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I don't know what love is So I can't love you I don't know what love is So I can't hold you To be honest, failure scares me And I don't want to make more enemies Oh, but it's true that I have these warm feelings for you And you are of great concern Today and tomorrow I dream of you Is that what love is? I'm not sure I want you to be happy forevermore And you see, I've been hurt before It was sickeningly painful I wouldn't want that for anybody And you are not simply just "anybody" Well, at least I think you are not You can be a dandy You can be oh, just fine You can mind your manners real good And you can treat a woman right Be real nice But I don't know what love is So I might as well just be blind To real loving If you're someone who knows what love is
on the days when i feel i donât know what love is, when iâve forgotten how awesome love is, i feel more comfortable being alone. i feel safer in my own shell, i feel safer in my own misery.  even though youâll be shining like the sun, have sunshine coming out of your ass, and Iâll love you so much, iâll still push you away.  itâs complicated. Â
and in my head, iâll be thinking many different thoughts. Â thoughts likeÂ
âiâm scaredâÂ
âi donât know what to doâÂ
âi donât wanna mess this upâÂ
âi donât know love, i only know sadness, i only know sorrow and lossâÂ
âyou are better than me, your soul is beautiful, you are perfect as you are right now to meâÂ
âi actually donât like myself, i hate myself, i think iâm shitâÂ
âi donât deserve youâÂ
âyou deserve someone betterâÂ
âsomeone whoâs actually on top of their game, pretty, kind and amazing and would be better to you than i could ever beâÂ
âyet i love you, i love youâÂ
âso it hurts me as i stomp on and crumple up my delicate, sensitive heart to coldly draw this line between usâÂ
âi do this because i love youâÂ
âi love you so i want only the best for youâÂ
âi love you, so for you, i will carry permanent daggers in my heartâÂ
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He put something special inside of you and inside of me.
We're like blades of grass, we're like the mist. But for God, a thousand years is like a day, and he has power over spacetime and the universe. God heals, transforms, and renews us; and he is bigger than any of our problems. Our larger-than-life God knows every little thing about each of us, every issue we face! He counts the hairs on our heads, he's kept count of each tear that has fallen.
When we cry, it's God comforting us. He's actually comforting us when we find ourselves crying. So even when we're crying or the whole world feels like it's coming down, we're not even alone then. Somebodyâs right there next to us going, âThere, there.â
When we are struggling and feel lost, alone, empty, stuck, futile, like we are sinking, like nobody understands or like no one knows anything, in those moments, we just need a hug. First off, he knows. God, Jesus, Holy Spirit know. They get us and feel what we are going through. They understand and see how we've tried or are trying our best. They see the hurt that we feel. When we've been good to the wrong people, let's not let that hurt mess with us forever either. Let's not allow someone else's actions or choices negatively affect how we view ourselves. Because the truth is that all of us are precious. We all need to know that, learn to feel that, and strengthen ourselves knowing that. The truth is each one of us are so loved and valued. We're God's babies, we're each a lovable, good little thing, and he's going to take care of us all - for our entire lives. So, let's not worry. Let's trust God's provision. Our little backs are taken care of and we are definitely loved and not alone! If someone tries to say otherwise, I say we send blessings to whoever who tried to tell us different, then kick their ass!! No, just kidding, let's not go around kicking other people's asses but what I mean is, we should just move on and keep walking, and we can. In those times, we do not have to and should not play in someone elseâs games like that. It wastes our sweet time and energy, and makes us feel badly about ourselves. When we've done wrong and we feel so guilty, our mistakes can make us see ourselves in such a terrible light. We come to see ourselves as only evil, bad, trash, scum, and that we donât deserve anything good, and that itâs only right that we should be damned for the rest of our lives, that weâre hopeless, a lost cause, worthless, and our past haunts us. Sometimes we think the worst of ourselves like this even when it's not actually our fault, but we think it is because we just do, or because others make it seem so. Either case, we are poor things at these times and our guilt can weigh so heavily on our hearts. But God forgives us and Jesus saved us. We will not be forsaken by God. If we ask, admit, and truly are sorry, weâll be forgiven, weâll be set free! If you go to church, you've heard that one before! Every day's a new day with the new horizon. So, we can all start living right today, and even if we think we've screwed up by midday, letâs remind ourselves that every and any moment can be a new start if we want it to be. We should take the rest we all need, and we should rest in order to work again. We should sharpen our axes as we rest. Letâs be patient with ourselves and not overburden or be hard on ourselves. Letâs take time in life to take in, experience and feel everything around us that God blessed us with and created. Letâs be grateful, thankful, glad, and joyful. Whenever we feel like we can't be, letâs each start with looking at the little things in our lives, if that helps, and weâll soon feel a healing power working on us and realize the great work God's already done so far in our lives. Letâs learn to be thankful that he provided for us in all the ways that he has, even if we think he could've given us something else more preferable to us. Thinking about all the things we are thankful for regularly can open our hearts and minds. He put something special inside of you because he wanted to use you. You specifically, you particularly. He put something special inside of me because he wanted to use me. He has a special mission for you, for me - for all of us. Jesus saved us so that we can become connected again to our source and creator, God, our father, his father, and not have to do this by ourselves. So that there would be hope, light, and love all around. These are some ideas I want to share I wrote all this but not everything is my own idea I've learned these things from around me May Jesus Christ's peace be with you today
For he is already within you as he is within me
I love you everybody!!!
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officially missing u
âAll I hear is raindrops Falling on the rooftop Oh baby tell me why'd you have to go âCause this pain I feel It won't go away And today I'm officially missing you
I thought that from this heartache I could escape But I fronted long enough to know There ain't no way And today I'm officially missing you
Oh~ can't nobody do it like you Said every little thing you do Hey baby say it stays on my mind And I, I'm officially
All I do is lay around Two years full of tears From looking at your face on the wall Just a week ago you were my baby Now I don't even know you at all I don't know you at all
Well I wish that you would call me right now So that I could get through to you somehow But I guess it's safe to say baby, itâs safe to say That I'm officially missing you
Oh~ can't nobody do it like you Said every little thing you do Hey baby say it stays on my mind And I, I'm officially
Well I thought I could just get over you baby But I see that's something I just can't do From the way you would hold me To the sweet things you told me I just can't find a way To let go of you
I'm officially missing you~â
(Original Tamia song)
Jayessleeâs cover https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3kX63qPr5M
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"Don't lose sight of what you want to be. When people say you should be a butcher or a gymnast, just think to yourself âwhat do I want to be deep down?â; thatâs my moral.â - Percussionist, Philip Howells
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You are complete through your union with Christ.
Colossians 2:10
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âWe have been good friends, Jane; have we not?â - Charlotte Bronte
how do we become friends?Â
how are friendships formed?Â
well how do kids play with each other? Â
did we ever bother asking this or did we not, because it seemed to just happen naturally for some of us...
Iâm starting to realize it may not happen naturally, like itâs not exactly second nature, for everybody. Â
Then is friendship passive or active... or am I just overthinking this? Â
Kids donât think about it, they just one day are, they just one day do.
And the older I get, sometimes I realize I personally find it more difficult, how to be good friends.
Adultsâ relationships with other adults, kidsâ relationships with other kids, they must be different, so what are the differences and what do they have in common?
Different Types of Play for Toddlers LinkÂ
 https://www.healthyfamiliesbc.ca/home/articles/different-types-play-toddlers-12-36-months
Learning Positive Friendship Skills Link
https://www.kidsmatter.edu.au/mental-health-matters/social-and-emotional-learning/social-development/learning-positive-friendship
How to Help Your Child Make Friends Link
https://www.babycenter.com/0_how-to-help-your-child-make-friends-ages-6-to-8_67771.bc
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Caleb tried to encourage the people as they stood before Moses.  âLetâs go at once to take the land,â he said.  âWe can certainly conquer it!â
Numbers 13:30
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perfection is the enemy of progress
- Sir Winston Churchill
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âNothing happens to us, everything happens for us.
For our good,Â
we have to believe it is so.â
âYou write your purpose in permanent marker but your steps in pencil.â
âGod anointed David with oil, but he didnât tell him heâd have to dodge Saulâs spear. You may discover you found âthe oneâ, but God didnât tell you it may be more of a struggle to âbecome oneâ, learn to truly become one, with each other.â
âEverytime God takes you from level to level, there will always be a layover. There will always be a wilderness.â
âIf you donât allow God to break you, mold you, shape you, if you donât live a life of repentance, you ainât going anywhere.â
âItâs no different from purchasing an airline ticket, going up to TSA because you have a ticket to Hawaii, and you are trying to take something in your carry-on that is prohibited. It doesnât matter if you have a first class ticket, it doesnât matter if you pay a nanny to watch your babies and kids, it donât matter if you have a cat and a dog in your luggage, if you donât follow their principles, you will stay right there in TSA until you get out of your luggage what is prohibited. In the same way, you can shout all you want to, you can come to church all you want to, but if there is something in the carry-on of your soul that is not conducive of where God is gonna take you, you gotta stay at the gate. We donât shout or clap there, because we donât wanna hear about that side of God. We wanna hear about the âmake a way out of no wayâ kind of God, but we donât wanna hear about a âyou will stay right here until you get itâ God. Youâre going to stay right there until you take it out of your carry-on.â
-Pastor Jerry Flowers
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Jenna Leeâs story, one young womanâs journey to self love
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âWhen they look around, theyâre going to be like, âYou were raised right...â No, no, no, my family was jacked up but my heavenly father came in and he stepped in. And he repaired the breach on the inside of me.âÂ
- Pastor Mike Todd
Our view towards God is biased-- it tends to be based on how we each view our own âearthlyâ father/father figures. Â

If your dad didnât provide, youâll tend to doubt Godâs willingness and ability to provide for you. Â
If your dad never listened or cared about what you had to say, youâll tend to think God wonât listen or care about your thoughts and feelings.
If your dad was inconsistent, youâll tend to think God is too. Â
Same for dads who were temperamental, detached, never pleased, werenât even present, made you feel unwanted, too conservative, the list goes on. Â
Whatever âdadâ was to you, youâll tend to be predisposed to assume that God is too, simply because we call them the same things...
We all have âdaddy issuesâ but donât let your problems stop you from leading the greatest life God intended you to live.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nQYoD24T5Bg Daddy Issues - Pastor Mike Todd
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