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Some of the Webkinz songs that they made for short period of time about different pets of the month don't hold up, (Misunderstood is jazzy but it's not my type of jazz, and "It's good to be the king" is also a meh)

But good golly I love love love love love their song "Nine Lives." You want a sappy love song? It's SO GOOD.

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GOG is taking a stand against payment processors caving to fundamentalist religious groups and is offering a bunch of "banned" games for free. (via Ashley Lynch on bsky)

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Had a dream where Johnny from “The Devil Went Down To Georgia” came out as a trans woman and the response was so unanimously positive it reversed nearly all of the transphobic bills in the South. She played live in Georgia to an audience of about a third of the US.

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（The little black cat is from Camus's cat "Cigarette".）

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a silly moment from a recent splatoon match. im glad that you enjoyed being avenged teammate

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i just can’t have enough of puppet/puppeteer metaphors, please shove them directly into my mouth (and also dolls are very cool thank you)

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A series of 8 tweets on the experience of being autistic and ADHD (AuDHD) by @pot8um on twitter, image descriptions below cut.

I saved these shortly after being dx + medicated with ADHD last year. It was the first time I began to seriously consider the possibility that I was also autistic. 1/8

AuDHD is a constant tug-of-war— contradictions that exist simultaneously that I feel equally strongly about.

[image description: Two-column text inside orange arrows on left, and blue arrows on right. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, L text: “Making spontaneous plans”, R text: “Getting very upset if those plans are interrupted” 2nd row, L text: “Struggling to organize”, R text: “Having a strong need for order”. By @autistic.qualia]

Each of these are so familiar to me, but I could never articulate my experiences with the right language. Also, if you don’t know what you’re experiencing is AuDHD, you don’t know what questions to ask. You didn’t know you were even supposed to *have* questions! 2/8

[image description: Two-column text inside orange arrows on left, and blue arrows on right. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, L text: “Impulsively making purchases for a new hyperfixation”, R text: “Hyperfocus on researching the products” 2nd row, L text: “Struggling to be on time”, R text: “Upset when others are a few minutes late”. by @autistic.qualia]

I have phases of hyperfixation with certain things, and lifelong interest in others. Successfully executed plans / tasks is always my goal. (The perfectionism is too real.) I always get frustrated when I inevitably miss steps, regardless of my attention to detail. 3/8

[image description: Two-column text inside orange arrows on left, and blue arrows on right. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, L text: “Hyperfixating on a wide variety of topics”, R text: “Also having long term special interests” 2nd row, L text: “Forgetting steps in plans”, R text: “Needing plans to execute perfectly”. by @autistic.qualia]

I *love* trying new foods… until it’s a bad experience, then I clam up and am reluctant to try again. When it comes to food, consistency is vital to me. My brain is far more active than I have spoons for. Most of my ideas strike when I’m freshly overloaded and spoonless. 4/8

[image description: Two-column text inside orange arrows on left, and blue arrows on right. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, L text: “Enticed by novel foods”, R text: “Hypercritical of food taste and texture” 2nd row, L text: “Wanting new experiences”, R text: “Wanting to stick to what I know I like”. by @autistic.qualia]

I tend to hyperfixate on things that aren’t central to the task at hand. (I don’t want to say “on the ‘wrong’ thing” because I’m on my self-compassion shit ) Discovering my neurodivergence during the pandemic was surreal. Severe boredom, severe overload, severe whiplash. 5/8

[image description: Two-column text inside arrows. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, orange arrow, L text: “Misses details and makes mistakes on boring topics”, blue arrow, R text: “Notices small details and points out others’ mistakes”. 2nd row, purple arrow, L text: “Becoming easily understimulated”; Yellow arrow, R text: “Becoming easily overstimulated”. by @autistic.qualia]

Overthinking the stages of your emotional dysregulation is its own personal hell. When I’m lowest on spoons, I tend to ruminate the most. My thirst for knowledge is met by my shoddy working memory. I try recalling a fact that *I know* I read up on. Can’t. Frustration ensues. 6/8

[image description: Two-column text inside arrows. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, purple arrow, L text: “Struggling from emotional dysregulation”. Blue arrow, R text: “Being a logical and analytical thinker”. 2nd row, orange arrow, L text: “Struggling to retain information”; Yellow arrow, R text: “Wanting to learn everything”. by @autistic.qualia]

It’s hard for me to Start the Thing. Once I start, I NEED to ride that wave! If I’m taken out of the moment, idk when I’ll be able to start back up. If I don’t say what I’m thinking *while* I’m thinking it, it’ll be forever lost. (Trying my best to work on this. It’s hard!) 7/8

[image description: Two-column text inside purple and yellow arrows. Title “What ADHD & autism feel like…” L column is ADHD; R column is autism. 1st row, L text: “Having difficulty sitting still”, R text: “Hypersensitive to other people fidgeting”. 2nd row, L text: “Interrupting others when they are busy”; R text: “Hate being bothered while in hyperfocus”. by @autistic.qualia]

Please note: • These traits are infinitely more nuanced than a few tweets can possibly cover. • I do not speak for the entire autistic community. From @autisticqualia on IG, an outstanding AuDHD awareness account.

[image descriptions: a box of text at left reads “Having both ADHD & autism can sometimes feel like there are contradicting forces within you. Traits that seem incompatible on the surface can exist in the same person.” A box of text at right reads  “Everyone with ADHD & autism is different. These are the contradicting traits that I personally experience as someone with both ADHD and autism.”]

It's uncommon for me to see someone discussing the experience of being both austistic and ADHD, and this was articulated so well, I feel like it also describes my experiences. (The author is also an advocate for late diagnosis AuDHD adults, who has shared her experiences about working with dismissive, misogynist doctors.)

Bearing in mind that every individual is different, as noted by the tweet author, I feel like I am more autistic than I am ADHD, despite my ADHD diagnosis (and these two developmental disorders have many overlapping traits, of course).

I have never, ever understood the experience of "ADHD boredom" that I have seen some people describe. I am perpetually overstimulated, not understimulated, and I stuggle to process experiences and find enough time and space. Executive dysfunction also prevents me from starting/enjoying activities, as is typical with ADHD. It's not just a thing that makes it difficult to work on stressful or boring tasks; it prevents you being being able to commence fun things, like reading for enjoyment or watching a TV show you want to watch. And when I do manage to start the book/TV show, the stimulus is often overwhelming and I don't get very far.

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Noelle has been criticized for her actions in the New Girl entry because some people see it as her "obsessing over someone bullying her friend".

But all of Noelle's actions in New Girl were to protect Kris...

...by trying her hardest to make herself a target instead.

Noelle shows symptoms of fawning behavior - which is a trauma response.

And that's what's troubling - not her crush on Susie.

To begin with, Noelle stays behind initially because she's worried about Kris.

And before this, she's tried several times to get Kris to switch seats so Susie can't bully them.

Kris, for unknown reasons, refused to switch seats.

She does the same thing in Chapter 1 if you tell her Susie slammed Kris into the lockers.

She'll try to switch places with Kris.

Noelle is actually a lot more concerned about Kris than Kris is about Kris.

When Susie says something particularly cruel, Noelle will say she felt genuinely sick.

And that she wanted to do something to help Kris in the moment, but she froze.

Later, she'll say she ordered apple shampoo so Susie might leave Kris alone.

All of these actions were her trying to protect Kris...by making herself a target instead.

I don't think this is meant to be cute. Noelle shows signs of fawning behavior.

Fawning is a trauma response that can originate in childhood.

Noelle certainly has trouble saying "no" and establishing boundaries.

And she definitely represses her own needs and emotions at times.

(also, a "fawn" is a young deer. there's a nonzero chance that this pun is intentional in Noelle's case)

What's troubling about Noelle's behavior here isn't her crush on Susie - it's that if she thinks someone is in danger...

...she'll try to sacrifice herself instead of standing up for herself or them.

At the end of Chapter 2, Queen tries to exploit this by threatening Susie.

But this time, Noelle stands up for not just Susie but for herself -

...apparently inspired by Susie's own ability to do so, even pointing the same way.

Noelle is delighted and relieved when she sees that Kris and Susie are getting along now.

She wanted Susie to turn out to be a good person.

Fawning wasn't "necessary" here - Susie and Kris worked out their issues on their own.

Susie would never have laid a hand on Noelle.

And Susie rejects the idea of someone fawning over her with clear discomfort.

Noelle got to know the real Susie over the course of Chapter 2...

As someone who's caring, brave, and scary...in a good way.

Their real relationship is something warm, relaxed, and genuine for both of them.

Noelle's behavior in New Girl was troubling, but not because she wasn't trying to protect Kris...

...it's because her method of protecting Kris was to fawn and try to make herself into a target instead.

And it's something she's starting to work on.

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@summer-skye-64 @illustrationismyhaven @theyaremanycolours @boxmorelover232 @theduchessofhearts @theangrycomet @complete-idiot-inc @slickbackdani

tw suicide mention

if this gets 50,00 notes I will never commit suicide

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Indie Cross idea -

Dante from Limbus Company.

I'd like to see none of their sinners, nor Vergilius make it out with them, so Dante is left on their own and never able to communicate with anyone apart from their ticking. Ideally, this is post Canto 8, so Dante has their best support move pool.

Maybe they wouldn't be able to use Superbia, but if they were to be without contract and still able to work, I could see both Morositas and Superbia working well with Cuphead.

At the very least, Pigritia would work, at least for a while to get good hits in.

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Funny clouds painting, I made a small process video

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Very enthused about the idea of Toby doing this with a broom behind his back trying to show Temmie his vision

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something that fucks me up about chapter 4, using the shadow crystals does 2 things, allows darkners to completely see the light world and drive people that do insane, usually as a result of the former. Jevil saw that he and everyone around him was a toy, so it was OK to hurt and even kill them. Nothing they did actually mattered, so he could do anything. Spamton saw the window to the outside, he saw the real sky and it drove him mad with envy. He can't see the actual sky, he only gets darkness, so he paints the sky on the walls of his shop and wants to become BIG enough to see the real one. But Gerson never looked into his, he just kept it on his desk. But if he did, he would've seen the inside of the church, he would've seen his son. Imagine that, knowing the only chance you have to see your own child would drive you mad

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“Gerson Boom is J.R.R. Tolkien!” WRONG!! He’s a kooky old man who hates rules and does whatever he wants regardless of if it makes sense, and his famous book series is a high fantasy isekai version of the Bible. Guys, he’s C.S. Lewis!

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Forget "i can fix them" what they need is to go into a dark world and get taken under the wing of the only good competent adult they've ever known only to find out he's actually dead in the real world and so they try to make another dark world to bring him back but he Comes Back Wrong so they are forced to move on from a death of a man they never actually met and say proper goodbyes when the old man inexplicably comes back to help them fight against the incarnation of Nyctophobia.

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"Hey, you youngster's better be gettin your rest. Take it from this old man, you'll want a good nights rest, especially the older ya get. Don't make this old turtle bring out the hammer on you lot."

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