lov3nha

[lov3nha]

hiiii! i started reading your fwb fic w heeseung and i love the concept but i think it would help w your writing if you varied sentence length more using conjunctions, descriptive sections, and using other punctuations.

i was getting a little bit of reader’s fatigue going through it so i hope you take this into consideration 🤗🤗

thank you so much!! that’s actually one of the reasons why i haven’t written in a long time. i just feel like my fics are so boring?? or like not as descriptive.

i really appreciate this 😣❤️❤️

[lov3nha]

fwb!heeseung

pairing: heeseung x afab!reader

genre: smut, angst, high school!au, theatre kids, alcohol, masturbation, oral sex, sexting, fwb, unnecessary plot maybe idk

summary: y/n becomes fwb with her crush? she actually doesn’t know wtf she and heeseung are and he could say the same. they just fuck all the time and secretly have feelings for e/o

wc: 6.3k

a/n: this is my first fic in like two years, im always open to feedback. also i didn’t know how to end this im so sorry 

It was the beginning of the fall term and you had just joined the theatre club’s design crew. You weren’t big on performing in front of large crowds, so you stuck with being behind the scenes. Your mom was a seamstress and often sold clothes at your family shop in the underground market. None of your friends joined the theatre club, so you had to make new friends. Sunghoon was in your college level econ class, so you just followed him around. You started to get close with him and eventually joined his little friend group. Sunghoon knew you weren’t close to anyone else in the club, so he introduced you to his friends. It consisted of three other students. You stood in between Sunghoon and Eunjoo. You looked at everyone in the circle, naming them and listing the things you knew about them. Eunjoo was a freshman, but a very talented actress. Hyebin was a junior like you, she was also in your calculus class. Next to Sunghoon was a senior named Heeseung. He wasn’t like popular, but everyone knew who he was, especially you. Your crush on Heeseung started in the spring, when you watched him play as one of the three musketeers in your school’s rendition of ‘The Three Musketeers’.

“Are you guys down?” Heeseung took charge since he was the senior. You turned to him, completely confused on what he was talking about.

“Sorry, what are we talking about?” You asked.

“Well, auditions are soon, so I suggested we can hang out today to get the nerves out.” Heeseung repeated the plan.

“Oh sure, just send me the address and I can come after this,” You responded. The group nodded and hummed okays. Since everyone was friends already, Sunghoon added you to their groupchat. You didn’t bother reading the 200+ messages though.

[holy.hoon]: they’re planning to do the addams family ??

[heeseung01]: yea im prolly gonna audition for gomez

[hey.binnie]: wowow good luck guys

[leeunjoo]: good luck to me too bc im tryna get the role of wednesday

When you got to the house, you waited before going in. Being in a room with people you weren’t really friends with made you anxious. And you weren’t even acting in the play, you just do set and costume design. Once you reached the door, Sunghoon let you in and lead you downstairs. This was your first time speaking to them outside of school, so all you could talk about was the play.

After a few more minutes, Sunghoon sets up Mario Kart to play. It was a bracket. You vs Hyebin, Eunjoo vs Heeseung, and winner against Sunghoon. You beat Hyebin because of a red shell. Then of course Heeseung beat Eunjoo because she wasn’t good at games. The way the bracket was set up had you playing against Heeseung. You were ahead in the second lap, but you fell for the fake item cube Heeseung set up the lap before. You (and the girls) grunted in frustration. Sunghoon, on the other hand, encouraged Heeseung. It really wasn’t a close game after you fell behind. Heeseung was way ahead of you, but you didn’t want to admit it. The match was over and Heeseung was preparing to race against Sunghoon. You didn’t even notice your feelings of anxiousness from before were gone.

“Good game, loser.” Heeseung teased you. You wondered what he thought of you since today was the first time you’ve ever interacted with him. For some reason you started getting self-conscious again. You’ve admired him for being so outgoing and friendly. You also knew about his love life through the grapevines. How he was apparently good in bed and was a smooth talker. In the end, Sunghoon was the champion, and everyone left later that evening.

Your phone was faced up on your desk as you were doing calculus homework. Notifications filled your home screen with messages from the group chat. Heeseung had suggested some outfit and prop ideas for the play, since you were on the design team. You slid open your phone, saying that your mom knew how to make clothes.

[heeseung01]: actually? i have some ideas for the set and outfits

[yn.yn]: oo okay send them to me,

[yn.yn]: i can see if my mom can help us make some

[hey.binnie]: ooh y/n can u sew and make clothes n shit?

[yn.yn]: kinda, i’ve just started learning from my mom like a year ago

Heeseung directly messaged you his ideas for the play. For the most part, the characters wore mainly black. Then he asked if you could video chat and you started panicking. Heeseung?!? Wants to call me??? You collected yourself and answered his call. He was wearing a tight white tank top and some grey sweatpants.

“Hi,” You felt nervous again. Maybe you should’ve put some make up on. What are you saying, it’s just a video chat with Heeseueng.

“You look pretty with your hair up.” So, this is what they meant when they said he’s a sweet talker. He was very teasing, but maybe that’s just how he is.

“Oh, hah, thank you. Yeah, I always put my hair up when I’m working on stuff. So it’s like not in my way,” You babbled. That wasn’t even true, you just didn’t know how to respond.

“That’s cute,” There was that smile again and those dreamy, mesmerizing eyes. Wow, I have a huge crush on this dude.

“What did you want to call for?” You changed the topic before you could blow up of embarrassment.

“Honestly, I just wanted to see you.” You audibly laughed. That was so cringey.

“You’re funny. That’s funny.” You laughed to hide the fact that you got butterflies from him. Don’t embarrass yourself.

“It’s true, you’re the person I know least about in the group. This is your first year in theatre, no?” The conversation continued for another 10 minutes. How could you feel so relaxed but so nervous at the same time when talking to Heeseung? You looked at the time and decided to finish your homework instead. Plus, there’s no doubt he has a list of girls on his call list.

The next day in theatre club, the teacher said auditions were being held this Friday instead of next Friday. More days passed and your group started practicing the lines. Heeseung messaged the group chat after school to see if anyone wanted to video chat to go over lines.

[yn.yn]: im literally bout to shower, maybe in like 20

[heeseung01]: send pics??

[holy.hoon]: that’s so gross

[leeunjoo]: ewewww

[hey.binnie]: pls keep that stuff private. we don’t want that in the gc

[leeunjoo]: ^^

[yn.yn]: ur so weird hee

Heeseung often sent you messages about how he couldn’t wait to see you after school, but you never took them seriously. You’ve heard about Heeseung and all the little flings he’s had. You didn’t want to be the next one, but he was so addicting to talk to. It was inevitable, one night your teenage hormones took over. It started when you posted a picture with your friends on your story and Heeseung saw. After school and you went to hang out with your friends. You just happened to wear a shirt that showed quite the cleavage. Heeseung slid up on your story making sure you knew he liked what you were wearing. You thanked him, but of course he had to make things dirty.

[heeseung]: i bet you’d look better with it off

[you]: oh my god, that’s so hot

[heeseung]: yea?

[you]: i was being sarcastic

[heeseung]: are you busy right now

[you]: yes !

[you]: im out with my friends, if you want to get off ask some other girl

[heesung]: but only you make me feel this way~

Everything about Heeseung was bad, but he still managed to cause butterflies in your stomach. You knew this was all just a game for him. In fact, you know he talks to other girls because you were pretty sure you heard Hyebin talk about it in class. You left Heeseung’s message on read and joined the conversation with your friends, but that didn’t stop the teenage boy from sending you explicit texts. After dinner, you went home and straight to your room. Luckily your room was downstairs and the rest of your family’s room was upstairs. As soon as you entered your room you texted Heeseung.

[you]: i fucking hate you

[heeseung]: stop denying that you want me. i can feel it every time we make eye contact

[you]: ughhh

[heeseung]: you could be grunting in pleasure if you just give into what we both want

[you]: ur annoying. im not gonna resond fr this time

[heeseung]: ur so hot when you’re angry, i keep thinking about leaving bites all over you

[you]: heeseung don’t start

As much as you wanted to deny it, you could just imagine Heeseung’s lips pressed on your neck, then moving down to your torso and even going lower. Heeseung grinned to himself when he read your message. He loved how easy you were, he didn’t even have to try.

[heeseung] why not :(

[you] i hate how u make me feel

[heeseung] let me help you change that

[heeseung] i would start with kissing your pretty lips, then slowly move down to your jaw

[you] heeseung please

[heeseung]: please continue? gladly

[heeseung]: god i wnna ruin u and pull on your hair as you’re telling me how good i am

[you]: id love that

You imagined Heeseung’s rough hands roaming your body. Thinking about him turned you on so much.

[heeseung]: mm baby i’ll make you feel so good when im fucking you

All the stories you’ve heard about how amazing Heeseung was made you really curious. Heeseung sent a video of him pulling his shaft out from his sweatpants. You positioned yourself in your bed as you recorded yourself sliding off your jeans. Heeseung stroked himself and asked for you to send more videos. Teasingly, you sent a photo of you in only your undergarments. Heeseung screenshotted the photo, you hesitated to send more. But at this point you were too horny to care about what he was going to do with it. Heeseung’s breathy grunts filled your room and you moaned along.

[heeseung] baby can i plese cal u

[you] yes

Not even a second later your phone began to buzz. His voice sounded needy when he praised you on how you made him feel.

“Y/N, I need you so bad.” He grunted into the phone.

You whined at his words. “Please, Heeseung. I wish you were here.”

“Mm, what would you have me do?” He smiled on the other side of the phone.

“I want you to hold me down while you leave marks on my body. Heeseung, I want you to fuck me so bad.” Your breath hitched as you played with your clit.

“Baby, you sound so cute when you’re needy. I can’t wait to feel every part of your body. From those beautiful breasts of yours to your nice ass.” You heard Heeseung’s speed increase as did yours. “Hmm, Y/N, I wish your lips were sucking me right now.”

You inserted two fingers into your mouth and sucked them, causing there to be a little pop at the end. You moaned Heeseung’s name into the phone while continuing to pleasure yourself. Your whining became louder as you were getting close Heeseung was too. His grunts were getting more vocal, indicating he was close to finishing.

“Heeseung, I’m cumming.” You slowly fingered yourself, riding your high. Over the phone you could hear him panting. He was probably finishing himself off.

“God, I’m a mess,” Heeseung lightly chuckled. “You should go wash up, too.” He suggested. You washed up and went to sleep, not even thinking about what would happen tomorrow. Whereas Heeseung couldn’t wait to make tonight a reality.

The next day, you woke up clearly remembering the events of the previous night. Were you really that needy? How embarrassing. You literally told yourself you weren’t going to be another one of Heeseung’s flings. You sighed and got ready for school. Heeseung didn’t text you at all since last night, but what did you expect. Once you got to the school grounds your friends were talking about their love lives. You walked with them to their lockers and Heeseung saw you. You saw him earlier, but pretended not to. He walked closer to you, trying to catch you before the halls clustered with teenagers.

“Good morning, Y/N,” Heeseung looked at your friends before looking back at you. He smiled at them, and they left you two alone to talk.

“Um, what’s up?” You asked calmly, though your whole body was tense.

“Thank you for last night, I really enjoyed it.” Heeseung’s smile made your heart tingle. The two of you started walking towards your class.

“Yeah, of course? You could’ve just texted me.” Your fingers began to sweat out of nervousness.

“I know, but I just needed an excuse to walk you to class.” Your face turned a light pink from his response. “I’ll see you after school!” And just like that Heeseung left. You wish you had the courage to talk to him more, but the whole mutual masturbation thing was new to you and you didn’t know how to deal with it. Was this a one-time thing? Are you guys fuck buddies now? What happens next?

When you got to class, your friends teased you and asked you all sorts of questions. Like why you didn’t tell them you were friends with Heeseung, or if you liked him, or if he liked you. You knew they liked to gossip, especially about Heeseung. You didn’t tell them because you didn’t want everyone to know your business just like all the other girls Heeseung fucked with. The whole day you kept daydreaming about Heeseung, which was a tad bit unhealthy. You couldn’t wait to see him. As if he was reading your mind, you received a text from him.

[heeseung]: hi y/n

[you]: hi heeseung 

[heeseung]: what class are u in rn

[you]: physics hbu

[heeseung]: im in calculus, its so boring i already finished the hw

[you]: can u send me the answers lolol

[heeseung]: only at a price

[you]: and that is?

The bell rang and it was time for you to see Heeseung. You were so eager to see the boy that has been running through your mind, you didn’t even realize you were speed walking through the halls. When you walked in, he was with a different group of friends. While he was helping them set up the backdrop, you were trying so hard not to stare from the other side of the room. Sunghoon, Eunjoo, and Hyebin showed up and the four of you began to help around the room. How could Heeseung go from walking you to class to not speaking to you? Occasionally, you two would make eye contact, but you were quick to break it. The next time you two made eye contact, Heeseung winked at you. You rolled your eyes at his attempt to flirt, but you also began to tease him. You tucked your hair behind your ears, allowing him to see the bare skin of your neck. Next, Heeseung was sitting on the floor as he rolled his head back. Dirty thoughts started filled your minds. Heesung couldn’t stop thinking about last night and was so ready to take you right there, but he couldn’t.

“Heeseung?” Eunjoo asked and he cleared his throat as he turned to her.

“What’s up?” He responded.

“Can you come help us carry some of the table back?”

Eunjoo and Heeseung walked towards you and you smiled at them. Eunjoo was talking to Sunghoon as Heeseung walked up to you. You were kneeling on the floor, picking up some scraps from the set and you looked up at him.

“This is a pretty sight to see.” He smirked. You quickly got up to help them carry the table to the back of the stage. “Come with me.”

“We have to finish maki–” Heeseung grabbed your arm and took you to one of the dressing rooms in the back. It was dark as he closed the door and locked it. Not like anyone was gonna come to the dressing rooms anyway, but he didn’t want to risk it. He pulled you onto his lap as he sat on the couch.

“I’ve been thinking about kissing you since forever. Can I?” You hated hookup culture, but you wrapped your arms around his neck anyway. He took that as a signal for him to start kissing you. He pulled you closer and you could feel his dick getting hard. You sucked on the top of his lip before allowing him to enter his tongue. Feeling his wet muscle, you let out a soft moan. Heeseung’s hands began to explore your body. One hand ran down your back while the other was placed around your hips. You became needy and grinded on him. Heeseung let out a gasp from the pressure you put on his hardened shaft. His lips gently kissed your jawline and down to your neck. You tilted your head slightly to the left to give him more access. His kisses were getting more wet until he got to your collarbone. Your bodies were touching and your hands played with his hair. Heeseung moved your shirt to the side so his lips could suck on the skin near your collarbone. You tugged on his hair in pleasure. Now knowing you liked that, he continued to move up near you neck.

“Hee, I’m not tryna go back out there with hickies on my neck.” You pulled away and cupped his face to pull his lips to yours. Soon, his hands slipped under your shirt and he groped your boob. You moaned in pleasure, grinding on him again. The two of you continued this for a while, then you felt him twitch underneath his jeans.

“Let me help you with that.” You got on your knees and looked up at him while you slowly unzipped his pants.

“Y/N, I need your beautiful lips–” His sentenced was halted as you pulled down his briefs, causing his shaft to hit against his torso. The cold air made him gasp, but it was quickly replaced with your lips. You’ve never done this before, but the amount of porn you’ve seen should be enough, right? Either way, you had Heeseung slurring out swear words. You slightly tease him by licking up and down his shaft. “Don’t tease me, Y/N.” You used your hand to spread your saliva over it before putting your mouth over it. His hips jerked into your hands.

“Baby, your mouth. Please.” You started slowly from the top. Your tongue swirled around the tip, then you opened wider to fit it in. Heeseung started thrusting slowly. Once you got the hang of it, you fastened your pace. Heeseung’s hand found its way to your hair and pushed for you to go deeper. “Baby,” he lightly moaned as you tried to keep up. He let out a long groan and you continued to gag in his dick. You looked up at him to see his head thrown back against the couch. His eyes met with yours and he smiled.

“Fuck, you’re so good at this.” His praise made you release his dick with a pop before going back to suck it. Before he got close, Heeseung pulled you back up to his face to kiss you again. Heeseung’s hand guided your hips onto his thigh, but before anything more could happen you pulled away.

“Heeseung... class ends soon,” You said in between pants.

The two of you got up and dressed properly. You cannot believe you just gave Heeseung head in a fucking dressing room at school. Luckily it was the end of the day, and you could go straight home after this. You both went to the bathroom to clean yourselves up before returning to the auditorium.

“Where were you guys?” Sunghoon suspiciously asked.

The two of you lied about your whereabouts and Sunghoon somehow believed it. You smiled at Heeseung, silently thanking him for not telling everyone what happened. No matter how embarrassed you felt after doing things with Heeseung, you always did it again. But that was going to change, you were not going to hookup with him again.

Well, that was a fucking lie. The following week, Heeseung came over to practice lines with you and you ended up giving each other head. Then after another week of sneaking around, roles were casted and Heeseung got one of the leads. Sunghoon and Eunjoo didn’t end up getting any major roles, but they were still in it. Now that you were creating the costumes for the cast, you and Heeseung spent a lot of time together outside of school. He came over one day so you could get his body measurements.

“Can you take off your sweater so I can measure your shoulder?” You asked kindly.

“Do you want my shirt off too?” Heeseung smirked, but you weren’t paying attention.

“I mean if you want, but you’ll be wearing clothes under the suit, so I don’t really need the measurements to be that precise,” You answered completely oblivious to Heeseung’s ulterior motive. Heeseung decided to keep his shirt on since you didn’t say yes.

“Y/N, you look so good right now,” Heeseung pulled your waist close to him, causing you to mess up measuring his chest.

“Heeseung, can you not move around. I need to start making these costumes before the end of the week.” You explained.

“Can we take a break? I have something else you can measure,”

"First of all, please never say that again. Second, 6 inches. Third, how the hell are you horny? I didn’t even do anything.” You plopped down on your bed beside him.

“Well, you’re just so pretty and then your fingers were touching me all over. Then I just combined the two, you know?” Heeseung slowly pushes you down. His hand next to your face, trapping you between him and your bed. You scoot up on your bed so that you both can fit on it. Heeseung is still on top of you and you both smile before his lips roughly meet yours. Your tongues swirled around each other’s.

“Someone’s impatient,” You chuckled after struggling to pull away.

“Just keep kissing me, loser.”

You let Heeseung take control of the kiss as your hand roams up his shaft. You can feel it wasn’t sitting right so you slip your hands into his pants to fix it. Heeseung flinches at your touch. He lowers his arm out of tiredness and begins to kiss down your neck.

“Can I leave hickies?” He asked.

“Anywhere I can cover with clothes,” You answered, and his hands were quick to take off your shirt.

Heeseung loved your body so much. He loved how sensitive you were to his touch. It’s like he was made to please you. He starts leaving marks above your breasts as he fondled them. After, he moved down your torso and stopped at your pajama shorts. He looked at you for confirmation before pulling them off. You thought it wasn’t fair that you were half naked while he was fully clothed. So, you tugged on the hem of his shirt to let him know. He lowered himself back down, now directly in front of your panties. He moved it aside, exposing how wet you were for him. Right after he praises you for it, he gently inserts one finger. It slips in easily, so he adds in another one. You release a sigh from the pleasure. Slowly, Heeseung’s fingers thrust in and out of you. Seeing you squirm, he starts curling his fingers to find your spot. A loud moan escapes your mouth. Notifying Heeseung to do it again. As he continued to finger you, his mouth found a way to your clit. Now with his tongue flicking it, you were pulling tight on the bed. His flicking turned into sucking and you were on the verge of your orgasm.

“I’m so close, Hee,” You managed to speak. “Please keep going.”

Heeseung showed no mercy till you finished. The two of you look at each other in awe before Heeseung grabbed a towel. He wipes you down gently and helps you put your clothes back on. You never realized there was this side of him. Was he like this to every girl he fucked? You were so confused because you guys never really established what the two of you were. After you changed you went back to the bed with Heeseung.

“Can it be my turn now?” Heeseung cutely begged. Unfortunately, you mom texted you she was on her way back from work. You quickly finished getting Heeseung’s measurements then walked him out. Your parents didn’t know you were having a boy over and you’d like to keep it that way. You smiled at the dark-haired boy. Till this day you still hated hook up culture. You knew that if you kept doing this with Heeseung you would get hurt. For that very reason is why you still haven’t technically had sex with him. How are you supposed to reject making out with your crush though?

Later that night, you got invited to a party that one of the theatre kids were hosting.

[holy.hoon]: r u guys gonna go jeongin’s halloween party

[hey.binniee]: duhh, im going as maleficent and eunjoo is aurora

[leeunjoo]: yah we’re gonna be so hot

[heeseung01]: freshmen aren’t allowed

[leeunjoo]: not fair

[hey.binnie]: we literally alr planned our fits, can’t u let it slide this once

[leeeunjo]: yea pleaassee heeseungie

[heeseung01]: bro idgaf, its jeongin’s party not mine, but usually freshmen are like looked down on

[holy.hoon]: @yn.yn r u going?

[yn.yn]: im working till 8pm that night, i can maybe come after if im not dead

[heeseung01]: ah that’s actually good timing, i have family stuff till 8, i can pick u up and we can go together

[yn.yn]: okie

 The day of Jeongin’s party arrived and you watched as everyone posted their costumes online. When you got home from work you touched up your makeup from earlier. You threw on a black turtleneck and green cargo pants resembling Kim Possible. It was an easy, quick, and affordable costume.

[heeseung]: what are you wearing

[you]: eww pervert

[heeseung]: i meant to the party

[you]: why didn’t u say that from the beginning

[heeseung]: i don’t have any costume ideas, so i was just wondering what u were gonna wear

[you]: why? u wanna match w me? :P

[heeseung]: ugh whatever

[heeseung]: im omw now

[you]: ok babe

You sent that last message as a joke, kinda. You just wanted to see how he reacted. You weren’t sure if Heeseung was going around telling people you were his new sneaky link, but you haven’t heard anyone talk about it yet. The only people you’ve told were your coworkers because they don’t go to your school. Plus, if you told your friends about him, they were sure to expose feelings for Heeseung– and you were not going to let that happen.

Heeseung hasn’t told anyone about you. There were plenty of girls Heeseung could choose to hook up with, but all he could think about was you. He didn’t know if it was a crush, but he knew he wouldn’t want you to be with anyone else. Before you and Heeseung started hooking up, he used to sext Hyebin all the time. It wasn’t anything to him. They played love interests in the last play, but other than that he didn’t have as hard as feelings for Hyebin like he had for you. I guess Heeseung could call you his ‘sneaky link’, but do sneaky links send each other tiktoks that remind them of each other. Do they give each other song recommendations? Do sneaky links feel jealous when you talk to other people?

“Hi, babe,” Heeseung greeted you as you entered his car. “That name rolls off my tongue perfectly.”

“Shut up. You’re not even gonna mention my costume?”

“You have one on? I thought you were just wearing regular clothes.”

“I’m Kim Possible?” You looked at him in disbelief. Either he doesn’t know who Kim Possible is or your costume was bad. “Well, who are you dressed up as? A 2000s American rapper?”

Heeseung was literally in a white tee shirt and cargo pants with a zip up hoodie half zipped. He just laughed at your joke and continued driving. The ride to Jeongin’s house was like 20 minutes because he lived in a fancy rich neighborhood. As the song played in Heeseung’s car, his hand rode up your thigh.

“Is this your trick into getting girls to sleep with you? Play some R&B music and caress them.” You joked.

“No. This is how I get girls to fall in love with me.” Heeseung played along, but for some reason you were hurt by that comment. You knew there were other girls before you, probably in this exact seat too. And you knew whatever was going on between the two of you wasn’t special, but you wish it was. From the very beginning you told yourself you were not going to get involved with Heeseung like this. Yet here you are in the passenger seat of his car with his hand rubbing your leg.

“Well,” You said as Heeseung placed his hand back on the steering wheel. “You need a new plan because it’s not working.” You pulled out your phone to distract yourself from your negative thoughts.

Once you got to the party, the two of you searched from the rest of your friends. Heeseung was stopped by some seniors you didn’t know, so you searched for them yourself. The journey was very quick, since Hyebin was with that group of seniors. The two of you greeted each other and exchanged some compliments. Then you walked with Hyebin to the kitchen where Sunghoon and Eunjoo were.

“Hi guys,” You cheered.

“HI Y/NN!!” Eunjoo shouted. You noticed the shot glass in her hand.

“OMG, who is letting her drink?  She’s just a freshman.” You questioned.

You were not going to let Eunjoo take anymore shots. So, you took her back to the dance floor. You looked around to try to find Heeseung. You notice him talking to this one girl, dressed up as a Playboy bunny. How basic. Next, he leans over to whisper something in her ear and they both start laughing. Heeseung looked up and noticed you staring at them. You tried to play it off by looking away. How could he run his hand up my leg during the car ride, then not even speak to me at the party. He was so confusing.

When you walked away you accidentally bumped into Jeongin, causing his beverage to spill all over your top. A little yelp escaped your mouth.

“Oh shit, my bad,” Jeongin turned to grab the nearest napkin. It didn’t do much, so you went the kitchen where you see a towel near the sink. Jeongin followed you to try to help.

“You’re Y/N, right?”

“Yeah, and you’re Jeongin– obviously.” You continued to wipe your shirt, but it still felt wet.

“Here, follow me. You can wear one of my shirts,” He led you upstairs to his room and Heeseung noticed. No way she’s following Jeongin to his room. When you came back down, you saw Eunjoo taking shots again, so you went to stop her before she ruins herself. Hyebin and Sunghoon also noticed her.

“This is why freshmen aren’t allowed. They don’t know their limits,” Sunghoon stated. He decided to bring Eunjoo into a room where she can rest.

Hyebin noticed your change in outfit and asked you what went on between you and Jeongin. You told her the truth, thinking you can trust her. All you and Jeongin did was talk about Heeseung. When he brought you to his room, he mentioned seeing you and Heeseung exchange glances. He encouraged you to go talk to him.

Hyebin laughed in your face. Unknowing to you, she was jealous that you and Heeseung became close. He no longer messaged her for late night hookups, and this confirmed that he replaced her with you. She told you she saw Heeseung go into the bathroom with the playboy bunny. And just on cue, the two of them walk out into the hallway. Your heart drops to what feels like the bottom of the earth. Hyebin pretends to care for you a little bit before leaving you in the kitchen.

Jeongin noticed you drinking all the alcohol and invited you to go dance with him and his friends. He didn’t know what Hyebin had done and was still trying to help you get with Heeseung. Jeongin held your hands to guide you to the music. As you were beginning to feel the rhythm, you saw Heeseung looking at you. You pulled Jeongin closer to you to incite a reaction out of Heeseung, but he continues to just watch you.

“Y/N are you good?” Jeongin asked. He didn’t know why you were dancing with him when you were interested in Heeseung. You pushed yourself closer to Jeongin and his hands roamed around your body kind of awkwardly. But he stepped away when he saw Heeseung come over.

“Ouch, Heeseung,” You shrieked as he grabbed your wrist.

“I’m taking you home,” Heeseung demanded as the two of you were now outside.

“Why? You can sleep with all the girls you want, but I can’t even dance with another guy?” You freed your wrist from him. What kind of hypocrisy was this?

“Oh, it was more than just dancing. You came back from his room in his clothes,” Heeseung explained.

“I didn’t have sex with him, Heeseung. He wasn’t even in the room when I changed. In fact, all we talked about was you.” You shouted and tears began to fill your eyes. “This whole night I’ve been wondering if you were ever gonna come talk to me. But then I find out you’re fucking some bunny in the bathroom!”

“Who told you that?” Heeseung exhaled. “They’re wrong.”

“I saw it myself, Heeseung.” Now the tears were rolling down your cheeks

“What you saw was me coming out of the bathroom after helping her puke her intestines out. I don’t even think about fucking anyone but you.”

“Oh,” You mumbled and wiped your tears. This was so embarrassing. The last thing you wanted was to cry in front of Heeseung.

“Just let me take you somewhere, you’re clearly fucked up right now.” Heeseung looked at you with caring eyes. The last thing he wanted was to make you cry.

“I’m barely even drunk,” You retorted (and lied). “And I don’t want to go home. My parents would kill me if they found out I was drinking.”

“Do you want to go back to my place?” Heeseung meant it in the most innocent way ever. He was not going to take advantage of you while you weren’t sober. You nodded and the two of you entered his car. It was safe to say the car ride was a silent one. You didn’t notice it at first, but his car smelled like him. The smell was intoxicating and almost as strong as the alcohol on you. Heeseung looked at you adoringly and apologetically. He wondered if he should tell you how he felt. When you got his house, you washed up and got ready for bed. You were completely sober now. You felt bad for going off on Heeseung, but you were too embarrassed to speak to him. Heeseung let you sleep in his bed while he was going to sleep on the floor, but you felt bad and offered him to sleep on the bed with you.

“Are you asleep already?” Both of your backs were touching. Neither of you wanted to face each other.

“About to be,” Well, neither of you were brave enough to face each other.

“Oh, okay. Goodnight,” You could feel Heeseung shift the position of his legs. After a few moments of silence, you apologized.

“I’m sorry for freaking out earlier,” You positioned yourself to stare up at the ceiling.

“It’s fine, I’m sorry too.” Heeseung turned around to face you. So, what now? You slowly turned to face him. Out of the tension and closeness between you two, you confessed your feelings to Heeseung. It felt liberating to finally tell him how you felt. Even if it meant ruining whatever you had going on. “That’s not fair, I was going to confess to you first.

You smiled and he pulled you in for a short, sweet kiss. You continued to lie in his arm for a while before kissing him again. Heeseung told you if you kept kissing him, he was going to get h word. So, that’s exactly what you continued to do. Heeseung sat up and pulled you up over him, so that your legs were now over him. His lips found yours once again as he guided your hips on his. You were getting too needy and decided to strip yourself of your clothes. Heeseung did the same. Your hand went straight to his hardened dick and Heeseung grabbed a condom from the table next to his bed. As he placed on the rubber, you positioned yourself above him.

“Are you sure?” Heeseung reassured and you nodded. You lowered yourself onto him gently, causing sexual sounds to escape your lips. “Oh, fuck.” Heeseung panted.

You slowly grinded against him to get used to the size. Heeseung’s had roamed around your back and hips. Soon, he had you bouncing up and down his shaft. You tried to kiss him again, but the euphoric feeling took over both of you. Your breathing became synchronized.

“You feel so good, Y/N.” His grip on your hips got tighter, as did your grip on his shoulders.

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a/n: brahh im ending it here bc im too lazy to write more. thank u so so much for reading and i hope you liked it. idk why but every time i read something i write, i find it super cringey.