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Love turned Obsessed.

I lacked love. 

I always heard "I love you," growing up but I never thought it was genuine. Just something that is to be said before leaving.

     I didn't know how to love.

I never had truly missed someone in my life because there wasn't really anyone to miss. They all usually left me behind.

     Then I came to know him.

He was beautiful. He was everything I had ever wanted. Everything that I needed to feel, I felt when I would see him.

He made my stomach tingly, a feeling of butterflies' gentle touches all up inside me.

     I got obsessed with that feeling.   

The feeling of being so deeply in love was something I couldn't resist.

   My heart would pound.    My mind would go blank. My cheeks would feel warmer. My stomach would feel like it was being caressed, gently and slowly.

     I liked that feeling.

     I wanted that feeling.

                                     Constantly.

I never realized I spent hours just staring at him.  At first I would take a glance, then that glance would turn into staring, which turned into spacing out, and before I knew it, he wasn't even there anymore. 

How long has it even been? It didn't matter.

   I was obsessed with him.   

Is this how love was supposed to be like?

     It's compelling.

   It feels good to 'love' like this.    How good does it feel to 'love' someone.    I love 'loving' him.

     I couldn't help myself anymore.

                    I want this feeling.

                                      I want him.

                                                    All for myself.   

To a beloved of mine.

                                      From far away.   

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“ I want to kiss each one of your freckles, place my lips against the stars „

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“ the friend that m’dreamin’ of is far away...but m’here...

...I’m here „

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“ my thoughts err away, tonight “

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“ my heart fell to love again ”

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“ I am everyone I have ever loved „

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“ if. . .I talk to you tomorrow, will something change ?”

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“ it might look pathetic, but even now, I freeze on the spot when you walk by me ”

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“ who's gonna kiss the brown haired boy ?. . .who’s gonna wipe away his tears ?”

“ me . „

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“ Calm men are my favorite. I find soothing, gentle, calm auras so attractive. I love a man who's good at comforting you, who doesn't yell or slam things when they're upset, when talking to him eases your anxiety and you just feel calm and safe. Be with a calm man. ”

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“ my guy pretty like a girl ”

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L'appel du vide, literally "the call of the void" is a French phrase used to refer to intellectual thoughts, or the urge to engage in destructive behaviors during everyday life. [1] Examples include thinking about swerving in to the opposite lane while driving, or feeling the urge to jump off a cliff edge while standing on it.

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“ God bless the girls who can't stop performing for the audience in their heads .”

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“ I'll make you happy baby, just wait and see ”

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“ if you give me a kiss, I'll give you three ”

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“ if you give me a kiss, I'll give you three ”

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“ I'll make you happy baby, just wait and see ”

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