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Steve: C'mon Billy, I just said I have better hair.

Billy: It's a lie though.

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Jumping into the New Year like…

Joe Keery diving off a boat

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no one speak to me .

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At this point I don't remember anything about Stranger Things other than Steve and Billy nearly rawdoggin' it under the shower and creaming their pants.

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Robin: You slept with Hargrove?

Steve: I didn’t know what else to do! He had those big, sad eyes. And they’re so blue!

Robin: …sure, sounds like you had no other choice

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The Crucible by Arthur Miller

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When I get sad, I look at it. We can write and imagine the rest

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Steve: So Hargrove might be in love with me

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I was reading about the Wild Hunt and how apparently, Odin Allfather was a typical father in that he refused to ask for directions during his annual Yule ride through the night sky, and instead of turning his fun, flying sleigh around or taking a slightly different route, he’d just plow on through the same route he always took, regardless of who or what was in his way. 

And if your house or land WAS in his way, he STILL wouldn’t reroute. He’d just burn the house down instead.

Which is THE funniest thing I have read in years. And it just got funnier when I pictured the whole thing turning into a buddy road trip with Loki and Odin and Sleipnir, and voila, a wild comic appeared.

(File those two kids under unimpressed.jpg.)

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It's me, I'm his bitches

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Billy: Heather, Chrissy, come here. I want to show you something in the bathroom

Jonathan: Hey, what’s behind your back?

Billy: Nothing. Just something I want to get the girls' opinion on for Valentine’s Day

Jonathan: You don’t want my opinion?

Billy: Not really

Jonathan: Come on, I’m your brother now, ask me!

Billy: All right, brother *holds up two jockstraps* Which of these do you think would make your brother look hotter, so your girlfriend's ex-boyfriend would want to do him?

Jonathan: ...

Jonathan, whispers: The red one

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When I was a (unmedicated, undiagnosed ADHD) kid, like, under 12, my room was a mess all the time. Not shocking.

I struggled keeping it clean.

I struggled getting it clean.

I would sincerely put in quite a bit of effort and be really proud of the progress I made. Then one of my parents would come check and see how I was doing.

"Well, you've still got a long way to go."

That sentence. I was like, 11 when my parents were saying that to me. It was crushing. All my pride and satisfaction with my work was completely gone. All my effort was worthless to them. All they saw what everything I didn't do.

At the age of ELEVEN, I knew that wasn't right. That wasn't fair. I swore to myself I would never invalidate someone's work like that.

Now, at 30, I catch myself thinking 'I cleaned up, but my apartment is still so messy.' and I flashback to standing in my bedroom as a child, hearing those fucking words from my parents.

'No. I wouldn't invalidate someone else's work. I'm not going to invalidate my own. I did good. I made progress.' and I'll list the things that I DID get done to myself.

You deserve credit for all the progress you make.

You deserve credit for all the work you do.

It doesn't matter how much work you have left.

What you accomplish, no matter how small, counts. Even when what you accomplished was taking a day to rest and recharge and give yourself a break.

Never let anyone invalidate your work. Not even you.

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me, halfway through listening through a song: hmm this might have otp potential

*restarts song but this time listening with Blorbo Intent

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The way that dating billy would’ve totally gone against the grain of Steve’s entire character and the expectations everyone places on him from his parents to his own friends. The way that being queer in itself would be a rebellion but dating Billy specifically would be a giant fuck you to all the pressures Steve’s had placed on his shoulders.

And the way billy would start feeling uncomfortable because he sees this for what it is, he’s the guy you date to piss off your parents, he knows that. He’s not gonna get anything more, never expects to

But then Steve proving to him that he actually likes him and this isn’t for show and he’s CHOOSING billy. He’s carving his own path and making his own decisions and following his heart instead of having everyone tell him who he should be in love with, he’s saying screw that and he’s prioritizing billy, who has never had anyone prioritize him ever

If I was the duffers I would simply write good character development but they cannot relate

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Need fire eater!steve and billy at a show casually walking up to light his cigarette from Steve’s mouth actually

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Steve & Robin: Do you see us laughing?

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This explains a lot about my lack of asking for help when I clearly need it