartbeat”.

Anyways I just went back to check and guys. GUYS.

THE EARPIECE FELL OUT. THE ALIENS CAN’T TELL. PRETTY SURE THE LIGHT IS OFF TOO. VIVIMENG STOP GIVING US HOPE.

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I need to prove a point to my mom. Reblog if you can realize you’re asexual/aromantic in your teens.

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the homewreckerification of five hargreeves must be studied

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lovey-dovey feelings

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kento nanami reminds me of aaron

NO SPOILERS I HAVE ONLY SEEN YHE FIRST SEASON

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someones probs already thought of this but i kinda hc tank's backstory as them moving around places a lot as a kid which made them grow up w the 'dont get close to ppl, you'll lose them anyway' mindset. that hugely affected them throughout their life, which caused them to drift away from people and not form personal connections w anyone as a 'defense mechanism' to keep themselves from getting hurt if they ever have to leave home again, so when they joined the shaw pack, they were friends w the pack, sure. but were they close to them? no. but when they met quinn, he made them feel like they were actually part of something special, like they were close and that was a foreign feeling to them, but they liked the fact they felt like there was a 'close bond' w someone which was why they ignored all the red flags in their relationship. when they broke up, tank felt the feeling they havent felt in a long time– the feeling of losing someone special, which was the feeling they tried to avoid so hard. that caused them to pull away again and was my itty bitty theory as to why when tank left to hunt down quinn, it was easier for them to ignore david for months bc they never actually got close to him and the others.

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8 months of Genocide and, 15,500 children killed

30,000 orphans

35,000 child amputees ( Gaza has the largest population of child amputees in the world)

and there are people out there still justifying this??? like are you not human enough?

DO NOT STOP TALKING ABOUT PALESTINE!

(the linktree to donate for the people of Palestine is in my bio)

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farewell😭

Today is Friday 28-06-2024

Farewell to the mothers of martyrs in the Gaza Strip. As I write this post, massacres are taking place now in the area next to us, which is the Rafah highways, and the bodies are in the roads and ambulances cannot reach them. We are now in a state of displacement, danger is approaching us, and we do not have the basic necessities of life.

I hope you will look at us with compassion and humanity, and alleviate our suffering a little. Support and share our story on your page.

The campaign is documented by @nabulsi

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It's them

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I’m sorry but I would never be able to match laskos freak 😖

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Yeah I would also ignore his crimes for ten years ngl

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Im such a slut at this point

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no bc marie's a healer right??? yk what a lot of filipinos do? NURSING. LIKE?? COINCIDENCE?? I THINK NOT

saur i kinda been thinking of milo being filo and now i think marie was also filipino and before she moved to the US she was called 'marites' or 'mare' as a nickname AND SHE ALWAYS WAS THAT ONE PERSON WHO KNEW ALL THE DRAMA LIKE???? MARIE?? MARITES?? IT MAKES SM SENSE😭😭

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saur i kinda been thinking of milo being filo and now i think marie was also filipino and before she moved to the US she was called 'marites' or 'mare' as a nickname AND SHE ALWAYS WAS THAT ONE PERSON WHO KNEW ALL THE DRAMA LIKE???? MARIE?? MARITES?? IT MAKES SM SENSE😭😭

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THAT MAN LOVES PEACH MANGO PIE NO ONE CAN TELL ME OTHERWISE🗣❗️❗️

i cant be the only one who thinks milos part filipino😭😭😭