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I saw a caption today that said, “you don’t eat the fruit the same day you plant the seed” and I hope everyone reading this takes this as your sign to keep going. You might not see your progress now but I promise you that you will.

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I don't understand why I thought you were the one, that I'd finally have found someone who'd love me as much as I loved them but I was wrong. Yes, again.

I don't know who you are now, I'm questioning e everything. I don't understand why I can't see what's in front of me, I really wish someday I can.

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i feel like someone turned me inside out, ripped out all of my organs and left me in an abandoned park to dry out the blood.

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i'm a moody bitch with obvious anxiety issues who aims to be a perfectionist. someone help.

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Are you remembering to respect yourself and honor the way you feel when you make decisions?

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“He knew that I love you also means I love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, and also, I love you in a way that I love no one else, and never have loved anyone else, and never will love anyone else.”

— Jonathan Safran Foer

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“I’m not over you. The night brings tears and cries from the memory of what we once were. But it’s the sunny days that really show me how much I’m not over you.”

-k.aiden

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“I missed you in a small way. Tiny enough to fold up and put in my pocket, and carry that loneliness with me everywhere I went. I’d forget all about you, until my hand accidentally brushed against that slip of memory.”

— Unknown

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if you've ever felt not enough or worthless, please know that you are - and always have been - enough. you have so much worth and value just by virtue of being a person. no one can take that away from you. i'm so sorry if anyone has ever made you feel less than. you're a whole, complete person who deserves nice things and to be treated with respect. you will never not be enough.

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life doesn’t end at 25. life doesn’t end at 27 or 30 either. life doesn’t end at 35 or 45. life doesn’t end at 65. it doesn’t matter how old you are, when you decide to get your high school degree or start a family. it doesn’t matter when you decide to go run a marathon or go travel the world. life is not made up by numbers, age is, and your age is not all that you are. you got time. life doesn’t end until it ends.

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Everyone has bad days, it doesn’t make you weak. Take care of yourself and try again tomorrow.

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" do you want to die?" I ask myself in the mirror and somehow I know the answer's no.

I don't.

I want to build that account and get that job and have a successful blog and have a YouTube channel and give my own tedtalk. I want to be around people who love me and what I do and I want to just find happiness.

Not the kind that creeps up out of nowhere and lingers around just for a while but the kind which is consistent. The kind which makes you wake up with a smile and cook with love. The kind which makes you smile at strangers and makes your laugh the loudest in the room.

I'm not ready to die.

Once I've found that kind of happiness, once I know for sure that it exists. I'll be ready then.

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if you have cried, felt alone, had your depression/anxiety worsen, and/or struggled to stay afloat without the support you deserve this year, then I pray that this last month blesses you with the light and strength you need to continue to push forward and not give up hope for a better tomorrow. may the upcoming new year bring much happiness, positivity, love, and growth to your life and may you never go by another minute without remembering just how resilient and beautiful you are. it may not seem like it right now, but good things are headed your way and you will feel warmth in your heart again.     

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~ he touched her and instantly burst into flames, uh oh she said, smoke ~

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i understand when ur 13 and u just realized u have a mental illness and ur so relieved to know there are other ppl going thru the same thing as u, its easy to slip into the idea that your newly labeled thoughts and behaviors are normal and okay.

they are not. suicidal thoughts arent normal. violent impulses arent normal. delusions and hallucinations arent normal.

now that you have a name for this behavior you need to seek help. dont let tumblr trick you into thinking unhealthy coping mechanisms are the only ways to deal with your mental illness. dont let it fester, dont let it worsen. seek as much help as you can. actively try to better yourself.

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you are so much more than that failed test. that interview gone wrong, your relapse, the missed opportunities, the words you wish you could take back. you are not your mistakes. you're a person who's trying. there are so many opportunities to make things right. you'll get there, even if it takes a few more tries.

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Similarly it's okay to be thin, to have no muscles or less. To have flat breasts or to have a thin butt. To have no flabs or abs. You're still beautiful. It's okay to not gain fat/muscle.

it’s okay to gain weight even if it’s not muscle. even if it’s not around the holidays. even if you have no intention of losing it. it’s okay to gain weight.