lostwillothewisp

[lostwillothewisp]

‧₊˚ ⋆ ࣪. ₊ ˚𖧷 Being hungry is a good thing,

it means it’s working 𖧷‧₊˚ ⋆ ࣪. ₊ ˚

[lostwillothewisp]

you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you. you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you.

you can starve out your weight just like you binged it in you.

[lostwillothewisp]

“the difference between your body this week and next week is what you choose to do for the next 7 days”

[lostwillothewisp]

constantly constantly thinking about weed alcohol caffeine and food. constantly constantly constantly

if i cant have weed and alcohol ill have caffeine and binge and im trying to be sober for the bf

but maybe i can replace binging with exercising or something i just need SOMETHING i need SOME form of self harm SOME form of addiction to live. i NEED IT

[lostwillothewisp]

the horrible awful thing about retail is that it will exhaust you so much that you have no energy left and cant escape it so you get more burnt out and dont have energy to look for another job and it just cycles and cycles and gets worse forever

[lostwillothewisp]

me binging every day heartburn every day eating like trash slowly "accidentally" going back to only eating once a day: i don't have an eating disorder

[lostwillothewisp]

my bf saw my full body and still finds me hot 😭😭 am i cured??? did i spend years hating my body for no reason???

[lostwillothewisp]

250 cals in, weighed in at 285.6. skipping meals works kids

[lostwillothewisp]

if a binge, alcohol, and masturbating to the most fucked up shit doesnt fix me, THERAPY sure as fuck wont

[lostwillothewisp]

I keep all of the pain inside because I'd rather let it destroy me than everyone else.

idk not me

[lostwillothewisp]

he's never coming back. and he will never love me. and ill never see him again. theres something inherently disgusting about me. the cycle continues

[lostwillothewisp]

drunk, wanna kill myself

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2412 in, bc my dumbass decided on top of my regular meals i could have a full sugar monster and a bag of chips bc ooohh im sooooo hungry i feel faint ooohhh. 195 over bmr. at least my job is physical and im on my feet all the time

weighed in at 289.4 tho, still less than yesterday

hunger doesnt matter do it for them

[lostwillothewisp]

i hate this

i hate this i hate this

i just keep word vomiting i cant do this anymore

i cant i cant i cant i cant

[lostwillothewisp]

HE DOESNT EVEN LIKE ME BACK

i wish he would have just said that

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im so tired. im so tired all the fucking time

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man FUCK my boyfriend FUCK HIM for not letting me self destruct theres gotta be something i can do to release these feelings without him getting all upset

i cant drink i cant smoke i cant cut myself

i guess i can overexercise but im so tired. all the time. im so tired