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This is just a warning to other women. They say stuff like this? Get them out of your life

[lovinlifejo18]

I’m writing this here because I have nowhere and no one else I can vent this to. If you want to give advice or suggestions, please know I have likely heard everything people could ever say about this kind of stuff but situations are very complicated. This isn’t a story or something I imagined. I wish it was something I imagined but my luck wouldn’t allow that so I guess I am asking peoples opinion of this situation. Me and my husband have always butt heads about discipline with our son because he was raised in a time and with parents who believed in belt and paddle whoopins. I understand that there are very different opinions about things like that but that’s not why I’m here tonight. I went to go get some pizza and ice cream for me and my husband tonight and I came back and went into our room with things and he asked me to tell our 4 year old son to come upstairs into our room, I asked him was there something he did but he wouldn’t tell me, so I bring our son into our room and my husband told our son that he’d heard him say “what the heck” a lot while I was gone and that he’d told my son not to say that already and that he should smack him for not listening. I spoke up and said, what’s wrong with him saying that but he implied that I was slow for not knowing even though I’d never heard that before. Both me and my husband cuss like sailors. I started cussing when I was 12 but my husband didn’t start cussing until he met me. His parents are very religious and have always felt cussing even if it’s not directed at anyone is disrespectful. I do not agree with that and asked my husband to explain why he said that. He yelled at me saying that I need common sense because I should know why that’s a bad word. Btw our son didn’t say hell. He said Heck. But that didn’t seem to matter to my husband. I tried telling him that it just would’ve taken a simple explanation as to why he thought that but the insults I’ve heard tonight have me questioning myself and my husband. I’m not sure how to handle this

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So no one was gonna tell me that people can see the posts I’ve liked? 😐. There are probably so many people out there who’ve questioned my mental state based on those things.

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I think I need an intervention. While it’s fresh on my mind let me tell people about the dream I had last night. Full warning this post may be explicit to some readers. Warning number two, if you don’t know who Luke Alvez is or the characters of Criminal Minds then this post will not make any sense to you. It doesn’t make a lot of sense to me at the moment either.

Now that the warnings are over with, what I remember from my dream last night was that Luke Alvez either wasn’t FBI or he was undercover because some stuff definitely indicated that he would not have been able to keep his job with the things we did😅. Anyway, he was chasing this leader of a gang and apparently Luke and this guy had bad history between them. So Luke chases him like five blocks all the way to this auto repair shop of some kind. He catches him, of course because he’s Luke friggin Alvez. Now, I have no idea how I got to said auto repair shop but I was there. And once again, either undercover or not in the FBI. There weren’t that many people in the shop but once this gang guy was tackled to the floor by Luke, everyone started cheering Luke on and getting in the guys face telling him how now he got caught that he’s gonna pay. He must’ve done some really bad shit because there were a couple people crying tears of anger in the shop. Luke is holding him down and going ham on him, punching him to the point of deformation, then he knocks him out. One of the main things I remember about this dream is that I was apparently the gang guys ex girlfriend. But I found out who he was and got away from him. He tried to get me back a shit-ton of times but I was never alone so he wasn’t able to get me. But I was with Luke now. So I’m one of the people that are telling him that he’s gonna pay. And I’m my weird dream mind, my best idea for payback for all the abuse the gang guy put me through is to grab Luke….*sigh of hating myself* then tell the other guys to leave and secure the exists….before f*cking Luke in front of the guy on the car I stole from him……

So yeah that’s my really weird dream that I need an intervention for.