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I saw the warning for El and I thought El's just a secretly two faces jerk 😭 Like El's a red flag so player should be careful and not get too attached or something, I never thought you made it worse than that. I ignored the warning and now I'm sobbing. I just want El I don't think I could overcome this. All the ROs are great but my heart only blongs to one. Still, love this game and can't wait for more pain.

Did I make the wrong one... "leave"....? Dang, even gone El succeeds to shine brighter than the other ROs

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Hi! I loved the demo so here I came with a bunch of questions!

Did Athiel like (tiny little crush? Friendship?) MC before what happens in the demo?

Why Juliet hates MC so much?

How was Athiel and El relationship while growing up?

We know L has a lot of experience, but how experienced are the other ROs both romantically and sexually?

Will we know more about Eki's family, and Eki's and MC's friendship (if it's not spoiler could you tell us how MC and Eki met, how they become friends etc)?

Wow, that's a lot of questions, and I'm living for it.

So, yes. Athiel had a crush on MC, not a tiny crush. It was the big fat crush that leaves you thinking about that special person all night and having a lot of scenarios in your head. But not anymore, it's been a while since they moved on.

Juliet is... a woman who has a hard time being decent, if not with her own family. The only things important to her are : money, her kids, her husband, and other family. Nothing else matters to her. 

So when MC appeared out of nowhere and snatched her kid from her, she decided that she hated MC. And when MC lost their job? Juliet despised MC. 

El was a model, a popular one at that, so Juliet will always think that MC dated El for their money. MC don't deserve El. At least, that's what Juliet thinks.

Athiel and El... The two had a really good relationship, always stuck with each other, defending each other. But El did and said things Athiel didn't want to hear. Since that day, Athiel started to ressent El.

Mmmmh, for the experience question, I can't really answer (it'd be spoilers), but all I can say is: one of them is a virgin.

And lastly, yup, you'll know more about Ekissa's family or simply MC's and Ekissa's relationship. Ekissa and MC met at a coffee shop where MC was working. Ekissa was only 21, which was 7 years ago.

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Hi i have a question. does the game keep track of hearts options? if so what does it do with that? in my play through doc said that mc is looking better. does this mean game also checks if we are moving on? will there be el heart options?

turns out i have multiple questions. i thank you for your beautiful work.

Yep, the game keeps track of heart options, there's also friendship options that don't get any marks (because the friendship isn't as important as the romance in this game).

The heart options will help the game to give you different outcomes in some situations. For example, you got 5 hearts with Ekissa, and the max you can have is… let's say 7. Some scenes will depend on these hearts, if you have 5 hearts, sometimes the outcome won't be the same as if you had 7 or even 2 hearts with Ekissa.

I want yall to feel the difference. Maybe I won't be able to do that completely, but I still want to try.

And the game does check how you reacted when shit hit the fan, and how you're feeling about seeing someone else. So I'd say, yes?

For El heart options, I'm afraid you won't be able to have hearts with them… sadly.

Hope that helps!

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i have choosen to believe that El is actually in a witness protection program and that they will eventually come back and ask our hand in marriage.

what if they somehow became involved with dangerous people and someone came after them? maybe that wasn't really them in the car and that's the real reason we couldn't see them(maybe their parents are involved) or they actually survived.

i will wait for you El😭😭😭

Nah you got it all wrong...... El is a spy, duh.

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Hi,

I loved the demo. Cried a lot. And I understand if you don't want to answer this BUT is this gonna be a story where we find out El was secretly terrible the whole time? Because I don't know if I can handle the betrayal after the grief I have been dealing with.

Thanks :)

hehehheheheh

I wish to add some drama... But don't you worry, El is definitely an angel. No cheating, no hiding any secret from MC, no nothing. They're pure like that.

When I said they know that MC and they are just meant to be, I meant it with every fiber of my being. MC was, is, and will always be their fate. If they were a ghost, they'd probably stay by MC's side until MC joins them in the afterlife, wherever they're meant to go.

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Can I ask you how El would have reacted if MC asked them what they wanted to ask (maybe at home while reassuring El on the couch or while brushing teeth)?

I hope we're thinking about the same thing, well, obviously there's only one thing MC wanted to ask so hopefully I got it right.

Btw, I, uh, got a bit carried away haha....

Here’s how it would’ve been in another life

(Serious is green and playful is red)

As you brush El's teeth, your brain thinks and overthinks, gears turning in your head relentlessly. Should you ask now? But then again, proposing right now is a bit... 

Let's just say you imagined something more elegant and sophisticated. You're brushing his/her teeth, both of your mouths coated with toothpaste foam. There's nothing elegant about it but... You still have this little box in your pocket and you don't think you can wait any longer. 

That waitress did ruin your moment earlier, but it doesn't have to be perfect, right? It's the thought that counts as they say, and you love El. Your love has to be enough. 

"What ah you hinkin–" El pushes the toothbrush away making you pull your hand back as he/she spits in the sink next to him/her. After a moment, he/she tries again. "What are you thinking about?" 

"I–" 

"Me?" El wiggles his/her brows. "You're thinking about me, admit it." 

"Maybe you'd know if you actually let me answer," you huff a laugh, nudging his/ her inner thigh playfully from between his/her legs "Can I talk or do I have to pay for subscription to do it?" you level him/her with a deadpan stare.

El only grins as he/she waves a hand for you to continue. "Alright, alright. Go ahead, babe." 

Suddenly, you're not sure anymore if you wanna talk. His/Her full attention is on you now, his/her eyes shining with wonder and curiosity. 

You clear your throat, straighten your back and swallow hard as your hand hovers over your pocket where the lil treasure lies. The object feels uncomfortably heavy in your pocket right now. This is nerve-wracking. This is probably a bad idea to do it right now.

Fuck, you're nervous... your hand is slightly trembles and you hope he/she doesn't notice. 

He/She does. 

"Hey," he/she murmurs softly, wiping toothpaste from the corner of your lips with his/ her thumb before cleaning his/her own mouth under the sink’s spray. 

You're glad he/she did. At least you'll look somewhat decent for what's about to happen.

"You okay?" he/she asks, hands reaching out again but this time to cup your cheeks, thumbs stroking gently there. He/She seems torn between reassuring you about whatever has you feeling this way and teasing you. "What's going on?" 

"Nothing," you mutter, a slight frown betraying your words. 

It's El's turn to frown as he/she searches your eyes. Finding them he/she smiles warmly. "Why are you frowning, then? 

"I'm..." not. That's what you want to say but it'd be a lie. 

“You are,” he/she retorts in a quiet voice, gaze darting between your eyes. “Did I do something?”

“No,” you shake your head, your hand covering one of his/hers on your cheek. “No, you didn’t.” “Then tell me what’s wrong?” "Mh? Nothing, nothing," you grin at him/her, trying to mask your nervousness. 

El cocks a brow, a teasing smile spreading on his/her lips. "Why do I feel like you're lying?" 

"Me?" you throw him/her your most innocent look.

Your lover mirrors you, batting his/her eyelashes playfully. “Yes, you.”

“I would never,” you declare dramatically, a hand raised as if performing a theatrical monologue. “My heart is too pure, my soul too genuine, my mind too–“

But seeing his/her growing worry, you finally sigh. Right, maybe not a good idea to deflect right now.

You’re someone courageous, you’re gonna propose right now. You’ll do it. Right here, right now. Or maybe after some minutes of– no, you’ll do it.

Slipping your hand in your pocket, you suck in a breath. Shit, okay, you're actually doing it. This is now or never. No time for overthinking it. 

"El," you start. You want to go again and start saying how much you love him/her, how much he/she means to you. But if you do that, you're scared to backtrack and decide against it once again. 

El nods, patiently waiting, anticipating. He/She takes back his/her toothbrush to brush his/her teeth while you take your sweet time spilling it.  Slowly, your lower your knee until it touch the floor and that’s exactly when his/her whole body freeze, the box finally showing its head as you lift it and open it for El's view. The chocolate diamond not shining as brightly as El’s eyes.

"Marry me," you finally say. 

It's a bit... blunt, but there's no denying the vulnerability in your eyes right now as you hold his/her gaze. Your throat constricts and your heart races, as if trying to escape your damn ribcage.  "Marry me?" you attempt a smile, trying to bring out your playful side. But you can't hide how terrified you are right now. 

It’s one thing to joke here and there, but it's another to expose yourself so much, so… completely. 

You did it. The stress hasn’t vanished at all, though. You proposed... now you just have to actually hear the answ– 

Your eyes instinctively close when El sputters, literally spitting in your face as you grimace. Wow... so much for a picture-perfect proposal moment...

However, when your eyes open, your expression softens at the sight he's/she's giving you. 

His/Her eyes watering and glimmering with unshed tears, lips trembling, soft, choked noises escaping his/her throat. "You're a monster..." 

You blink at him/her. You're not sure how to interpret this answer. 

Suddenly, El sobs, launching off the counter to practically tackle you. You both crash to the floor with a solid thud. You groan, rubbing the back of your head, suddenly thankful for your thick skull. Your attention is pulled elsewhere, though. You feel him/her nod frantically against your skin, burying his/her head in the crook of your neck. "Yes yes YES... I love you." 

His/Her hiccups and whimpers echo in the bathroom as he/she grips you for dear life, as if afraid it's all a dream. "I love you so much..." 

You don't waste time wrapping your arms around him/her, pulling him/her closer than he/she already is. Your hand rubs his/her back as he/she lets it all out, your own eyes watering at the pure joy you're feeling right now.

“It’s… It’s my fave color,” he/she hiccups against you, body shivering with each sob.

“I know.”

���I love you I love you I love you…”

"I love you too, El." 

The box is forgotten on the floor. 

But it's okay, because the man/woman in your arms is more important than any rings in the world. 

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This is amazing there’s just a lot of pronoun errors/bugs.

Prologue should be fixed rn, will fix chap 1 tomorrow

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This if made my eyes water or just straight up bawl so many times😭!! One of my favorite scenes is Sugar (what I named the cat in my play through) seeking out Mc to comfort them. I absolutely love this if and it’s cast of characters except E’s Mother. All this heartbreak makes me wonder how E would’ve reacted if MC was in their place instead..

I had a similar ask like this one (anon if you recognize yourself, I didn't ignore you dw! But you had a spoiler in your ask without any warning or being vague enough for those who haven't read the prologue yet),

Anyway, I'm hesitating to write a short story just to show how El would react to MC being... well, in their place.

Spoiler under the cut

I'm currently writing L's POV during the car accident, and I plan to do it for El, Ekissa, and Athiel as well. So if I don't forget about it before starting to write Chapter 2, I'll definitely write this short story.

Yall will have to be patient, I write a lot and fast but I still have a hard time correcting everything without making it obvious english isn't my first language + the coding takes me a lot of time too

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Is it spoilers to ask for tidbits on El and Athiel’s relationship? Their distinct characters as adults give off (nemesis)cat and dog energy.

Ask away anon, their relationship is definitely not spoilery🫶

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I'm currently handling bug issues/errors, and gosh, I've got a real problem with "s." Either I add them when I shouldn't, or I forget to add them when I should...

The many "s" in French is already a problem for me, and I'm afraid it might be the same in English...

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Heyyy!! Loved the demo, and T is definitely my favourite so far. :) One thing I found a bit abrupt was being given the role of the top during sex with M!E as a M!MC. Perhaps it could be a choice rather than assumed?

I wrote 4 whole different scenes for this, depending on MC's and El's genitals, etc. Adding a choice would mean including it for each branch as well.

I don’t plan on adding choices, BUT if it seemed a bit abrupt, I can take a look and smooth the scene out a bit more for M!MC and M!E.

I'll just need more info to understand what felt abrupt, whether it's in general, if the start went too fast, or if the process seemed to lack something, etc.

Don't worry, though, when the time is right, I plan to make this option available with the ROs.

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Happy Sunday echo. Hope it's been a good one.

I had 3 questions for the masses lol

1. Are you okay with reaction asks?

2. Are you comfortable with NSFW asks?

3. Do you have Pinterest boards or mood boards for the characters? I always have a tough time picturing ROs lol

Btw thank you for the longest chapter in the history of everything. I know that must've been a huge ass pain to write and also then to code. We appreciate your sacrifice 🙏 it was a joy to read. Even the sad parts. Truly made my weekend. 💜

I'm okay with the first two. I love reading reactions, good or bad, and NSFW asks are to be expected, especially after the spicy prologue, so I really don’t mind!

I do have mood boards somewhere in my files, but they contain spoilers. I can make some that don’t spoil anything if that helps y’all (and I’m not very good with physical descriptions, so I think some people might have a hard time picturing them too).

Writing was the fun part, to be honest! If I could just write without coding, it would be... perfect.

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Echo.. I don't know what to say. Spoilers ahead, be warned.

The way you portrait the love between MC and E is absolutely beautiful. You immediately get the sense of their deep connection and wish it would last forever. For them to get kids (or a dog) and grow old together and see their kids raise their grandkids and... You get the picture. 🥲

Also, a character with flaws! High maintenance and an adorable, loving husband anyways. And the wrinkles tick, omg, the wrinkles. 😭 As I met with the doc and the MC straighted down imaginary wrinkles I cried all over! 😭

At first, as I read the prologue I thought if it wouldn't be more impactful, when we didn't know of the accident immediately.. But lord, you got me so invested in E that it hurt baaaad and was a shock anyways! Really, really good writing! ❤️

And the other characters, how everybody wants to help MC and even the neighbors come around. The scene with Juliet and the neighbor mother was so touching, how she held MC and protected her. 😭 Even the f* cat that was lovingly named "Nemesis" after hours of MC persuading E... Even the cat that hated our guts starts to be an emotional support throughout it all!

It is a rollercoster of emotions, one time I can't breathe anymore because I cry so hard and the next moment the RO's lift my spirits so much that I sqeal and giggle. 🤭

And the NSFW scene with E... Kyaaaa!!! You delivered. 🥲 What more can I say? Also, I love how you mention male E's "average" size. Finally some diversity in erotica if! So thank you! 🙏

Will we learn more of MCs backstory and the relationship between E and MC? Even if I try to move forward with MC I'm also curious to what all had happened.

Please, please, please continue your story! It was really a treat to read and you got me so emotionally invested that I need more on a visceral level! ❤️

I'll share your story, because I think everyone should read it. It needs more attention, fr.

Much love and I wish you all the best,

Lisa

I love receiving these kinds of asks, reading and re-reading and re-re-reading them just to inflate my ego a bit more.

Firstly, thank you so much for your kind words! Now...

MC's backstory will definitely come to light. I've dropped hints about their past, and MC is not done suffering yet.

However, I don't plan to make y'all cry in every chapter. Crying is good, but it can get boring if I throw too much at MC all at once, in my opinion.

And yes, you'll learn more about the relationship between E and MC. Definitely. Just probably not right away.

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Hi Echo, Lisa again.

I have one addition to make:

You're in dire need of a discord server, just so you know. We need to create a support group for all your emotionally damaged readers. 🤧 A safe space to exchange our thoughts and heal together. 😤 We just lost the love of our lifes, it would only be fair of you./jk

No pressure. But it would be nice to chat over discord about your story. ❤️

Will probably do it. I just... need to know how to do that (used discord, like, four times in my whole life)

Once I'm done with what I'm writing rn, I'll take a look

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Hello! So captivating story, I admire you, dear author! How you can rip our hearts out in matter of several minutes with the words is beyond me, but I like it, go on hehe 😼 I'm still in the process of reading but i'm so hyped and intrigued how the story unfolds

And I admire your courage for playing my game. I've seen(read) people cry... I dunno why tho?

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I absolutely love your game so far brought me to tears but I sadly don't think I could play through getting with any of the actual ROs I just want Elias TT n TT

Ahhh, totally understand. El or nothing, they're such a cutie