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Until now hindi ko parin maprocess na niloko mo ako. Pinagkatiwalaan at minahal kita ng buo, para ano? Para baliwalain mo lang lahat ng yon. You are the least person na naisip kong mananakit sakin, Gello. Since that day na nalaman ko, parang araw-araw mo akong pinapatay. Hindi ako makakain, tulog at hinga. Yung exchange namin ng screenshots, sobrang hirap isipin na nakikipagsex ka na pala since feb 2021 sa iba habang ok naman tayo. Hindi ko ma-imagine lahat na nagawa mo yun. Binigay ko naman lahat sayo Gello, alam mo yan. Alam ko hindi ako naging perpektong karelasyon pero hindi yun dahilan para lokohin at ituring mo akong basura. Nung gabing kinompronta kita, hindi na ikaw yung Gello na nakilala at minahal ko mula 2016. Ibang tao na yung kausap ko, arogante, disrespectful, narcissist at walang konsensya. Hindi ko alam anong nangyari sayo. Balik ka ng balik sakin para ano? Para saktan at bawian ako? Sa araw-araw na ginawa ng Diyos. Ikaw lang iniisip ko tuwing lumalabas ako with friends na mas gusto pa kota kasama ang hindi ko alam may iba ka na palang kinakasama, napakaunfair mo. Nakipagbreak ako nung 2020 kasi hindi ako ok, wala akong ibang kausap nun dahil mahal parin kita. 2021 dahil na guilty ako nung kumausap ako ng iba at naisip ko na hindi kita deserve, oo nga hindi pala talaga kita deserve sa ginawa mo sakin. Bumalik ako sayo at sinabing kong mahal mo parin ako at ittry natin ulit. Walang pagmamahal don kasi kung mahal mo talaga ako hindi ka makikipagsex sa iba habang tayo at inofficial mo pa. Napakasingungaling mo. Sa tuwing lumalabas ako kasama friends ko, iniisip kita na mas masaya ako kahit nasa bahay lang tayo. Pero may iba ka na palang kasama. Ibabalik ko lahat sayo ng sinabi mo sakin. Hindi mo alam kung gaano kasakit yung niloko at pinagpalit. Sneaky link mo lang siya Gello, ako kasama mo noon na lumaban sa buhay. 2 years mo lang sya kilala, tayo 6 years na tayong magkakilala. Yung 6 years na yun, none of it was real. And you threw it all away dahil sa ego and pride mo. Emotionally unstable ako and you ruined me. Ikaw lang pala magpapapunta sakin sa psychiatrist dahil sa anxiety at trauma na binigay mo. Araw-araw kong iniisip yung worth ko, na wala pala talaga akong kwenta, hindi ako worth it ipaglaban at kapalit palit ako. Sana masaya ka na. Sana hindi nalang kita nakilala.

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Stop looking for closure from people. They already showed you who they are. Move on.

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The hardest reality is,

Don’t force what isn’t meant to be, some people are only meant to be temporary no matter how much of love your heart has for them.

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Letting go means to come to the realization that some people are a part of your history, but not a part of your destiny.

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After all those months of waiting for you to comeback, those nights wishing we were together, not knowing you already left me and replaced me. Fuck you, Gello. I wish you well, in hell!

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I’ll never forget the first time we met, talked, kissed, held hands, hugged and made love. But how I wish I could forget you and all the good memories we had because of how you disrespected, hurt and abandoned me just like that after 6 years. How I wish I never met you. How I wish I never really loved you. Just please don’t ever come back into my life again. You have no idea how you ruined me. I fucking hate you, Gello. I hope you burn to hell

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You ruined me, Gello

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2 years mo na pala akong niloloko, what a plot twist

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Mahal parin kita, Gello

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Betrayed

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Good luck on your first day and advance congratulations! Alam ko maipapasa mo yan at magiging official AMT ka :) Sorry for all the pain I’ve caused you. Lalo na last year, lahat ng masasamang nasabi ko sayo, I didn’t mean all of that. Dahil sa nagawa kong pagkakamali, yun lang naisip kong way para magalit ka sakin. I’m so sorry. Araw-araw ko yun pinagsisisihan until now hindi ko parin mapatawad sarili ko. Sana hindi nalang kita iniwan, niloko. I wished I had more time na nakasama ka at makabawi manlang. I didn’t know what I had until it was gone. Sobrang hirap pala talaga, nakikita kita kahit sang parte dito sa condo at SM. Sobrang hirap tanggapin. For 6 years nandyan ka hindi ko alam paano magsisimula. Hindi man tayo nakapag Baguio or beach everytime na kasama kita, I feel safe and at peace. You’ll always be my definition of home. I know you resent me but despite sa mga nagawa ko, nandyan ka parin. Pumunta ka parin dito at nagrereply sakin. Salamat. Wala na akong ibang hinihiling pa kundi ang kasiyahan at success mo. Sobrang masaya ako para sayo. I won’t be bothering you anymore, wala naman na kasi akong karapatan at alam ko matagal mo ng pinapangarap yan. Except sa Christmas, New years at birthdays mo hahaha. Ingat ka lagi, Gello. Wag na magyoyosi pag stress, nakakaliit ng bayag yun sige ka hahahahha. May God bless you always. I love you always and forever.

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I miss you everyday, Gello

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Still wanna die

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My dear Gello, thank u for almost 4 years. I love you and thankful for staying 💕

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Ako nalang ata na millennial ang nagttumblr hahahahaha

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Fuck 2021 na malungkot parin ako puta hahahahahah