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I want to explore old abandoned homes with creaky floors and broken windows with you.

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POC goths/scene/punk/emo/e-girl/boy

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alt/goth/punk/scene/emo/e-girl-boyPOC 🖤🖤🖤

or just poc with beautiful dark makeup ♡♡

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me: *smacks my own butt* you are hot and irreplaceable

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You’re not too fucked up to be loved.

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girls, who were bullied most of their life and gain confidence at one point, should be feared most because they dont take anyone’s shit no longer and they will destroy you if you think otherwise

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“I think about dying but I dont want to die. Not even close. In fact my problem is the complete opposite. I want to live, I want to escape. I feel trapped and bored and claustrophobic. There’s so much to see and so much to do but I somehow still find myself doing nothing at all. I’m still here in this metaphorical bubble of existence and I can’t quite figure out what the hell I’m doing or how to get out of it.”

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Everyone has good days and bad days, but mine are more like good hours and bad years.

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ADHD Isn’t Real

ADHD is just a label put on the kids who can’t stand still

I ran. I jumped. I climbed. I had the same energy as every other kid on my block. I worked the same amount as other kids in school, but my motor skills didn’t improve like my friends. What was wrong with me?

ADHD is for the crazy kids who can’t stop talking.

My mom thought I had seizures when I was little because I would stop in the middle of my sentences. My brain worked too fast and I would be on another topic before my mouth could finish what I was thinking. What was wrong with me?

ADHD is what you tell the weird kids so they feel better

The amount of times I cried because I wanted to be like everyone else, to think and feel like everyone else were and are countless. What was wrong with me?

Hyperfocus, related to ADHD isn’t real.

So that’s why I would spend hours on hours researching information on a subject, not realizing I needed to eat or go to the bathroom until it was too late. Time would fly by, when I should be showering or getting ready in the morning for class. What was wrong with me?

Everyone Focuses on things they love, It’s not because you think you have something different. 

Have you been able to stop doing something so you can be on time for a class? Have you been able to stop doing something to see a friend? Have you been able to stop doing something to eat? I haven’t been able to. Are we different?

ADHD isn’t real, It’s a hyperactive phase you will grow out of one day. 

I’m 20. It’s still here. 

Kids diagnosed with ADHD just say it so they can have attention.

I hate telling people what I have. People treat me different, like I can’t be trusted with anything. I’m embarrassed I have it. I would give anything to be normal, to say that I am normal, like everyone else. 

You don’t look/Act like you have ADHD. Why aren’t you running around?

There is a time and a place to have lots of energy. And it’s not when I am sitting down with you. I have self control just like you do. Somehow I’ve been trained to keep my mouth shut and not make ignorant comments about you. 

There is no hope for people with ADHD

I was a child who knew how to sit in one spot, but the other kids distracted me. When I was put in a corner to focus by myself, my efficiency soared. I sat down by myself to fix my handwriting. I have learned how to manage my time. 

Your Child Cannot be in Advance Programs in School. 

Yet I did. I graduated with grades high enough to get into a prestigious school. 

ADHD is so fake, It’s so easy to get a prescription to Adderal and Ritalin. 

ADHD testing must be done every few years, take 4 hours total, and then you need to have a whole bunch of people test for it. I’ve had my brain scanned. and my brain looks different from the average person’s. So why is it that it’s not real?

ADHD is real. ADHD is not an excuse, and should never be. ADHD is something I have struggled with, but I am learning what works. I spend more time on homework than my friends do, but it’s okay. I am still an amazing person. I do not have a brain like your’s, but that’s okay. But don’t ever tell me that ADHD isn’t real. Not after everything I have done, not after everyone who has fought with me to get me where I am. Don’t dismiss something because you haven’t experienced it. 

And don’t expect me to not be able to work just as hard, or even better than you. 

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Whoops I got way too drunk 😂😂😂

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Ugh fuck

Why am I like this?

Quarintine is really getting to me.

I know I need therapy but I don't know how to get it.

Am I an alcoholic? No. I don't actually think so. But the fact that I'm even thinking about it is concerning right?

I mean it's a fucking pandemic and all I can think of is that I want a girlfriend. Like fuck. I want a fucking girlfriend. I'm a hopeless romantic.

Is a healthy relationship even possible? Who knows. I'm so fucked up. All I want is a girl to kiss me and be attracted to me and mean it. Like fuck after all I've been through don't I deserve a little happiness?

But instead we sit in quarantine as the world falls apart around us. Its scary as fuck and I don't know how to deal with this. Old memories keep coming back.

Fuck. It is what it Is right.

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Raise your hand if you’ve ever felt personally victimised by life

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When is it going to be my turn to be happy?

#personal

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i hate when i go up north and go to restaurants and the waiter comes to take my order and im like “do yall have sweet tea??” and theyre like “no sweetheart but we have unsweetened iced tea and we can give you some sugar packets!!!” llike no you fucking yankee because now the tea is already cold so the sugar wont dissolve in it and itll all just sink the bottom and be nasty learn basic fucking solubility this is 9th grade chemistry thats why sweet tea exists in the first place you fucking heat the tea up to make it and then while its still hot you add the sugar and then you chill it and its sweet fucking tea i bet you pronounce pecan like peecan too you four seasons-having piece of shit