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The Egg

You were on your way home when you died.

It was a car accident. Nothing particularly remarkable, but fatal nonetheless. You left behind a wife and two children. It was a painless death. The EMTs tried their best to save you, but to no avail. Your body was so utterly shattered you were better off, trust me.

And that’s when you met me.

“What… what happened?” You asked. “Where am I?”

“You died,” I said, matter-of-factly. No point in mincing words.

“There was a… a truck and it was skidding…”

“Yup,” I said.

“I… I died?”

“Yup. But don’t feel bad about it. Everyone dies,” I said.

You looked around. There was nothingness. Just you and me. “What is this place?” You asked. “Is this the afterlife?”

“More or less,” I said.

“Are you god?” You asked.

“Yup,” I replied. “I’m God.”

“My kids… my wife,” you said.

“What about them?”

“Will they be all right?”

“That’s what I like to see,” I said. “You just died and your main concern is for your family. That’s good stuff right there.”

You looked at me with fascination. To you, I didn’t look like God. I just looked like some man. Or possibly a woman. Some vague authority figure, maybe. More of a grammar school teacher than the almighty.

“Don’t worry,” I said. “They’ll be fine. Your kids will remember you as perfect in every way. They didn’t have time to grow contempt for you. Your wife will cry on the outside, but will be secretly relieved. To be fair, your marriage was falling apart. If it’s any consolation, she’ll feel very guilty for feeling relieved.”

“Oh,” you said. “So what happens now? Do I go to heaven or hell or something?”

“Neither,” I said. “You’ll be reincarnated.”

“Ah,” you said. “So the Hindus were right,”

“All religions are right in their own way,” I said. “Walk with me.”

You followed along as we strode through the void. “Where are we going?”

“Nowhere in particular,” I said. “It’s just nice to walk while we talk.”

“So what’s the point, then?” You asked. “When I get reborn, I’ll just be a blank slate, right? A baby. So all my experiences and everything I did in this life won’t matter.”

“Not so!” I said. “You have within you all the knowledge and experiences of all your past lives. You just don’t remember them right now.”

I stopped walking and took you by the shoulders. “Your soul is more magnificent, beautiful, and gigantic than you can possibly imagine. A human mind can only contain a tiny fraction of what you are. It’s like sticking your finger in a glass of water to see if it’s hot or cold. You put a tiny part of yourself into the vessel, and when you bring it back out, you’ve gained all the experiences it had.

“You’ve been in a human for the last 48 years, so you haven’t stretched out yet and felt the rest of your immense consciousness. If we hung out here for long enough, you’d start remembering everything. But there’s no point to doing that between each life.”

“How many times have I been reincarnated, then?”

“Oh lots. Lots and lots. An in to lots of different lives.” I said. “This time around, you’ll be a Chinese peasant girl in 540 AD.”

“Wait, what?” You stammered. “You’re sending me back in time?”

“Well, I guess technically. Time, as you know it, only exists in your universe. Things are different where I come from.”

“Where you come from?” You said.

“Oh sure,” I explained “I come from somewhere. Somewhere else. And there are others like me. I know you’ll want to know what it’s like there, but honestly you wouldn’t understand.”

“Oh,” you said, a little let down. “But wait. If I get reincarnated to other places in time, I could have interacted with myself at some point.”

“Sure. Happens all the time. And with both lives only aware of their own lifespan you don’t even know it’s happening.”

“So what’s the point of it all?”

“Seriously?” I asked. “Seriously? You’re asking me for the meaning of life? Isn’t that a little stereotypical?”

“Well it’s a reasonable question,” you persisted.

I looked you in the eye. “The meaning of life, the reason I made this whole universe, is for you to mature.”

“You mean mankind? You want us to mature?”

“No, just you. I made this whole universe for you. With each new life you grow and mature and become a larger and greater intellect.”

“Just me? What about everyone else?”

“There is no one else,” I said. “In this universe, there’s just you and me.”

You stared blankly at me. “But all the people on earth…”

“All you. Different incarnations of you.”

“Wait. I’m everyone!?”

“Now you’re getting it,” I said, with a congratulatory slap on the back.

“I’m every human being who ever lived?”

“Or who will ever live, yes.”

“I’m Abraham Lincoln?”

“And you’re John Wilkes Booth, too,” I added.

“I’m Hitler?” You said, appalled.

“And you’re the millions he killed.”

“I’m Jesus?”

“And you’re everyone who followed him.”

You fell silent.

“Every time you victimized someone,” I said, “you were victimizing yourself. Every act of kindness you’ve done, you’ve done to yourself. Every happy and sad moment ever experienced by any human was, or will be, experienced by you.”

You thought for a long time.

“Why?” You asked me. “Why do all this?”

“Because someday, you will become like me. Because that’s what you are. You’re one of my kind. You’re my child.”

“Whoa,” you said, incredulous. “You mean I’m a god?”

“No. Not yet. You’re a fetus. You’re still growing. Once you’ve lived every human life throughout all time, you will have grown enough to be born.”

“So the whole universe,” you said, “it’s just…”

“An egg.” I answered. “Now it’s time for you to move on to your next life.”

And I sent you on your way.

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Can you recommend some angsty teenage/high school destiel aus?

Ohmygod angsty teenage/high school destiel aus? Hahahahahahah I know plenty. @emoprincxss Let’s see:

He wears short shorts, I wear t-shirts…by faeryn

Summary: (he’s cheer captain and I’m smoking behind the bleachers.) In which Castiel is a special snowflake and Dean’s not having a bar of it.

Words:  13,860

Sweet Tooth by IceFemme

Summary: Dean bullied Castiel into writing a paper for him but Cas screws it all up on purpose. Angry because he just got grounded and failed the class, Dean goes over to his neighbor’s house to get some revenge. He wasn’t expecting the little nerd to just take it orlike it.

Words:  4052 (HOT)

Red-Blooded Blues  by sysrae

Summary: Castiel Novak is a poor kid from a bad neighbourhood. Dean Winchester is a rich jock who maybe cares a bit more about Cas than he’s willing to admit. You know how it goes.

Words:  28253 (angst!)

An Innocent’s Reparation by BathoryAngel

Summary: Castiel Novak is a quiet freshman who is heavily bullied and quickly earns the reputation for school man-slut. Dean Winchester is the mysterious new student in the small town of Lawerence, Kansas with a dark past. The two form an instant bond, but after seeing the scars on Castiel’s wrists, will Dean be able to pull his new friend from the darkness of an unhappy past and a home of questionable safety.

Words:  79882 (READ THE TAGS, BE WARNED)

The Best Years of Our Lives, My Ass by ireallyhatecornnuts (CharleyFoxtrot)

Summary: AU after Season 8, episode 6, “Southern Comfort.” Dean goes to sleep in a motel room in Texarkana, and he wakes up 17 years old, in his childhood bedroom in Lawrence, Kansas, 1996. He has no idea how he got there, why his parents are still alive, why his brother is an adorable freshman with no memory of his adult life, and why the only ally he has in this place is the angel he left behind in Purgatory – somehow also 17 years old. They have to get out, that’s the important thing. Only, falling in love with his angel wasn’t a part of the plan….

Words:  110801

we should get jerseys (‘cause we make a good team) by quiddative

Summary: Prompt: (High School AU) Dean is secretly unbelievably smart (a prodigy, actually) but is afraid that if anyone knew about that it would destroy his reputation at school. Sam thinks it’s stupid, but it’s Dean, so logic doesn’t apply. UNTIL ONE DAY. A new kid is transferred to their school, Castiel Novak. Dean suddenly and inexplicably feels the need to impress this boy and for once in his life, he feels like his intellect might be the answer for something.

Words:  9597 (More Fluff than Angst)

What kind of name is Castiel? by Deanial

Summary: ‘Every girl in the room was on full alert, only turning away from the trench coat wearing boy to give each other that look: the look that all girls know means ‘if you ever get to see him naked, you have to show me a picture or at least produce an anatomically correct sketch.’

Words:  23231

Breathe by bamelot89

Summary: In which Dean is the new kid and everyone seems to like him except for the one person he’s most intrigued by. A town plagued by family issues and betrayal, high school is not quite what Dean signed up for.

Words:  83492 (as angsty as Innocent Reparation but it’s wip tho)

Sparrow by CaremKefo

Summary: Dean wants to get his attraction to guys out of his system, but when Castiel recognises him behind his mask at the local gay bar on Hallowe'en he freaks out. The two soon agree to an open, no-strings arrangement, but when Castiel starts to fall for Dean it becomes harder to hide from his painful past.

Words:  23313 (angsty!!)

It’s A Terrible Life by trenchcoatandimpala

Summary: Lucifer is a man with a mysterious past and a mission. He’s the supervisor of a group home but he’s also a pimp and Castiel is his personal whore. Castiel thought he may never find love again, not when he’s bartered around and used as party favors. But maybe happiness is not lost when a certain green eyed boy and his six-year-old brother join the home. Unfortunately, fate has other plans. After a brutal assault and the massacre that follows, would they be able to salvage the broken pieces or are they too broken to try?

Words:  139771 (angsty!!!!!)

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Me either girl....me either!! Especially canon casifer mother FUCK!!!! He's so dominant

i cant stop thinking of dom cas

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UUUUUUUMMMM hellllooooo hi , yes I'd like to know why we refuse to talk about this!? Guys you can't just ignore the good things because they are so flawless OK! You did that with casifer and I spoke up about it lol listen Linda . we just found out GOD IS GAY WTF NO FREAKING WONDER HE SHIPS CAS WITH DEAN!!! THEY ARE HIS OTP HE IS SHIPPING REAL PEOPLE HAHAHA COME OOOOOOOOOON IS THAT WHAT CUPIDS ARE!?!?!! THE ANGELS THAT MAKE HIS OTPS CANNON!?!?!? OH MY CHUCK ! For real right now?!!!?????? I canNOT breathe!!! Its so late right now and all the answers are coming to me!!! Maybe the reason cas keeps being resurrected is because CAS REFUSED TO KISS HIS SOUL MATE AND GODS NOT SHOWING UP TIL HIS NUMBER ONE SHIP IS MF CANON DO YOU HEAR ME!!!!??? THATS WHAT HES BEEN WHISPERING TO JOSHUA ALL THIS TIME !! JOSH IS JUST LISTENING TO HIM SCREAM ABOUT HOW HIS SHIP IS PISSING HIm. OFF CUZ THEY ARENT TOGETHER AND THEY AVOID EVERYTIME THEY ARE MENT TO FRICK!! OOOOOOOOOOHHH MY GOOOOOOSH GUYS YOU DONT UNDERSTAND ME RIGHT NOW!!! I FIGURED OUT THE GAMEEEEEEEEE!!!! HE ISNT COMING TILL HE GETS SOME DESTIEL ACTION . I MEAN HE TRIED!!! HE WROTE HIMSELF INTO THE BOOKS SO HE COULD SLAP SOME SENSE INTO DEAN LIKE ......I CANT RIGHT NOW .. No no honey, listen .. No no Linda listen!! Listen to me because THIS! Is not a drill okkkkkkkkk. Josh isn't just some rando gardener they are probably exes or something or first loves that's why he chose to talk to him instead of metatron or someone huge. And that's probably why he locked amara away . because she was all pissed that the ruler of the universe is dating an angel ..and gardener at that. She's probably pissed that he didn't date someone of power and he was all " FIRST OF ALL HOW MFING DARE YOU TALK ABOUT MY HUNNY BUNNY LIKE THAT TF IS WRONG WITH YOU "AND SHE PROBABLY SAID IF YOU DONT BREAK UP WITH THIS WEAK DUDE AND FIND SOMEONE OF YOUR OWN POWER LEVEL ILL KILL HIM " and god probably got all offended and flustered having to choose between his first love and his sister . so he doesn't choose and just locked his sister away so he could think .. Buy LETS NOT FORGET THAT TIME MOVES DIFFERENTLY IN HEAVEN THAN IS DOES ON EARTH SO FOR US IT WAS TRILLIONS OF YEARS BUT FOR THEM IT WAS like Tuesday . but then JOSH PROBABLY GOT ALL PISSY AND CONSERNED FOR CHUCKS WELL BEING AND MENTAL STATE , BECAUSE HE DID THAT TO HIS SISTER AND SAID THEY SHOULD JUST BE FRIENDS and chuck got all depressed and hurt and kind of just dropped everything and went to earth .. Forgetting his babies need him to run the world . and that things are getting hairy without him .Forgetting amara was still locked up .......... He only talks to josh now . and even then its just sad ramblings and pissed off tones I mean am I wrong?? Or did he tell josh to tell the boys that it quote " wasn't his problem" he's still depressed about his first love .. But since they are still friends josh convinced him to write books so there woulds be some type of light fighting the dark dirty creepy things that go bump in thew night. Josh didn't want the world , so beautiful to be over run with pests killing and destroying his beautiful garden( earth) so he created Sam and dean as " pesticides but then cas just hHAAAAD TO FALL LITERALLY FALL FOR HIS GREEN EYED HEART THROB .. And now chuck has something to live for . this otp. Now chuck is getting over the fact that him and josh are just friends.....for now its OK because NOW HE HAS A NEW MISSION GET DESTIEL CANNON but.........oh CRAP AMARA!!! HE FORGOT SHES STILL LOCKED AWAY!!!...... OH MY ME !!! I HOPE SHE ISNT PISSED AT ME ....... BUT LITTLE DOES HE KNOW THAT ..... now she's out and PISSSSSSSSSED TF. OOOOOOFFFFFF !!!!!!!!!!!!! .. So she wants so hurt her brother like he hurt her.. And when she finds out about his "pesticides " ( meaning dean . her plan was to MAKE HIM SWOON EVERYTIME HE IS AROUND HER TO GET HIM TO LOVE HER !!BECAUSE DEAN DOESNT LOVER HER THE WAY HE LOVES CAS. I MEEEEEAAAAN AM I WRONG OR DID DEAN SAY AND I QUOTE " I DONT KNOW WHEN IM AROUND HER SOMETHING HAPPENS, BUT TO CALL IT DESIRE......THATS NOT IT "( I'll find a picture of it somewhere so you can see....) give me a second I'm ablkut to cry! My poor baby is being harassed and having his strings pulled like a little puppet . I mean to amara a little emotion manip is like brushing her teeth. She is trying to gain deans trust . to not killing her with something SO SHE COULD TRY AND BREAK THE BROTHERS UP AND THE OTP AND GET DEAN ALONE ,TO GAIN HIS TRUST.....TO KILL HIM...... SHE IS SOOOOOOOO PISSED TF OF THAT SHE IS WILLING TO BURN THE ENTIRE GARDEN DOWN JUST TO GET BACK AT HIM.. THATS WHY SHE KEEPS KILLIMG SO MANY INNOCENT PEOPLE,CHILDREN AND ANGELS. SHES TRYING TO PISS OFF CHUCK SO HE WILL REVEAL HIMSELF FOR AN ALL OUT BATTLE AND GRAB FOR POWER. BUT THE THING IS GOD IS GOD AND SOOOO MUCH SMARTER THAN AMARA. HE PROBABLY ALREADY HAD THAT FIGURED OUT THAT SHE WOULD TRY THAT TANTRUM STUFF SO HE IS ORGANIZING HIMSELF LIKE A RESPONSIBLE ADULT!!!!!.... TO BE CONTINUED...... ( did I just write my first fan fic? Or at least an outline of a fanfic by complete accident???? I think yes lol opps that's what comes of midnight ramblings hahaha. I'll post this in the morning so y'all will see it goodnight lovelys.. If you have any other ideas for me to get all pissed off about message me lol I'll gladly get pissed for your entertainment

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I'm at it again guys! Lol if anyone has a #YANA shirt or # AKF shirt please please submit it I I'm thinking of making 3 so I need a ton of pictures and a ton of stories I will give them to the boys when I go to the supernatural con that's coming to my town in November so hopefully I get enough entries so again I need both pictures of #AKF and #YANA shirts and stories . guys we know we love our boys but I'd like to make a fandom created gift for them OK guys especially with all the hate that our boys are getting and is completely unacceptable . they need us now more than ever guys . can we pull this together by November? I think we can

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Please signal boost this! I’m doing a project for misha,Jensen,and Jared! Its a way to give back to them and thank them for how they have helped us with our lives . they were there for us when we thought we were alone. everyone who participates will have their name on the project you can choose if you want your first and last name its totally up to you but I really want to get this done . and I need as many participants as possible . if you have a #AlwaysKeepFighting or a #YouAreNotAlone story on how they saved you or were there for you or how the show comforted you through out that rough patch please submit it . I’m most likely including every story that is submitted. Its a gift from the #SpnFamily to our hero’s .

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The promotion of YANA is just so weird.  It’s a destieler/cockle shipper wet dream but what does that have to do with mental health awareness and support?

Imagine Sarah Mclachlan tormenting dogs in her animal rights video.  Then imagine Sarah never talking about animal rights and keep on making videos of tormenting dogs as a joke.  I doubt the viewers are going to think she’s advocating animal rights even with a click-link below the video to animal rights charity.   Well, that’s how YANA is being promoted by Misha and Jensen.

When you look at the comment section of their Facebook videos, 90% of the commentators are not talking about YANA cause or how their eyes were opened to mental illness or how they truly want to help. Commentators are mostly cheering Misha on to stalk Jensen and make him more and more uncomfortable.

Maybe it wouldn’t touch so many nerves if this campaign wasn’t dealing with such a serious issue, but when you have the promoters like Misha seemingly NOT taking the campaign very seriously, how do you think those of us who DO want to make a difference feel?  Speaking soley for myself, IF Misha and Jensen had approached this whole differently, and not acted like this was a joke to them, or only invested in one fraction of the fandom, I definitely would have backed this campaign and donated to it.  But when they only seem invested in appealing to specifice shippers and fans and the tone is more about wanting to be shipped than wanting to reach, educate and enlighten ALL of us, then it doesn’t really encourage people to to rally around their cause. 

Misha and Jensen made it clear who they are trying to appeal to, and that doesn’t seem to include anyone who’s not a destiel/cockle shipper.  I feel like they’ve insulted mental illness, turned what could have been a great opportunity into a mockery and reduced the whole thing to a shipping expedition, clearly geared to one fraction of fandom only. It’s really to sad, because think of how much good they really could have done, had they not made light out of something so serious. 

In my opinion this is a failed campaign because instead of raising awareness all they have done is just sell a tee shirt to fan with their picture on it.   No one is talking about the cause, or how it feels to see someone go through depression, and when someone does speak up and say they are uncomfortable with the stalking theme, they are told to shut up.  It all just feels shallow and empty, and it makes me really sad because they really could have done a lot of good with this.

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Um EXCUSE ME!?!?! HOW DARE YOU!! I WAS MINDING MY OWN BUSINESS AND YOU JUST THREW THIS AT ME

The Full MTV Video

Because it came to my attention that some of y'all are leading normal lives that haven’t been ruined yet:

https://youtu.be/whHjlWK4yaQ

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♡ I love Misha Collins appreciation day ♡ 

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I decided I wanted to bring AKF and YANA together in holy matrimony because all three of these men are amazing and do so much to help the fandom with depression, anxiety and other issues and I’m tired of fans squabbling about which campaign is better or which actor they like better its all petty nonsense. So we decided to have some fun and marry the two campaigns together Jared and Jensen are the bride and groom and Misha is the officiant. I’m the maid of honor and Amber was a bridesmaid that’s what our sashes say. We gave the guys little cute wooden signs that say I DO and rings that say Bitch and Jerk that I got from Hot Topic for them to give to each other.

J2 were pretty confused at first and maybe a little nervous we were trying to make them marry each other or something since it was Vegas lol, but once we told them what we actually doing they loved it. Misha put on the bow tie and held my Sparkle journal and then J2 exchanged rings with each it other it was cute and got a lot of cheers from the people in the room when they read the signs. It was a lot of fun and I will forever SHIP AKF/YANA!

I just hope everyone realizes the importance of helping each other and being a SPNfamily and that unity and love is such much better than hatred and criticism. If more people wanted to help the world like Misha, Jared and Jensen the world would be a MUCH better place!

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There’s a difference between Castiel and Cas.

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Someone help o!mg

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Omg bless this

Dean and Castiel try FaceTiming each other for the first time.

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Oh my god you guys look how far we have come

Supernatural s12 will include the show’s 250th episode!! If they do a special episode for this milestone, please let Misha be in it.

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Oh Frick guys!! GUYYS!! GUYYYYSS!!! ITS HAPPENING!!! THIS IS NOT A DRILL !!

spoiler from misha: we’re gonna get to see cas/lucifer talking inside casifer’s head soon!!