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do you think someone has ever flirted with you?

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Leaving my safe comfortable world of MacDoc for some MacJack (platonic? romantic? Somehow more than either but also neither?)

Mind the tags and rating, it gets heavy and explicit in there.

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inspired by this

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Inej to Kaz, heartbroken: And how will you have me? Gloves on? Fully clothed? Head turned so our lips will never touch?

Jesper in every fanfic to the exact same conditions: That sounds hot.

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Sometimes I just want to write Kaz and Jesper kissing, but it's so incredibly ooc at this point for me. If I had more time and energy, I would write a big plot based build up that leads to closer physical interactions (the first touch even).

At the same time, the beauty of this ship is the pining, the emotional love, the loyalty. The vulnerability. It's the "I'll kill for you and I'll die for you.' At some point Kaz's trauma and touch aversion gives them something so incredibly different and unique at times.

It's the "I understand you and I love you anyway." Jasper is sooo letting Kaz take this slow and take as much time as he needs. It's not about sex or kissing or holding hands. It's somehow sooo much more. But to be clear: it is still romantic. It's just a different kind of love at some point. It's heightened and they have roots in each other, intertwined.

It's the "I need you. I need YOU."

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*struggles while writing* i suck and writing is hard

*remembers some ppl use ai* i am a creative force. i am uncorrupted by theft and indolence. i am on a journey to excellence. it is my duty to keep taking joy in creating.

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yall get a MacDoc oneshot, context is Macgyver got kidnapped and tortured for like 5 months and Murdoc found him, this is far from done and not extremely proof read so don't mind mistakes

Mac's body absolutely ached, it had been months since he was captured and they tortured him daily, each day was something different, they assumed he would break eventually and tell them everything they wanted to know about the phoenix, but no matter what they did, or how painful it was mentally or physically, he never spoke anything more than a scream or some type of taunt.

When they realized he wasn't going to break they dumped him in the forest. The second Mac heard them leave he collapsed, right as his consciousness faded he heard a twig snap near him, all he hoped was he wasn't going to wake up back there, but he couldn't be bothered to keep his eyes open any longer, he needed the rest he had been deprived of, no matter what.

Mac shot up into a sitting position, panting as his mind raced, his eyes tried to adjust to his surroundings, taking a moment to process the pain he was in, he felt the softness of the bed under him and shifted his legs off the edge of the bed, he couldn't recognize where he was, the room was dim only being illuminated by a bedside lamp, and next to him was an iv bag set up properly on a stand and connect to his right arm, whatever it was definitely helped with the pain.

Mac sighed and mumbled "This isn't medical..so where am I?" Right as he completed the sentence the door frame creaked and he looked up only to be met with a familiar face

"Correct, and one of my safehouses" Murdoc said as he leaned and smiled, giving a slight wave at Mac.

Mac tensed and winced "Murdoc..?" Mac rubbed his eyes almost as if he couldn't process his enemy is the one who saved him "The one and only" Murdoc teased as he joined Mac's side, standing next to the bed, his eyes seemingly glancing over Mac to check his condition.

"How are we feeling boyscout?" The sentence almost ended with a hum followed by a slight smile. "Not great.." Mac sounded exhausted.

In all honesty, he felt like he'd been hit by a train, actually the train may have hurt less. Murdoc nodded and his hands reached to mess with the iv bag, after a few moments he seemed content "That should help." he said as he turned his attention back to Mac.

Murdoc slid a hand under Mac's chin and tilted it up inspecting him closely "Murdoc?" Mac was confused but staring into Murdoc's eyes as Murdoc seemingly studied him.

After a moment Mac hadnt noticed Murdoc grab something from his coat jacket until a bright light was in his eyes, he flinched from the suddenness but luckily didn't show any signs of a concussion. Murdoc nodded approvingly.

"Sorry, didn't get to preform that check on you since you were out" Murdoc slipped the flashlight back into his jacket and released Mac's chin.

Mac sighed and rubbed his eyes "Why?" Mac mumbled, returning to look at Murdoc who paused "Checking for a concussion is important? Should I check again I feel like you would know that?" Murdoc slightly tilted his head as he spoke, looking Mac over again for a brief moment.

"Not that, why'd you uh.." Mac paused "What is it?" Murdoc slightly leaned forward twords Mac, looming over him, that chill of nervousness seeping through Mac "Why'd you save me?" Mac leaned back slightly creating a little more distance between him and Murdoc who softly chuckled.

"Well, your dear phoenix team failed to save you, so I did. After all I'm the only one who can kill you remember." Murdoc cooed at he moved to clasp his hands together and his borderline creepy grin returned.

Mac gulped "They would've found me eventually" Mac mumbled, looking away from Murdoc and instead looking down at his legs, dread seeped into the pit of his stomach, he couldn't say he entirely believed what he just said, but he wanted to.

Murdoc frowned "Yeah sure, they would've eventually found you dead in a forest." His tone got a bit snarky near the end.

Mac quickly moved his head up and stared at Murdoc with wide eyes "Don't say that" he sounded somewhat annoyed and hurt.

Murdoc gritted his teeth "Your team failed to save you for 5. Fucking. Months. Don't you look me dead in my eyes and tell me they would've found you alive." He ended the sentence with almost a hiss as he leaned twords Mac by the end he was merely inches away from his face.

"I kept more tabs on you then they ever did, if I hadn't been able to track you down you wouldn't be breathing right now, you gave me more then enough trouble trying to keep you alive do not make me regret it now." Murdoc's hand reached behind Mac's head harshly pulling his hair to force his head back as he spoke.

"Now." Murdoc released his grip and stopped looming "I'm going to go prepare dinner, you're going to rest, end of story." Murdoc was cold, he spent hours fixing up Mac, and now he wanted to say his team would've saved him? Absolutely bullshit.

Murdoc left the room before Mac could respond to him, Mac's left hand slowly reaching up to his hair to sooth the new ache appearing, though he did notice his body hurt a whole lot less now after Murdoc messed with the iv, Mac sighed and laid back down, normally he would try to devise some sort of plan, but he was still completely exhausted from the past five months, so he decided despite the fact it was Murdoc he was dealing with, he'd listen and get some rest.

Mac began to doze off, the lessened pain finally giving him a much needed opportunity to relax, soon his consciousness slipped again, after about an hour he felt something shaking him awake, but he didn't want to wake up yet, then he felt a hand on the side of his neck, Mac let out an annoyed breath.

"Not dead" he mumbled as his eyes finally opened. Murdoc was leaning over him and let out a soft breath and his slight panicked look diminished when Mac finally responded.

Murdoc motioned to the food on the night stand "Dinner is ready." Mac turned to look at the food, slowly sitting up "Thank you, Murdoc.." it felt wrong to not thank the assassin, however it did still feel weird to do so.

Murdoc slightly smiled "Of course boyscout, now eat you need the energy." Murdoc slowly moved the bowl of chicken and rice soup into Mac's hands, who shakily took it.

Murdoc headed to the door but waited in the door way for a moment, studying Mac, Mac didn't notice as he took his first bite of food, which was quite delicious unexpectedly, he hadn't known Murdoc knew how to cook. Right after Mac successfully took a bite of food Murdoc departed down the hallway with a satisfied hum.

Mac had quite missed good quality food, being stuck in that place, only being able to eat a gross combination of food that gave him just enough nutrients to survive was worse than the torture at that point, torture he could withstand somewhat but gross food was a whole other story. Mac finished his soup quite quickly, he didn't know why he trusted Murdoc not to poison him right now, he figured since he had went through all that effort to save him he wouldn't, but he still had not a clue why Murdoc went through all that effort.

Mac stared at the iv in his arm, and the slow realization he had to get back to the phoenix set in, he needed a plan, and quickly, he doubted Murdoc would let him leave easily. Mac pulled the iv out, wincing slightly as he did, he went to stand but as he did he realized just how painful standing still was even with drugs in his system, he collapsed to the floor with a loud thump, panicking knowing he most certainly just alerted Murdoc, who he could hear softly approaching.

Mac wanted to try and hide, but his body ached so much he just stayed there, on his knees, in front of the bed, right where he just fell, and moments later Murdoc was crouched next to him.

"Angus..?" Murdoc sounded oddly soft and comforting, gently rubbing Mac's back, seemingly dodging the wounds he knew were back there.

Mac slowly turned to look at Murdoc, hesitating as he did "Sorry.." an apology was all he could think of to say, in hopes Murdoc wouldn't lose his temper with him.

Murdoc sighed gently shaking his head and laughed "Boyscout you really shouldn't try to escape before you can walk you know, as much as I enjoy chasing you, you aren't gonna put up much of a fight." He teased.

Mac let out a slight huff and rolled his eyes, Murdoc slowly helped Mac back onto the bed, his eyes glancing to the blood slowly trickling down Mac's arm, he sighed and left the room momentarily returning with a bandaid and a damp cloth. He crouched down next to the bed and cleaned the blood away, applying some pressure to the open wound to make sure it stopped bleeding.

Mac slightly winced "I know boyscout, but you did this to yourself." Murdoc continued to focus while Mac mumbled something unidentifiable.

Soon the bleeding had stopped and Murdoc placed a bandaid over it, he looked up at Mac "All done." he had a slight smile as he stood up.

Exiting the room to dispose of the cloth into a hamper and then returning with a bottle of medication and a cup of ice water. "Now I don't really want to fight to put that back in your arm, so we're switching over to pain medication." He placed the items on the night stand next to Mac, who had his left arm draped over his eyes not acknowledging Murdoc it seemed.

Murdoc raised an eyebrow before poking Mac in the shoulder "Boyscout..?" Mac grumbled and rolled over facing away from Murdoc, apparently the blond had already fallen back asleep.

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when a powerful figure is reduced to kneeling. when the lord is forced to bow. when the exile stumbles into an unwelcoming bar. when the “beast” is chained by their horns. when a god is dragged behind their enemy’s chariot, a captive and trophy. when the loyal “guard dog” character is muzzled and the silver-tongued thief falls silent in horror.

that’s the shit

it’s about the contrapasso. the reversal of roles and the sudden, plunging terror of being unable to hide.

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touch-starvation needs to be written with emphasis on the starving part. you are hungry to be touched. so hungry that even the very taste of it makes you nauseous. it has been long since anything has ever touched you, ever fed you - that your body has grown more used to that gnawing emptiness more than anything else. it's better for you to be held, to eat but it makes you sick to try. you know

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Still thinking about this scene

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Murdoc is - and i mean this very sincerely and in all love for my rottweiler serial killer mercenary for hire darling - insane in the brain in so many ways and that’s the problem, that’s the wound, the tissue of the issue in the severed leg Murdoc keeps in his basement. 

Murdoc points all his incredible and unfathomable and uncountable neuroses at Mac for no other reasons than that he is fun and challenging and Murdoc also wants to string him up like a cow corpse and make him sing and dance and perhaps bleed, because Murdoc, like a good supportive American, knows only death, sniper and unhealthy romances. 

He does this with such derangedness that you can’t help but love him even if you want to swing him around like a discus and smack him against the floor. He’s like the cat that’s gotten used to running the household, he’s the asshole cat that you keep shooing off the counter top but he still insists on coming back because how dare you do stuff without him, he is the most important thing in your universe, and he needs to know what you’re doing right this second so he can give you permission, even if that includes washing your hair or brushing your teeth, because otherwise he will lounge outside singing the songs of his people which is the dying screams of people he’s killed or the wailing screeches of people Mac has blown up because he likes the look of Mac shellshocked and PTSD ridden, especially when Murdoc is the one to cause that PTSD to manifest.

This metaphor got away from me.

Regardless, the bottom line is that Murdoc is very strange in a very directed way and that directed wat is towards Mac who kindly wishes to be buried beneath ground with a bomb set off if Murdoc even so much as thinks about him. Or, that’s what Mac deludes himself.

Because Mac - also very sincerely and with so much love for my fucked up babygirl, my homeboy, my meow meow - is an adrenaline junky that thrives off danger and saving people by the very skin of his teeth, and doesn’t realize that this is a death wish since his mother died and his father left, and thus wants recognition anyway he can get it. Of course, Mac finds tangling with Murdoc very much a death wish, in which loading a shotgun with the barrel pointing directly into your face is a death wish, or getting into a Lamborghini because you might as well die in style right, but Murdoc lets you know before you get in that he’s cut the brake lines and he’s shoved duct tape over your mouth because your screams are for him only.

And you want that, sincerely, derangedly, because who else could love you if not the man that caused your nightmares and made you afraid of the dark and who drags you as close to the edge of dying by his own hands only to drag you back because he demands that not even death can claim you, Mac is Murdoc’s and Mac shall die when Murdoc says Mac will.

Of course, it could also be because Murdoc has shown that regardless of anything that has happened, that Murdoc wants Mac and perhaps the intrigue of that devotion in the face of everyone leaving him is….toxic and intoxicating, but who can tell.

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MacGyver 2025 Writing Promts!

Not all are MacGyver based so if you're not part of that fandom feel free to still use these!

Go wild, combine days, skip days, use these for art instead and whatever you want! Feel free to tag me in any fics or art you make (Even if I'm not in the fandom!)

January 1 • New Years Confessions 2 • Mission gone poorly 3 • Nightmares 4 • Hurt/Comfort 5 • 5-1 6 • Sick Day 7 • Team Meeting Under Different Circumstances 8 • Diner Au 9 • Codex 10 • Whump 11 • The Organization Causes Problems 12 • James Macgyver Being A Shitty Father 13 • Matilda Rescuing The Team 14 • Disavowed 15 • Peaceful Day At The Park 16 • Day Off 17 • Mac + Gun 18 • Working With The Enemy 19 • Dealing With Grief 20 • Movie Theater Au 21 • Insomnia 22 • Double Drabble 23 • Cuddling 24 • Car Accident 25 • Murdoc Returns 26 • Mac Gets The Team Out Of Trouble 27 • Riley Finds Something She Can't Hack 28 • Love Confessions 29 • Kidnapping 30 • Wilderness Survival 31 • Bomb Disarming

February 1 • One Bed Au 2 • Comfort 3 • Alone 4 • Corruption Arc 5 • Fake Relationship 6 • Oversight And Mac Never Meet 7 • Fake Death 8 • Chloroform 9 • Gunshot Wound 10 • Afghanistan Days 11 • Cairo 12 • Jack Being The Team's Dad 13 • Therapy 14 • Poisoning 15 • Swiss Army Knife 16 • Protecting Cassian 17 • Murdoc + Handcuffs 18 • Supermax 19 • Mission Gone Right 20 • Physical Exhaustion 21 • Working Out/Training 22 • Assassination 23 • In Love With Someone Else 24 • Secret Relationship 25 • Unable To Save Everyone 26 • Torture 27 • Self Doubt 28 • Marriage Vows

March 1 • Mac + Chemicals 2 • A Deal With The Devil 3 • Casino 4 • Jack Returns From The Kovac Mission 5 • Mac Asks For Help 6 • Bozer's Cosmetics 7 • Murdoc Saves The Team (Possibly Accidently) 8 • Black Pepper + Wound 9 • Trapped 10 • Under Water/Downing 11 • OneShot 12 • Celebration 13 • Making Bets 14 • Birthday Celebration 15 • Running Away 16 • Forest Fire Verses Team 17 • Song Fic 18 • Bioweapon 19 • Nikki Lies 20 • Thornton Gets Caught 21 • Trying Something New 22 • Watching The Sunset/Sunrise 23 • Jack Saves Mac/Riley 24 • Loud Fight 25 • Nearly Avoided Plane Crash 26 • Bounty Hunters 27 • Amnesia 28 • Doctor's Visit 29 • Tramatic Injury 30 • Corn Maze + Lost + Murdoc 31 • Paranoia

April 1 • Terrible No Good Day 2 • Stalking 3 • Carnival 4 • Hunter/Hunted 5 • Stranded 6 • Heist 7 • Mac Leaves The Team 8 • Break Up 9 • First Kiss 10 • Prison Escape 11 • Black Site 12 • Safehouses 13 • Flash Backs 14 • Slowly Dying On The Phone/Last Phone Call 15 • Funeral 16 • Medical Leave 17 • Mac Breaks Another Phone 18 • Secret Diary 19 • Party 20 • Unexpected Relationship 21 • Coming Out 22 • Canon Typical Violence 23 • Magic Au 24 • Library Au 25 • Hurt/No Comfort 26 • Drunk 27 • Pen Pals 28 • Arachnophobia 29 • Self Care 30 • Terrorist Organization

May 1 • Acrophobia 2 • Ducktape + Panic + Mac 3 • Love Triangle 4 • Fire + Extinguisher 5 • Matty Being Strict/Concerned 6 • Hidden Injury 7 • Rare Pair 8 • Stargazing 9 • Explosion 10 • The Ghost 11 • Jill Morgan 12 • Samantha Cage Joins 13 • Secrets 14 • Undercover Op 15 • Role Reversal Au 16 • Prison Breakout 17 • Bozer + Sticky Notes 18 • Riley + Trapped 19 • Matty Goes Missing 20 • Sandbox Days 21 • Hidden Injury 22 • Mac + Shoelaces 23 • Murdoc On Comms 24 • Experimenting Gone Wrong 25 • Cartel 26 • Corrupt C.I.A 27 • Amber Causing Problems 28 • Hostage Situation/Negotiation 29 • Handling Depression 30 • Trauma Response/Flinching 31 • Day At The Beach

June 1 • Haircut 2 • Dying Saving Someone 3 • Choose A Random Item And Find A Way For Mac To Use It 4 • Jumping Out A Window 5 • Stealing A Painting 6 • Safe Cracking 7 • Losing Hope 8 • Cassian's Summer Break 9 • Nicholas Helman 10 • Jonah Walsh 11 • Flower Picking 12 • James Macgyver Dies 13 • Paperclips 14 • Lost Swiss Army Knife 15 • Riley Or Bozer Tries To Quit Or Quits The Team 16 • Mac Goes With On The Kovac Mission 17 • Collapse Building 18 • Chemical/Oil Spill 19 • Chernobyl 20 • War Injury 21 • Cruel Choices 22 • Leaving Someone Behind (And Coming Back For Them Later) 23 • Riley Hacks The Government 24 • Jill Morgan Lives 25 • Cassian Finds Mac Cool 26 • School Reunion Science Fair 27 • Video Game Night 28 • Breaking And Entering 29 • Jack + Captured 30 • Hidden Fears

July 1 • Jigsaw Scenario 2 • Mac Pretending To Be Murdoc 3 • Riley's Undercover Op 4 • Write A Story With A Word Count Outside Of Your Usual 5 • Bar Night 6 • Talking To The Moon 7 • Late Night Run 8 • Bones (Broken, Found, Fossils ect) 9 • Jack's Medical Leave 10 • Panic Attack 11 • A Favor 12 • Aromantic Or Asexual Character 13 • Nyctophobia 14 • Murdoc's Hit List 15 • The Organization's Assassination Attempts 16 • Mac + Gun Power 17 • Medical Emergency 18 • Late Night Phone Call 19 • Angst 20 • Fake Sleeping 21 • Drugged 22 • Brain Fog 23 • Poor Cooking 24 • The Team Saves Mac 25 • Soul Mate Au 26 • Blizzard 27 • Stressful Drive To The ER 28 • Adopting A Pet 29 • Stabbed 30 • Haunted 31 • Orginal Character

August 1 • Area 51 2 • The Team Finds Matty's Files 3 • Mac Has Trust Issues 4 • Jack & Mac's Co Dependency 5 • Ticking Noise (Could Be A Bomb, A Clock, Who Knows) 5 • Mac Hates Medical Leave 7 • Bakery Au 8 • Murder Mystery 9 • Jack + Bomb + Mac 10 • Happy Ending 11 • Sleepless Nights 12 • Accidental Murder 13 • Matty Retires 14 • Samantha Doesn't Return To Australia 15 • Taking Down A Cult 16 • Alternative Au Where James Never Left Mac 17 • Bozer Finds Out About The Phoenix 18 • Riley Joining The Team 19 • Amber Returns After Murdoc Had Warned Her Not To 20 • A Phoenix Day Off (Probably Interrupted) 21 • Meaningful Coversations (At The Worst Time Possible) 22 • Mac And Riley Fall Asleep On Jack 23 • Internal Bleeding 24 • Wishing Upon A Star 25 • Father/Son Bonding (Jack & Mac or Murdoc & Cassian) 26 • Babysitting 27 • Lack Of Taking Care Of Oneself (Noticed By Another Team Member) 28 • Mac Being Reckless 29 • The Team Travels Somewhere New 30 • Ethan Reigns & Matty 31 • Fainting

September 1 • Breakfast In Bed 2 • Horror Movies 3 • Celebrating A Holiday 4 • Crutches 5 • Suffocation 6 • Bed Rest 7 • Airplane Travel 8 • Hiding In Plain Sight 9 • Crossover Au 10 • Unhealthy Habits 11 • Hand To Hand Combat 12 • Winter Time 13 • Running Out Of Time 14 • A Miracle 15 • Murdoc Leaves A 'Gift' 16 • Secret Service 17 • Night Light 18 • Lying 19 • Feigning Innocence 20 • Leaving Clues 21 • Dramatic Murdoc 22 • Vacation + Cocktails 23 • Anxiety 24 • Heat Exhaustion 25 • Long Term Undercover Op 26 • Lone Survivor/Survivor Guilt 27 • Broken Glass 28 • Ambulance Ride 29 • Flame Thrower 30 • Improper Use Of Chemicals

October 1 • Gasoline 2 • Bazooka 3 • Fireman's Carry 4 • Paperclip Collection 5 • Fascination/Obsession 6 • Taking Apart Electronics And Making Something New 7 • Multiple Love Interests 8 • Ufo 9 • Visiting A Pumpkin Patch 10 • Bozer Accidently Starts A Fire 11 • Nikki Is Not Who She Claims (Again) 12 • The President Is In Danger 13 • Welcome Party 14 • A Letter Goodbye 15 • Missed Calls 16 • Pain Relief 17 • Zombie Apocalypse 18 • Vampires 19 • Reckless Driving 20 • Transgender Character 21 • Moving Away 22 • Teacher Au 23 • Nightshade 24 • Hypothermia 25 • Helicopter 26 • Smoke 27 • Camping 28 • Light bulb + Lightning 29 • Push Pins 30 • Mac + Skyscraper 31 • Halloween

November 1 • Quarantine 2 • Acid 3 • Tar Pit 4 • Murdoc + Sniper Rifle 5 • Abandoned Warehouse 6 • Ice Skating 7 • Exchanging Letters 8 • Doing Drag For A Mission 9 • Insanity 10 • Dealing With Psychopaths 11 • Long Term Memory Loss 12 • Dazed 13 • Loss Of A Friend 14 • Forgetting Your Own Name 15 • Mission Gone Poorly (But Ends Up Fine) 16 • Rescuing People From A Cave 17 • Jill Catches Murdoc 18 • Bomb Hidden In Package 19 • Mixed Feelings 20 • Evacuation 21 • Bookcase Door 22 • Old Photo Albums 23 • Jack's Dog Tags 24 • Facing Their Biggest Fear 25 • Volcano Eruption 26 • Team Evaluation 27 • Held Captive Long Term 28 • Murdoc's Father 29 • Prom Night 30 • Injured Jack

December 1 • Drinking Hot Cocoa 2 • Electrical Fire 3 • Fixing The Toaster 4 • Movie Night (Die Hard Perhaps) 5 • A Letter Containing A Threat 6 • Home On The Range 7 • Jet Engine 8 • Fighting (Verbally Or Physically) 9 • Injured Matty 10 • Flower Picking 11 • Derealization 12 • Hallucinations 13 • Almost Happy Ending (Something Goes Wrong At The End) 14 • Snow Skiing 15 • Caroling 16 • Desi + Mac + Codex 17 • Saying 'I Love You' Too Late 18 • Bonfire 19 • Snow Day 20 • Team Meeting 21 • Ice Cubes + Mac 22 • Chemical Burns 23 • Cassian + Murdoc + Holidays 24 • Holiday Baking 25 • Christmas 26 • Mac Making A Tazer Out Of What He Has In His Pockets 27 • Fire Escape (Comes In Handy) 28 • Mistletoe 29 • Movie Theater Au 30 • Night Vision 31 • Sharing A Kiss On New Years Eve

(Some Days May Be Similar Or The Same Accidently)

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Sorry but this is hilarious

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WIP Sunday snippet #2

ah well, im also working on a second fun one might as well toss up a little bit, nothing outright explict in the snippet but the leadup to a bit more.

For a gunkink promptfill

Mac freezes, glancing from the gun under his chin holding him in place up to the man standing over him looking down and cataloging every reaction as he evaluates the situation. The combination of the sudden danger, proximity, and the flush of embarrassed exposure rushes through him, heat pooling everywhere as his body reacts to this new attention.

"Now, now, MacGyver, you really are full of such exciting surprises. Here I was thinking this would be a very boring flight across the Atlantic. Whatever shall I do with you?" He punctuated the question by tipping MacGyver's head back roughly with the barrel forcing him to look up and allowing Murdoc a better look at all of the emotions running through his enemie's thoughts. Some of the emotions were uninteresting and he dismissed them quickly, fear and panic and discomfort, but there it was, the one he was looking for, MacGyver's tongue slipped out trying to moisten a mouth that had gone dry and he shifted his hips just slightly at the same time almost unconsciously seeking some friction, desire and interest undercutting the fear, perfect.

Mac had to be dreaming now, this whole situation was becoming too intense and too ridiculous in equal amounts. From being dragged at gunpoint onto a private plane to having the same gun pressing right into his windpipe as its owner stared down at him hungrily, so clearly contemplating taking him apart and hopefully only in the sexual sense, he didn't put it past the assassin to find that attractive in the literal sense as well. And since when did he think of Murdoc and 'hopefully thinking about me sexually' in the same sentence and to make it worse when did he start welcoming those thoughts?

The air felt thick and heavy as Mac tried to sort his thoughts out but every time he could feel the ideas racing around his head congeal into any pattern the cool metal on his throat would drag him from any possible conclusion back into the moment and back into the heightened twin feelings of danger and arousal as he stared up at the man that not five minutes ago he would have sworn's only intentions to him involved his heart stopping and his blood on the floor after his usefulness wore off.

Maybe this wasn't going to be such a bad flight after all.

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A little WIP sunday snippet

I am not dead, and I will be coming back to my fics, and posting all of the promptober stuff I teased, and so forth eventually. And in classic fic writer-dom i've got a wild medical update to go with it (all good news in the end)

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Mac flinches at the mention of his late night thoughts, did he know? Did he know that the dreams had turned from fear to an unsettling combo of anxiety and arousal and leather and those damned eyes staring at him.

The silence between them stretches on in the dark prison, before it is broken by something different, Murdoc reaches out chains clinking, sliding one hand over MacGyver's own. "Angus, you're just a man, nothing more. Failure is allowed."

And dammit all if Murdoc hadn't hit on the heart of it immediately as much as he didn't want to admit it. He wasn't just a man anymore, he was stuck as a hero. His uncanny brain able to take him further and pull off more than anyone was also setting him apart from his friends and puts all these expectations on him. It was understandable, and Mac knew he also fell into those thoughts just like his friends, when you've seen one person create parachutes out of trash and build nuclear reactors out of cleaning supplies it's easy to fall into believing that they're almost invincible and can do anything and save anyone.

It was frustrating sometimes, Mac thought, that he could spend hours trying to figure something out, talk to his friends and still not really understand, and in one sentence Murdoc could pull a knife and stab it directly into the center of the twisting angry emotion and always aim true.

His hand was warm where it touched Mac's, almost too dry and too warm to make sense in a prison's interrogation room, but solid and grounding as Mac's thoughts chased around in new spirals unpacking what the assassin had said.

"They don't think of me as just a man anymore. Not in the field." Ugh, he was going to need to scrub these tapes. Again. Matty was going to be suspicious if he kept doing that, but what was he supposed to say, "so my enemy who's also sometimes my mission handler who I also have to pretend to be on undercover missions is also weirdly good at talk therapy when it comes to me, but don't worry it doesn't really mean anything I'm totally compromised."

Murdoc's lips tightened into a tight line, "That's dangerous. People make mistakes when they think like that."