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BODYGUARD

This is Maria Hill x reader.

Synopsis: reader is a super soldier rescued by Maria Hill and the Avengers. Will they end up together on a world of spies, fights and lies?

Read to find out.

Enjoy.

Darkness, coldness, emptyness. There was a time where your ears used to ache in silence, now like this dark room is emptyness.

You can't remember how you got at this point, you just remember training, learning while you were human you suck it all up and did Hydras will you even did missions along the Winter Soldier, you worked well together, two out of the six best assassins on the organization. after being experimented on everything changed, you got all the attributes of a super soldier. That's when Hydra lost the leash, you tried several times to scape, followed by awful punishments when captured. The longest you got away was six months. When they captured you again the changed the leash for chains, straight jacket and muzzle. You killed at least 25 agents. When you were unnecessary you where thrown into cryo freeze.

Now for missions they injected something and put a collar with locator. You saw like a first point of view everything. They left you with no means to scape. You had a schedule, you can even say they pooty trained you, it sounds 'fun' you still wonder where that word comes from.

Back to present endeavors, the guard are late to bring in your meal, if you can call that awful poultry food. The light that comes from the narrow window of the metal door has been flickering for some time. Which is odd and yet not uncommon.

Then you heard it, the screams, the guns shots, some punches, more screams. You see one of the guards pass across the narrow window trying to get in. But someone shots him down, his blood sprinkles the already dirty glass.

A female voice, raspy tone, she might be talking into some device. Chosing to make no sound you stay on the dark. When things settle down you'll try to break free. The straight jacked has been already giving out, you've been forcing it for a couple of months.

No luck you hear the woman messing with the electronic lock until it clicks open. Another pair of boots arraive. You hear nothing until the door is kicked open and two figures appear on the door threshold. One tall and lean, other smaller and athletic. They keep their guns drown.

Then the strong lights are flicked on leaving you momentary blinded, but you can hear them marching close with tactical steps.

When your sight adjusts you see them clearer, indeed two women, the tall one black hair a bright blue eyes. The other redhead and with green eyes. Both look trained and strong guns still on you, that's wise. The logo on their uniform, they are S.H.I.E.L.D well if they kill you at least the nightmare is over.

"Are you a prisoner or an agent?" The redhead questions.

You choose silence, is not like you could talk easy with the muzzle on.

"Do you speak English? Rasiya? Español?" The dark haired woman tries next.

Silence.

You hear them discussing that maybe is the muzzle, it seems to imped your jaw movement.

The taller woman unsheathes her hunting knife showing you and getting close "I'm going to take the muzzle off. Not hurt you" you blink once, after some struggle the muzzle is loosened, taking the opportunity you open and close your jaw and move it side to side "better?" She asks you nod. The redhead tries to grab the metal clasp keeping you against the wall but you halt her grunting a "no". Then you look at the panel on the left side.

After a couple of minutes the metal clasps open and you almost fall face on the floor, but the tall woman catches you on time and lays you on the floor. The two of them together free you from the straight jacket and help you out.

You follow their lead while your body gets it's senses but as soon as you feel somewhat loosened up you bolt away from them.

It doesn’t take long for your body to get in working mode. When their briefly turn their backs on. You flee away

*Guys the woman we found is trying to scape! She is running to the east side... She is jumping down the stairs from the fifth floor* the red head shouts through their communication device.

Not your lucky day, two other intercept you. Captain America with his shield and for your surprise the Winter Soldier is there.

"Mad Dog?! Stay down" thmetal arm man says, his voice sounds different, more human, his eyes too, bright blue, unlike the dullness they had before.

"We don't want to hurt you, come with us" Captain America says.

"Get out of my way" you growl at them.

"Can't do".

A fight breaks loose you manage two put up with them even in your state. But when Iron Man comes to play you loose. A ram with the shield sends you to crack a wall, Iron Man fires a stun wave, you brave on to be met on a exchange with the soldat who knocks you out after a combo of upper cut on your liver with his metal arm, blow to the head and metal elbow on your jaw.

The next thing you know you wake up on another metal room, you sigh and raise up to sit on the cot and let your head bang against the wall. Well, you are still alive, why can't you just die?.

The next days the redhead and the winter soldier come to interrogate you, you give them some one word answers and request to speak with Director Fury, which at first was denied. And you refused to speak anymore.

Two weeks later the man walked in "So?" He asks standing in front of you.

"Why am I still alive? You question is simple but interesting for the man.

"Intel".

You humm and tilt your head "What do you want? After that you kill me, right?".

Nick was warn by Natasha about your seemingly lack of interest in being alive. He nods.

"ask away".

"The other soldats, where are kept?".

"Dead".

"How come?".

"I Killed them".

"Why?".

"They were bad people, unstable, cold blooded" well mark it down that's the longest answer you've given.

"What are you?"

You shrug and look at is only eye "worse".

Giving the director all the Intel you knew was easy, you never saw him again. The redhead Natasha, Bucky the winter soldier, another guy that came Clint, Hawkeye and Maria the tall dark haired woman. Came almost every day or every other day. You even were given the chance to train, your wounds were tended, you were fed three meals for the first time. The food was amazing.

A month later Maria and Fury came in and offered you a job. Being an agent and Avenger. You had nothing to loose, if they are not killing you, then you need to work.

Turns out you are a great addition to the team, skilled, strong and quick-thinker. You could work along with the Avengers, you could go solo on very hard missions and came out alive.

Still you kept to your own business, sometimes reading, training or simply enjoying a smoke on central park. If not, in your room.

At first the team, specially Tony seemed on the mission of making you talk. But it wasn't your thing, it wasn't long until Natasha treathen them to leave you alone and you were greatful.

As things settle down you begun forming bonds with all the team members, simple things. You even get along with Maria the team even jokes that you are her personal bodyguard, it was a recurring joke you even chuckled at it. It was all fun until Hydra in alliance with other mob groups did an assassination attempt on her.

Luckily that day you tagged along with her, she insisted on you wearing a vest under your clothes. After some arguing you did.

It was supposed to be an Intel retrieval with one of her sources, and you were weary. You weren't wrong, a small army came from the back industrial gate. Everything played out so fast, you end up using the snitch as a shield for Maria and together shoot your way out to the armored black Yukon but you were greeted by another spray of bullets. You tackled down Maria and used your body to protect her. Now you were pissed as fuck "Get in" you ordered.

Pissed as heck you stand up and begun shooting down the snipers with a deadly accuracy. For the people coming through the warehouse you grabbed a small explosive from the back of your belt and threw it at them. As the building explode you drove away.

At first you thoughts it was over until you saw the three vans and five bikes coming right behind you.

"Duck!" You shouted as bullets hit the SUV.

After the first rush of bullets and Maria and you took turns at shooting down the attackers specially the bikes.

You used all your ability to drive her away luckily back up came and they opened a clear path for you to reach the Avengers tower.

Hate to admit you sloppy halted the vehicle on the underground garage. The two of you were panting, hearts over beating with adrenaline "your agents need better response timing Hill" you said playfully at her. She laughed, whole heartedly "Of course the longest sentence you ever tell me will be that" you tried to chuckle but pain stopped you instead you grunted you looked down your dark dress shirt looked darker and wet in some places you rip it open, oh no that's bad enter and exit holes on the bullet vest "Fuck".

"Shit! They hit you" maria exclaimed *I need medical assistance, agent Mad Dog was hit several times* Natasha, Sam and Bucky were running to the vehicle when they heard through the comms the request of medical.

Sam and Bucky hurried to your side and helped you out. Luckily Sam was there to instruct the others to put pressure on the wounds, but you already lost a lot of blood and passed out.

Surgery, a long one and two days later you woke up, hazzy and disoriented.

"Hi hero of the day" a husky voice said by your left Natasha.

"Hi, is Maria ok?" You don't see her in the room and it makes you worried "I'm not hero".

"She is, and yes you are a hero. Even when you don't like it".

Shrugging you settle down on the bed, Nat offers you some water which you gladly take. After the doctors came Maria also came to visit you, you smiled at her and she chuckled "You look proud of yourself" she said with a teasing tone.

"I am, you are good. Just some minor wounds".

From there you all got closer and for their dismay you became the team bodyguard, even to Clint and that's not an easy feat. Sam's recent way to tease you was singing "I will always love you" which make you cackle, the man was a goofball.

"Tone it down bird brain" you say after calming down your ribs still sore from your recent stunt to save Clint from falling twelve stories down. You managed to shove him into the building but end up falling six stories into some ducts. Earning you a split eyebrow and broken ribs. That was a month ago.

"My Mad Savoir!" Clint exclaimed coming to give you a side hug and a kiss on the cheek, you grunted in fake annoyance.

For four years everything was calm that is until Tony decided to try the brilliant idea of making Ultron come to life after you all recovered the scepter. The night of the show down you saved Dr. Cho.

"-You all are killers, specially those two" the robot said pointing at Bucky and you. The Winter Soldier and Mad Dog".

You got visibly angry "Don't be mad darling, you can't even remember your life before. But I read it all. The best infiltration killer for the American army. You were trapped on the same facility as James, you are the original Hydra Winter Soldier. Mad Dog the feared soldier, you made blood baths. But you don't remember, do you?”…

After his little speech the fight broke loose. You aid Bruce before Natasha took over, after destroying a couple of robots you saw one going for doctor Cho. You ran in her aid and after killing a couple they ganged on you. Earning a blast on your chest at point blank, the blast sent you to the floor down crashing a glass table. Giving you a mild cardiac arrest. After Thor destroyed the robot, they heard Cho asking for help.

They all run to you "She was shot at blank point" Helen says checking your pulse.

"Ok, Helen please move aside a little" Tony used his repulsor a couple of times until your heartbeat got normal again.

That night you retired to your room, while the others fought and bickered with Tony about this new threat.

On Johanessburg you stopped the Maximoffs from getting to Bruce, you fought against both. Before knocking out the girl she send some red smoky energy in your head, you managed to fight through the haze and held the boy at gun point "ok, pretty boy. Last chance, get your sister and fuck off or I'll kill you both" something blurred your sight, when you blinked a soldier on second world war uniform was begging mercy. Your hold faltered between tightening and loosing up.

"Ok! Ok! I give up. Let me go, we will go". His frantic accented voice brings you to present.

"Y/N?" Bruce asks walking from behind you "Stay there Bruce" you let go of the boys neck and see him speeding off with his sister.

The fly back was a mess. As soon as the quinjet landed on the farm, you went to Clint's barn to get your spare motorcycle.

"Mad Dog!" Sam shouted running behind you "Y/N!"

You straddle the bike put your helmet on and revive the engine Sam tood on the door "Y/N, get off the bike. Let's talk it out" you ignore him and maneuvered beside him and went away.

Unknown to them you went back to New York, you didn't felt stable enough to not being a danger to Clint's kids and you loved the Rugrats.

At the tower Maria was waiting for you when you step into the common room to grab a bottle of whiskey, she drinks with you. You tell her a little about what Wanda made you see. That night you end up having messy half drunk sex with her, is not the first time nor the last one. Is just that, Maria and you take what the other offer for the moment, no tags, no strings, no issues. Just flickery moments of solace in each other's arms.

When everyone was back you saw them, the Maximoff twins were there and no sign of Natasha. You didn't gave a damn about the craddle or what they were bitching about. You went for Steve "Where is she?!"

"Y/N calm down" Steve tried.

"Y/N back off, this is about the cradle" Tony tried "We need this, to defeat Ultron-"

"An that's your fucking problem Stark! mine is finding Natasha" you looked around and walked to the twins "you two better tell me where that machine has her" the glass gives up under Pietro and he falls.

"Pietro!" She tries to move but the barrel of your gun greets her and make her halt "Talk".

Everything became a circus after that, Vision was 'born' then you all went into battle. Bruce rescued Nat, while you all went to fight.

The rest of the team went to the city you all walk down the ramp you see the Captain America graffiti "you have a fan base cap" making Sam and Bucky laugh.

"seriously?" He says before taking off his helmet and hurling it back in the jet "You barely talk and when you do is for this?"

You shrug and jog away, to investigate around some key buildings, nothing. Wondering what the heck the robot has planned, you stay standing for a little bit. He wants to destroy everything, extinction he said... A bomb? Where can he hide something big if it's not on the buildings... You slap your head, of course underground.

*Maximoffs any big abandoned structure on the city?*

*Y/N you are uncharacteristically hyper-verbal on this mission* Tony teases you on the comms.

*I can see your ass standing still. Move it* Bucky says with a playful tone *We got people to evacuate*

*that's your mission can opener, not mine* you fire back.

*The church on the center* Wanda answers.

You don't answer anything else and make your way to the church. Instructing people to leave the city. At first they pay no mind, they look apprehensive and afraid of you, you can't blame them you are armed to the teeth, on top the M249 SAW and you got two belts of ammo crossing your torso.

*Our dear Mad Dog is scaring the civilians* Sam said with a singy teasing voice. That was until robots begun appearing from everywhere.

*Y/N/N I think is time you let the dog loose* Tony said looking around *I'll go to the church*.

There's a point in battle where all of you regroup on the church fight to protect the key to Ultron's dispositive.

When things quiet down a little you hear someone calling you "Tell me that's not your blood" Natasha says coming closer to grab your chin and inspect your face, you shrug.

"Clint, I took some elderly and pregnant woman to the quinjet. Fly them to the Hellicarrier" you say Barton nods "I give you a ride old man" he picks him up as speeds away.

*Hey Clint! You make a beautiful bride* Bucky says teasing the blonde man through the comms.

*Fuck off all of you*

When the group splits again you stay with Wanda covering her six. Her twin comes back with two ammunition belts "This ok for you?" He hands them over, you quickly asses them and nod.

"Go help civilians" Wanda says to her twin, they get into bickering and you grin internally at their banter. Which gets interrupted by an incoming bot that Wanda shoots down before you "Go".

If this couldn't get worse the battle intensifies even more, to the point of you keeping the dispositive and Wanda safe. Until S.H.I.E.L.D and Sokovian military back up arraived to let you breath a little.

The battles rages on.

Your weapon carelessly falls on the ground and you put pressure on the deep cut on your right arm, looking at it you see that is bleeding heavily, shit. At least the robot couldn't stab the brunette on the back since you shoved her away to save her.

After a quick patch up by one of the S.H.I.E.L.D agents the battle went on harshly until Vision let you all know that Ultron was gone, but his mini-mes were trying to get away.

Yeah, it was quite fun one moment they are trying to stab you on the heart, luckily it halted to flee away "Wanda, you and S.H.I.E.L.D guard this shit. Military with me".

Who knows how later, but it was night time you walked to one of the ports where civilians were loaded to the Hellicarrier. For their safety they will spend the night on the ship. Until the city is thoroughly swept clean.

"Mad Dog" oh no stern voice, the deputy is pissed. You try to pass her by to avoid her wrath but she grabs you by the back of your uniform neck with a harsh tug that make your whole body ache.

"Why haven't you answered you damned comm link?"

You take the small device out of your pant pocket "Broken".

Maria makes you turn around and shines a lamp on your face "For fucks sake agent. Where were you?"

"Fighting".

She shakes her head partly in amusement, part angry at your carelessness "Med ward, NOW".

"Yes ma'am" Tired, hungry and hurted you didn't had the will to argue or run. You boarded one of the transfer vehicles and went to get tended.

You end up laying on a gurney only with your undergarments, you had cuts and scrapes all over. And that's how Wanda found you for her embarrassment. Smirking at her blashfulness you raised an enquiring eyebrow.

"Sorry! I just, um Natasha asked me to look for you here. Dinner is about to be served" nodding at her you closed your eyes to hid your pain when the doctor opened the cut on your arm to wash it thurougly, dirt and blood fell off.

"We need about half an hour, her backside is no better" the doctor said, the brunette nodded and went away.

For your surprise she and her twin were outside the room at your exit "Hi" she said shily "Let us help you" Pietro said when he saw the limp on your left sife getting on your affected side he helped you put your arm over his shoulders "Lean on me". They helped you getting to the dining area.

"Well, I won't feel that bad about myself. Look how Mad Dog ended" Sam said with a wide smile, he was quite banged too. Almost all the team was beaten except Vision for obvious robotic reasons and Bruce.

When you were sitting Wanda helped you getting you a plate of food in front of you, you gave her a small smile and a soft thank you which earn the two of you a bunch of teasing from almost everyone.

When dinner was over Nick and Maria walked in and gave instructions, the first was you and Barton benched, that prompted a grumpy Hawkeye and you tilted your head in defiance at the director.

"Mad Dog, you are benched. I saw your medical report" you breath out forcibly through your nose "I'm good".

"You look like a beaten dog Y/L/N I won't repeat myself" Nick said giving you his unnerving stare.

"Control room?".

"She can tag along with me, there's a lot of paperwork to fill in" Maria said.

That's how you found yourself dozing off at three am in Maria's office on your fight to stay awake you didn't see the soft smile drawn on her lips. When your head finally lost the battle, she went to your side and lift you bridal style to lay you on the small couch of her office, using one of the cushions are your pillow and the other to keep your ankle risen. She brushed away some stray hairs and kissed your forehead before going back to work.

The next day you woke up to an empty office, you figured Maria was busy. So you decided to make yourself useful and ended the paperwork she left on her desk before going out.

Nick benched you, that doesn't mean you will do as he says. You respect him and wouldn't hesitate to lay down your life at his command but, not today. You might be hurt and aching, you can still fight.

After arming yourself to the teeth again you join Melinda, Daisy, Bobbi and Hunter on their turn to sweep clean buildings. Three hours into working along them your comm link cracks to life with a very pissed Agent Romanoff *Agent Mad Dog, bring your ass back to the Hellicarrier, immediately*.

"hahahaha roasted" Daisy exclaimed and you glared at her.

"You snuck away really good this time, took them longer" Bobbi said with a fist bump and a very displeased Melinda glaring at you both.

*Agent Romanoff, Mad Dog is good with us. Her strength help us check between debris".

Mark it down you are proud. Fifteen more robots, three alive civilians found, three dogs and two cats you all go back to the Hellicarrier.

Nick and Maria intercepted you at the med ward. Fury on his very director persona threaten to fire your ass if you pulled shit like that again and left you under Maria's supervision.

Three months later all of you are back on the Avengers Tower. Tony is already building the Avengers compound set to be open on a year or year and a half tops.

Right now you find yourself on the meeting room with Nick, Maria, Natasha and Clint.

"The Maximoffs, they need formal training. On all bases. Hill will supervise you three during their training. They must function not only as enhanced individuals for Avengers, they must be able to work as field agents. Am I clear?"

"Aye Aye sir" Clint said playfully making you all roll your your eyes.

Unexpectantly for everyone as the training of the twins went on, you found yourself being like an older sister to them. Natasha was a step away from adopting them, Clint, well Clint was Clint he already treat them like if they were their children. And his kids saw them as older siblings.

Your quiet nature didn't change, but with them it fell at ease. While Natasha taught them how to spy and manipulation, you and her made a team for teaching them hand to hand combat, Bucky joined and taught them weaponry prompting some fights between the three of you about methods, which was fun to witness. Clint being the must experienced one, to not say old taught them protocols and survival.

With the Maximoffs addition the disfuctional family got bigger. Missions rolled around. And now you stand by the tarmac on the rooftop of the tower. Smoking a cigarette, you are set to go undercover for four months in Africa. Hydra got on the ivory illegal market, just to move around their shady deals for their own financial benefit. Is going to be dangerous as heck, but is you find the right thread you will find the base where operations are run by. Ulysses already acceded to help in exchange on a high-tech prosthetic for his lost arm.

You see the wind carryon the smoke your bags are already on the jet.

"Change of plans agent. We are going by commercial airline" Maria says walking closer to you.

"We?" You ask blowing smoke to the wind again.

"How's your military jargon? You are joining VETPAWS to get there with an undercover".

"If you mean WWII jargon I'm expert, otherwise I could use some help".

Maria was with you for a week before leaving. From there you were with the organization, operating with and without them. When you found a solid lead you parted ways they offered you to be on touch for backup.

The mission was completed a week before the time-frame. The whole Avengers team came and swept clean the base before destroying it to the ground. When the fight was over and the shambles were burning down Wanda and Pietro came running to you and gave you a giant hug.

"We fucking missed you" Pietro said before Wanda, she put her hands on your cheeks and studied your face "You look tired, are you hurt?"

You took Wanda's hands and put them over your temples signaling her to read your mind ("I was, I got hit by a dart with poison. I've felt tired since then").

"ohmygod, Y/N!"

"oh huh that's not good" Sam said walking closer. When Wanda told them all what you said they got worried, you shrugged and took a cigarette from the crumpled box. You haven't had much chance to smoke, always at the risk of being exposed by the smell.

On the fly back Bruce and Sam put you on a drip and did some tests to find what it was. A very effective rudimentary poison from a three, capable to kill an elephant.

"You are lucky you are a super soldier Y/N otherwise you'd be dead" Bruce said with a frown. S.H.I.E.L.D scientists were already working on a antidote. You had body aches and cramps once in a while, you were better than when you were first poisoned.

"You couldn't move out of the way?" Tony asked confused at how you got hit.

"It was a dart. That damned shit makes no noise, I realized when I felt it hit my neck. From there it was a hazzy memory of three days: I almost got rammed by a rhino and mawled by a pack of lions".

"How did you scaped?" Pietro asked with curiosity written all over his face.

"No fucking idea... Maybe if Wanda reads my mind you can find out".

Wanda tried, your mind was a disaster of blurry memories. She screamed in freight when she saw the memory of the rhino. And got scared out of her skin by the lions hunting you in night time.

Back at the compound you got the debrief done before a very condecending Fury sent you to rest on your room, get a bath and wait for medical. You did. Like a clock the doctors were there half an hour after, put you on a antidote drip and fluids. Rest for 48hrs.

Luckily after lunch time, the twins and you settled for watch some movies. Mostly kid-rated ones, four movies and a obscene amount of junk food later, mostly Pietro and you eating they left to rest.

Fast asleep, you were still on edge from the mission, it was truly nerve wracking after the poison. Scratch that you were almost paranoid. The sound of your door being opened without warning make you pull out your gun to whoever was sneaking on you.

"Hey Y/N, calm down. Is me I'm sorry, never meant to scare you".

When your eyes focus you see Maria's slander body shape and her voice calms you down "I could have shot you".

"Yeah, I didn't think it through. Next time I'll knock.

Clearing the chamber, you put back the gun under the pillow and extend your left hand to her, she smiles "Let me change". You fall asleep again. Before getting on the bed Maria "speaks to you softly to not spook you again" when she lays down you automatically pull her closer to you "Y/N You will pull out the drip"

"Don't care"

"Too bad, I do. Let me fix this thing" after some more rustling the two of you finally settle to fall asleep.

A successful mission meant a week off duty to recover.

Maria tried to get off bed at five am but, you didn't let her "Y/N, I have work to do".

"Me too, lie in my bed. I will work you good" you said with a smirk. Your arms reach out to wrap around her waist and she gives up, you smile triumphally as she rolls the two of you over to straddle your hips.

Your left palm sets below your head as your right hand finger nails graze up her tigh under her loose shorts. You feel her shiver and you smile widely. She does a quick job taking off her tank top and you admire her beauty, damn woman she is fit.

"Do all your agents get this reward after a successful mission?".

"No, just an insufferable one that is quiet everywhere but in bed with me".

Lifting up your torso you begin to plant ope mouthed kisses from below her sternum to her clavice, neck... How much you love kissing and grazing your teeth on her neck, feeling her tendons stretch and contract, her breath hitches. Kisses along her chiseled-goddess-like jawline. The two of you continue the make out session while your hands knead and work her breasts, rolling her nipples and tugging them gently. Her fingernails claw your back, making you shiver "Damaged goods get no refund, darling".

"Good. I'm keeping you" she gently pushes you back, and helps you taking off your shirt to lie in bed. "You should be resting" briefly getting off of you she takes off her short and undies to straddle you again, making you humm in appreciation "Already that wet?" You wiggle your eyebrows playfully, your hands immediately attach to her firm butt kneading te muscles.

"Oh shut up and put that mouth to work" she glares down at you, her eyes look dark with her pupils dilated.

Without a warning you drag her with your hold on her butt, she quickly adjust to straddle your face. You tease her a little nipping and kissing the inside of her tighs, which proves hard when you can feel her wetness falling on your neck, the warmth of her core and that divine smell.

"Stop teasing me and fuck me" she orders with her deputy voice, you chuckle before diving in to make out with her lower lips, tugging, nipping and sucking like a starving woman. She buckles and trembles. You make her loose control and she moans, whimpers and screams your name. Oh this will earn you a shit ton of teasing from the Avengers, but right now you don't give a damn, and you can't really heard it, het tighs pressing and squeezing your head muffled her sounds, and you want to hear them. You work her to overdrive, your hands give her butt cheeks a last slap before moving up to her breasts she tries to keep you off but her strength is no match when her mind if foggy with pleasure.

Like a predator waiting to strike you play with her breast and nipples until your feel her almost getting to climax. That's when you strike pinching and tugging her nipples. As she voices the dirtiest-loudest moan while her body shakes and trembles as it shoots down in pleasure. You gently guide her to lay down your head still between her legs. You kiss her mound and navel while her hands tug and graze your hair with each pleasure tremor.

As her body relaxes and she reaches for your hands, and frowns when she feels the IV entry. You already dozed off again, using her front as pillow. Luckily Maria is tall, she reaches out and grabs the small first aid kit you keep on the side table. After gently taking it out she clean it and wrap it with a band-aid, she jiggled at the design with paw prints. Pietro bought it for you as joke since is veterinary use. But you use it anyway since they are self adherent.

For everybody's surprise not only Tony got married, he decided to retire and went back to live in the city. None of you was against it that is, and with the twins now more experienced and powers under control his absence was felt, yes. But the team managed. Wanda and Vision started dating now they have two years of official relationship, let's be honest they were dating at least half a year before. You an Natasha noticed. But Vision was a good guy, he was still awkward and learning, but he was gentle and attentive. And if Pietro's shovel talk was dramatic yours was worse when you showed him a magazine with vibranium bullets you stole from Ulysses.

"You break her heart Vision, and I will leave you like a perforated metal panel, am I clear?".

"I-I yes, ma'am" he said nervously side glancing at Wanda "Is that all Y/N/N?" She asked with a mix of pride and annoyance.

You only gave her a nod.

Fury assigned you to a mission that did a number between Maria and you. You went undercover for a year with a group of dangerous black market dealers in Madripoor. It wasn't about the time, it was about how dangerous it was. You end up having to use drugs and do awful things to blend in. Which Maria detested. You also had to deal with Baron Zemo, that was the easiest part. The man is a snake but he has a code.

Along the mission you found something absolutely dreading, apparently the Red Room was up and operating. You couldn't believe it and led by Dreykov. But Natasha killed Dreykov, a look a like? Someone using the name?

You tried to dig in to that, and pure dead-ends. The only solid clue and thread you had was the child trafficking. But the organization you were in didn't stole or buy the kids. Once in a while they shared transport with one of the crime organization who did.

Unfortunately, to keep cover your code name begun popping up on Ross radar. You had to do some awful shit to stay in, The Mawler.

You are gazing at the sea on Siloso Beach, Singapore. Lazily resting on a sun bed, smoking a cigar and beer in hand.

“I’m pulling you out of this mission. Effective immediately” Maria said after she took the sun bed beside you.

Without moving your head you side glance at her and you almost get a heart-attack. She is wearing a damned sexy one piece swimsuit.

“With that you aren’t passing unadverted” you say taking a drag of your cigar.

“I’m hoping this convives you to go back”

“Quite close, but I can’t. I’m close to what we need”.

Maria and you spent a week there. It was a bitter sweet week. Where you two bickered and fought which only resulted in hateful make out sex.

In the end on the last day Maria decided to put an end to the relationship. She could no longer put up with what you were doing to yourself for this mission. Your elbows sport the evidence of the needles, heroine. She told you about Ross close eyes on you.

You didn’t wanted to let her go but, you understood her fears, you had them too. You were getting way to deep.

When you finally came back after bringing down the organization with Coulson's team. You were greeted by Wanda, Pietro and Vision, yes in the end you got along with the android he is good company full of facts that blow your mind.

When you saw Maria and Natasha cozy on the living room, you knew. You had lost your chance. Not gonna lie you love Maria, but both of you got awfully guarded around each other during your mission. Natasha and Maria have been on an off on the past, so you just accept it and move on.

Now with the looming danger of the Red Room, you must to what you do best. Keeping them all safe. And that means keeping this secret and going behind everyone's backs to dig intel.

Months went by, before you used to keep on your own at the compound. Now any given free time you are out, traveling or driving, you even go AWOL during missions. Making Maria doubtful of your loyalties. Even Fury us having second thoughts. And everything goes to shit when you all are tasked to keep world leaders safe during a submit and the place is attacked. You got there late, Fury notified you of the mission, but you went awol again chasing threads on the red room.

Is messy, a disaster. Between the attackers and trying to stay on the shadows you see two familiar uniforms, their moves like Natasha's. Without report or orders you go for them. After a brief fight, you found two undetonated bombs. You notified the team and guard it until authorities aradheren

When you returned to the team Steve was angry "Where were you?!"

"Chasings suspects"

"Oh yeah? I don't see any" Sam said crossing his arms.

"They got away. I lost them between the fleeting people".

48 hours later, you were set on a week mission. Unknown to you it was to keep you away and gather declarations and evidence, you were framed as participant of the bombing. In your ignorance you went AWOL again.

When you returned, the twins, Natasha and Bucky were on a mission and they were due to be back the next day. Ross and his elite team got in the compound after lunch time. Demanding the director to hand you over. All the evidence was lay out to you on the conference room, Ross and Fury previously got into an agreement. You are handed over, the press never knows about this. And for your heart-break they did. Everything fell into place to frame you as mole.

"Fury! You gotta the shitting me. I was helping, I went there as an Avenger"

"You went awol 36 hours before that mission. You did it again, in your last mission. All evidence points to you".

"Bullshit! I've been nothing but loyal to you and this cause".

Ross retrieves something from his jacket "Explain your possession of vibranium bullets".

"I got them from Ulysses Klaue an exchange during a mission time ago".

"An you never handed them over to your superior?"

"What I do or not is not of your inconvenience" you growl at the man.

"Search her" he orders sternly.

One of his men come behind you and with his baton puts you on a choke hold. The agents quickly pat you down and expose the drugs you have on you (fucking shit, not my day).

"Hmm... Is this the quality of agents keeping civilians safe? Fury" the old man taunts the Director who stands glaring at you. Yeah, you are fucked.

"Maria please, this is a fucking mistake. I'm not involved in that bombing. You know me" you beg and plead for her to believe you but is a lost cause. You see it in her eyes, the admiration, commaderie, friendship and love is gone "Agent Y/N Y/L/N you are under arrest, your rank, badges and credentials are cancelled effective immediately".

You physically feel something breaking inside your chest, it takes mere fraction of seconds for your face to become blank and lifeless. A price to pay, to lost it all. At least she will be happy.

The agents handle you roughly and you don't give a damn. You simply take it all and let them push you around to the awaiting transport.

Along the hallways you cross gazes with Bobbi and Sharon, but the agent behind you smacks you in the eyebrow with the butt of his rifle "eyes to the front Mad Dog" he orders, and you get angry. Stopping abruptly.

"Move!" You don't give an inch.

"YN, just go" Bobbi says worriedly.

You cross gazes with the agent hurrying you "Fuck you!" You break out on a fight, a fight that gets the attention of everyone. And you go completely animal, honoring your code name until electrified batons and elephant grade tranquilizers put you down.

When you wake up you are bumping and rolling around in the back of a vehicle that jumps up and down, you hit your head several times but the tranquilizer still has its hold on you.

"What do you mean, Ross arrested her and not even three hours later lost her? Are you kidding?! Wanda and Pietro protest angrily.

The team get into a massive verbal fight, some believe it, others don't. Is a circus.

When you wake up, the first thing you see is the blurry shape of an IV on your elbow, with a blue liquid.

"Where's Romanoff?" A husky voice from somewhere around questions.

You ignore it and keep quiet, from there is who knows how many days of being beaten up. That is until you hear one of the women calling the other Yelena. Between the hazy moments you catched the hour glass on their uniform... Could it be? Yelena Belova, Natasha's long lost little sister.

Groaning as you get concious again you hear the blonde getting close, her face half hidden by a bandana "wakey-wakey imposter".

"So, will you talk? Or do I begin pulling off nails, maybe a sever a finger?"

You lift your head to look at her hazel eyes "Look. I don't know what you want with Natasha but, I am no disguise. I end up being framed and accused guilty. If I'm no use just kill me already".

Turns out she was indeed Yelena, and the other woman is a Black Widow too. Both Red Room deserters. They explained everything, with nothing else to loose you offer them your help to find that hell hole.

A year later you got contact with the twins again. They hugged you tightly when you saw them again. They cried like little kids. You held them and kissed their heads. From there you got in touch once in a while and mostly when they were alone on missions or with Vision.

Only once you got in touch with Maria, and it was during a scouting mission she had in Turkey.

Wanda gave you the heads up on Maria going solo to that mission. You were in Bulagary so you took the chance.

She was sitting outside a tea shop, you've been observing her. Someone tip her mark, from the outside you saw him getting suspicious. Ever honoring your nick name you got some key intel on the man. You made some deals with him, but he is a fake fat fish. You already flipped him off and deal with someone more important.

After buying a tea, you casually walk to her table and clear your throat to catch her attention "May I make you some company?"

Maria hides her surprise perfectly and motions for you to seat "What brings you here?" She asks.

"I was just passing by and I saw you. Figured we could have a friendly chat" you look directly at her hand below the table, she was about to rat you out.

She puts the cellphone on the table and leans back crossing her arms "you escaped Ross".

You chuckle at her words "Is not hard to begin with... You shouldn't believe everything Ross says, I thought Nick and you were better. The masters in deceive got deceived by made up evidence" you gave her a mockery low applaud "Outstanding".

Maria's eyebrows furrow "you know there's a protocol for that, you escaped and never came back".

"You should have trusted me and believed in me, darling" you take a sip of the tea to stop your tongue from lashing out.

Maria looks at you with disbelief "well darling, you were recurrent on going AWOL during missions, you consumed drugs, you were on possession of drugs when you were arrested. Vibranium bullets? Madripoor did a number, didn't it? You were acting off, you wanted trust?"

You grit your teeth hard enough, that even on the busy market she hears it "Did it ever crossed your mind that I could have a good reason? I did nothing but keep you all safe, because you all were my family, I loved you. Stupidly I still do, that's why I am here to tell you that your mission is a waste of time".

Maria's eyes widen at your words "Then come back with me, now. Let's clear this out".

Shaking your head you gulp down the last of your tea "Too late for that. You two abandoned me in the woods, I learnt to be a wolf" standing you you retrieve a little journal and put it in front of her "write a good essay for me, will you?"

Maria watched you go, you blended in faster than she could have guessed.

Three years later, Oksana, Yelena and you keep hitting dead ends. Nothing, no trace of a physical place. All former installations, abandoned relics, nothing. Three laps around the sun on the run, god knows how many vodka bottles and a obscene amount of cigarettes and cigars. The three of you became a dangerous team, doing mercenary jobs here and there to finance the search. Madripoor your recurrent hiring spot.

Wanda contacted you a few days ago. You were in Croatia. After barely scaping Task Master you took two airplanes, train and boat to meet Wanda and Vision who where undercover. She told you Steve and the others would be closed but, shouldn't be a problem.

You met them on a small local coffeeshop. She looked adorable with her beanie, and you couldn't help but tease her. The one that got roasted was Vision, you didn't know he opted for a human-like look you almost tackle him off Wanda when you saw them cuddling on the booth.

The three of you spend a good couple of hours talking, they told you some trouble they had got into, talked about some missions. Wanda was begging you to stay the night with them Pietro was sneaking off later to see you.

"Wanda you know I love you like my little sister but, this is dangerous. If Ross finds out-“ The t.v broadcasting news cut your train of thought. Aliens, Spaceships in New York?"

"What are you-" Wanda and Vision turned around to see it, the now redhead gasped and Vision started backing off "We must head back no-" his pained scream made both of you turn around.

"Viz!"

You pushed Wanda towards Vision to get her out of the way of a blast. That sent you to the other side of the street.

A fight broke loose against giant and strong as heck aliens. As much as you tried you were still very beaten from the previous fight. Four blasts later and a failed attempt to scape the aliens got the three of you cornered on the train station.

You see Wanda standing between Vision and the blue-like creatures while you were behind the aliens, they beat you and left you on the floor. You see it in her eyes, Wanda is terrified even more after they saw you beaten you down.

Something catches their attention, you sense him too. Steve and the back up is here. After his badass catch of the lance another fight breaks out, but it ends with Natasha stabbing one forcing them to retreat.

Pietro comes to your aid and help you up, you hug him tightly but briefly "I gotta go" you kiss the side of his head and begin walking off.

"We could use some help" Steve says behind you.

"Call Ross" you say waving him off.

"They kicked your ass and you run away with your tail between your legs?" Natasha taunts making you halt.

"Y/N/N, please?" Wanda says you make the mistake of looking at her, her damn pout.

You walk back to them "If you rat me out".

"We won't".

On the way back you texted Yelena and Oksana, you are no stupid their contacts were listed as Lena and Ana.

Natasha sits by your left and shamelessly peeks on your phone "Who do you text?"

"Girlfriend and roommate" you say, none of that is true. But this is not the right time to out Yelena. Wanda told you that Maria and Natasha were no longer together since a year ago.

As soon as you stepped on the conference room you saw Ross on a video call with Rhodes, Nick, Coulson and Hill "Director Fury, arrest that criminal right-" with a wave of Rhodes hand the call was over.

"Guess, is all hands on deck" Rhodes says looking at you, a shrug from you is his answer.

Not wanting to get into their useless banter. You walk away in search of your room, if it still is. It isn't. Is barren. No weapons, no battle suit. No clothes, well for a fact you know the twins have your civilian clothes.

Pietro zooming in the room confirms your theory "Your clothes are comfy" he hands you toiletteries and underwear, which is fun is a sports bra and one of his boxers. Before speeding off he tells you he will try to get you a battle suit.

The shower feels so good, you went for cold water the blasts left burns on your back, stomach and rribs the cold water soothes them.

What you didn't anticipated was Hill waiting for you sitting on the bed with a first-aid kit, you don't bother to utter a word and simply put the towel over your shoulders. Underwear already on.

In the corner of your eye you see her reaching out to caress the old bruises and new scars. She says nothing you just see the sadness in her eyes, the moment is bittersweet for both. Maria internally scolds her self, she shouldn't be touching you as if nothing happened, but you don't seem to pull away.

"Let me tend your wounds?" She asks hopefully, maybe this could be a little step forward, you shrug and sit on the edge of the bed. Letting her inspect and treat the wounds, you hiss when she disinfect the burn on your ribs which is the worse "Should I see the other guy?" She says playfully.

Chuckling you shake your head "Nah, this time I got fucked".

Maria smirks at your words but frowns as she inspects the deep bruises littering your body "These bruises, who did this?".

"You make awful enemies while on the run".

She hums thoughtfully, when the wounds are tended, she pats your shoulder. Taking a leap her hands cup your cheeks, her thumbs softly drawing half circles. You close your eyes and enjoy the contact. This feels so right, like nothing happened. As it has always been between the two of you, taking the moment.

"When this fight is over, come back? Let's clear this out. I've been searching, you were right. We got deceived" she leans down to kiss your forehead her lips lingering on the skin.

"I don't care, if I was framed guilty. There's something bigger behind that. That's what I've been searching, three years of dead ends. Can't do this on my own anymore" you feel her lips leaving your skin, opening your eyes you see her beautiful blue eyes.

"You won't. We will have your back this time. I will stand with you" you smile s little at her words before pulling her in to kiss her hungrily. When you feel her lips answering the battle you groan. How much you missed this. Your hands move around her body to grab her tighs and make her straddle you and the rolling the two of you over so you have her under you. Her breath hitches when you travel to her jaw and neck. Your hands control hers pinning them above her head. With your teeth you pull down her uniform zipper to below her breasts, with your tongue you trail up to her neck column and suck hard at the bottom to leave it marked "Hey! No love marks" her voice doesn't match with her body language when she buckles when you plant another one in the other side. You smirk against her skin and begin trailing down with open mouthed kisses. When. You are kissing inside her breasts the door is suddenly open

"I found a battle suit Tony had on the ma- shit!" He speeds to leave it over the desk and retreats to the door again "Go get some sis!" Blindly you snatch a scalpel from the aid kit and throw it at him, of course with a laugh he dodges it closing the door that gets the damage.

Maria laughs whole heartedly under you "Way to kill the mood" you grumble burying your face on her neck.

Steve and Bruce decided to head to Wakanda. If there was a genius that could figure out how to take the soul stone from Vision without killing him was Shuri. Tony was still M.I.A. and Thor had left to Asgard since two years ago.

When the ramp lowered, Wanda helped out Vision. You couldn't help but marble at the beauty of Wakanda. It's like anything you've seen. Bucky told you that unfortunately he had a relapse as the Winter Soldier when one of the Hydra Generals got his hands on the red book and activated the programming in his head. Tony had to blew his arm off before he killed Natasha. After that T'achalla offered his resources. Now Bucky is free from the programming and has a brand new arm.

Romanoff and Hill restocked you with weaponry, now you stand ready for battle.

You stand beside Bucky as you smoke a cigarette. When Nat and Steve come back to the lines you know these aliens are dead-serious about getting the stone. Over your dead body.

Sure, all of you are getting your ass handed over, big time. Luckily for Steve who was nearby Thor showed up with a three and a Talkin raccoon? The heck is going on?.

Natasha and Okoye were fighting Proxima Midnight, you were nearby but swamped by aliens. You need to hurry to help them out, when you thought it was lost cause Wanda showed up and saved them, hurling those wheel like machines like they were weightless. Holy fuck you barely dived into the ditch. Looking up you see the alien responding through her comm link, well you assume is something like it. And dashes away into the woods.

"Wanda, Natasha, Okoye wipe clean this area"

"I'm going for evil smurfette".

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You barely made it on time to intercept them before they pulled off the gem from Visions head, you ran in from behind them and tackled both off the android.

"Seems you didn't had enough from hour last fight" Proxima says calling her weapon. While the other, Corvus swirls his blade.

Standing two to one you crack your neck and stand ready to fight. The battle field stay dead silent and still.

"So, will you stop us by standing still?" Proxima taunts.

You know they are taunting and yet you run head first into the battle. Vision is conflicted between running and staying until you scream at him to get the fuck away. He does.

Staying two to one is hardly fair, they hit you repeatedly on the wounds of your previous fight. You take it all just to get opens and do damage.

The first going down is Corvus. You served a well placed knee on his previous stab wound. Quickly retrieving the vibranium machetes from your back sheaths you cross stab him in the chest, he can't even scream and with all your strength cut him through with an x shape. With your back opened Proxima blasts you at blank point sending you several feet away.

You hear her heavy footsteps nearing, you try to crawl away but she stomps on the burn of your back, making you groan in pain.

"I will spill your guts on the ground and take your head as price" she says anger over flowing her speech.

You laugh at her words and she kicks you in the face, making you roll on your back, when you open your eyes she is hovering over "your blast didn't kill me but surely your face can give me a heart attack" you say with a chuckle. She gets angrier and stomps you on the chest at least three times "Insignificant creature" she curses.

And you laugh at her anger "I still killed him" you give her a bloody smile. She raises her spear with both hands to stab you through. And you take the chance to call back one of the machetes, it buries on her middle, you quickly sweep off her legs with both of yours. The machete goes through completely. You mount her chest to ground and pound, you should kill her. But you are still angry about the cuts her attack left on Wanda's face.

Proxima still exchanges several hits with you, but you have a last one you call back the machete impaling her again until it gets through. She does the same with her lance but you dodge it in time before lashing her neck. Her head lulls to her right and she smiles before she is gone.

Then you feel it, dread. That strange feeling you get when you dive into the darkness of the unknown, on a dark hallway or room. That goosebumps that sell out your fear.

When you look back you see a giant purple humanoid being. He walks out of that portal and makes his way to you, his aura is unnerving to say the least.

"Who are you?" Your voice betrays your fear making you sound confident. A long his path he retrieves Corvus lance, his giant body making it look like a stick.

Calling back your other machete you get in guard.

"The people who fear me call me the Mad Titan".

You smirk at him "And the people who don't?".

"Thanos, but you won't live long enough to say it. It is impressive though, you killed two of my best warriors. Two of my children".

While he talked you observed, the gaunlet on his left hand it has five out of six stones. There's no fucking way you can loose this time.

The two of you get into a fight, a fight you regret right away when his giant fist impacts your whole face, you literally felt your jaw micro fracturing under his strength. You wobble back and get in guard, you side step his knee just to be intercepted by the gaunlet, that fist broke more than half your ribs, the impact is solid. He left you like a still punch bag. He pulls back his fist just to catch you with the same hand grabbing your head with his metal covered fingers to make you look up at him "I'll let them know you fought well" he plunges in Corvus blade burying it all the way "life for a life".

Unknown to you Thanos wiped out the battle field, the only one still standing was Wanda who was doing her best at destroying the stone before the Mad Titan get his hold on it.

*Mad Dog?!*

*Y/N!*

*Where are you? Wanda is the last one standing between that purple giant and Vision* Natasha's frantic voice wakes you up, when your unfocused sight adjusts you see the pool of blood you ate kneeling in. When you try to move the spear reminds you of it's placement.

One last fight you think to yourself. One last effort.

Gathering all the strength and balls you have you lean back to free the lance from the ground, and slowly pull it out, groaning and heaving in pain. When the blade is finally out you use it as a cane to lean on it. While you cough blood.

*Y/N?* You hear Natasha's worried tone.

Fishing around the pocket of your cargo pants you find the red inhalator. Luckily it wasn't damaged. This red thing will leave you like a rabid dog until the effects dies down or your body shuts down, Yelena might drag you from hell just to kill you for stealing this from her safe.

You inhale it all, after a few seconds the agonizing pain on your chest vanishes.

*Mad Dog here, I'm coming*.

Along the way you take the other forgotten lance and run as fast as you can towards the others, you can feel Wanda's powers building up.

You make it in time to see an half concious Wanda on the floor and it makes you angry as heck. Along the way you saw a shivering Bruce, Nat and Okoye trapped under some heavy vines, T'achalla passed out, Steve, Bucky, Sam and Pietro were knocked out.

You stop when you see he only caresses Wanda's head and goes to Vision's dead body. What you didn't expected was he reviving him, you see him chocking Vision.

With all your strength you throw the single blade lance stabbing the purples asshole on the back of his left shoulder, making him growl as his hold on Vision loosens.

He turns around and glares at you "You are a nuisance, this time I will kill you for good".

You run up to him blasting him several times with Próxima's weapon.

"Wanda get Vision away from here!".

"But-"

"No fucking buts! GO!" You get on another round with Thanos, this time your punches, kicks and the force behind the lance is stronger, reflexes better. When he feels you could actually have a chance after you stab him a little too shallowy twice she blasts you wit the power stone. And kicks mid air to send you against one of the giant threes.

Falling on your hands on knees the wind as completely knocked out of you, heaving several times only bring blood to your mouth. Man you are angry, you hear his heavy steps closing in. You try to stand up on wobbly legs. You dodge his first punch of the gaunlet, a second punch your body doesn't move in time. His free hand slams you back again on the three.

"Where's your fire now child?" He taunts out of nowhere he manifests Próxima's lance again, you give him a bloody smile breathing has become extremely hard "Didn't learn from last time? You need more than that" you say with ragged breath.

He gives you a sinister smile "If you are still alive by the time I finish this, you are coming back to my army" with a swift move the three blade lance goes through you pinning you against the wood. At this very moment you regret your taunting words.

What you didn't know is that Wanda was reading your mind, when she saw Thanos impaling you she and Vision turned around and decided to got back and fight.

You cant let this giant asshole get to Vision, you can't loose. With a lot of effort and will power you begin to retreat the weapon off your body, the pain is unbelievable, this time you groan and scream.

"Y/N! Don't!" You hear Natasha scream from somewhere around. But you don't give a damn.With blurry sight you saw the lightning of Thor's powers, there's was a explosion like sound. The attack hiding your last scream as you unburied the blade. Once more you used the lance as cane, leaning heavily on it.

When you looked up you saw Thor hovering down over a kneeled Thanos who had the massive ax buried on his chest.

"Don't fuck around kill him!" You shout at the god of thunder, but you see him he is blinded by rage, that rage that loss brings.

Deciding to take the matter in your own hands, you unstuck the lance and run up to them ignoring Natasha's and Steve's shouts for you to stop. You should have.

Almost simultaneously you jumped up to bury the lance on the titans head, Vision shoot a laser beam from the mind stone. Both hit the target, but the laser beam got further and went through you too on your lower abdomen. The last thing you had conciousness about was something hot hitting you and the hardness of the ground.

Vision fell on his knees and told Wanda to run to you.

The firsts reaching you were Natasha and Steve, followed by an absolute distressed Pietro then Wanda.

Natasha gently lifts you up to lay you on her lap. While the others franticly tear up your battle suit to reach your wounds, they all gasp. And get hands on to try to stop the bleeding, you groan in pain and wake up. You try to wiggle away from the pain but Natasha's hands on your face stop you "Easy there Y/N we are trying to help you, ok?"

"Nat?" You whisper brokenly.

Your left hand moves shakingly to grab the bandage roll you hid, you move it to her eye sight "Red Room, still active. Hid intel here... I- I didn't, I didn't go rogue. I was framed".

"Sestra, calm down. We know, ok? You are one of us" Pietro says with tears blurring his sight.

"Yelena alive. I've been working with her. Cellphone, Lena" you say with blood scaping your mouth "Sorry I lied. Budapest".

Natasha's tears finally run down "Is ok, Y/N/N, no hard feelings. Just stay still, ok?".

T'achalla calls to have medical ready. Steve looks at the speedster "Pietro, can you take her?".

"I'd be damned if I don't".

You chuckle at his words "Wan, Piet" you call them softly.

"Don't you dare to say goodbye Y/N. You can't, you are strong. You are our big sister, we need you, ok?" Is unmistakable how Wanda's pressure on your wound increases with her words.

"I love you guys, you the best little siblings" your eyes get lost. And Steve helps Pietro gathering you in his arms.

He runs faster than ever, the medics instruct him to lay you on a floating gurney. You groan in pain when they shift you, blindly you search for Pietro's hand "Tell Maria I love her?".

"I will. You better wake up to tell her yourself".

When things quiet down and the battle field was wiped clean. The avengers found themselves on the med bay. All of them needed medical, some more urgently than others.

Even Wakanda with all the advanced tech the doctors were having such a hard time keeping you alive.

By the time Maria and Nick landed, six hours later. You were wheeled on a room with ICU critically unstable. Against protocols the doctors let the twins in, they had to use a special suit though. They each grabbed one of your hands, even the latex gloves couldn't hide the coldness of your skin.

"Wan, can you read her?" Pietro asked softly, the female twin tried. Yes she could read you but your thoughts were a mess. Good memories, bad memories but above all there was guilt and uncertainty. She digged in deeper. And found you feeling angry about being framed guilty of the bombing and how you felt betrayed by everyone. Your guilt of keeping the Red Room Intel from Natasha, about Yelena working along with you.

Wanda wasn't stupid, none of them. You were literally dying and yet you were being hold down by your regrets. With tears running down her eyes she showed Pietro.

The twins were devastated, they didn't wanted to let go. But they also understood you were fighting over time. You saved them all at the cost of your life.

"Sestra, we know you are suffering. Is ok, we now know you were inocent. We love you, we never doubted you".

"Maria and Nick are coming ok? Just hold on a little more. We love you" both kiss your forehead, they wish they could replace the coldness of your skin with your usual warmer temperature. Your hugs were the best your the right amount of tight and warm.

They talk to you a little more while Nick and Maria get ready to enter.

"How is she?" Maria asks.

Natasha and Bucky shift uncomfortably "the doctors don't think she is going to make it" he says with a low tone, those are words none of the team members never wish to say out loud.

The twins and the directors switch and Maria grabs your right hand between hers, is warm thanks to Pietro. But is not your usual warmth, you always ran at a slight warmer temperature.

Nick walks to your left side and outs a fatherly hand on your shoulder "Agent. We made a mistake, a grave mistake. You were right, for that we are sorry. Thank you for all your service. You did good kid" he gives you a last gentle squeeze and leaves the room for Maria to have a private moment with you.

"Darling, I'm sorry. Like Nick said, we were wrong. Sorry is not enough. We lost time, how many nights I could have had you by my side. You were all, you are my everything" the monitor on your heartbeat spikes a little.

"hey, no love. Is ok, calm down" her words seem to work and makes you settle down "No matter what, I will always love you..." She jiggles softly at her own words, as tears blurry her sight "You did again baby. You saved us all" she softly traces your face, the features she loves hidden under swollen and bruised skin and muscle. The skin is cold. When she leans away she sees your eyes barely open.

"Hi" she softly says "I was told you were a total badass out there" you have a respirator on and with the fog clouding the mask she can't see the smile grin on your lips. Even Maria isn't sure if you are awake. You aren't supposed to be conscious.

She sits with you, talking to you.

The others outside just watch, Pietro has Wanda on a protective side hug "Is she?" The brunette nods "she isn't fully conscious but, somehow she seems to understand".

After a while the doctors ask Maria to leave, she kisses you cheek and temple before leaving the room.

That same night your body shuts down for good, it wasn't nothing over dramatic. Your heartbeat slowed until it stood still. The medical team tried their best at bringing you back. But you stayed forever asleep.

Everyone were devastated but, the three shattered were Maria and the twins. If your dead wasn't enough when news of your death spread out Ross came to the Avengers compound demanding Fury to surrender your body, government's property he said. Maria almost decked him.

Luckily your body was already cremated in Wakanda, and for Ross there was no use. So he left. Natasha left Wakanda the same night you died.

They all held back the service waiting for Tony and Peter to come back, a month later Carol Danvers brought them all, even with news adds they called themselves Guardians of the Galaxy.

Two weeks later Natasha came back with Yelena and Oksana. The team welcomed both, with open arms.

The service wasn't too over the top for Tony's over the top dismay. It was more intimate, the team, Clint's family, pepper, aunt May. Coulson's team.

When the service was over Maria stayed by your dead stone. This was actually your favorite place to have a smoke, you even had a stone ash tray you carved, she lit up a cigar and left it there for you, she lit a cigarette for herself and sat beside the headstone "you would have laughed at how we wept like little kids" she said to the forest.

By the second cigarette, Yelena and Wanda came back. The brunette sat by Maria's left and Yelena sat by the other side of the tomb stone. They all lit a cigarette and Yelena passes over a vodka bottle.

“She was good fighter and good friend” Yelena says looking at the headstone “I thought she was invincible. I was unsure of facing Natasha again. Y/N was right, I had nothing to be unsure”.

Yelena downs a gulp off the bottle “she loved you, she still does” she fishes around her long coat over sized inside pocket and gives Maria a couple of journals “everything we know of Red Room here, she has a couple of personal stuff there”.

Maria has been avoiding looking through the last two journals. One had everything Red Room and Hydra related. The second ones were personal. It’s been a month… 30 days of over thinking and beating herself on how stupid she was on doubting you.

Blame the vodka and the lonely nights. She ends up venturing to read the one that looks more worn, older.

The first pages are about your mission in Madripoor. Notes and heads up for your mission. Hand draw schematics.

She notices the difference on the strokes, sometimes well done others scribbled, hurried… some pages even have some brown-ish stains coffee mostly. But theres blood too. The she sees the first page with a long text, the format looks like a letter. Two months into the mission

<I’m pretty sure I’m writing this and never send it.

It’s been almost two months, 56 days into this task. I’m missing you like crazy, through out the day I catch myself wondering if you are safe, how are you, missing your presence… is stupid, maybe. I blame the vodka and the aftermath of using drugs. I hate it, but I had to. I had to blend in they are suspecting I’m a spy… I might not see past the second month.

If I die, and by a miracle you find this know that I love you Maria Hill. Tell the others I miss them too.

P.D. Tell Fury I will haunt his old man ass>

Maria laughs for the first time.

She keeps flipping through the pages.

Six months in.

<Well, another drugs and vodka fueled letter. I’ve known regret, but nothing like this. The things I’ve had to do… they are haunting me. Know I get the appeal of drugs, if I don’t sleep I don’t dream… if I inject enough heroin or pain killers I have memory-less sleep. And the maker knows I need some sleep. I’m paranoid. Maybe is the drugs.

I understand you are worried Maria, but this is beyond me. Far more complex. The Red Room might be alive. This black market is cruel… I see kids, women, babies being traded like stuff. Potentially deadly substances and vial locked diseases hurl around like canned food. Is worrisome how this underworld doesn’t care about anything but money. Fucking filthy money.

I know I’ve been ghosting you on Intel. I’ve been reporting directly to Fury. I’m sorry love.

We fought on this last meeting and I’m sorry. I unloaded a lot of shit on you, sit you are not to blame about. I’m just tired and drained. I pray for this mission to be over soon.

Love you.

P.D. for Fury:

FUCK YOU>

Maria keeps searching for this letters. Each become more dark, haunted. Is palpable how your psiche was suffering the beat down of what you saw.

<I’m sorry. I had to.

I was played, they gave me something.

I was feral… I am scared of myself. How can I make that much damage bare-handed?.

All this time I’ve been a dormant monster. What am I?

Do I still deserve you?

I’m so, sorry.

I love you Maria. That’s the only thing I’m certain>

Maria squeezes her eyes trying to hold back tears. She flips forward until a couple of Polaroids shows up. Her eyes widen in surprise.

Is from Singapore, one when she was sunbathing on the beach. The other a picture of her naked, barely covered by the hotel bedsheet. She was sound asleep on her stomach

<Today I lost the only person I’ve ever truly loved.

I feel stupid. But no one said this line of work was easy. I pushed you away. They are trailing me.

This feels wrong, I should not cling to these polaroids. But sometimes a little breath of hope is needed. Maybe when this is over I can fix my stupid decisions.

You don’t know this. My primary mission is over. But I found something else, I’m already inside so no use on backing away and sending a newbie in.

You are the light that I look for though this dark time. Now it might just be a hopeful memory. But I need to cling to it or might loose myself into this darkness.

I will always love you.

P.D. Fury is a dick. If I lose you for good I will kill him myself>

Well, now it makes sense… and she didn’t see through your lies. Maria sighs and looks up to the ceiling of her office. Wishing she could find the answer. A way to turn this back and change this cruel outcome. She doesn’t blame Fury. Is just the way this spy and assassins game is.

She spends the night reading your notes and letters. She saw it all. The hurt it did when they foolishly turned their backs on you.

As the pages are turned she witness the change from rage to sadness and last acceptance.

Is clear that drunk your hand slips there’s even some little notes from Yelena. Leaving Maria unsure if she put them after or while you were writing.

<Wanda asked me to meet them in a few days in Scotland. She said something about a secret mission there. Which is kind of odd. The place. Not one to judge after being deep inside Madripoor.

The little birdie has been trying to play match maker again. I’ve been thinking… I miss them… I miss you. This solo mission I’ve been carrying on with Yelena and Oksana is been hard. We are being hunted by the Red Room. Honestly a little breather would be welcomed.

P.D you looked beautiful on that little café in Italy. I saw you and I’m still smitten>

The next pages are blank… until the last one. Scrabbled messy writing.

<I don’t even know why I’m writing this… before this battle. Maybe is just reflex, maybe is because I’m nervous. This aliens kicked the crap out of me last time. I was hurt already. But man I felt like a ragdoll.

If I don’t make it out of this. Know that I love you still. That make out before parting ways was a true oxygen intake to my soul.

P.D. I love you, you looked beautiful as ever. I was a stupid for staying away for so long>

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"How do you write such realistic dialogue-" I TALK TO MYSELF. I TALK TO MYSELF AND I PRETEND I AM THE ONE SAYING THE LINE. LIKE SANITY IS SLOWLY SLIPPING FROM BETWEEN MY FINGERS WITH EVERY MEASLY WORD THEY TYPE OUT. THAT IS HOW.

[lonewolfwrittenuniverses]

Story of The Ice Wolf

PART 1

OTHER PARTS:

PART 2

PART 3

This is a Wanda x Reader story, as you might find while you read is that I changed several things of the canon universe for the story, so if you get confused, send an ask or just message me on the main blog and we can talk further into it.

English is not my first language this story may have some mistakes, so I apologize.

WARNINGS: none yet, the waters are always calm before the storm.

Steam dances in the air, the mug is way too hot to be held wrapping it with my hand, but my case that doesn’t matter. The shiny vibranium hand doesn’t have pain receptors, the only way to describe it is numbness, still is better than nothing, quite the souvenir from our time with Hydra. “(Y/N)” “Y/N” I snap out of my daydreaming as soon as I hear her voice, I hang my head backwards. “Hey Beautiful”. Wanda only jiggles, “I wish the others could witness how dorky you can truly be, now you look like a puppy”.  I only manage an annoyed scoff, “for starters I’m not dorky and neither a puppy little one, besides I rather have them fearing me than teasing me”. “Babe you know I am the only one that you want teasing you senseless. Besides it doesn’t matter what they think, for me you are my scary puppy”.  I follow her while she gets close. “Anyway, what were you thinking?”. “You didn’t see it?”. “You know I don’t really like wandering in your mind without permission, I rather talk with you about it”. Wanda is now standing before me. I extend my left hand, she intertwines our fingers, I gently direct her to sit on my lap, after a little butt wiggle she gets comfortable leaning her head on my left shoulder, her forehead is resting on my neck. I take a sip of the dark coffee, and after a little pause, I decide that there is no need to keep my silence.  “I was thinking about how I ended up being half machine… also It’s been five years since we joined the Avengers”. Wanda hums as answer and starts tracing the steel scales of my right arm, “Having second guesses?”.  “Not really, living in a fancy tower with an entire floor for us is far better than my dog cage in that lab”. I offer her my mug “Is just… It feels surreal, after all I’ve done and who I ‘am I get to call the avengers teammates. But must important I get to be with you". I lean my chin to kiss the crown of her head while I hold her close with my left arm over her stomach. “You are not that Wolf anymore Y/N/N we are avengers, now you are Y/N”, she starts trailing kisses on my neck “…Maximoff" she whispers I can feel her smirking on my skin. A shudder runs my body. After taking a sip she gives me back the mug. “hmm… Is that so? I’ll have to put a ring on your hand little one” I take her left hand in mine while I caress her ring finger". “Pietro will flip around”. 

“Pietro can kiss my ass babe. I’ll ask for his permission out of curtesy not for approval”. (little did she know that I already did). F.R.I.D.A.Y. Voice disturbs our little bubble, “Miss Maximoff, Miss (Y/N) director Fury is on his way to the main conference room. Captain Rogers requires your attendance”. Wanda slowly gets off my lap, “come on puppy” I let out a small huff of air, “thanks F.R.I.D.A.Y. We are on our way”.  Before I get up Wanda leans in hungrily kisses me, it gets a little worked up, when I was about to pull her back in my lap (Fuck Rogers) she pulled away leaving me breathless. “see what I mean?”. — Maria Hill is standing in the conference room hallway, as soon as she sees us approaching she walks towards us. Wanda being the sweetheart she is, she greets her first “Good morning Agent Hill”. I smile towards her, “Agent Hill”. Suddenly a set of arms surround Wanda and me, but there’s only one person that would dare to make such a move. “Hello Piet”. “Hello Y/N how are my two favorite girls? no offence agent Hill, good morning”. “No offence taken Mr. Maximoff”. Several whiffs after, “Hey Y/N is that coffee made by you?” “Yes” as I answer I raise my mug for Pietro to take, the only one who seems surprised is Maria, the only trace of her reaction is the slight raising of her right eyebrow. “Thank you, darling” he gives me a kiss in the cheek and tries to leave, Maria stops him. “Pietro stay please”. Wanda beats me in asking, “Is something wrong Maria?” “I won’t say wrong. But this mission will be more complex to handle for the three of you, besides there are some questions that need answers”. She sets her gaze on me. My voice doesn’t quiver, but the twins can sense how uneasy I ‘am when I state, “you found the laboratory”. Agent Hill only nods, “you are the only one that knows the inside Agent Wolf and as I said we need answers”. She doesn’t need to say it, her eyes wander to the right side of my skull, partially hidden by my (Y/H/C), my right arm and last but no least my right leg. Wanda holds my left hand as Pietro puts his left hand on my shoulder. The only thought that comes to my mind is that I can’t back down now. My voice is deadly calm “We’ll do it”.

— After some time waiting, Tony is the last to arrive to the conference room, surprisingly Pepper joins us too. Stark first words are “F.R.I.D.A.Y. Lock the door, until further notice”. “Yes, Mr. Stark”. Tony beats Director Fury with the announce of the mission. “So robocop I heard Fury found the lab where Hydra built you”. This time is not our usual banter, this time his voice is harsh with no trace of humor. At the mention of Robocop everyone winces, well almost everyone. While Wanda, Pietro and Nat darkened their demeanor, Bucky only raised an eyebrow in challenge, Tony is quick to clear the air. “I’m sorry Barnes, but this time is not about you. I’m talking about to 2.0”. If the atmosphere couldn’t get more tense, it does after his final statement. My only answer is the hardening of my glare, if looks could kill, the asshole will be indeed dead. Agent Hill is the first to break the silence. “Mr. Stark, let me remind you that is not your place to talk about the mission and is unprofessional of you to insult a team member”. “If she truly is agent Hill, for what I currently know she could still be a Hydra puppet. She used Stark industries systems to log in on Hydra data base”. Stark being suspicious of me was not knew. Steve shakes his head disapprovingly and only gives me a sympathetic look. “Tony that particular break in was two years ago, you couldn’t find out who was responsible, get over it”. He asks Fury to go ahead with the details of the mission. Fury only lets out a huff of breath, before he starts. “Well as insensible as Stark was, part of his statement is true, we found the laboratory. And as you all can deduce the key member here for the mission is Y/N and the Maximoff’s and Barnes. The laboratory is in north Russia hidden underground. Our intel states that there are several prisoners which are used to experimentation. however, there was another activity taking place there, Hydra high ranks made the prisoners fight each other in tournament when they were not being experimented on or in line for a mission. The fight losers were heavenly punished up to the death”. “Were? what changed?” Barton asks. “Our intel says that the base is no longer in use, but it has Hydra key information”. “…Also the intel says that there is a former Hydra agent ranked as captain who was the undefeated champion until its exit. Code name Ice Wolf” Fury’s sight slightly lingers on me, before going on. The only ones not oblivious to this action is Natasha and Bucky “This person is half machine, chosen weaponry twin swords and daggers, this person has a lethal aim with a wide range of machine weapons. Known for never show mercy, cold blood assassin, skillful in the art of torture this due to own experience. It’s file is even bigger than the Winter Soldier”. As my mind tries not wander in the memories of ‘own experience’, Wanda starts rubbing gentle circles with her thumb in my flesh hand, this little action is enough to ground me in the present. Steve is the first to ask, “Do we have a face to match?” Director Fury  only moves his gaze in my direction. Soon all the avengers stare at me, in expectation of an answer, Bucky, Romanoff and Barton got the message, Hill knows but don’t let it show. Wanda takes my hand in hers, I hear her voice in my mind (“you don’t have to do this play it off”). She knows everything I went through.  Pietro tries to interfere, “Dire…”

"Pietro”, I cut him off, “can you go…" 

"Are you sure?”.

“Yes, it’s time”.

“F.R.I.D.A.Y unlock the door please”. 

Two rushes of air after, Pietro is back with a small black flash driver at hand. I take it with my steel hand.

I stand up, concealing everything I should not feel. I regard Stark in a hard-cold stare. “First of all, I know that you are suspicious towards me Stark, from day one you’ve been, let me tell you something only this time you are right, the break in and use of your system it was me, and I know miss Potts is here with the evidence”.

“(Y/N)? What’s going on?”, Steve asks clearly in disbelief. The others seem unsure of what to say or think, Fury and Hill only sees the scene unravel. Of course, they saw this coming.

Out of the blue Vision speaks, “You are the one that used the systems to hack Hydra data base. That makes you an amazing, skillful hacker miss Y/N, seems like miss Romanoff has a worthy rival”.

“Thank you Vision, unfortunately you are not helping my case, but you are right”.

“You are damn right! Tony says while harshly standing up, smashing his hand on the thick glass table.

"I spit the truth (Y/N)! Whose side are you on?!” his words are full of anger, his demeanor threatening, or as much threatening as he can be out of his metal toy.

If he calls a bluff, I will show him who rules hell. “Or what Stark? Do you have what it takes to pry the truth out of me?” I stand up and everyone tenses. Wanda doesn’t let go of my hand, she tightens her hold, Pietro also stands and put his hand of my upper metallic arm, he lowly whispers in me hear “let it go, don’t make a scene”. He gets no acknowledge from me, he tightens his hold too, trying to get eye contact with me.

Still with Pietro’s hand on my arm, I show the flash drive between my steel fingers, my voice has trace of emotion. “Take a look to this and find out if you have what it takes” I toss the flash drive towards Fury. He catches it with ease.

“That is a physical copy of what you all are about to see. I just wish this was under different circumstances”. 

I set my gaze on Pepper’s, she flinches a little bit, but I soften my voice, after all she is never being nothing but considerate with us. “You should leave… you won’t like what you are about to see”.

“Thank you for your concern Y/N, if it becomes too much I’ll leave”.

I can only hope she has not eaten yet.

“Bucky, same goes for you. If you choose to stay, sit by Wanda’s side”. Bucky stands up from his place beside Natasha, but instead of walk to the door he walks towards Barton who is seated at Wanda’s left. Clint hesitates but changes his seat with him.

“F.R.I.D.A.Y." 

"Yes miss (Y/N)?”

“Search in Pepper’s personal server, the file’s name is survilliance1.0, is masked as one of their wedding videos”.

“Yes miss”.

I take back my seat. 

“How the fuck you dare Y/N!” Tony exclaims. Pepper tugs him back to his chair. “Tony that’s enough! Let her explain herself”.

“Director Fury, I know you have been searching for my file, with no success… All the data is also on that flash driver, every single mission and kill is there. But I assure you. None of them were done with pleasure or ill will, I did what I had to know Hydra secrets to tear them apart, I will accept whatever punishment is fit”.

Maria is soon to speak next, “Same conditions? it’s been 8 years of blind trust”.

“Almost… I want something else”. 

“And that is?”.

“Immunity for Wanda and Pietro, I take upon their punishments, my file is kind of intertwined with theirs. No harm is to come for them, they stay as Avengers no matter what”.

Fury and Hill look surprised, “Y/N”.

“After eight years there’s no need of mistrust Nick, Maria, besides with my file is more than enough”. I say with a shrug.

Wanda screams inside my head (“Y/N what the hell?! You will get yourself killed!”).

(“little one, trust me on this, if loyalty, service and trust mean something they will find a way to help me, someone has to soften the fall”).

“I want all the intel, sources and resources”.

You have them, in the driver. Fury looks satisfied. “Will do everything we can then”.

There’s more to come so buckle up for a good ride. 

@redhairedwolfwitch I posted it :)

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Thunder Wolf

Maria Hill x wolfshifter!reader.

Summary: reader is a kid raised between Hydra and Red Room lines. She saw at least two generations of Widows graduate from the program. Madame Hydra's favorite pet.

Would reader be able to build a normal life?

⚠️ Trigger warning: mentions of wounds, torture. Standard warnings.

Enjoy! Feedback is very welcomed.

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Some would say that life can be an adventure, full of adrenaline, tragedy. But yours? You've covered all possible bases with an tad add of madness.

You don't have memories of a family, as you grew older some kids you lived with told you you arraived to small to the school. Barely a two year old, but there was something special about you. Training and lessons, many years of blood and tears smeared on the floor. The school you were in was a ballet one but, for some reason you weren't taught dancing. You were taught to fight and survival. At some point the other kids joined you on this lessons, but while they were instructed to dancing you were taken to a laboratory.

That's when you met a woman that became a somewhat mother to you. Melina, she was a scientist. She did a bunch of tests specially when you were on your animal shape. A wolf, well you were a pup so your size was a medium dog. They wanted to duplicate that ability of yours.

The worse was when Melina wasn't around, the other scientists were cruel.

You truly have no idea how many years you were on the Red Room. You saw at least two generations of Black Widows rise. You weren't one of them you were their dear Grom Volk, Thunder Wolf.

It's been at least two decades since the last time you spent time with Melina or went on a mission with her. The last time you somewhat knew of her was a little over a decade ago.

For some reason Madame Hydra left you on this facility since half a year ago, which is odd you used to be her main bodyguard. Your shifting ability allows you to pass as her exotic pet. Every few months a chopper comes and throws some food an essentials for you and the rest of the guards but, usually you go to hunt.

Tonight you are lazyly lying on the rooftop of the facility. The full moon shining brightly, you are enthralled by it. Full moon leaves you restless, small cracks of lighting scape your claws when you tap them against the concrete.

Taking your eyes off the bright satellite, your eyes scan the wooden perimeter, at first everything seems normal. Until you catch some odd movement. You quickly shift back to your human form and call for a status report of the agents, seemingly nothing out of normal. But, something is wrong... You tell them to keep alert and choose to investigate yourself. Jumping out of the building you shifted back into wolf form and barely made any sound. Now on the ground you quickly catched three unknown scents. And you growled in annoyance, bunch of incompetent guards you will bite their asses before requesting an exchange.

It didn't took long to locate the three women, one tall, two average. One of them smelled different, powerful. The other smelled... that smell, you got that smell somewhere else, it might be a traitor. You tuned your ears to pick up their exchange through comms.

"Hill, we got the intel. Maximoff found something else there's an enhanced, we need to get away fast".

If Madame Hydra finds about your failure she will skin you alive. You gather energy and grow up your form to double size, you weren't small to begin with being a northwestern wolf. And now you are the size of a nightmare.

Picking up speed you go around the taller one and block her path.

*Guys, if by enhanced you mean a massive wolf with sparkling white eyes. Is standing right in front of me* Maria can't help but admire the fur on the giant wolf grey and black like a raging storm.

("I suggest you three surrender, and handover the Intel you stole") she hides her surprise at the voice in her head, she is kind of used to by now thanks to Wanda.

*We are going for you* Romanoff says on her earpiece.

What you didn't know was that one of them went for the quinjet, while the other came running to the rescue. You heard the person coming, so you went to attack the one in front of you.

For your surprise she was agile and a good shooter, but your quick healing made it useless. The bleeding stopped immediately and years of training meant you didn't even felt the wounds, she would need better placement of her shots.

*Maximoff any time now, would be helpful* she shouted while she dodged your claw that end up stuck on the bark of a tree. The woman sprinted away and you yanked your claws back to pounce at the agent to end her when a force pushed you off against a tree. Rolling a couple of times you stand up and snarl at the other woman. She has some red smoke surrounding her hands.

"Come with us, we can help you".

("I don't need your help, I have my orders")

You go again against them.

"Hill! Go, I will stop them" Wanda orders and leaps to meet you half way.

----

You gotta admit, that brunette with red powers is one of the most powerful beings you have fought against. And for your shame she is managing to run away. While you fought she caught your knee with a boulder and you can barely make it move. Even when you called your agents she decimated them like flies.

*Wanda! Protect yourself I'm firing from the back gate*

You see their airplane hovering above, there's no way she can jump that high.

The shooting begins, and your get a little slower dodging in zig zag the shots. But that woman is a good shooter, she caught you a couple of times. Enraged you set off an electrical shockwave that burns her incoming rain of bullets, and you see the brunette raising up using her powers.

On a last ditch effort you use all your strength to jump up your sharp teeth latch on the end on the metal gate rattling the entire aircraft. You quickly scramble to latch with your claws and begin to hike up. When the brunette enhanced makes the mistake of stepping on the metal gate you electrocute her unconscious, Madame Hydra would enjoy having her on her ranks.

The woman on the cock pit begins to do some evasive manoeuvres but you latch to the metal panels like your life depended on it *Hill! Shoot them down!"

You try to pounce on the one they call Hill, but when the pilot turns around your brain freezes... Natalia? Is that- red energy blasts you against the aircraft side panel. Your body doesn't even touch the floor when is flung away like garbage out of the jet. The last image you have is Natalia's panicked green eyes.

"Bad dog!" Wanda sneers as she allows herself to collapse on the floor.

---

"Wake her up" a voice orders. The agents throw iced cold water on the wolf chained to the floor. The wolf's white bright eyes open with confusion.

Your master heeled boots is the first thing you see before she crouches. Letting you see her face "oh my dear Volk Grom. So many years of service. Remind me, why you got this scar?" She says caressing your muzzle her thumb running over the jagged scar that runs from the top of the bridge on your nose across your lips.

"I allowed Romanova scape" the woman hums "and guess what you just did again? This time she stole highly sensitive intelligence".

("Ma'am I didn't know it was her. I tried to stop them, they brought the enhanced, Maximoff-").

"Did you?!" She asks cutting you off at your confused expression she elaborates "did you stopped them?".

"No ma'am".

"I am a woman of word, unlike you. I warned you" her pristine nails dig deep on the skin of your muzzle, she stands up and walks to the exit door "Do not worry, I will make a good coat out of your fur. I might even give it to Vostokoff as a present".

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Maria curses all the wrong intel collected by Tony that led her to this disastrous mission. She has no back up near. She is in the middle of Canada during winter, fucking cold. She has been running away from several Hydra squads for a week. No signal, the winter storms blocking off any chance of communication.

The temperature is getting lower, she opts to try to find a small cave where she can shelter from the cold winds.

Huge is her surprise, when she enters a small cave and blood smell assault her nose. At first she wants to backtrack and run the heck away, she can't afford to waste bullets. The only thing she can see is a huge lump laying on the stone, labored breath. Slowly she beings to shuffle back.

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You are lying on the cold stone floor on a cave, Madame Hydra goons are stupid they were supposed to kill you and they only left you halfway to death. But they literally skinned you while you were outcold. You spent an agonizing month regrowing your skin on the abandoned facility, by now you have most of your fur. Took the chance and scaped the facility. Your wounds were infected your body put everything into regrowing the skin.

A faint sound of shuffling puts you on high alert. Then the smell, gunpowder. With a lot of effort you barely open your left eye and you see a human silhouette, by the sound a gun is trained on you.

("Riddle the skull with bullets") your voice is strained and groggy.

"What?" The woman looks around trying to find someone else inside the cave.

"Is anyone here?" She asks lowly eyes darting around.

("Me, the wolf dying on the floor") you answer again.

"Thunder Wolf?" She asks with disbelief, you hear her walking up to you with more confidence. The Intel they recovered also had some about you. Natasha was feeling bad, you were like a sister to her and she left you again.

("Now, I feel bad. You know my name. I don't yours") you grunt trying to raise you head, but fail you just lay back down with a whimper. ("Will you tell me, before you kill me?") You ask your voice getting weaker you ran a lot to make it up to this place.

"I'm not here to kill you. I am actually running away from two Hydra squads".

("Shame, I could use a couple of bullets in the head").

Maria kneels down close to your head, you feel her covering your eye as she shines her tactical lamp on the low setting, her breath hitches a little at the sight of fresh and dried blood soaking your fur.

"What happened?".

("No longer useful to my former master. But their goons couldn't kill me").

"Maria Hill"

("Y/N Volkov")

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After some assessment from Maria, not that she could do much. She end up curling on your stomach to keep warm by your insistence. It hurted like a bitch at first when she put her weight on your body, but you said nothing wrapping your tail around her trying to give her more warmth.

Two days later, now you know that because Maria has some gadgets. You hear movement on the woods.

("Hill. I hear people") as soon as Maria raises up you do too ("they are far enough. But we need to go, now"). The two of you silently walk to the entrance. But Maria's boots make some sound, no doubt the scrunch of boots through the snow and the prints will sell out both of you.

("Hill. Get on my back. I know somewhere where we can lay low. They have signal").

"Are you crazy?!" She hisses lowly close to your face.

("Shut up and do as I say") you glare at her you bright white wolf eyes running through her soul.

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In the end Maria did as you said. It hurted like crazy when her weight settled on your back and held onto your fur making your still sensitive skin burn. But you barely grunted ("lay across my back, or you will end up with frost bite").

With a quick walk you put a half mile distance before you begun picking up speed. Some of your wounds begun opening up, the cold luckily made the blood cloat quickly before it fell to the pristine white snow. Still you ran through the snow.

By night time you made it to the farm. A cattle farm "Are you sure is safe for you?" Hill asks the cattle doesn't seem faced by your wolf form and their guard dogs look actually excited to see you.

("Owner good man. He fed me after I saved his dogs from a wolf pack. He wanted to take me to a vet. I ran away").

You limp heavily and your body wobbles. Maria end up somewhat supporting your weight on your right side. Until you made it to the barn and collapsed by the hen stack.

The guard dogs came running first licking your face and muzzle like over excited pups. You barely grunted in annouyance some of them end up jumping and booping you with their snout making your body ache.

Maria was about to walk to the house when a man walked in, the dogs immediately moved back. He saw the gun on Maria's hand and the blood on your fur "did you shot it?!" He shouted aiming his riffle at the unknown person.

"No, no. I-she guided me here. I was lost in the woods" she easily lies, *she was already hurt when she found me" she says holstering back her gun raising her hands to show she means no harm.

"Her? My god, I thought it was a male. She is huge. I'm Adam by the way" he extends his right hand with a warm smile "sorry for aiming my gun on you".

She shakes his hand "Nice to meet you Adam, I'm Maria. I understand. Would you mind if I call some friends to pick us up? I can get her the best medical care possible".

"No problem, let me get you some blankets for her. You can spend the night inside the house".

"Thank you, but if you don't mind I can stay with her here. My friends should be here in the morning".

----

*Maria are you sure? My mother was sent a coat made of Y/N's fur a week ago. She is dead* Natasha says with her voice almost cracking.

*Nat, I'm no joking I'm with her. She is awfully wounded, needs medical asap*.

*See you in a few hours*.

Truth to her words Natasha, Wanda, Clint and medical team were at the farm right when the sun was raising. They came with new blankets for the man that helped you two.

The redhead walked to were you lay and kneeled in front of your face "Hey sis, I'm sorry. This time I will help you" Natasha says to you softly in Russian, leaning down she lays her forehead on yours, by now you are so exhausted that you barely open your eyes to see her blurry face. But that green gaze, no doubt is Nat. If the people you hear around are with her, then you can trust. While medical team made initial assessment. Natasha took the chance to hack into the surveillance system and erased the previous hours leaving a loop.

---

Now at the compound, a couple of days later the one and only Melina Vostokoff arraived with Yelena.

The Russian matriarch and Yelena simply walked in like they owned the place, they gave no warning to Natasha of their arraival. Agents surrounded them with guns drown as they made their way to the medical wing unfaced by the operative going on around them.

"Y/N Volkov, where is she?" Melina asked in the front desk.

"I can't tell you. Is classified" the nurse said.

"Yelena call your sister" Melina instructed as she jumped over the desk and put a gun on the nurse "I suggest you tell me" the Russian said as she hacked into the system.

"What the hell is going on here?" Maria stormed in right in time to hear the blonde on the phone telling Natasha to bring her ass to the medical wing of the compound.

"Who are you?" Maria asked.

"Yelena, Y/N's sister. She is our mom Melina" Yelena asked with a bored expression "Can you tell your agents to lower their guns, their are shaking. They will shot someone".

"Agents stand down. You two come with me" Maria instructed. Melina smirked at her, she holstered her gun giving the nurse a "sorry, it was not personal" she said walking off with the other two.

The deputy director took them to the private room you are staying in. You are still on your wolf form. Now clean and some wounds bandaged. Some missing patches of fur and spots with still raw skin, others also bandaged had raw muscle, those were still fighting infection.

"My beautiful volk. Who did this to you?" Melina gets closer to gently run her hand over the soft fur.

Yelena gets closer too and puts her forehead on yours "You are safe now" she says softly in Russian.

The door opens to a very angry Natasha "Mother, Yelena. What's the meaning of this?" She hisses low to not startle you.

"I needed to see my daughter Natasha and make sure she is properly tended".

---

Yeah, mama Vostokoff took over, she gladly paired up with Helen to use her tech to heal the patches of still raw muscle.

Your waking up comes a couple of days later, the soft flip over of pages begins to pull you into conciousness. There's another sound, polishing... Someone is polishing a gun... The smells are familiar.

"She is waking up" the accent, you get spooked by that voice and the freight is reflected on the heartbeat monitor.

You open your eyes, the right one is still blurry the other is clear. Yeah, is the woman you fought against, your mind quickly catches the fact of her lack of battle suit.

Yelena takes advantage of your hesitation and puts herself between you and Wanda. Your sight focuses on the blonde only, could it be? With a lot of effort you raise up and get off the bed grunting in pain, your limbs trembling with effort, the blonde extends her right hand with a soft smile that image is such a mirror to the Red Room, Yelena was a pipsqueak still but fearless, in your wolf form she extended her tiny hand to boop your nose. ("sestrichka?") You ask, that smile and the bright amber eyes.

"Da, is me Yelena" you were about lean in her touch when the sudden opening of the door makes you react and put yourself between them and the intruders, your eyes light up like a thunder, and sparks run through your fur.

"Idiots! You spooked my daughter" a raven haired woman exclaims pushing through the group of people.

When you see her step in front of you, you try to back off, managing some steps but your back hinds end up against the bed ("am I dead?").

"No my daughter. You are alive" no doubt, Melina has aged since the last time you saw her, but it's been decades maybe. And she barely seems older. She still has that power and commanding aura.

Hesitantly you limp forward again, the electricity and static disappearing from your fur, to rest your wolf forehead on Melina's front, Yelena takes the chance to hug you by the neck. You cherish this little moment, taking in their warmth and smell.

The next day Melina makes you shift back to human form, which you immediately regret screaming in pain while you change, even the experienced Widow cringes at your agony screams, the wolf injuries translate to your human body but is like getting hurt all over again. The Russian is the first one by your side when the shift is over. Your human skin show every single scar. As soon as you feel Melina nearby you pass out again.

When you wake up two days later Natalia is by your side, looking at something on a tablet.

"You should paint it back to blue. It was badass" you say with a smirk. The redhead immediately raises up to hug you and rest her forehead against yours "I missed you sestra".

"I missed you too my solnishko".

Natalia, Natasha she now goes by that name, she lets you know what they are up to. Melina is pretty much commanding the medical wing and nerding hard with Helen and Banner.

Yelena dislocated Wanda's shoulder in your honor. Pietro, Wanda's twin wanted to kill her for it. But Wanda interfered and accepted the eye for an eye.

Now more alert, director Nick Fury and deputy director Maria Hill visit you at the hospital room.Wanting to know what happened.

"I used to serve Madame Hydra. I failed her when Maria, Natasha and Wanda stole the intel. It was my last strike, but her stupid goons couldn't kill me for good".

"What did you do for her?" Nick asks with a stern expression.

"Anything she commanded me too. I was her main bodyguard, fighter, killer, spy. You name it, I did it. I even got into dog fighting pits just for the sake of her entertainment".

After the conversation Maria stayed with you on personal note. She thanked you for helping and saving her. You shook your head and apologized for trying to maul her while in the battle field you stood as enemies.

From there slowly you met the rest of the Avengers team, your favorites to hang out with where the twins. Which after two months of living at the compound were like your little siblings. Which made Yelena a little jealous, but with a tight hug and a kiss on her forehead you assured her that no one could take her place. To make it up to her your time was split between Avenger duty, agent for S.H.I.E.L.D and helping Yelena finding Black Widows to free.

In one of those retrieval missions you end up going back to Melina's farm, since the Widow you rescued was hidden in Mongolia it was quicker and faster to go to the farm.

Melina welcomed you with a hug, it still amazes you how open she has become to showing affection. But is very welcomed.

It didn't took long to meet face to face with Antonia, and you immediately felt her amniosity, and the anger behind her blank expression. It was even more obvious when she hugged Yelena and glared at you. You chose to just silently take her treatment, you can't blame her.

Fury allowed you to stay two weeks on the farm, Melina needed some help building more space for the new ex-Widows. And her farm was expanding. Her beloved pigs were still there, but now she had some cattle, sheeps and chickens that needed better spaces. And Alexei the human, was Alexei... A lot muscle not many braincells.

They were careful to never leave you alone with Antonia and Lerato but, mistakes are bound to happen when Alexei is involved.

This morning Melina and Yelena went to the nearest town for food and basics. While Alexei and you stayed to go on with the new building, you need to hurry ending the rooftop before the snow begins to fall which is tomorrow.

"Y/N! We are out of planks!" Alexei shouts from somewhere down.

You sigh in frustration after securing the last screw on the row to keep this plank in place, you asked him yesterday to buy more but nope. He didn't, he got distracted playing and loosing in chest against his namesake pig.

"Better hurry your ass to get more!" You shout back "I can start the isolation on the part that is ready".

"Got it!" He shouts.

You jump down to go to the other barn for the outdoor isolation sheets. You hoist up the materials and begin working putting all your attention on the task, everything is going as planned until someone tackles you off the roof. When your back meets the hard ground, you realize you are fucked.

When your eyes open you see Antonia getting off you "Get up!" She hisses.

You cough a little bit trying to get air back in your lungs and raise up "Tonia, please. You don't need to do this" her boot greets your face and you groan, you simply roll over with the punch to stand up. Antonia and Lerato that joins her pound on you. You don't want to hurt them, so you do your best at dodging, ducking and moving away from their attacks. But is actually hard to achieve Antonia was the feared Task Master for a reason.

The other Widows try to interfere but you stop them, this very not their problem. After getting way too much damage from the two of them you manage to render Lerato out of the fight hitting central nerve central spots that render her left leg and left arm useless.

And that only makes Antonia angrier. The punch exchange becomes brutal and still you do your best to not hurt her badly. Landing punches your hard enough to slow her down.

Melina with Yelena driving the truck begin to come close to the hardware store "is that papa's truck?" Yelena asks a little unsure, Alexei red truck is not unique but that looks suspiciously like his. And the bed is already loaded with wood planks and other items.

When they stop close they see Alexei walking off the store with more stuff. The three of them lock gazes, the first one to say something is Alexei with a loud and clear "BLYAD!".

From there is a race back to the farm.

When the two vehicles skid to a halt close to the barn they see the escene of Antonia choking you on the floor her hands wrapped around your neck tightly.

Antonia's knee is painfully set on your sternum pressing with a crushing force and the placement is just perfect. Making you proud.

"Tonia-"

"Don't you dare to call me that!" She screams "you were supposed to protect ME! Look how I ended, a toy under my father's command!".

Your eyes get watery you never wanted that for her "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Tonia".

"How did I survived? I no longer believe Dreykov's tale" her constrictor hold loosens and you gasp for air.

"When the explosion hit... I tried to shield you with my body. But I was on dog size, I could not shift fast enough to shield you completely from the impact...but I got on my biggest wolf size fast enough to shield you from the heaviest debris.

I stood over your unconscious body shielding you for about a week, until you father's agents found us. You were immediately taken to the underground facility with the best care".

"Why weren't you with me?! You left me!" Her voice sounds small and broken. You were her shadow for three years, you kept her safe from harm until that faithful day.

"I didn't left. Dreykov was angry beyond words for my failure. But, he couldn't kill me. After weeks of physical punishment he sold me to Madame Hydra. She brainwashed me for half a decade, when I was normal again Dreykov and the Red Room were out radar. I scaped two years. I did my best to find you, but it wasn't enough".

"Do you regret it? Saving me" she asks.

"No, I don't-"

Your speech is cut off by the onslaught of punches you do your best to cover, many land. Seems like it wasn't the expected answer.

When she grabs you again by the neck, you know you are out of luck. With a lot of effort you rasp what is seems to be your last words "I regret, not being able to save you from him. I'm sorry mor zvezda" her hold falters.

"Do you remember?...The nights I begged you to take me to the roof to see the stars and the full moon? You used to make your claws sparkle.

"The tiny lightings that hit empty cans. You loved that" you smile at the memory, those years guarding Antonia were some of the best. Sure they treat you like a dog, but well she used to hug you a lot. What she didn't know was that all those nights had a price for you but you gladly paid to see her smile freely.

Her hold on your neck tightens again, man you are done for.

A pair of boots halt behind Antonia "What a shit deck we were handed, huh?" Yelena says stopping close to the ex-Task Master "Antonia could you please not kill my sister. I just got her back and she still needs to finish the building" Yelena says with a bored expression "mother won't appreciate you killing her eldest daughter" Yelena's simple request have a warning intention.

Antonia relents and lets you breath again, you cough several times at first with a little blood. She is strong as heck.

"I can't say I'm sorry" the woman says still straddling your chest.

Yours eyes don't leave her "I know. I can't blame you" Antonia got off you and went to pick up Lerato to get back in the house.

Heavier boots halt by your left "Up! Up! That roof won't build itself" Alexei said with a chuckle extending his hand to lift you up "she got you good little pup" he pats your back harshly and laughed as he walked to unload the materials.

After that episode you got back to work, Alexei and you worked on the roof and isolation until 4am, the temperature begun lowering making your bruised bones ache, nothing a couple of vodka bottles couldn't fix.

---

After two weeks in Russia with your family, you came back to U.S where Tony being the billionaire that he is surprised you with an Harley Davidson 2021 iron 883 in deadwood green.

"What do you think sparky claws?" He asks standing behind you.

"Is this for me?" You ask confused, you told them about you escaping some decades ago, you managed to stay away for two years, joined a biker gang for sometime. But your former master found you killed them all and brainwashed you for a while. You still carried the guilt of their deaths, you were even dating a woman at the time she was killed too cruelly in front of you. That's why you never attempted to scape again.

"Why not? Don't you like it?" Tony ask a little worried, maybe he should have bought a crusier one?.

You walk to the machine admiring it, is beautiful, he even bought you a helmet and a badass leather jacket "what can I do to repay you? Is beautiful" you say as your hand delicately glides over the machine.

"You don't have to repay me anything Y/N, you are part of this disfuncional family now" you smile at the man, a little egocentric but, overall he is a good man.

---

You are aware of the gossiping going around the compound "Sexy Romanoff's older sister is fancing the deputy director" which is not that far from the truth.

Maria is a beautiful woman, yes undeniable. But she is also strong, loyal, quick-thinker. She manages to keep this oiled machine going with such a grace. She is a great leader, she wields your sister respect just like Fury, and that is not an easy feat. If your sister is willing to be on their ranks you will too.

--- (F/B)---

You are ending a training session of sparring with Bucky when you see Maria briskly passing outside the glass wall enclosing the gym. She seems stressed.

Bucky chuckles behind you "Go Romeo, Maria has been drowning on paperwork lately. I didn't saw her having breakfast".

You glare at Bucky but nod at his words, you move fast to get a quick shower and get to the common kitchen to cook some breakfast.

After half an hour you have to healthy stacks of home made oat flour hotcakes some with blue berries and others with chocolate chips. Super crispy bacon, chopped fruit and two mugs of salt caramel cappuccino on a insulated lunch box. You are still amazed of all the gadgets and stuff available on the kitchen. You had to ask Pietro if he knew what the hell was that, he had no idea. In the end Friday was the one to enlighten you both.

Reaching the administration wing you tell her secretary you are bringing Maria breakfast, the woman looks surprised but nods and let's you in with a relieved smile. At least Maria is not scaping the first meal.

You knock her door lightly to not startle her, hearing a come in you walk into her office to see quite the stacks of paperwork on her desk.

"Hello Maria, I brought breakfast" you announce with a small smile. She looks at you surprised and a little hesitant. But you have your little ace on hand "come on Hill, you wouldn't say no to a good home made salty caramel cappuccino, will you?" Gently you set the mug on her desk and she smiles "well, who am I to refuse" she carefully take the lid off to take a sip and a can't help the small moan at the good flavor.

At her acceptance you divide the four compartment box and set half on her desk "I hope you enjoy it" you give her a wide small and try to back off.

"Why don't you stay?" She says way too quickly even catching herself off guard.

"Well I didn't wanted to assume. I was going elsewhere. Group breakfast with the rowdy lot is not really my thing".

Maria gives you a crooked smile, you aren't wrong the whole team together can get quite childish "how about a nice calm breakfast here?" She says motioning at her coffee table by the couch.

You blush a little and accept her offer "I would enjoy that very much".

--- (End F/) ---

The next months Maria and you grow closer, working extra hours and going on small undercover missions to find intel.

Sometimes you two meet at cafes, restaurants. Traveling around. It basically feels like you two were dating. Because you were very physical from leaning against her side to sleeping next to her. When you felt her too stressed out you shifted into your wolf form for her to stroke your fur and relax.

Like right now, you two are on her office at the compound, she is sitting on the rug her laptop on the coffee table, her back against the leather couch.

Your wolf head is resting on her legs, she occasionally rubs your ears, making you purr. The first times she thought she was delirious but after the fourth time she was sure, she rubbed your left ear again and you purred "Are you purring?" She ask with a teasing tone.

You grunt a no, making her laugh.

"Aww! You are so cute. Will you shake your leg if I rub your belly?" She says with a teasing tone, you feel her hand skimming through your fur, and you give her a light zap with your powers "hey!" She protests. When her hand reaches your ribs your muscles tense, which doesn't go unnoticed "Are you hurt?" She asks worriedly.

"No" you grunt.

"Volkov shift back to human" she orders and you know better than fight her, you obey. Tony has made several clothing items that shift with you. And this branded S.H.I.E.L.D sweat pants and hoodie are some of those. Maria wastes no time to lift up your hoodie to see the massive darkening bruise covering your left side.

"Y/N! What the hell? When did this happened? is not from your last mission-" she read the report. That means you got hurt helping Yelena, you said nothing and still went on that mission with Natasha and Clint.

You zone out a little, thinking if you should tell her or not. Well, maybe you should.

"-Stay down" you laugh a little at her stern words she frowns as she stand up to retrieve her first aid kit that has a enhanced grade gel for bruising "Volkov this is not funny".

"It is" you argue with goofy grin laying on the rug "when you order me around like that, I feel like a dog that miss behaved".

Maria comes back to your side and you end up in the same position as before. This time she puts the gel, you simply close your eyes and enjoy her gentle touch.

"Don't fall asleep Y/N/N we need to figure out this data".

From that moment, it became a common ocurrence. You searching for Maria to help you tend your wounds, if they were minor. She new that the more concerning they were the more you tried to hid them. She kept a close eye everytime you went to help Yelena. Sometimes as freelance (not that she knows), sometimes to free a Widow.

----

To be honest with yourself you are falling for Maria, hard. And is not a simple crush as Natasha calls it. You feel it in your soul. Everytime you are with Maria you feel at peace, calm, you feel stronger fighting alongside her even in your human form. Nick requested to keep your ability hidden. Since it seems Madame Hydra is still sure you were killed.

You've been thinking about making an actual move with Maria, sure you two have gone together to eat or a coffee but, it has been as friends or co-workers. You wish to change that, you want to date her and call her yours. You are a daughter of Vostokoff, you don't shy away.

Since today is your free day. You ride your recently bought Shelby Mustang in matte black, having a salary from S.H.I.E.L.D and Avenger has its perks and the extra from free-lance even better. You go to town in search for flowers, Wanda offers to give you a hand, Pietro tags along to tease the shit out of you. Definitely they are the annoying little siblings.

You don't go overboard but with some of Wanda's input in the end you have a medium size arengement of violet and white chrysanthemums, white lilies, hybrid pink and white roses in vase. The arrengement is hidden by a simple pearl like white wrapping paper. Like if she says no, well... It can still make a good decoration... Like, um you hope she says yes.

With a slight knock, she grants you entrance and you smile at the sight of her in her reading glasses "Hi Maria" you greet her, by now you know only you and Nick have seen her using those reading glasses. She takes off her glasses and raises an enquiring eyebrow at what you are holding

"Maria Hill, you know I haven't shied away from showing my interest in you. I enjoy being in your company, I cherish your trust dearly. I love your touch and your presence makes me feel calm and safe. Would you grant me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?" You ask gently putting down the arrengement and lowering the wrapping paper showing her the flowers.

Maria's eyes widened as your speech grew, but a beautiful wide smile took over her surprise. She admired the flower arrengement, no doubts you were a sap, a giant soft wolf. Maria extends her right hand inviting you to walk up around her desk to be in front of her. Your heart leaps in anticipation and dread. Like she could throw you off her office window, she is strong as heck too.

She gracefully raises from her desk seat and craddles your face with a gentle touch, her thumbs gently smoothing off the tension. She searchs for deceit in your eyes but she only finds passion and love, anticipation even. She gently pulls in your face towards her and kisses you, shy at first but after a couple of quick pecks she deepens the kiss. Your possesive side doesn't take long to surface and you pull her to you by her hips and yet the kiss is firm and controlled.

Maria is the one backing off to take some air "Is this answer clear enough for you?".

You hum in thought playfully "no, I might need some reaffirmation my lady" Maria jiggles before connecting her lips again with yours.

---

The date was that same night, Natasha helped you booking in a small Italian restaurant, not over fancy. But you gotta admit your sister has a refined taste in food.

Maria was having such fun watching you try the different foods. It has been her small side mission with Nat and Wanda showing you different foods.

"Darling slow down, the waiters are already watching you funny" she takes a sip of her wine glass to hide her smile.

"Have I ate too much?" You ask confused, a ragú lasagna, one pizza, a pasta and salmon carpaccio, two wine bottles... Well now that you recall it might be.

"Yes it is, but fear not. I have a little surprise for you back in my place" she winks playfully and you almost choke on the last piece of pizza earning a good laugh from the blue eyed woman.

"Get you head out of the gutter, Volkov".

Maria ordered several desserts to take back home, to not alarm further the personel of the restaurant.

Now at Maria's place, you ride the elevator hand in hand. You can't help but smile broadly at her "what?" She asks mirroring your smile. Leaning down you kiss her forehead "nothing, just thinking how fucking lucky I am, you said yes".

In her apartment Maria store away the desserts on her fridge. However you couldn't help but walk behind her to wrap your arms over her hips and kiss her exposed neck, that beautiful navy dress made her look like a model, your upper teeth scrapped down her neck "if you aren't ready, tell me to stop darling" Her breath hitches as she turns around to face you but you keep gently assaulting her neck and exposed clavicle with open mouthed kisses "Maria?" You ask after a little while, worried that you crossed a line.

Maria looks at you with a hazzy look "I didn't tell you to stop" she says her fingers grabbing possesively the back of your neck.

"Neither you told me to go on" you say with a teasing smile.

She smiles broadly at you "if I tell you to stop?" She sees the way your pupils impossibly dilated, the eagerness. She just wants to tease you a little.

She sees the surprise in your eyes but you take it calmly "I obey" you lean to kiss her forehead then her cheek. Thinking she is serious.

When you try to step back, Maria pulls you flush to her "you know you are adorable right?"

Now you are confused and your head tilts automatically, Maria laughs again with such a glee, you begin to question all your years of training. Did you read bad the signals? Is your language comprehension bad? The hell is going on?.

"I'm sorry darling, I'm just messing with you".

"You don't want to date me?" You ask even more confused and your body confidence deflates a little.

"No, no, no hey darling not that. I want to be with you. Is just, I was testing how will you respond to me asking you to stop" Maria says in a hurry. Maybe it really wasn't a good idea to tease you like that.

Her worry makes you chuckle "Hill, you are evil. I almost got a heart-attack, thinking I overstepped" your demeanor changes again you push maria against her fridge trapping her with your body "but now? You won't scape" you growl lowly in her ear making her shiver before nibbling her earlobe.

Your hands wander up her back searching for the zipper of her dress, you slowly pull down the zipper, her surprised yelp at the contact of her bare skin with the stainless steel is replaced by a moan when you gently bite on the base of her neck and kiss down the valley between her breasts.

"Take me to bed, now" you didn't have to be told twice.

Now laying on Maria's bed, with her flush to your body is a bliss. Your slightly warmer temperature is enough to keep you both warm. Her face is hidden in your neck, you can feel her soft breaths caressing your skin. Sex with this goddess was an ethereal experience, making you regret calling it sex. You've had sex, empty physical act. This? Was beyond what words can describe, this was so human, so real, electrifying beyond your powers.

Eyeing the clock behind Maria on the beside table 3:34 am, your fingertips gently run along her back mapping the scars on her skin, not as many as you have, but the few you find makes you a little angry, who dares to hurt such an amazing and beautiful woman. You bow to keep her safe as much as you can.

"I can feel you overthinking" she groggily says kissing your neck softly, you hum happily, her lips on your skin is the best thing ever.

"How can I overthink, if the only thing my mind can't even process is how good your body feels against mine" you open palm replaces your fingertips gently running up and down Maria's back.

"Hmm I can agree on that darling, you feel so warm. I like this, being in your arms".

----

After a generous hearty breakfast at Maria's place. Both rode your car to the compound, being the gentle woman you are, after parking you exited the car to open the door for Maria, she smiled at your gesture and you kissed her knuckles. The two of you avoided the PDA but, you walked her to her office half way there Steve intercepted you "Volkov, all-hands-on-deck. Wheels up in ten minutes" he says passing with a light jog.

"Yes, sir" when he is out of earshot you look at Maria, for a fact you know she wishes to keep this private from the rest of the troops

Maria gives you a friendly hug instead "be careful, ok?" You hug her too "always".

Even though the mission required the whole team, it wasn't as hard as everyone was anticipating. You had the chance to fight side by side with Natasha, and you can't help but admire her. You saw her as a little kid, you even trained her. She always had a roaring fire inside her. But now fighting side by side with her, finally fighting for good cause. It makes you happy. For a fact you know that if you were in your wolf form you'll be wagging your tail.

---

The next two years are easily and by far the best of your existence. Maria is such an amazing partner, lover, friend and confident. She even got Melina's and Alexei's approval, she got the shovel talk though. Melina treathened her to turn her in one of test subjects if she breaks your heart and Alexei treathened her to feed her to the cows... That doesn't work at all but is Alexei.

Natasha's shovel talk was standard she trusts Maria to not break your heart.

Yelena, was Yelena to say the least "you break her heart, your short lifespan will be dragged with pain and suffering. You better not find out".

Date nights just lounging on the couch with wine and movies. Check.

Fancy date nights, hell yes. Maria's outfits were worth it. She looked like a goddess walking among peasants, you looked like a idiot drooling by her side.

Missions together? That's a big yes. Badass duo kicking major ass. You two even got into a undercover mission with you posing as her service dog. Which was fun, you had to get your fur tainted in greyish-brown and scars hidden, Helen and Banner had to come up with contact lens to disguise your white eyes to bright yellow. What you didn't enjoyed was using a collar with tag, the service harness was comfortable at least. You even bite one of the guys ankle for giving Maria dirty looks. The good thing of that mission was the public PDA, like ear rubs were heavenly, she used the excuse of service dog to constantly stroke the fur on your back. And it has been the two months were your fur coat has been on its best care.

--- (F/B) ---

You are laying on the rug of the rented apartment where Maria and you are staying, she is helping you brush your fur after a bath. Your back leg shakes when she brushes right over your ribcage making her laugh for your dismay, but you can't help it is reflex.

"Okay, we are done. Ready to look magestic tomorrow" she says patting your belly. You quickly shift back to human but you are bare ass naked.

"We eat now?" You ask, you are fucking starving. Keeping your body on large dog size takes a lot of energy and control.

"Our lovely elderly neighbor bought some nice kibble for you 42% salmon protein" she says with a teasing tone, but unfortunately is true... on wolf form you have no issue eating it. Like back in Hydra they used to give you shitty kibble or cheap almost rotten meat.

"Y/N! Don't even think about it. I made you some nice giant meatloaf".

---- (End F/B) g--

With Nick you have earnt his trust completely, he sees Maria as a daughter. He gave you a warning, borderline shovel talk. That man is terrifying when his eye sets blankly and sternly on you, you gotta admit that. But he is happy to see Maria thriving with you by her side. You even help her with paperwork and bureaucracy stuff to help her have some more free time.

This afternoon Maria and you are enjoying the sunset in Central Park, you calmly smoke a cigar while Maria reads a book. You see a family with kids and a dog, the canine seems to be too curious about you surely he senses the wolf in you, having nothing better to do you choose to mess with him and glare at it. The dog gets nervous before glaring at you and Maria chatises you "Y/N stop reeling up the poor dog".

"I did no such thing" you say in your defense.

"Yes you did" she says leaving down her book to raise a daring eyebrow.

"I-"

"Excuse me?" A little voice says behind you, a kid. You quickly turn around to see a girl that must be five at most.

"Can you help me find my mom? I got distracted and lost her" she says calmly, but you can hear her heartbeat, she is obviously nervous and terrified.

"Hi sweetie, I sure can" you answer looking at Maria that nods, you stand up slowly to not scare her, you are slightly taller than Maria, more built and you have scars in your face. You usually scare kids and dogs alike.

Maria and you split up, the kid stays with you. It takes you a couple of hours find her mom, well... More like the police found you. They tried to take the kid away. You didn't let them, you trust no police.

Another kid tried to interfere to vouch for you. Well not a kid, kid. She might be on her early twenties. The police tried to shut her up , you talked back. You tried to keep civil but unfortunately you have a temper out of nowhere the officers tried to wrestle you down and a fight broke out, this young woman managed to get the kid to be safe by her side. You were wrestled down to the floor by ten officers. And before anything scaleted further. Luckily this new kid mom stepped in, she seems to hold some authority. And half the officers eased back. So while you were still being held on the ground the woman had the little kid by her side and no police officer dared to tell her otherwise.

Maria heard the commotion, and since you weren't answering your phone she ran in with the kid's mom and saved you from being tazered. Turns out the kid was lost for almost half a day on the park, the mom thought the worse, and the police were on edge. The scars on your face and overall demeanor didn't helped your initial innosence plea.

Your girlfriend in her best authority persona played her Avenger Deputy Director credential which granted you an immediate release with an apology included.

"I will suggest you don't dare to tazer my agent" Maria's authoritative voice make you sigh in relief, and she quickly strolled close.

"Hello boss, would you mind? My hands are getting beyond numb" you say with your face being pressed heavily against the floor. Two officers holding down your head.

"Who the hell you think you are?!" One police officers shouted. And a knee was digged deeper between your shoulder blades painfully pressing on your spine, making you groan "duuude you are digging to deep, you fucking asshole!" You tried to wiggle them away but they pressed further.

"Deputy Director of the Avengers organization, commander Maria Hill" the officers looked at each other in panic "I highly suggest you to release my agent immediately".

They quickly eased the pressure and the tazer was tucked away.

"Fucking finally, you bunch of assholes" you greeted your teeth and kneeled ok the concrete moving your neck and shoulders trying to regain the feel on them.

You were very tempted to kick their sorry asses. But a pointed look from Maria made you think it twice.

The little kid mom was utterly embarrassed by what happened, you did your best to ease her mind. Like she wasn't at fault. You hugged the little kid goodbye.

You rub your swrists trying to make blood run back faster. The police and bystanders disperse and you look for the other woman and kid that helped you. Luckily the woman seemed to read your mind and she walked close after ending her chat with a captain of the police.

"Ma'am, thank you for your help" you say offering your hand. If you werent tazered or punched harsher was thanks to her. She shakes your hand warmly "Eleanor Bishop, from Bishop Security. it was the least I could do. You were helping out a little kid".

"Hi! My name is Kate Bishop, I'm pretty surprised you didn't kicked their asses!" The dark haired young woman said way too loud.

"Kate!" Eleanor chatises her daughter and you laugh waving off her mother's concern.

"I'm Y/N Volkov. Well, if I were to do that, it would mean A LOT for paper work for my direct boss" you say smirking at Maria, the woman shakes her head in amusement "Maria Hill".

Your brain catches a little fact "Wait a second, you are the Bishop kid. The one that is called the best Archer in the world, am I right?"

Kate blushes deeply and gets shy which kind of answers your question.

"I- umm- yes I am. I don't think I'm better than Clint Barton though.

"Would you like to put that theory into test? Clint will be down to it" you say it an teasing smirk. Clint will love that. Pietro has been giving him shit about it.

"You know Clint? Are you an Avenger too? Do you have powers? Are you a fighter too?" Kate asks looking at you with a wide hopeful smile.

"I... Yes, not really I fight alongside them, nope, yes. I answered them all, right? How about you go this weekend to the compound and get to meet the team?"

Kate's face light up like a kid on candy land "oh yes!!!" Her enthusiasm is notched down by her mother's stern gaze "I mean, yeah, yeah I would like that very much" she says much calmer but her heartbeat tells you how excited and nervous she is.

After some more chatting, and getting the small little fact Kate doesn't drive yet. You offer up to take her to the compound and back home.

When you and Maria are walking to your car, the blue eyed woman can't help but look at you with heart-eyes "Have you thought about it? Having kids?" She asks softly.

You look at her "well, I don't see myself getting pregnant. Maybe adopt? Would you like having kids?".

"You are good with the kids Y/N. I never thought of myself as mom material, getting pregnant is not on my soon to be list. Earth's safety takes up too much time and you are a handful" she smirks playfully at you.

"Me?" You say with an utterly offended face "Not my fault my face doesn't scream friendly, my scars make me look like a tug I will admit-" Matia cuts your rant with her lips and you smile on her lips "what about no PDA Hill?"

"Shut up".

---

A couple of months later what you truly didn't anticipated was Yelena and Kate getting close, closer than what would you like. But, by the other hand. Kate is a good kid, might be over hyper-verbal, drives Yelena nuts most of the time and the whole Avengers team too. A good kid overall. And she has been training with you all, specially Natasha on her words "if she will date our little sister, she better be capable of defending herself".

Currently the twins are using you as their giant pillow on the common room. They love cuddling with you in your wolf shape.

Your head is resting on Wanda's lap as she absentmindedly strokes your fur, Pietro is using your stomach as pillow, they are watching some t.v shows. You don't really understand them but they love it.

Maria walks in "sorry to interrupt guys, Y/N. Can we have a word?".

You nod your head but Pietro doesn't move, you playfully lick him on his cheek and ear making him laugh "ok, ok, I move".

("Can I dress, meet you in your office?").

("Is actually an off record thing") she says giving a side glance at the twins, it doesn't took Maria long to figure out she could telepathically answer you in your wolf form.

("Let's go to our room then").

Now dressed in your shared room Maria asks you what do you know about Madripoor and Valentina de la Fountain, at the mention of the woman you immediately go to fetch the vodka bottle you have there "that's a thread you don't wish to pull Hill".

Maria crosses her arms and half seats on your desk "She has been recruiting Black Widows. She uses them to manipulate governments and business men at her will. She is dangerous".

"Do you know that, to win a war. You must decimate the enemies army before cutting off the head?".

"What does that saying has to do with this?" You see the clear confusion on her eyes, you can't blame her. You are pretty sure the only one knowing the actual truth is Nick.

"Condessa Valentina de la Fountain is Madame Hydra, the actual Hydra boss, the very top head. Everyone else is just a front. Madripoor is her recluting place. The front face there is Power Broker since a few years ago, maybe half a decade" you take a cigar from your stash and cut it up to light it up, taking a couple of drags. By now Maria knows that you smoke because you are relaxed or if you are worried as heck.

"I'm very worried about your enquirement Hill. Those threads..."

Maria stands up to stand in front of you she threads her fingers through your hair trying to make you relax "flag-smashers" she says handing you the file she had on her hand.

"Sounds like a rap group" you deadpan making maria laugh you begin to scan the data, terrorists: they steal vaccines and medicines to give to refugees... does that make them terrorists? Seriously?... You get to the pictures, well no faces, only masks "I truly don't see this group of kids related to Madame Hydra.

The raven haired woman hums and sets a tablet on your desk. You put play on the standing video, at first you see no odd... Until you see one ripping off the door of the trailer bare-handed and other kicking the shit out of one cop to the other side of the street.

"Supersoldiers?".

"This is still out of radar. James thinks the answer could be in Madripoor. But we need a way in".

"I can do it".

Turns out you had to use Baron Zemo, in exchange for two dacades to lessen his sentence. He tried to tear the Avengers apart before you joined them but, luckily Tony saw through the manipulation and made up victims.

Zemo is your way in and out of Madripoor. James and Sam came too, the latter is quite nervous, which makes you laugh. After what he went through in the army he is nervous about this. You now go by the code name of Mauler.

The bar stunt is a disaster, suspiciously Sharon is there to back you up and save your ass. She acts uninterested about flag-smashers. Seemingly she is here on a undercover mission posing as art dealer... But your years tell you there's more behind or under. No way Carter is here without Madame Hydra knowing.

And you weren't wrong, after Sharon guided you to the scientist and Zemo blew up everything, the guy was killed. It was a disaster but within the hidden lab you found a kid.

You shield her with your body from a explosion. The freight made her shift into a wolf pup... Wolf pup?! She tried to run away but you catched her, she bit your forearm hard but you didn't budge "Hey sweetie is ok, I'm just like you. Ok?" The pup stops biting and tilts her head in curiosity.

"Yes I am" the rush of more bullets force you to shift into your standard size wolf form ("see? I'll keep you safe. I promise").

You shift back to human and the kid/pup relaxes in your arms.

The fight to get out of there is disastrous to say the least. The lack of uniforms tells you is not Madame Hydra, she most likely not here.

Seeing how Sharon comes on and off your suspicious get bigger. Something is off, she insists on you giving her the kid which you refuse.

Half way into scaping more shooters, this time better than the ones at the beginning "Hey sweetie, I need you to go with Sam, ok? I'll be right behind you keeping you safe" the pup nods.

"Sam!" You hand the pup to him.

And shift back into your standard wolf form ("James, she is like me. Say nothing, take her back to the compound. Tell Maria what happened").

("What about you?!") He glares at you.

("I can get out on my own. Go! Don't let Zemo scape").

---

You fought your way out in human shape, you only shifted briefly to give orders to James. Of course Sharon, your main suspect fooled you in and captured you.

In the basement of her mansion she shocked you to the point of making you shift into wolf form.

"Grom Volk" your former master still laments her decision of killing you.

("Madame Hydra you meant").

("What is this bout Sharon? World domination? Just as pathetic as any Hydra head before. Revenge?").

"Being the good guy doesn't leave you with a lot of money. You should know".

You shift back into human "Yeah, no lies about that" Sharon has the decency to hurl a blanket at you.

"So, Flag-Smashers. You personal little army? Seems they got out of leash".

"They know my face. A liability".

You crack your neck and move around your shoulders. It was a good fight. Until Sharon ran you over with her nice car. Groaning you shift to seat cross legged with the blanket covering your low parts.

"The pup? What the hell where you doing with her".

"I call my innocence on that Volkov, I didn't know he had her. I seriously thought it was a dog".

Pinching the bridge of your nose you think your options "tell you what. I keep the pup, she is off all this-"

"No super soldiers, no shifter. So just like that I am left empty handed? I can't let them run around knowing who I am, the Carter name-"

"I help you deal with them. The pup is off limits, I'll be your on call executioner. Just keep who I really am our little dirty secret, just like I'll keep yours Power Broker".

---

One thing is the arrangement you and Sharon reached after a lot of discussion. Other thing is Madame Hydra coming into play unexpectedly and with her own blondie super soldier boy.

And what a good fight he put up. Luckily he and his sidekick are way too hot-headed and cocky. You fooled them easily and stole their jet. Valentina still sent executioners to terminate your stolen jet, and they shoot it down. The last thing the recorded was the exploding aircraft.

---

"Barnes! Wilson! What do you mean you left Volkov in Madripoor!" Maria shouts as she briskily walk up to Sam's truck. The kid, Aileen is her name got scared and shifted back to wolf pup again, which didn't go unnoticed by Maria. At the sight, her anger simmered... Now she gets it... Damned you.

James takes the fraightened pup on his arms and jumps down the vehicle.

"What the heck I'm gonna do with Y/N?" She sighed pinching the bridge of her nose.

The pup wiggled to be let down which Bucky hesitantly did, luckily the pup just went ahead and hesitantly sniffed around the Deputy Director, her tail begun to wag nervously at first then happily.

Maria crunched down and offered her hand, hey sweetie "I'm sorry for scaring you".

("Is ok, are you with big wolf. You have her smell on you") the kid asks making Maria chuckle at her quick thinking.

("Yes, I am her girlfriend. What is your name?") Maria asks mentally "Barnes do you have a blanket?"

Sam gives a soft smile handing over a blanket. They had to keep one close, the poor girl tends to easily be spooked and shifts constantly to wolf pup.

----

A week later Yelena, Alexei and Antonia rescue your sorry ass from Batam. You were washed to the shore, the language impediment was a nightmare. Luckily after two days drying your cellphone on rice, yes that old school trick. The elderly couple that found you gave you a charger compatible and you could call your extraction team.

Yelena laughs her ass off at the sight of you, left shoulder is on a makeshift swing, you have a huge gash on the side of your head, cuts and bruises all over. And overall you look miserable. You are hungry, in pain and pissed as heck.

Of course the elderly couple offered you food, and you are greatful. But is barely enough to keep you awake, your wounds can't heal quickly without proper amount of food and that was way more than what the couple could offer.

Yelena, gave the elderly couple a good amount of money for helping you out. You took the time to help them doing some improvements on their house while they arrived.

Ten fucking long days since the Madripoor fiasco, the aircraft lands on the Avengers tarmac. And you sigh in relief, which is cut short when you see Maria's pissed as fuck face.

"How about we go to mama's farm? you can still call wheels up" you say to your papa who chuckles "Huh, huh, huh woman up. Your wife requested your sister to bring your ass immediately".

Antonia, the little shit opened the door for Alexei to push you off, you simply got along landing and regretting it when your shoulder throbbed in pain.

"Sent her on a ash box Hill, takes less space" Alexei shouts before sliding shut the door as Yelena immediately takes off "traitors" you growl.

When you turn around you are face to face with commander Hill. Before you can utter an apology she slaps you HARD, the agents around and your sister standing a few feet behind hiss in mockery.

Your offended face is priceless "what was that for?!" You shout at your woman.

"For playing idiot. Idiot!" Maria shouts, she suddenly grabs you by the face and harshly pulls you in for a KISS. Your initial surprise vanishes and you grab the back of her neck pulling her impossibly closer, getting possesive.

When the lack of air becomes too much you pry away "that is what I was hoping... Now the whole troop know" you wiggle your eyebrows playfully but the cut on the left side begins to bleed and your stomach growls in hunger.

"Let's get you tended and fed".

---

Aileen the kid was so happy to see you, she jumped in your arms and hid her face on your neck "thank you for saving me". You smiled at her warmly, wrapping your right arm around her, the left was out of commission.

You saw the way Maria looked at your interaction closely with a warm grin. She later told you Aileen has been living under her care. The kid only knows her name, she thinks, knows she is six. Have no idea if she has parents. But after a DNA test, what you suspected came true, she is kind of your minemee, but her wolf form fur is a lighter shade of grey and grey-ish eyes. And your main suspect is Valentina, that woman. One day you will rip her throat off.

Aileen was such a sweet, easy kid. Of course the first month the Intel team tried to locate her parents, suspecting it was a kidnapped kid that got her DNA modified somehow with yours. But none.

A month with the kid was a little challenging, mostly due to the schedules. But the whole Avengers team stepped in even the Bishop kid, that is earning auntie points with the pup for Yelena's dismay.

Maria and you are lazyly enjoying the after sex bliss, Yelena, Kate as Wanda offered to take care of Aileen to give you and Hill alone time. But still in alone time your bedroom has the prints of the kid, her blanket on the lounge chair, her teddy plush bear on the vanity. And the middle of the bed smells like her, she usually asks you two to sleep between you.

"We should adopt her officially" Maria says as her short finger nails graze up and down your abs.

"What?" You groggily ask, her caresses were lulling you back to sleep.

Maria raises leaning on her right forearm "Aileen, she is such a big part of us now. We should adopt her, to be our daughter" you look up at her with a smile "So, Maria Hill are you asking me to start a bigger family with you?" Maria grins before leaning down to kiss you "is that a yes?" She enquires on your lips before tugging your lower lip playfully.

"Stay here, please" you say before quickly jumping off the bed to get into Aileen's room, yes it already was her room, now it will officially be hers.

"Volkov! Is a little late for the walk of shame!" Maria shouts playfully making you laugh, while you search for the item.

When you return Maria is giving appreciating looks, loving how your muscles move "yes off the meat Hill" you say with a teasing tone, left hand is hidden behind your back you extend your right hand helping her seat on the edge of the bed.

"Maria Hill, my love" you get in one knee "I know it might not be the ideal context. But this moment feels so ought to be. You are my greatest love, my port, my shelter, my strength and my inspiration to become the best version of me. You command my heart with such a brave and kind leadership. I don't wish for anyone else but YOU to call me theirs. You took me in and love me for who I am, forgave me for who I was. In you I found a sincere love, I met a gentle loving touch, thanks to you I know how high voltage can love be when your bare skin glades on mine" you kiss her knuckles softly "will you do me the greatest honor to become my wife and be the mommy of our child?".

Maria's tears begun to run freely since the first half of your speech and yet her smile was the most precious thing you've ever witnessed. You enjoy the several beats that she stays silent, no doubt se will says yes, she just needs to process.

"Will you recite such poetry to me?" She says with a smile smile.

"Every day if my queen wishes me to" you say kissing her knuckles again.

"I've had no doubt in my mind that you are the only one for me Y/N Volkov" Maria's hand shake as you put the beautiful diamond ring on her finger, she leans in while you put the ring to kiss your forehead and you swoon in happiness.

From there it was several rounds of electrifying sex, you loved how her ring grazed your skin with her caresses.

---

The next morning you two went to the Avengers compound, her ring was now on a necklace hidden under her clothes. You hoped it stayed like that. But Kate having an actual keen hawk eye didn't took long to see the glint of the ring. And the dopey idiots grin you two had weren't unnoticed by your sisters.

"Sestra what is with that idiot grins on your faces?" Yelena straight forward asked.

"Yelena said a bad word!" Aileen said with glee "pay up! Up!" She extended her tiny hand to the blonde who grumpily gave the kid a dollar bill.

Wanda, the little shit just grinned "Maria is that a new necklace?" Maria glared at the Sokovian mind reader.

Natasha eyes you suspiciously and her eyes rack you up and down searching, you casually showed her your ring less fingers. Well you had a couple, but they were your usual black Damascus thumb rings and the wolf head in your index that Kate gifted you with a "I saw it, thought it was badass and you are kind of a wolf too, so" she whispered the last before giving it to you.

When your redhead sister found nothing on you she looked at Maria at the same time Wanda asked her about the necklace.

"I don't know what you are talking about Maximoff" Maria defended.

"You know I can read minds, right?" The twins shared a complicity look, damned Wanda she told Pietro already.

Pietro flashed you his best mischievous smirk before opening his big mouth "I bet the celebration got wild, right Y/N/N?".

Yelena shared a look with Kate who expressed her thoughts whispering in her ear, her surprised face was comedy worth it "Wait a second. Idiot grins plastered in your faces, you asked us to babysit the kid, take this kid. I'm about to say more" Yelena gave Aileen a 20 bill "You fucking idiots got engaged!".

You groan in annoyance, idiots, you live with worldclass idiots. You can't hide shit like this from spies, assassins, two idiots and a mind reader.

Maria only shakes her head and shows off the ring on her military tags necklace.

"Congrats idiots. Like you could hide that from us" Natasha said with her damned loopsided smirk.

"pay up auntie Nat!".

---

The wedding itself was small and private. Nick, the Avengers team, your Russian family, Antonia with her now officially girlfriend Lerato, Kate and her mom. Of course Aileen was there.

You two were meaning to adopt Aileen right away but, you two decided to give Aileen the chance to choose. All the Avengers loved and cared for the kid. She obviously had an inclination to be with Maria and you. But you don't wished to impose.

However life rolled around, missions came and go. Things with Flag-Smashers scaleted, which you needed and predicted. You couldn't erase them while they were seen as heroes, a martyr is not easy to erase.

But it didn't took more than eight months for their will to falter under the public pressure of being the heroes. Sharon did her part reeling Morguenthau and Valentina did her part with his blonde excuse of super soldier.

You had to be very careful on this volatile chess game. But even with all the work and missions you three, Maria, Aileen and you became closer. A small tight family, you personally trained the kid to control her powers and taught her fighting skills to defend herself.

Maria found adorable seeing you two in wolf shape, sometimes training, sometimes just hanging around specially in full moon, others just cuddling. Of course Hill did her best at being a mom, agent and directive. Aileen had no issue hanging out with her at her office.

As things scalated, your rivalry with Karli got worse.

The international organization begun pressuring the Flag-Smashers pushing Karli to get violent, showing off their power. Her last stunt was way too public and costed a lot of lives.

Nick turn off the t.v of his office "we are close to have them were you suggested".

"I don't like this Nick. But that Blondie soldier fucked up everything".

"Sam and James were so close" Nick half laments.

Your cellphone rings showing the logo of Flag-Smashers you raise your eyebrow and answer *What do you want Morguenthau?* You put the speaker on.

*Grom Volk, you better not get on my way. It would be a shame for your pup to get hurt*

Your jaw tightens in anger *Karli, Karli. You aren't one to threaten me. And I suggest you don't even try to mess with my pack. I know no mercy*.

*Stop getting in the middle of my plans then. Your deal with Power Broker-*

*Still stands, surrender Karli. We can work this out. You are one step from no return. You used to be better than a simple terrorist*.

---

Karli didn't listened, too young and confused. The submit was a disaster. Not only the remaining Flag-Smashers, Valentina's people got on the mix. The whole Avengers team went in even Yelena and Kate that didn't listened to stay off.

You went in to get your part of the deal done, while Aileen stayed safe by Nick's and Maria's side at the compound.

"Morgenthau!" You shout as you run up to her, she already scaped Sam's last try to stop her. By her recent stunt you know she is far too gone.

You get into a fight with her, but the last person you needed comes in, Walker. The asshole teams up with Morgenthau against you.

"I'm SO fucking done with you dude" you throw a punch fully charged making him fly off the building.

Karli got her hand in another handgun, the two of you stand face to face guns drawn on each other.

You let a breathy chuckle, Karli empties her magazine on you and you simply built up high voltage static to reduce the bullets to dust "Poor thing. Never, ever threaten a family of someone than can be merciless kid" you fire several shots, the silencer on your gun barely makes any sound. The young woman falls on the floor and begins to drag herself away from you, Sharon walks from behind you.

"She is Power Broker!" The kid tries her last card.

"Tell me something I didn't know" you say with a shrug.

Sharon looks at you then at the panicked kid "We have a deal Grom Volk" you nod and holster back the untraceable gun to grab your usual one "and a deal we have" you fire a last shot on her chest.

"What about Walker?" Carter asks looking the last breath leave the kid "such a shame".

"We had a deal Volkov".

"Present time Sharon".

"Steve insisted in arresting the others soldiers" she points out grimacing at the pain on the gun shot she got courtesy of Karli.

You nod holstering back your gun "I have that covered. Before you are in your nice penthouse, the job will be done".

"You have open pass to the compound. No one but Nick and I know your alter ego" you point at her gun shot wound.

She nods *Volkov, I heard gun shots. Do you have Karli?*

*She is dead cap. She shot Agent 13*

---

Everything goes hitch less when the police was taking the captured super soldier to custody the next day vehicle exploded, terminated them. It wasn't your doing per se. But you gave Baron Zemo the means.

You were with Sharon on her hospital room at the compound when the news were talking about the assesination.

"Impressive, I take our friend in common had his hand on this?".

You simply nod, Sharon gives you a friendly smile and offers you her hand to shake "word for a word Grom Volk".

----

The next years you were truth to your word. You were an executioner for Power Broker. Luckily Sharon, listened and her path to world domination was casted aside for money and power. Fury was up to date on everything, feeling a little at ease knowing Madripoor was mostly under Carter's control.

Aileen truly thrives with your's and Hill's care, as soon as she had full control on her shifting abilities she started school. And man the kid was brilliant.

The kid became a Volkov-Hill a couple of months after the Flag-Smashers were terminated. Tony and Pepper got everything arrenged and the sign of papers was at the compound.

Lee like you all call her now was super excited, she was shy to call you mama and Maria mom, but now that it was official she couldn't stop calling you both her moms.

Yelena, Natasha and the Maximoffs were already her aunts and uncles. Kate chocked in feels when Lee called her aunt too since she was officially Yelena's girlfriend.

Hate to admit the kid was a prodigy at fighting, keen senses, inhuman reflexes of course. She was absolutely good in everything sports and training related. Just for the sake of her being safe, you and Maria trained her. At ten she knew how to fire weapons and identify danger.

Her wolf form was big, she was almost three quarters your size at ten. Her thunder powers were powerful enough to zap the actual god of thunder at just ten years old.

But even with all the craziness around she was a kid. She was sweet, but hot-headed at times. Stubborn as heck and Kate's and Yelena's influence didn't helped much on that field but, Maria and you wouldn't change that for anything. You love your kid as she is.

What was quite surprising for everyone was first: Natasha and James end up rekindling their relationship, especially after a mission they found a baby that turned out to be born from their genetics. They named him Steve, Stevie as everyone calls him. Aileen was eight when this happened and she loved his cousin dearly.

Turns out that laboratory where Stevie was found had several genetic material from your Widow sisters, which made you angry as heck. They sterilezed them but kept their genetics for their wicked ends. You were about to go all war mode when Maria and Nick calmed you down.

Second was that even when they had quite the rocky relationship, not because lack of love. It was jus that Kate and Yelena had such strong personalities that they tended to clash, hard. But they loved each other dearly. When Aileen was ten, Stevie two. Kate decided to surprise Yelena.

And what a surprise, she begged Helen and Banner for help and she managed to conceive a baby, half Yelena and half her. In Yelena's words it was the best birthday present she ever had.

A very worried Eleanor Bishop called you to meet her at Bishop Security. Kate is already an active Avenger and now she is pregnant and mama Bishop was beyond worried, happy but, worried for her daughter and granddaughter safety.

"Mrs. Bishop, I can assure you. No one will ever hurt your daughter, not easily that is. My little sister loves your daughter to death. And I consider her my family too. I give you my word".

The woman smiles greatfuly at you but her face turns pensive and a little sour as she takes a sip of her own drink. "Do you think I did wrong? Letting her follow her Avenger dream?" The woman wondered outloud "I'm not getting any younger, and this company, it was meant to be Kate's".

You offer her a little time taking a drag of the cigar in your right hand as you swirl the offered vodka with your left.

"Your daughter is one of the best agents I've worked with, as quick thinker as her mouth-" Eleanor guffaws at your comment, she tries to hide her wide grin behind her hand, you only grin and take another drag of the cigar

"In all seriousness, she is really good and keeps improving, compassionate. She now carries the Hawkeye mantle. IT wasn't a mistake, she loves her job... If you are worried for the company future. Fear not, Kate is very aware that someday she will own and direct this. This is her legacy too".

"In the mean time if you ever need help Yelena and I wouldn't mind a couple of extra coins" your crooked grin makes the woman snort again.

"You Russians, all business".

---

How much you wish to sometimes just follow your gut and kill your enemies when you can.

A very worried Kate just called you telling you that Walker is stalking them, she is six months pregnant now and she has Aileen and Stevie with her. You told her to stay calm but keep aware. They were supposed to be having a fun and relaxed day in central park. Earlier, Mrs. Bishop took your word from the conversation a couple of months ago and requested your input for some jobs the company was taking.

Luckily you were already close when Kate's call came through your earbud, you give all the speed to your bike, you just skid to a halt the closest to were Kate and the Rugrats are. You run the rest of the way to intercept the now called US Agent. Maria is already sending backup.

"Walker!" You shout putting yourself between him and Kate.

"Grom Volk the Mauler" he says with a smirk "I come with a message, surrender your pup. And she keeps hers" the blonde quickly draws his gun on Kate and you literally growl at him.

"Oh? Did I made the dog mad?" He tauntingly says. With your experienced years and refined senses you hear the actual amount of agents he has, and knowing De la Fountain... Is gonna be a shit show.

"Is your mouth big only because of your backup? Last time you weren't that cocky".

You take off your cellphone, necklace, bike keys and hand it to your daughter, her hand shakily takes the items. Last but no least you give her your handgun "do not engage, got it?" You dare a glance back and the kid nods as she ties the holster to her hip.

You shift into your standard wolf white eyes sparkling dangerously. You hear Kate's collapsible bow setting in.

("KATE NO").

("KATE YES") she answers in your mind you look at her walking up to be standing beside you with a cheeky smile and arrow ready and pointed at a target behind Walker.

You growl at her in annoyance ("I give you an open, you and the kids run") you see hesitation in her eyes ("do it for your unborn baby and Yelena, please") she nods finally but she is still ready to fight.

("Aileen grab Stevie") luckily your daughter doesn't hesitate to obey, Stevie clings to her like a little monkey, you can smell the fear emanating from him and you feel awful, no kid should go through this.

The fight brakes out, and you manipulate the electricity and static beyond your body to keep them all safe. You know how accurate and good Kate is, so you keep your attention on Walker and the other agents daring to come too close.

Bullets do nothing to you and Walker gets into close combat, you claw at him several times. A couple of agents try to sneak behind John's attacks to grab your daughter. But you ram them away with your body fully charged ("Run! Now").

You keep between the attackers and your family when you are close to Kate's BMW SUV a bullet wheezes past you but you fry it before it hits Kate. Immediately you turn around and protect then with a static bubble, you dart your eyes and ears around to locate the sniper ("eleven o'clock, third floor").

("I can't hit it, is too far") you nod and begin to gather energy.

("I'll fry them up close, and shield you with my biggest form. Run to your vehicle and drive away. I'll be right behind you").

It goes as planned, you shield them with your biggest shape, as they run you but in the frenzy you lost Walker.

By pure reflex you saw the glinting of a knife and the scream from Aileen alerted you of the danger way too close to them.

When walker tried to swing his hunting knife at Kate's front. You jumped in tackling him off. On the rolling away he latched to your fur and blindly stabbed you on the belly. You growled and zapped him away. A vehicle tried to crash against the BMW but you jumped in and crashed your body against it before. Kate took the chance and revived the engine to drive away.

You tried to jump up to the roof of the car but Walker pounced on your back stabbing you on the back in the start of your upper back barely missing your spine by two inches, his falling body end up slashing all the way along your back. This time you growled in agony loosing your grip on the vehicle, as both of you fell off the BMW you let off a massive discharge that even knocked you out briefly on the asphalt. Luckily Kate put themselves first and drove away.

The sound of screeching tires woke you up. You saw Walker on the floor, no heartbeat. Raising up was a challenge, with blurry eyes you saw Kate's retreating vehicle, but two other non shield vans got right behind them. No time to lick your wounds. You tumbled a little but you raised up to get rid of the vehicles.

You had to be careful to not cause civilian fatalities which earnt you several wounds: a vehicle running over you, a bus impacted you and a couple of gunshots. But in the end you scorted Kate's vehicle along other two shield SUVs up to the compound.

Steve, Natasha, Bucky, Sam and Pietro took care of the remaining attackers in central park and along the way. Your sister wired the motorcycle to use it.

As the small convoy reached the compound you begun to shrink back to your usual size. Maria was right by the main lobby waiting for you all with a medical team. Kate called her on the way and told her what she could see.

With wobbly legs you made it to the lobby and collapsed belly down. It has been a long time since you fought in wolf shape and used your powers like that.

Maria had a hard time keeping up her profesional persona. She prioritized your daughter, Kate's and Stevie's wellbeing, making sure they were fine before going to your side.

But Aileen had other plans as soon as Stevie was in Maria's arms and handed her the items you give her, she shifted to hurry to go to your side and nuzzle against you licking your face worriedly. You did your best to rub your muzzle against her to apeace her.

The medical team lowered an stretcher by your left side, with a last ditch of effort you raised barely enough to collapse on the stretcher sighing in relief at the comfyness.

Maria finally came by your side "is ok Y/N. They will take good care of you" you noded and licked her hand before the medical team rolled you away.

---

Four hours later Yelena's aircraft landed on the tarmac, she simply strolled in, in search of her wife. She found her with her mother Eleanor by her side. Kate seeing her panicked state behind the guarded look, she raised up and let Yelena have a good look at her.

"Thank God. You okey?" Yelena says craddling her wife face gently pulling her down to kiss her forehead. On the side Eleanor just smiled at the sight, she might not always see eye to eye with the blonde Widow but, there's no doubt her daughter is loved.

"My sestra, where is she?" Yelena asked looking around in a borderline frantic way.

Maria was walking in when she heard Yelena "She is okay. She is out still, Helen put her down to avoid she moving around much" coming closer she gave Yelena a gentle squeeze on her bicep, trying to ease her down.

"She protected me from getting stabbed" Kate said kissing Yelena's head lacing her hands tightly.

"The Rugrats?"

Eleanor walks close and puts a gentle hand on Yelena's shoulder "Darling why don't you just sit and take a breath? Kate is fine, the little troop is fine, your sister had medical treatment. She is good now.

"I-sure, ok" the Widow relents, Kate directs Yelena to a chair and both sit down leaning on each other. A couple of minutes later Antonia walked in with Yelena's mission bag, she told her to stay. They will take the others back to the farm.

Antonia asked Maria to just let her see you, and she accepted.

Aileen pup form yipped excitedly at the sight of the Widow.

("Tonia!")

"Hey pup! She kneeled down to hug the little shifter "taking care of your mama?”

("Yes! Will she be ok?") She asks the last with a wobbly voice.

"She will, she is one of the strongest women I've ever known and she trained me when I was a kid" she winked playfully. Antonia went ahead and ran a gentle hand through your fur before leaving, not without hugging little puppy Aileen tightly.

It took you a week to recover from the largest wound, well recover to a point where you could move around without feeling like being thorn apart. You had to stay in your wolf form, which was the best thing for the kids, funny as heck for the team and not so fun to Maria, who just wanted to kiss you, she enjoyed the cuddling though and playing with the soft-velvet wolf ears.

Kate, being Kate was so happy of you being in wolf form. She and Yelena weren't stopping anytime soon on thanking you for keeping them safe. Truth to be said you enjoyed cuddling your head against Kate's belly feeling the baby's feet and hand pushing against you and hearing her strong little heartbeat.

Now back in your human self Nick called you to his office.

"Given that the public knows who you are and Valentina knows you are alive. Is up to you if you keep your powers hidden still".

And you didn't, it was a waste of power for missions, you were now known as Thunder Wolf basically and obviously your original code name but now I'm English. You are now an official Avenger. But the greatest thing about this was the pride in Aileen's eyes "my aunts and uncles are Avengers, my mama is one too and my mom is their boss".

---

Things with Maria have it's ups and downs specially when it involves certain off grid jobs for Power Broker... Like is really hard to fool Maria, she is a great spy for a reason, your soul aches and dies a little everytime you have to deceive her to do what it has to be done. But you remember you are doing it for your daughter and for Maria.

Nick trusts you completely to handle this side missions. And usually you are able to pair them or make them simultaneously to helping out Yelena at freeing Widows.

As Aileen has grown older it has been a little easier to have alone time with Maria, alone time as in to have glorious sex marathons. Specially when the kid sleeps at a friend's house or she stays with her cousins. At fifteen she even babysits Wanda's twin sons, who are an adorable mayhem. They are three years old now. Other times she goes to Tony's house to nerd hard with Morgan.

The house is silent safe from the loud and unashamed pleasure screams scaping Maria's mouth. You took her to a fancy dinner, at your return to the house your wife surprised you with a jaw-dropping set of lingerie. Like a predator, after admired her you went to attack, you fucked her senseless is was a little rough you left hyckies all over her skin, her nipples are deliciously sore. And her pussy is already over sensitive and swollen from the endless make out sessions. Hill didn't let you get off easily, at some point she handcuffed you to a chair and gave you the sexiest and dirtiest lapdance ever, your back is deliciously scratched, hickeys? Maria never holds back your neck is a constellation, that she loves to take pictures of, due to you enhanced healing they usually heal way too fast for her liking.

The dark haired woman is stretched over you, her left bare leg over your hips, her breasts on yours. Blissfully naked and a little sticky with sweat, but Maria claimed being to sore to stand a shower, and too comfy to ditch this moment for a bath. And who are you to disobey your queen?

"Darling, Aileen is dangerously setting her mind on becoming an Avenger" she plants several kisses on your sternum before looking at you.

You sigh in defeat you try to reach out for the half smoked cigar but Maria stops your right hand with her left intertwining your fingers with a gentle firm grip.

"Talk to me" Maria rubs her thumb over the back of your hand.

"Is not that I don't want her. She is absolutely powerful and a excellent fighter. I just-" you sigh again in a little frustration "I don't want her life attached to this because she knows nothing better".

"The things we see, the things we do... I'm pretty sure Kate regrets it sometimes. People calls us heroes and yet they have no idea of the villainous, atrocious things we must do when the cameras aren't focused on us to keep them safe".

You feel her nodding her head before she sets her face on your skin "where's the kid that just wanted to be a UFC pro and a rockstar?" Maria says with a fond smile.

---

Even with the ups and downs Aileen was a raising MMA star. The kid was dangerous on the mats and the octagon. Maria and you supported her completely, Tony being the eccentric uncle even equiped the gym were she trained with the best of best. She had to wear a power damper but still she was a prodigy.

You and Maria made sure she had a private coach to work on her skills. Your wife and you couldn't be more proud of the kid, she was an excellent student, a soaring athlete and yes, she still had that rockstar dream floating around, she is an excellent bass player, she has the keen ear obviously and a powerful singer. Like she can pull off a Lzzy Hale or sing clean voice beautifully.

Usually you blast rock and metal on your car which has been quite bonding for the two of you, while Maria pretends she hates it, she loves it. Which makes Aileen laugh, her mom supposedly don't like rock and Metal but is the first at buying tickets for concerts.

When she is set to do gigs you and Maria go, if by any major reason your can't always at least one of the team go. Usually is Nat, Yelena or Wanda, Kate tags along with anyone that goes.

If someone had told you that after all you've been through. Life will give you a beautiful badass wife and an amazing daughter you wouldn't have believe it. But is true.

----

Aileen's manager thought it would be a good idea to engage social media platforms. The young fighter uploads videos of her training sessions, cooking her meals, sometimes even some of the Avengers join her making her comment section light up.

Today is the third time you joined her. The two of you decided to hit the climbing wall on the training facilities of the compound. Both of you with cargo pants and sports bra.

Aileen's friends were the ones recording the shenanigans you both pulled off. First you got along Aileen's standard training with her coaches before finally hitting off the climbing wall.

You both got into several rounds of racing up trying to defeat the other but youth versus experience was proving to be quite the tie.

"Come on Lee! Your mama is kicking your ass" her friends were teasing both of you but specially Lee since she was too self assure she could easily win... Boy she was wrong. Even with power damperer.

You playfully flex your arms "Decades in the making pup" you tease her "Besides this is easy cake comparing it to climbing a treacherous rock side with full battle gear on".

"Let's spice it up" Aileen said with a smirk "we put weighted vests and see who hits the clock faster".

You smile broadly at her, you gotta give it to her she has confidence "if I win, you cook and do laundry for a month".

"Easy, done" she says excitedly.

You wear a 70lb vest and Aileen a 35lb.

The first to go is Aileen who breaks the record by 35 seconds. She lets herself fall celebrating a presumably easy win.

"Come on mama Wolf, show her who is the boss!" Her friends had their money on you, the little shits.

You get yourself ready and as soon as the whistle is blown you move. With strength and agility you climb up faster than Aileen with ten seconds left you playfully hang with your left arm to show off with a playful hang loose sign you smirk at your daughter before pressing the timer botton with two seconds to spare.

"HELL YES!" Some of her friends shout in glee.

Is dinner time, courtesy of Aileen cooking when you see her flexing her face in disgust.

Maria quickly asks her what's wrong and the girl just pouts "nothing is just. I'm pretty used to people commenting on 'how hot' I look" she says with quote marks "but is quite disturbing when they say that about your mother".

You raise a curiously eyebrow and motion her to lend you her phone, she hesitantly does and your begin to scroll down the comments, they are priceless.

'mama wolf rail me'

'you lucky gal, sexiest mom alive you got there'

'is it me or the scars make mama Volkov hotter?'

'i bet her strap game is strong, Mrs. Volkov I respectfully ask you to rail me against the wall'

You completely loose it a that last one you read, you laugh a little more and recite Maria that epic comment.

"What's your connoceur opinion at that last comment Mrs.Hill?" You ask with a smirk.

Maria gives you a mischievous smile "out of ten? I'll give you a twenty darling"

"Oh god no! I don't wanna hear this. I'm out" Aileen gets impossibly red, snatches her phone out of your hand "enough ego stroking"

You only give her a loop sided grin.

"You know what, forget it. I'm sleeping at Aunt Yelena's place".

----

And right know sparring with your daughter feels surreal. Both of you wear power dampers, to relay fully on your skill. She is eighteen barely an inch shorter than Maria, you still have borderline three inches more but the kid has you on your toes.

Kate, Yelena and Natasha are outside the ring coaching both of you. The little ones are on Aileen's side "kick her butt Lee!" Tommy shouts at the top of his lungs making you chuckle. They might be nonblood cousins, but sometimes they act more like siblings.

Oh the beauty of youth. Aileen has fast punches. But the her danger resides on the fact that her style shifts along the fight she can be stoic and brutal, evasive and graceful like her widow aunts.

And the ultimate proof is how she ends you. You see it coming Natasha's Widow iconic move, but she uses it like Yelena. She just hauls you against the wire cage. Before you can react she jumps on your shoulders, grabs you by the neck with her legs and flips you with the momentum. You smack on the floor hard, she doesn't let go of her hold and tightens. You try rolling to stand but she rolls with you, like a crocodile. You could only tap out before you pass out.

"YES!" Morgan, Billy and Tommy shouted at the top of their lungs.

You raspily chuckled sprawled on the mat, your pup indeed kicked your ass.

"Still alive?" Yelena asks hovering with a wide smirk.

Aileen was kneeling by your right looking at you with a nervous and yet proud smile. She tapped your stomach "you ok mama?".

In a sudden move you pull the young woman to you to hug her tightly "Man, I've never been happier at getting my ass hurled to the floor".

"Volkov! Don't smother my daughter before her big fight" Maria shouts strolling in.

The two of you laugh "Nah I just strangled her she can't scape ME anymore" Aileen said with a cheeky grin.

"You little shit" you grumbled as she helped you raising up.

"My dear sestra, you are getting old" Yelena said patting your back forcibly, you glared at her "put on your gloves little shit".

Kate cut in quickly getting between you too "No, no, no, no. Enough you two. I don't want my wife all banged up tomorrow, we must slay that front row".

The rest of the day was all recovery for Aileen, tomorrow night is her first big stellar fight.

Big fight, big crowd. The whole A-team and troop was there at front row. Courtesy of Tony. While the others enjoyed the fights Maria and you were on the prep room with Aileen. The kid was over excited and buzzing with energy, you are pretty sure that if it wasn't for her power damper she would have electricity running over her skin.

She is restless even when the coach tells her to chill out she is ready. Maria goes to her and gently holds her shoulders "Love, you are ready, you are one of the best, just think is your mama there and kick her ass".

"Hey!" Your smile shifts into offended mode making Aileen and the coach crew laugh.

Before Maria and you leave to take your seats you two hug and kiss the kid in the head wishing her the best.

You lean forehead to forehead with her "You got this mor grom shchenok give em hell".

Maria and you exit hand to hand the locker room, you offer her your arm in a chivalrous manner. Like you know she rocks the shit out of her high heels, but you love how she walks flush to you when your arms are interlocked.

The roar of the public when Aileen "Thunder Punch" Volkov-Hill is called to the octagon is deafening. Truly electrifying.

You see her stepping in with so much focus and confidence. Man you couldn't be prouder, and your smile tells it all. Maria interlocks your fingers and you can feel her pride. When you take the chance to look at her you see her looking at the kid with so much pride.

"You got this Lee!" The tiny twins, Stevie, Stella and Morgan shout at the top of their lungs.

"Kick her ass Lee!" Tommy shouts right after making everyone around laugh.

"That's twenty to the swear jar!" Steve says with a wink. Like you all doesn't give much a damn about the kids saying a bad word once in a while, none of you are better.

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Sorry fellas. Anyone interested on the follow up of the story?

[lonewolfwrittenuniverses]

Thunder Wolf

Maria Hill x wolfshifter!reader.

Summary: reader is a kid raised between Hydra and Red Room lines. She saw at least two generations of Widows graduate from the program. Madame Hydra's favorite pet.

Would reader be able to build a normal life?

⚠️ Trigger warning: mentions of wounds, torture. Standard warnings.

Enjoy! Feedback is very welcomed.

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Some would say that life can be an adventure, full of adrenaline, tragedy. But yours? You've covered all possible bases with an tad add of madness.

You don't have memories of a family, as you grew older some kids you lived with told you you arraived to small to the school. Barely a two year old, but there was something special about you. Training and lessons, many years of blood and tears smeared on the floor. The school you were in was a ballet one but, for some reason you weren't taught dancing. You were taught to fight and survival. At some point the other kids joined you on this lessons, but while they were instructed to dancing you were taken to a laboratory.

That's when you met a woman that became a somewhat mother to you. Melina, she was a scientist. She did a bunch of tests specially when you were on your animal shape. A wolf, well you were a pup so your size was a medium dog. They wanted to duplicate that ability of yours.

The worse was when Melina wasn't around, the other scientists were cruel.

You truly have no idea how many years you were on the Red Room. You saw at least two generations of Black Widows rise. You weren't one of them you were their dear Grom Volk, Thunder Wolf.

It's been at least two decades since the last time you spent time with Melina or went on a mission with her. The last time you somewhat knew of her was a little over a decade ago.

For some reason Madame Hydra left you on this facility since half a year ago, which is odd you used to be her main bodyguard. Your shifting ability allows you to pass as her exotic pet. Every few months a chopper comes and throws some food an essentials for you and the rest of the guards but, usually you go to hunt.

Tonight you are lazyly lying on the rooftop of the facility. The full moon shining brightly, you are enthralled by it. Full moon leaves you restless, small cracks of lighting scape your claws when you tap them against the concrete.

Taking your eyes off the bright satellite, your eyes scan the wooden perimeter, at first everything seems normal. Until you catch some odd movement. You quickly shift back to your human form and call for a status report of the agents, seemingly nothing out of normal. But, something is wrong... You tell them to keep alert and choose to investigate yourself. Jumping out of the building you shifted back into wolf form and barely made any sound. Now on the ground you quickly catched three unknown scents. And you growled in annoyance, bunch of incompetent guards you will bite their asses before requesting an exchange.

It didn't took long to locate the three women, one tall, two average. One of them smelled different, powerful. The other smelled... that smell, you got that smell somewhere else, it might be a traitor. You tuned your ears to pick up their exchange through comms.

"Hill, we got the intel. Maximoff found something else there's an enhanced, we need to get away fast".

If Madame Hydra finds about your failure she will skin you alive. You gather energy and grow up your form to double size, you weren't small to begin with being a northwestern wolf. And now you are the size of a nightmare.

Picking up speed you go around the taller one and block her path.

*Guys, if by enhanced you mean a massive wolf with sparkling white eyes. Is standing right in front of me* Maria can't help but admire the fur on the giant wolf grey and black like a raging storm.

("I suggest you three surrender, and handover the Intel you stole") she hides her surprise at the voice in her head, she is kind of used to by now thanks to Wanda.

*We are going for you* Romanoff says on her earpiece.

What you didn't know was that one of them went for the quinjet, while the other came running to the rescue. You heard the person coming, so you went to attack the one in front of you.

For your surprise she was agile and a good shooter, but your quick healing made it useless. The bleeding stopped immediately and years of training meant you didn't even felt the wounds, she would need better placement of her shots.

*Maximoff any time now, would be helpful* she shouted while she dodged your claw that end up stuck on the bark of a tree. The woman sprinted away and you yanked your claws back to pounce at the agent to end her when a force pushed you off against a tree. Rolling a couple of times you stand up and snarl at the other woman. She has some red smoke surrounding her hands.

"Come with us, we can help you".

("I don't need your help, I have my orders")

You go again against them.

"Hill! Go, I will stop them" Wanda orders and leaps to meet you half way.

----

You gotta admit, that brunette with red powers is one of the most powerful beings you have fought against. And for your shame she is managing to run away. While you fought she caught your knee with a boulder and you can barely make it move. Even when you called your agents she decimated them like flies.

*Wanda! Protect yourself I'm firing from the back gate*

You see their airplane hovering above, there's no way she can jump that high.

The shooting begins, and your get a little slower dodging in zig zag the shots. But that woman is a good shooter, she caught you a couple of times. Enraged you set off an electrical shockwave that burns her incoming rain of bullets, and you see the brunette raising up using her powers.

On a last ditch effort you use all your strength to jump up your sharp teeth latch on the end on the metal gate rattling the entire aircraft. You quickly scramble to latch with your claws and begin to hike up. When the brunette enhanced makes the mistake of stepping on the metal gate you electrocute her unconscious, Madame Hydra would enjoy having her on her ranks.

The woman on the cock pit begins to do some evasive manoeuvres but you latch to the metal panels like your life depended on it *Hill! Shoot them down!"

You try to pounce on the one they call Hill, but when the pilot turns around your brain freezes... Natalia? Is that- red energy blasts you against the aircraft side panel. Your body doesn't even touch the floor when is flung away like garbage out of the jet. The last image you have is Natalia's panicked green eyes.

"Bad dog!" Wanda sneers as she allows herself to collapse on the floor.

---

"Wake her up" a voice orders. The agents throw iced cold water on the wolf chained to the floor. The wolf's white bright eyes open with confusion.

Your master heeled boots is the first thing you see before she crouches. Letting you see her face "oh my dear Volk Grom. So many years of service. Remind me, why you got this scar?" She says caressing your muzzle her thumb running over the jagged scar that runs from the top of the bridge on your nose across your lips.

"I allowed Romanova scape" the woman hums "and guess what you just did again? This time she stole highly sensitive intelligence".

("Ma'am I didn't know it was her. I tried to stop them, they brought the enhanced, Maximoff-").

"Did you?!" She asks cutting you off at your confused expression she elaborates "did you stopped them?".

"No ma'am".

"I am a woman of word, unlike you. I warned you" her pristine nails dig deep on the skin of your muzzle, she stands up and walks to the exit door "Do not worry, I will make a good coat out of your fur. I might even give it to Vostokoff as a present".

---

Maria curses all the wrong intel collected by Tony that led her to this disastrous mission. She has no back up near. She is in the middle of Canada during winter, fucking cold. She has been running away from several Hydra squads for a week. No signal, the winter storms blocking off any chance of communication.

The temperature is getting lower, she opts to try to find a small cave where she can shelter from the cold winds.

Huge is her surprise, when she enters a small cave and blood smell assault her nose. At first she wants to backtrack and run the heck away, she can't afford to waste bullets. The only thing she can see is a huge lump laying on the stone, labored breath. Slowly she beings to shuffle back.

---

You are lying on the cold stone floor on a cave, Madame Hydra goons are stupid they were supposed to kill you and they only left you halfway to death. But they literally skinned you while you were outcold. You spent an agonizing month regrowing your skin on the abandoned facility, by now you have most of your fur. Took the chance and scaped the facility. Your wounds were infected your body put everything into regrowing the skin.

A faint sound of shuffling puts you on high alert. Then the smell, gunpowder. With a lot of effort you barely open your left eye and you see a human silhouette, by the sound a gun is trained on you.

("Riddle the skull with bullets") your voice is strained and groggy.

"What?" The woman looks around trying to find someone else inside the cave.

"Is anyone here?" She asks lowly eyes darting around.

("Me, the wolf dying on the floor") you answer again.

"Thunder Wolf?" She asks with disbelief, you hear her walking up to you with more confidence. The Intel they recovered also had some about you. Natasha was feeling bad, you were like a sister to her and she left you again.

("Now, I feel bad. You know my name. I don't yours") you grunt trying to raise you head, but fail you just lay back down with a whimper. ("Will you tell me, before you kill me?") You ask your voice getting weaker you ran a lot to make it up to this place.

"I'm not here to kill you. I am actually running away from two Hydra squads".

("Shame, I could use a couple of bullets in the head").

Maria kneels down close to your head, you feel her covering your eye as she shines her tactical lamp on the low setting, her breath hitches a little at the sight of fresh and dried blood soaking your fur.

"What happened?".

("No longer useful to my former master. But their goons couldn't kill me").

"Maria Hill"

("Y/N Volkov")

---

After some assessment from Maria, not that she could do much. She end up curling on your stomach to keep warm by your insistence. It hurted like a bitch at first when she put her weight on your body, but you said nothing wrapping your tail around her trying to give her more warmth.

Two days later, now you know that because Maria has some gadgets. You hear movement on the woods.

("Hill. I hear people") as soon as Maria raises up you do too ("they are far enough. But we need to go, now"). The two of you silently walk to the entrance. But Maria's boots make some sound, no doubt the scrunch of boots through the snow and the prints will sell out both of you.

("Hill. Get on my back. I know somewhere where we can lay low. They have signal").

"Are you crazy?!" She hisses lowly close to your face.

("Shut up and do as I say") you glare at her you bright white wolf eyes running through her soul.

----

In the end Maria did as you said. It hurted like crazy when her weight settled on your back and held onto your fur making your still sensitive skin burn. But you barely grunted ("lay across my back, or you will end up with frost bite").

With a quick walk you put a half mile distance before you begun picking up speed. Some of your wounds begun opening up, the cold luckily made the blood cloat quickly before it fell to the pristine white snow. Still you ran through the snow.

By night time you made it to the farm. A cattle farm "Are you sure is safe for you?" Hill asks the cattle doesn't seem faced by your wolf form and their guard dogs look actually excited to see you.

("Owner good man. He fed me after I saved his dogs from a wolf pack. He wanted to take me to a vet. I ran away").

You limp heavily and your body wobbles. Maria end up somewhat supporting your weight on your right side. Until you made it to the barn and collapsed by the hen stack.

The guard dogs came running first licking your face and muzzle like over excited pups. You barely grunted in annouyance some of them end up jumping and booping you with their snout making your body ache.

Maria was about to walk to the house when a man walked in, the dogs immediately moved back. He saw the gun on Maria's hand and the blood on your fur "did you shot it?!" He shouted aiming his riffle at the unknown person.

"No, no. I-she guided me here. I was lost in the woods" she easily lies, *she was already hurt when she found me" she says holstering back her gun raising her hands to show she means no harm.

"Her? My god, I thought it was a male. She is huge. I'm Adam by the way" he extends his right hand with a warm smile "sorry for aiming my gun on you".

She shakes his hand "Nice to meet you Adam, I'm Maria. I understand. Would you mind if I call some friends to pick us up? I can get her the best medical care possible".

"No problem, let me get you some blankets for her. You can spend the night inside the house".

"Thank you, but if you don't mind I can stay with her here. My friends should be here in the morning".

----

*Maria are you sure? My mother was sent a coat made of Y/N's fur a week ago. She is dead* Natasha says with her voice almost cracking.

*Nat, I'm no joking I'm with her. She is awfully wounded, needs medical asap*.

*See you in a few hours*.

Truth to her words Natasha, Wanda, Clint and medical team were at the farm right when the sun was raising. They came with new blankets for the man that helped you two.

The redhead walked to were you lay and kneeled in front of your face "Hey sis, I'm sorry. This time I will help you" Natasha says to you softly in Russian, leaning down she lays her forehead on yours, by now you are so exhausted that you barely open your eyes to see her blurry face. But that green gaze, no doubt is Nat. If the people you hear around are with her, then you can trust. While medical team made initial assessment. Natasha took the chance to hack into the surveillance system and erased the previous hours leaving a loop.

---

Now at the compound, a couple of days later the one and only Melina Vostokoff arraived with Yelena.

The Russian matriarch and Yelena simply walked in like they owned the place, they gave no warning to Natasha of their arraival. Agents surrounded them with guns drown as they made their way to the medical wing unfaced by the operative going on around them.

"Y/N Volkov, where is she?" Melina asked in the front desk.

"I can't tell you. Is classified" the nurse said.

"Yelena call your sister" Melina instructed as she jumped over the desk and put a gun on the nurse "I suggest you tell me" the Russian said as she hacked into the system.

"What the hell is going on here?" Maria stormed in right in time to hear the blonde on the phone telling Natasha to bring her ass to the medical wing of the compound.

"Who are you?" Maria asked.

"Yelena, Y/N's sister. She is our mom Melina" Yelena asked with a bored expression "Can you tell your agents to lower their guns, their are shaking. They will shot someone".

"Agents stand down. You two come with me" Maria instructed. Melina smirked at her, she holstered her gun giving the nurse a "sorry, it was not personal" she said walking off with the other two.

The deputy director took them to the private room you are staying in. You are still on your wolf form. Now clean and some wounds bandaged. Some missing patches of fur and spots with still raw skin, others also bandaged had raw muscle, those were still fighting infection.

"My beautiful volk. Who did this to you?" Melina gets closer to gently run her hand over the soft fur.

Yelena gets closer too and puts her forehead on yours "You are safe now" she says softly in Russian.

The door opens to a very angry Natasha "Mother, Yelena. What's the meaning of this?" She hisses low to not startle you.

"I needed to see my daughter Natasha and make sure she is properly tended".

---

Yeah, mama Vostokoff took over, she gladly paired up with Helen to use her tech to heal the patches of still raw muscle.

Your waking up comes a couple of days later, the soft flip over of pages begins to pull you into conciousness. There's another sound, polishing... Someone is polishing a gun... The smells are familiar.

"She is waking up" the accent, you get spooked by that voice and the freight is reflected on the heartbeat monitor.

You open your eyes, the right one is still blurry the other is clear. Yeah, is the woman you fought against, your mind quickly catches the fact of her lack of battle suit.

Yelena takes advantage of your hesitation and puts herself between you and Wanda. Your sight focuses on the blonde only, could it be? With a lot of effort you raise up and get off the bed grunting in pain, your limbs trembling with effort, the blonde extends her right hand with a soft smile that image is such a mirror to the Red Room, Yelena was a pipsqueak still but fearless, in your wolf form she extended her tiny hand to boop your nose. ("sestrichka?") You ask, that smile and the bright amber eyes.

"Da, is me Yelena" you were about lean in her touch when the sudden opening of the door makes you react and put yourself between them and the intruders, your eyes light up like a thunder, and sparks run through your fur.

"Idiots! You spooked my daughter" a raven haired woman exclaims pushing through the group of people.

When you see her step in front of you, you try to back off, managing some steps but your back hinds end up against the bed ("am I dead?").

"No my daughter. You are alive" no doubt, Melina has aged since the last time you saw her, but it's been decades maybe. And she barely seems older. She still has that power and commanding aura.

Hesitantly you limp forward again, the electricity and static disappearing from your fur, to rest your wolf forehead on Melina's front, Yelena takes the chance to hug you by the neck. You cherish this little moment, taking in their warmth and smell.

The next day Melina makes you shift back to human form, which you immediately regret screaming in pain while you change, even the experienced Widow cringes at your agony screams, the wolf injuries translate to your human body but is like getting hurt all over again. The Russian is the first one by your side when the shift is over. Your human skin show every single scar. As soon as you feel Melina nearby you pass out again.

When you wake up two days later Natalia is by your side, looking at something on a tablet.

"You should paint it back to blue. It was badass" you say with a smirk. The redhead immediately raises up to hug you and rest her forehead against yours "I missed you sestra".

"I missed you too my solnishko".

Natalia, Natasha she now goes by that name, she lets you know what they are up to. Melina is pretty much commanding the medical wing and nerding hard with Helen and Banner.

Yelena dislocated Wanda's shoulder in your honor. Pietro, Wanda's twin wanted to kill her for it. But Wanda interfered and accepted the eye for an eye.

Now more alert, director Nick Fury and deputy director Maria Hill visit you at the hospital room.Wanting to know what happened.

"I used to serve Madame Hydra. I failed her when Maria, Natasha and Wanda stole the intel. It was my last strike, but her stupid goons couldn't kill me for good".

"What did you do for her?" Nick asks with a stern expression.

"Anything she commanded me too. I was her main bodyguard, fighter, killer, spy. You name it, I did it. I even got into dog fighting pits just for the sake of her entertainment".

After the conversation Maria stayed with you on personal note. She thanked you for helping and saving her. You shook your head and apologized for trying to maul her while in the battle field you stood as enemies.

From there slowly you met the rest of the Avengers team, your favorites to hang out with where the twins. Which after two months of living at the compound were like your little siblings. Which made Yelena a little jealous, but with a tight hug and a kiss on her forehead you assured her that no one could take her place. To make it up to her your time was split between Avenger duty, agent for S.H.I.E.L.D and helping Yelena finding Black Widows to free.

In one of those retrieval missions you end up going back to Melina's farm, since the Widow you rescued was hidden in Mongolia it was quicker and faster to go to the farm.

Melina welcomed you with a hug, it still amazes you how open she has become to showing affection. But is very welcomed.

It didn't took long to meet face to face with Antonia, and you immediately felt her amniosity, and the anger behind her blank expression. It was even more obvious when she hugged Yelena and glared at you. You chose to just silently take her treatment, you can't blame her.

Fury allowed you to stay two weeks on the farm, Melina needed some help building more space for the new ex-Widows. And her farm was expanding. Her beloved pigs were still there, but now she had some cattle, sheeps and chickens that needed better spaces. And Alexei the human, was Alexei... A lot muscle not many braincells.

They were careful to never leave you alone with Antonia and Lerato but, mistakes are bound to happen when Alexei is involved.

This morning Melina and Yelena went to the nearest town for food and basics. While Alexei and you stayed to go on with the new building, you need to hurry ending the rooftop before the snow begins to fall which is tomorrow.

"Y/N! We are out of planks!" Alexei shouts from somewhere down.

You sigh in frustration after securing the last screw on the row to keep this plank in place, you asked him yesterday to buy more but nope. He didn't, he got distracted playing and loosing in chest against his namesake pig.

"Better hurry your ass to get more!" You shout back "I can start the isolation on the part that is ready".

"Got it!" He shouts.

You jump down to go to the other barn for the outdoor isolation sheets. You hoist up the materials and begin working putting all your attention on the task, everything is going as planned until someone tackles you off the roof. When your back meets the hard ground, you realize you are fucked.

When your eyes open you see Antonia getting off you "Get up!" She hisses.

You cough a little bit trying to get air back in your lungs and raise up "Tonia, please. You don't need to do this" her boot greets your face and you groan, you simply roll over with the punch to stand up. Antonia and Lerato that joins her pound on you. You don't want to hurt them, so you do your best at dodging, ducking and moving away from their attacks. But is actually hard to achieve Antonia was the feared Task Master for a reason.

The other Widows try to interfere but you stop them, this very not their problem. After getting way too much damage from the two of them you manage to render Lerato out of the fight hitting central nerve central spots that render her left leg and left arm useless.

And that only makes Antonia angrier. The punch exchange becomes brutal and still you do your best to not hurt her badly. Landing punches your hard enough to slow her down.

Melina with Yelena driving the truck begin to come close to the hardware store "is that papa's truck?" Yelena asks a little unsure, Alexei red truck is not unique but that looks suspiciously like his. And the bed is already loaded with wood planks and other items.

When they stop close they see Alexei walking off the store with more stuff. The three of them lock gazes, the first one to say something is Alexei with a loud and clear "BLYAD!".

From there is a race back to the farm.

When the two vehicles skid to a halt close to the barn they see the escene of Antonia choking you on the floor her hands wrapped around your neck tightly.

Antonia's knee is painfully set on your sternum pressing with a crushing force and the placement is just perfect. Making you proud.

"Tonia-"

"Don't you dare to call me that!" She screams "you were supposed to protect ME! Look how I ended, a toy under my father's command!".

Your eyes get watery you never wanted that for her "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry Tonia".

"How did I survived? I no longer believe Dreykov's tale" her constrictor hold loosens and you gasp for air.

"When the explosion hit... I tried to shield you with my body. But I was on dog size, I could not shift fast enough to shield you completely from the impact...but I got on my biggest wolf size fast enough to shield you from the heaviest debris.

I stood over your unconscious body shielding you for about a week, until you father's agents found us. You were immediately taken to the underground facility with the best care".

"Why weren't you with me?! You left me!" Her voice sounds small and broken. You were her shadow for three years, you kept her safe from harm until that faithful day.

"I didn't left. Dreykov was angry beyond words for my failure. But, he couldn't kill me. After weeks of physical punishment he sold me to Madame Hydra. She brainwashed me for half a decade, when I was normal again Dreykov and the Red Room were out radar. I scaped two years. I did my best to find you, but it wasn't enough".

"Do you regret it? Saving me" she asks.

"No, I don't-"

Your speech is cut off by the onslaught of punches you do your best to cover, many land. Seems like it wasn't the expected answer.

When she grabs you again by the neck, you know you are out of luck. With a lot of effort you rasp what is seems to be your last words "I regret, not being able to save you from him. I'm sorry mor zvezda" her hold falters.

"Do you remember?...The nights I begged you to take me to the roof to see the stars and the full moon? You used to make your claws sparkle.

"The tiny lightings that hit empty cans. You loved that" you smile at the memory, those years guarding Antonia were some of the best. Sure they treat you like a dog, but well she used to hug you a lot. What she didn't know was that all those nights had a price for you but you gladly paid to see her smile freely.

Her hold on your neck tightens again, man you are done for.

A pair of boots halt behind Antonia "What a shit deck we were handed, huh?" Yelena says stopping close to the ex-Task Master "Antonia could you please not kill my sister. I just got her back and she still needs to finish the building" Yelena says with a bored expression "mother won't appreciate you killing her eldest daughter" Yelena's simple request have a warning intention.

Antonia relents and lets you breath again, you cough several times at first with a little blood. She is strong as heck.

"I can't say I'm sorry" the woman says still straddling your chest.

Yours eyes don't leave her "I know. I can't blame you" Antonia got off you and went to pick up Lerato to get back in the house.

Heavier boots halt by your left "Up! Up! That roof won't build itself" Alexei said with a chuckle extending his hand to lift you up "she got you good little pup" he pats your back harshly and laughed as he walked to unload the materials.

After that episode you got back to work, Alexei and you worked on the roof and isolation until 4am, the temperature begun lowering making your bruised bones ache, nothing a couple of vodka bottles couldn't fix.

---

After two weeks in Russia with your family, you came back to U.S where Tony being the billionaire that he is surprised you with an Harley Davidson 2021 iron 883 in deadwood green.

"What do you think sparky claws?" He asks standing behind you.

"Is this for me?" You ask confused, you told them about you escaping some decades ago, you managed to stay away for two years, joined a biker gang for sometime. But your former master found you killed them all and brainwashed you for a while. You still carried the guilt of their deaths, you were even dating a woman at the time she was killed too cruelly in front of you. That's why you never attempted to scape again.

"Why not? Don't you like it?" Tony ask a little worried, maybe he should have bought a crusier one?.

You walk to the machine admiring it, is beautiful, he even bought you a helmet and a badass leather jacket "what can I do to repay you? Is beautiful" you say as your hand delicately glides over the machine.

"You don't have to repay me anything Y/N, you are part of this disfuncional family now" you smile at the man, a little egocentric but, overall he is a good man.

---

You are aware of the gossiping going around the compound "Sexy Romanoff's older sister is fancing the deputy director" which is not that far from the truth.

Maria is a beautiful woman, yes undeniable. But she is also strong, loyal, quick-thinker. She manages to keep this oiled machine going with such a grace. She is a great leader, she wields your sister respect just like Fury, and that is not an easy feat. If your sister is willing to be on their ranks you will too.

--- (F/B)---

You are ending a training session of sparring with Bucky when you see Maria briskly passing outside the glass wall enclosing the gym. She seems stressed.

Bucky chuckles behind you "Go Romeo, Maria has been drowning on paperwork lately. I didn't saw her having breakfast".

You glare at Bucky but nod at his words, you move fast to get a quick shower and get to the common kitchen to cook some breakfast.

After half an hour you have to healthy stacks of home made oat flour hotcakes some with blue berries and others with chocolate chips. Super crispy bacon, chopped fruit and two mugs of salt caramel cappuccino on a insulated lunch box. You are still amazed of all the gadgets and stuff available on the kitchen. You had to ask Pietro if he knew what the hell was that, he had no idea. In the end Friday was the one to enlighten you both.

Reaching the administration wing you tell her secretary you are bringing Maria breakfast, the woman looks surprised but nods and let's you in with a relieved smile. At least Maria is not scaping the first meal.

You knock her door lightly to not startle her, hearing a come in you walk into her office to see quite the stacks of paperwork on her desk.

"Hello Maria, I brought breakfast" you announce with a small smile. She looks at you surprised and a little hesitant. But you have your little ace on hand "come on Hill, you wouldn't say no to a good home made salty caramel cappuccino, will you?" Gently you set the mug on her desk and she smiles "well, who am I to refuse" she carefully take the lid off to take a sip and a can't help the small moan at the good flavor.

At her acceptance you divide the four compartment box and set half on her desk "I hope you enjoy it" you give her a wide small and try to back off.

"Why don't you stay?" She says way too quickly even catching herself off guard.

"Well I didn't wanted to assume. I was going elsewhere. Group breakfast with the rowdy lot is not really my thing".

Maria gives you a crooked smile, you aren't wrong the whole team together can get quite childish "how about a nice calm breakfast here?" She says motioning at her coffee table by the couch.

You blush a little and accept her offer "I would enjoy that very much".

--- (End F/) ---

The next months Maria and you grow closer, working extra hours and going on small undercover missions to find intel.

Sometimes you two meet at cafes, restaurants. Traveling around. It basically feels like you two were dating. Because you were very physical from leaning against her side to sleeping next to her. When you felt her too stressed out you shifted into your wolf form for her to stroke your fur and relax.

Like right now, you two are on her office at the compound, she is sitting on the rug her laptop on the coffee table, her back against the leather couch.

Your wolf head is resting on her legs, she occasionally rubs your ears, making you purr. The first times she thought she was delirious but after the fourth time she was sure, she rubbed your left ear again and you purred "Are you purring?" She ask with a teasing tone.

You grunt a no, making her laugh.

"Aww! You are so cute. Will you shake your leg if I rub your belly?" She says with a teasing tone, you feel her hand skimming through your fur, and you give her a light zap with your powers "hey!" She protests. When her hand reaches your ribs your muscles tense, which doesn't go unnoticed "Are you hurt?" She asks worriedly.

"No" you grunt.

"Volkov shift back to human" she orders and you know better than fight her, you obey. Tony has made several clothing items that shift with you. And this branded S.H.I.E.L.D sweat pants and hoodie are some of those. Maria wastes no time to lift up your hoodie to see the massive darkening bruise covering your left side.

"Y/N! What the hell? When did this happened? is not from your last mission-" she read the report. That means you got hurt helping Yelena, you said nothing and still went on that mission with Natasha and Clint.

You zone out a little, thinking if you should tell her or not. Well, maybe you should.

"-Stay down" you laugh a little at her stern words she frowns as she stand up to retrieve her first aid kit that has a enhanced grade gel for bruising "Volkov this is not funny".

"It is" you argue with goofy grin laying on the rug "when you order me around like that, I feel like a dog that miss behaved".

Maria comes back to your side and you end up in the same position as before. This time she puts the gel, you simply close your eyes and enjoy her gentle touch.

"Don't fall asleep Y/N/N we need to figure out this data".

From that moment, it became a common ocurrence. You searching for Maria to help you tend your wounds, if they were minor. She new that the more concerning they were the more you tried to hid them. She kept a close eye everytime you went to help Yelena. Sometimes as freelance (not that she knows), sometimes to free a Widow.

----

To be honest with yourself you are falling for Maria, hard. And is not a simple crush as Natasha calls it. You feel it in your soul. Everytime you are with Maria you feel at peace, calm, you feel stronger fighting alongside her even in your human form. Nick requested to keep your ability hidden. Since it seems Madame Hydra is still sure you were killed.

You've been thinking about making an actual move with Maria, sure you two have gone together to eat or a coffee but, it has been as friends or co-workers. You wish to change that, you want to date her and call her yours. You are a daughter of Vostokoff, you don't shy away.

Since today is your free day. You ride your recently bought Shelby Mustang in matte black, having a salary from S.H.I.E.L.D and Avenger has its perks and the extra from free-lance even better. You go to town in search for flowers, Wanda offers to give you a hand, Pietro tags along to tease the shit out of you. Definitely they are the annoying little siblings.

You don't go overboard but with some of Wanda's input in the end you have a medium size arengement of violet and white chrysanthemums, white lilies, hybrid pink and white roses in vase. The arrengement is hidden by a simple pearl like white wrapping paper. Like if she says no, well... It can still make a good decoration... Like, um you hope she says yes.

With a slight knock, she grants you entrance and you smile at the sight of her in her reading glasses "Hi Maria" you greet her, by now you know only you and Nick have seen her using those reading glasses. She takes off her glasses and raises an enquiring eyebrow at what you are holding

"Maria Hill, you know I haven't shied away from showing my interest in you. I enjoy being in your company, I cherish your trust dearly. I love your touch and your presence makes me feel calm and safe. Would you grant me the honor of becoming my girlfriend?" You ask gently putting down the arrengement and lowering the wrapping paper showing her the flowers.

Maria's eyes widened as your speech grew, but a beautiful wide smile took over her surprise. She admired the flower arrengement, no doubts you were a sap, a giant soft wolf. Maria extends her right hand inviting you to walk up around her desk to be in front of her. Your heart leaps in anticipation and dread. Like she could throw you off her office window, she is strong as heck too.

She gracefully raises from her desk seat and craddles your face with a gentle touch, her thumbs gently smoothing off the tension. She searchs for deceit in your eyes but she only finds passion and love, anticipation even. She gently pulls in your face towards her and kisses you, shy at first but after a couple of quick pecks she deepens the kiss. Your possesive side doesn't take long to surface and you pull her to you by her hips and yet the kiss is firm and controlled.

Maria is the one backing off to take some air "Is this answer clear enough for you?".

You hum in thought playfully "no, I might need some reaffirmation my lady" Maria jiggles before connecting her lips again with yours.

---

The date was that same night, Natasha helped you booking in a small Italian restaurant, not over fancy. But you gotta admit your sister has a refined taste in food.

Maria was having such fun watching you try the different foods. It has been her small side mission with Nat and Wanda showing you different foods.

"Darling slow down, the waiters are already watching you funny" she takes a sip of her wine glass to hide her smile.

"Have I ate too much?" You ask confused, a ragú lasagna, one pizza, a pasta and salmon carpaccio, two wine bottles... Well now that you recall it might be.

"Yes it is, but fear not. I have a little surprise for you back in my place" she winks playfully and you almost choke on the last piece of pizza earning a good laugh from the blue eyed woman.

"Get you head out of the gutter, Volkov".

Maria ordered several desserts to take back home, to not alarm further the personel of the restaurant.

Now at Maria's place, you ride the elevator hand in hand. You can't help but smile broadly at her "what?" She asks mirroring your smile. Leaning down you kiss her forehead "nothing, just thinking how fucking lucky I am, you said yes".

In her apartment Maria store away the desserts on her fridge. However you couldn't help but walk behind her to wrap your arms over her hips and kiss her exposed neck, that beautiful navy dress made her look like a model, your upper teeth scrapped down her neck "if you aren't ready, tell me to stop darling" Her breath hitches as she turns around to face you but you keep gently assaulting her neck and exposed clavicle with open mouthed kisses "Maria?" You ask after a little while, worried that you crossed a line.

Maria looks at you with a hazzy look "I didn't tell you to stop" she says her fingers grabbing possesively the back of your neck.

"Neither you told me to go on" you say with a teasing smile.

She smiles broadly at you "if I tell you to stop?" She sees the way your pupils impossibly dilated, the eagerness. She just wants to tease you a little.

She sees the surprise in your eyes but you take it calmly "I obey" you lean to kiss her forehead then her cheek. Thinking she is serious.

When you try to step back, Maria pulls you flush to her "you know you are adorable right?"

Now you are confused and your head tilts automatically, Maria laughs again with such a glee, you begin to question all your years of training. Did you read bad the signals? Is your language comprehension bad? The hell is going on?.

"I'm sorry darling, I'm just messing with you".

"You don't want to date me?" You ask even more confused and your body confidence deflates a little.

"No, no, no hey darling not that. I want to be with you. Is just, I was testing how will you respond to me asking you to stop" Maria says in a hurry. Maybe it really wasn't a good idea to tease you like that.

Her worry makes you chuckle "Hill, you are evil. I almost got a heart-attack, thinking I overstepped" your demeanor changes again you push maria against her fridge trapping her with your body "but now? You won't scape" you growl lowly in her ear making her shiver before nibbling her earlobe.

Your hands wander up her back searching for the zipper of her dress, you slowly pull down the zipper, her surprised yelp at the contact of her bare skin with the stainless steel is replaced by a moan when you gently bite on the base of her neck and kiss down the valley between her breasts.

"Take me to bed, now" you didn't have to be told twice.

Now laying on Maria's bed, with her flush to your body is a bliss. Your slightly warmer temperature is enough to keep you both warm. Her face is hidden in your neck, you can feel her soft breaths caressing your skin. Sex with this goddess was an ethereal experience, making you regret calling it sex. You've had sex, empty physical act. This? Was beyond what words can describe, this was so human, so real, electrifying beyond your powers.

Eyeing the clock behind Maria on the beside table 3:34 am, your fingertips gently run along her back mapping the scars on her skin, not as many as you have, but the few you find makes you a little angry, who dares to hurt such an amazing and beautiful woman. You bow to keep her safe as much as you can.

"I can feel you overthinking" she groggily says kissing your neck softly, you hum happily, her lips on your skin is the best thing ever.

"How can I overthink, if the only thing my mind can't even process is how good your body feels against mine" you open palm replaces your fingertips gently running up and down Maria's back.

"Hmm I can agree on that darling, you feel so warm. I like this, being in your arms".

----

After a generous hearty breakfast at Maria's place. Both rode your car to the compound, being the gentle woman you are, after parking you exited the car to open the door for Maria, she smiled at your gesture and you kissed her knuckles. The two of you avoided the PDA but, you walked her to her office half way there Steve intercepted you "Volkov, all-hands-on-deck. Wheels up in ten minutes" he says passing with a light jog.

"Yes, sir" when he is out of earshot you look at Maria, for a fact you know she wishes to keep this private from the rest of the troops

Maria gives you a friendly hug instead "be careful, ok?" You hug her too "always".

Even though the mission required the whole team, it wasn't as hard as everyone was anticipating. You had the chance to fight side by side with Natasha, and you can't help but admire her. You saw her as a little kid, you even trained her. She always had a roaring fire inside her. But now fighting side by side with her, finally fighting for good cause. It makes you happy. For a fact you know that if you were in your wolf form you'll be wagging your tail.

---

The next two years are easily and by far the best of your existence. Maria is such an amazing partner, lover, friend and confident. She even got Melina's and Alexei's approval, she got the shovel talk though. Melina treathened her to turn her in one of test subjects if she breaks your heart and Alexei treathened her to feed her to the cows... That doesn't work at all but is Alexei.

Natasha's shovel talk was standard she trusts Maria to not break your heart.

Yelena, was Yelena to say the least "you break her heart, your short lifespan will be dragged with pain and suffering. You better not find out".

Date nights just lounging on the couch with wine and movies. Check.

Fancy date nights, hell yes. Maria's outfits were worth it. She looked like a goddess walking among peasants, you looked like a idiot drooling by her side.

Missions together? That's a big yes. Badass duo kicking major ass. You two even got into a undercover mission with you posing as her service dog. Which was fun, you had to get your fur tainted in greyish-brown and scars hidden, Helen and Banner had to come up with contact lens to disguise your white eyes to bright yellow. What you didn't enjoyed was using a collar with tag, the service harness was comfortable at least. You even bite one of the guys ankle for giving Maria dirty looks. The good thing of that mission was the public PDA, like ear rubs were heavenly, she used the excuse of service dog to constantly stroke the fur on your back. And it has been the two months were your fur coat has been on its best care.

--- (F/B) ---

You are laying on the rug of the rented apartment where Maria and you are staying, she is helping you brush your fur after a bath. Your back leg shakes when she brushes right over your ribcage making her laugh for your dismay, but you can't help it is reflex.

"Okay, we are done. Ready to look magestic tomorrow" she says patting your belly. You quickly shift back to human but you are bare ass naked.

"We eat now?" You ask, you are fucking starving. Keeping your body on large dog size takes a lot of energy and control.

"Our lovely elderly neighbor bought some nice kibble for you 42% salmon protein" she says with a teasing tone, but unfortunately is true... on wolf form you have no issue eating it. Like back in Hydra they used to give you shitty kibble or cheap almost rotten meat.

"Y/N! Don't even think about it. I made you some nice giant meatloaf".

---- (End F/B) g--

With Nick you have earnt his trust completely, he sees Maria as a daughter. He gave you a warning, borderline shovel talk. That man is terrifying when his eye sets blankly and sternly on you, you gotta admit that. But he is happy to see Maria thriving with you by her side. You even help her with paperwork and bureaucracy stuff to help her have some more free time.

This afternoon Maria and you are enjoying the sunset in Central Park, you calmly smoke a cigar while Maria reads a book. You see a family with kids and a dog, the canine seems to be too curious about you surely he senses the wolf in you, having nothing better to do you choose to mess with him and glare at it. The dog gets nervous before glaring at you and Maria chatises you "Y/N stop reeling up the poor dog".

"I did no such thing" you say in your defense.

"Yes you did" she says leaving down her book to raise a daring eyebrow.

"I-"

"Excuse me?" A little voice says behind you, a kid. You quickly turn around to see a girl that must be five at most.

"Can you help me find my mom? I got distracted and lost her" she says calmly, but you can hear her heartbeat, she is obviously nervous and terrified.

"Hi sweetie, I sure can" you answer looking at Maria that nods, you stand up slowly to not scare her, you are slightly taller than Maria, more built and you have scars in your face. You usually scare kids and dogs alike.

Maria and you split up, the kid stays with you. It takes you a couple of hours find her mom, well... More like the police found you. They tried to take the kid away. You didn't let them, you trust no police.

Another kid tried to interfere to vouch for you. Well not a kid, kid. She might be on her early twenties. The police tried to shut her up , you talked back. You tried to keep civil but unfortunately you have a temper out of nowhere the officers tried to wrestle you down and a fight broke out, this young woman managed to get the kid to be safe by her side. You were wrestled down to the floor by ten officers. And before anything scaleted further. Luckily this new kid mom stepped in, she seems to hold some authority. And half the officers eased back. So while you were still being held on the ground the woman had the little kid by her side and no police officer dared to tell her otherwise.

Maria heard the commotion, and since you weren't answering your phone she ran in with the kid's mom and saved you from being tazered. Turns out the kid was lost for almost half a day on the park, the mom thought the worse, and the police were on edge. The scars on your face and overall demeanor didn't helped your initial innosence plea.

Your girlfriend in her best authority persona played her Avenger Deputy Director credential which granted you an immediate release with an apology included.

"I will suggest you don't dare to tazer my agent" Maria's authoritative voice make you sigh in relief, and she quickly strolled close.

"Hello boss, would you mind? My hands are getting beyond numb" you say with your face being pressed heavily against the floor. Two officers holding down your head.

"Who the hell you think you are?!" One police officers shouted. And a knee was digged deeper between your shoulder blades painfully pressing on your spine, making you groan "duuude you are digging to deep, you fucking asshole!" You tried to wiggle them away but they pressed further.

"Deputy Director of the Avengers organization, commander Maria Hill" the officers looked at each other in panic "I highly suggest you to release my agent immediately".

They quickly eased the pressure and the tazer was tucked away.

"Fucking finally, you bunch of assholes" you greeted your teeth and kneeled ok the concrete moving your neck and shoulders trying to regain the feel on them.

You were very tempted to kick their sorry asses. But a pointed look from Maria made you think it twice.

The little kid mom was utterly embarrassed by what happened, you did your best to ease her mind. Like she wasn't at fault. You hugged the little kid goodbye.

You rub your swrists trying to make blood run back faster. The police and bystanders disperse and you look for the other woman and kid that helped you. Luckily the woman seemed to read your mind and she walked close after ending her chat with a captain of the police.

"Ma'am, thank you for your help" you say offering your hand. If you werent tazered or punched harsher was thanks to her. She shakes your hand warmly "Eleanor Bishop, from Bishop Security. it was the least I could do. You were helping out a little kid".

"Hi! My name is Kate Bishop, I'm pretty surprised you didn't kicked their asses!" The dark haired young woman said way too loud.

"Kate!" Eleanor chatises her daughter and you laugh waving off her mother's concern.

"I'm Y/N Volkov. Well, if I were to do that, it would mean A LOT for paper work for my direct boss" you say smirking at Maria, the woman shakes her head in amusement "Maria Hill".

Your brain catches a little fact "Wait a second, you are the Bishop kid. The one that is called the best Archer in the world, am I right?"

Kate blushes deeply and gets shy which kind of answers your question.

"I- umm- yes I am. I don't think I'm better than Clint Barton though.

"Would you like to put that theory into test? Clint will be down to it" you say it an teasing smirk. Clint will love that. Pietro has been giving him shit about it.

"You know Clint? Are you an Avenger too? Do you have powers? Are you a fighter too?" Kate asks looking at you with a wide hopeful smile.

"I... Yes, not really I fight alongside them, nope, yes. I answered them all, right? How about you go this weekend to the compound and get to meet the team?"

Kate's face light up like a kid on candy land "oh yes!!!" Her enthusiasm is notched down by her mother's stern gaze "I mean, yeah, yeah I would like that very much" she says much calmer but her heartbeat tells you how excited and nervous she is.

After some more chatting, and getting the small little fact Kate doesn't drive yet. You offer up to take her to the compound and back home.

When you and Maria are walking to your car, the blue eyed woman can't help but look at you with heart-eyes "Have you thought about it? Having kids?" She asks softly.

You look at her "well, I don't see myself getting pregnant. Maybe adopt? Would you like having kids?".

"You are good with the kids Y/N. I never thought of myself as mom material, getting pregnant is not on my soon to be list. Earth's safety takes up too much time and you are a handful" she smirks playfully at you.

"Me?" You say with an utterly offended face "Not my fault my face doesn't scream friendly, my scars make me look like a tug I will admit-" Matia cuts your rant with her lips and you smile on her lips "what about no PDA Hill?"

"Shut up".

---

A couple of months later what you truly didn't anticipated was Yelena and Kate getting close, closer than what would you like. But, by the other hand. Kate is a good kid, might be over hyper-verbal, drives Yelena nuts most of the time and the whole Avengers team too. A good kid overall. And she has been training with you all, specially Natasha on her words "if she will date our little sister, she better be capable of defending herself".

Currently the twins are using you as their giant pillow on the common room. They love cuddling with you in your wolf shape.

Your head is resting on Wanda's lap as she absentmindedly strokes your fur, Pietro is using your stomach as pillow, they are watching some t.v shows. You don't really understand them but they love it.

Maria walks in "sorry to interrupt guys, Y/N. Can we have a word?".

You nod your head but Pietro doesn't move, you playfully lick him on his cheek and ear making him laugh "ok, ok, I move".

("Can I dress, meet you in your office?").

("Is actually an off record thing") she says giving a side glance at the twins, it doesn't took Maria long to figure out she could telepathically answer you in your wolf form.

("Let's go to our room then").

Now dressed in your shared room Maria asks you what do you know about Madripoor and Valentina de la Fountain, at the mention of the woman you immediately go to fetch the vodka bottle you have there "that's a thread you don't wish to pull Hill".

Maria crosses her arms and half seats on your desk "She has been recruiting Black Widows. She uses them to manipulate governments and business men at her will. She is dangerous".

"Do you know that, to win a war. You must decimate the enemies army before cutting off the head?".

"What does that saying has to do with this?" You see the clear confusion on her eyes, you can't blame her. You are pretty sure the only one knowing the actual truth is Nick.

"Condessa Valentina de la Fountain is Madame Hydra, the actual Hydra boss, the very top head. Everyone else is just a front. Madripoor is her recluting place. The front face there is Power Broker since a few years ago, maybe half a decade" you take a cigar from your stash and cut it up to light it up, taking a couple of drags. By now Maria knows that you smoke because you are relaxed or if you are worried as heck.

"I'm very worried about your enquirement Hill. Those threads..."

Maria stands up to stand in front of you she threads her fingers through your hair trying to make you relax "flag-smashers" she says handing you the file she had on her hand.

"Sounds like a rap group" you deadpan making maria laugh you begin to scan the data, terrorists: they steal vaccines and medicines to give to refugees... does that make them terrorists? Seriously?... You get to the pictures, well no faces, only masks "I truly don't see this group of kids related to Madame Hydra.

The raven haired woman hums and sets a tablet on your desk. You put play on the standing video, at first you see no odd... Until you see one ripping off the door of the trailer bare-handed and other kicking the shit out of one cop to the other side of the street.

"Supersoldiers?".

"This is still out of radar. James thinks the answer could be in Madripoor. But we need a way in".

"I can do it".

Turns out you had to use Baron Zemo, in exchange for two dacades to lessen his sentence. He tried to tear the Avengers apart before you joined them but, luckily Tony saw through the manipulation and made up victims.

Zemo is your way in and out of Madripoor. James and Sam came too, the latter is quite nervous, which makes you laugh. After what he went through in the army he is nervous about this. You now go by the code name of Mauler.

The bar stunt is a disaster, suspiciously Sharon is there to back you up and save your ass. She acts uninterested about flag-smashers. Seemingly she is here on a undercover mission posing as art dealer... But your years tell you there's more behind or under. No way Carter is here without Madame Hydra knowing.

And you weren't wrong, after Sharon guided you to the scientist and Zemo blew up everything, the guy was killed. It was a disaster but within the hidden lab you found a kid.

You shield her with your body from a explosion. The freight made her shift into a wolf pup... Wolf pup?! She tried to run away but you catched her, she bit your forearm hard but you didn't budge "Hey sweetie is ok, I'm just like you. Ok?" The pup stops biting and tilts her head in curiosity.

"Yes I am" the rush of more bullets force you to shift into your standard size wolf form ("see? I'll keep you safe. I promise").

You shift back to human and the kid/pup relaxes in your arms.

The fight to get out of there is disastrous to say the least. The lack of uniforms tells you is not Madame Hydra, she most likely not here.

Seeing how Sharon comes on and off your suspicious get bigger. Something is off, she insists on you giving her the kid which you refuse.

Half way into scaping more shooters, this time better than the ones at the beginning "Hey sweetie, I need you to go with Sam, ok? I'll be right behind you keeping you safe" the pup nods.

"Sam!" You hand the pup to him.

And shift back into your standard wolf form ("James, she is like me. Say nothing, take her back to the compound. Tell Maria what happened").

("What about you?!") He glares at you.

("I can get out on my own. Go! Don't let Zemo scape").

---

You fought your way out in human shape, you only shifted briefly to give orders to James. Of course Sharon, your main suspect fooled you in and captured you.

In the basement of her mansion she shocked you to the point of making you shift into wolf form.

"Grom Volk" your former master still laments her decision of killing you.

("Madame Hydra you meant").

("What is this bout Sharon? World domination? Just as pathetic as any Hydra head before. Revenge?").

"Being the good guy doesn't leave you with a lot of money. You should know".

You shift back into human "Yeah, no lies about that" Sharon has the decency to hurl a blanket at you.

"So, Flag-Smashers. You personal little army? Seems they got out of leash".

"They know my face. A liability".

You crack your neck and move around your shoulders. It was a good fight. Until Sharon ran you over with her nice car. Groaning you shift to seat cross legged with the blanket covering your low parts.

"The pup? What the hell where you doing with her".

"I call my innocence on that Volkov, I didn't know he had her. I seriously thought it was a dog".

Pinching the bridge of your nose you think your options "tell you what. I keep the pup, she is off all this-"

"No super soldiers, no shifter. So just like that I am left empty handed? I can't let them run around knowing who I am, the Carter name-"

"I help you deal with them. The pup is off limits, I'll be your on call executioner. Just keep who I really am our little dirty secret, just like I'll keep yours Power Broker".

---

One thing is the arrangement you and Sharon reached after a lot of discussion. Other thing is Madame Hydra coming into play unexpectedly and with her own blondie super soldier boy.

And what a good fight he put up. Luckily he and his sidekick are way too hot-headed and cocky. You fooled them easily and stole their jet. Valentina still sent executioners to terminate your stolen jet, and they shoot it down. The last thing the recorded was the exploding aircraft.

---

"Barnes! Wilson! What do you mean you left Volkov in Madripoor!" Maria shouts as she briskily walk up to Sam's truck. The kid, Aileen is her name got scared and shifted back to wolf pup again, which didn't go unnoticed by Maria. At the sight, her anger simmered... Now she gets it... Damned you.

James takes the fraightened pup on his arms and jumps down the vehicle.

"What the heck I'm gonna do with Y/N?" She sighed pinching the bridge of her nose.

The pup wiggled to be let down which Bucky hesitantly did, luckily the pup just went ahead and hesitantly sniffed around the Deputy Director, her tail begun to wag nervously at first then happily.

Maria crunched down and offered her hand, hey sweetie "I'm sorry for scaring you".

("Is ok, are you with big wolf. You have her smell on you") the kid asks making Maria chuckle at her quick thinking.

("Yes, I am her girlfriend. What is your name?") Maria asks mentally "Barnes do you have a blanket?"

Sam gives a soft smile handing over a blanket. They had to keep one close, the poor girl tends to easily be spooked and shifts constantly to wolf pup.

----

A week later Yelena, Alexei and Antonia rescue your sorry ass from Batam. You were washed to the shore, the language impediment was a nightmare. Luckily after two days drying your cellphone on rice, yes that old school trick. The elderly couple that found you gave you a charger compatible and you could call your extraction team.

Yelena laughs her ass off at the sight of you, left shoulder is on a makeshift swing, you have a huge gash on the side of your head, cuts and bruises all over. And overall you look miserable. You are hungry, in pain and pissed as heck.

Of course the elderly couple offered you food, and you are greatful. But is barely enough to keep you awake, your wounds can't heal quickly without proper amount of food and that was way more than what the couple could offer.

Yelena, gave the elderly couple a good amount of money for helping you out. You took the time to help them doing some improvements on their house while they arrived.

Ten fucking long days since the Madripoor fiasco, the aircraft lands on the Avengers tarmac. And you sigh in relief, which is cut short when you see Maria's pissed as fuck face.

"How about we go to mama's farm? you can still call wheels up" you say to your papa who chuckles "Huh, huh, huh woman up. Your wife requested your sister to bring your ass immediately".

Antonia, the little shit opened the door for Alexei to push you off, you simply got along landing and regretting it when your shoulder throbbed in pain.

"Sent her on a ash box Hill, takes less space" Alexei shouts before sliding shut the door as Yelena immediately takes off "traitors" you growl.

When you turn around you are face to face with commander Hill. Before you can utter an apology she slaps you HARD, the agents around and your sister standing a few feet behind hiss in mockery.

Your offended face is priceless "what was that for?!" You shout at your woman.

"For playing idiot. Idiot!" Maria shouts, she suddenly grabs you by the face and harshly pulls you in for a KISS. Your initial surprise vanishes and you grab the back of her neck pulling her impossibly closer, getting possesive.

When the lack of air becomes too much you pry away "that is what I was hoping... Now the whole troop know" you wiggle your eyebrows playfully but the cut on the left side begins to bleed and your stomach growls in hunger.

"Let's get you tended and fed".

---

Aileen the kid was so happy to see you, she jumped in your arms and hid her face on your neck "thank you for saving me". You smiled at her warmly, wrapping your right arm around her, the left was out of commission.

You saw the way Maria looked at your interaction closely with a warm grin. She later told you Aileen has been living under her care. The kid only knows her name, she thinks, knows she is six. Have no idea if she has parents. But after a DNA test, what you suspected came true, she is kind of your minemee, but her wolf form fur is a lighter shade of grey and grey-ish eyes. And your main suspect is Valentina, that woman. One day you will rip her throat off.

Aileen was such a sweet, easy kid. Of course the first month the Intel team tried to locate her parents, suspecting it was a kidnapped kid that got her DNA modified somehow with yours. But none.

A month with the kid was a little challenging, mostly due to the schedules. But the whole Avengers team stepped in even the Bishop kid, that is earning auntie points with the pup for Yelena's dismay.

Maria and you are lazyly enjoying the after sex bliss, Yelena, Kate as Wanda offered to take care of Aileen to give you and Hill alone time. But still in alone time your bedroom has the prints of the kid, her blanket on the lounge chair, her teddy plush bear on the vanity. And the middle of the bed smells like her, she usually asks you two to sleep between you.

"We should adopt her officially" Maria says as her short finger nails graze up and down your abs.

"What?" You groggily ask, her caresses were lulling you back to sleep.

Maria raises leaning on her right forearm "Aileen, she is such a big part of us now. We should adopt her, to be our daughter" you look up at her with a smile "So, Maria Hill are you asking me to start a bigger family with you?" Maria grins before leaning down to kiss you "is that a yes?" She enquires on your lips before tugging your lower lip playfully.

"Stay here, please" you say before quickly jumping off the bed to get into Aileen's room, yes it already was her room, now it will officially be hers.

"Volkov! Is a little late for the walk of shame!" Maria shouts playfully making you laugh, while you search for the item.

When you return Maria is giving appreciating looks, loving how your muscles move "yes off the meat Hill" you say with a teasing tone, left hand is hidden behind your back you extend your right hand helping her seat on the edge of the bed.

"Maria Hill, my love" you get in one knee "I know it might not be the ideal context. But this moment feels so ought to be. You are my greatest love, my port, my shelter, my strength and my inspiration to become the best version of me. You command my heart with such a brave and kind leadership. I don't wish for anyone else but YOU to call me theirs. You took me in and love me for who I am, forgave me for who I was. In you I found a sincere love, I met a gentle loving touch, thanks to you I know how high voltage can love be when your bare skin glades on mine" you kiss her knuckles softly "will you do me the greatest honor to become my wife and be the mommy of our child?".

Maria's tears begun to run freely since the first half of your speech and yet her smile was the most precious thing you've ever witnessed. You enjoy the several beats that she stays silent, no doubt se will says yes, she just needs to process.

"Will you recite such poetry to me?" She says with a smile smile.

"Every day if my queen wishes me to" you say kissing her knuckles again.

"I've had no doubt in my mind that you are the only one for me Y/N Volkov" Maria's hand shake as you put the beautiful diamond ring on her finger, she leans in while you put the ring to kiss your forehead and you swoon in happiness.

From there it was several rounds of electrifying sex, you loved how her ring grazed your skin with her caresses.

---

The next morning you two went to the Avengers compound, her ring was now on a necklace hidden under her clothes. You hoped it stayed like that. But Kate having an actual keen hawk eye didn't took long to see the glint of the ring. And the dopey idiots grin you two had weren't unnoticed by your sisters.

"Sestra what is with that idiot grins on your faces?" Yelena straight forward asked.

"Yelena said a bad word!" Aileen said with glee "pay up! Up!" She extended her tiny hand to the blonde who grumpily gave the kid a dollar bill.

Wanda, the little shit just grinned "Maria is that a new necklace?" Maria glared at the Sokovian mind reader.

Natasha eyes you suspiciously and her eyes rack you up and down searching, you casually showed her your ring less fingers. Well you had a couple, but they were your usual black Damascus thumb rings and the wolf head in your index that Kate gifted you with a "I saw it, thought it was badass and you are kind of a wolf too, so" she whispered the last before giving it to you.

When your redhead sister found nothing on you she looked at Maria at the same time Wanda asked her about the necklace.

"I don't know what you are talking about Maximoff" Maria defended.

"You know I can read minds, right?" The twins shared a complicity look, damned Wanda she told Pietro already.

Pietro flashed you his best mischievous smirk before opening his big mouth "I bet the celebration got wild, right Y/N/N?".

Yelena shared a look with Kate who expressed her thoughts whispering in her ear, her surprised face was comedy worth it "Wait a second. Idiot grins plastered in your faces, you asked us to babysit the kid, take this kid. I'm about to say more" Yelena gave Aileen a 20 bill "You fucking idiots got engaged!".

You groan in annoyance, idiots, you live with worldclass idiots. You can't hide shit like this from spies, assassins, two idiots and a mind reader.

Maria only shakes her head and shows off the ring on her military tags necklace.

"Congrats idiots. Like you could hide that from us" Natasha said with her damned loopsided smirk.

"pay up auntie Nat!".

---

The wedding itself was small and private. Nick, the Avengers team, your Russian family, Antonia with her now officially girlfriend Lerato, Kate and her mom. Of course Aileen was there.

You two were meaning to adopt Aileen right away but, you two decided to give Aileen the chance to choose. All the Avengers loved and cared for the kid. She obviously had an inclination to be with Maria and you. But you don't wished to impose.

However life rolled around, missions came and go. Things with Flag-Smashers scaleted, which you needed and predicted. You couldn't erase them while they were seen as heroes, a martyr is not easy to erase.

But it didn't took more than eight months for their will to falter under the public pressure of being the heroes. Sharon did her part reeling Morguenthau and Valentina did her part with his blonde excuse of super soldier.

You had to be very careful on this volatile chess game. But even with all the work and missions you three, Maria, Aileen and you became closer. A small tight family, you personally trained the kid to control her powers and taught her fighting skills to defend herself.

Maria found adorable seeing you two in wolf shape, sometimes training, sometimes just hanging around specially in full moon, others just cuddling. Of course Hill did her best at being a mom, agent and directive. Aileen had no issue hanging out with her at her office.

As things scalated, your rivalry with Karli got worse.

The international organization begun pressuring the Flag-Smashers pushing Karli to get violent, showing off their power. Her last stunt was way too public and costed a lot of lives.

Nick turn off the t.v of his office "we are close to have them were you suggested".

"I don't like this Nick. But that Blondie soldier fucked up everything".

"Sam and James were so close" Nick half laments.

Your cellphone rings showing the logo of Flag-Smashers you raise your eyebrow and answer *What do you want Morguenthau?* You put the speaker on.

*Grom Volk, you better not get on my way. It would be a shame for your pup to get hurt*

Your jaw tightens in anger *Karli, Karli. You aren't one to threaten me. And I suggest you don't even try to mess with my pack. I know no mercy*.

*Stop getting in the middle of my plans then. Your deal with Power Broker-*

*Still stands, surrender Karli. We can work this out. You are one step from no return. You used to be better than a simple terrorist*.

---

Karli didn't listened, too young and confused. The submit was a disaster. Not only the remaining Flag-Smashers, Valentina's people got on the mix. The whole Avengers team went in even Yelena and Kate that didn't listened to stay off.

You went in to get your part of the deal done, while Aileen stayed safe by Nick's and Maria's side at the compound.

"Morgenthau!" You shout as you run up to her, she already scaped Sam's last try to stop her. By her recent stunt you know she is far too gone.

You get into a fight with her, but the last person you needed comes in, Walker. The asshole teams up with Morgenthau against you.

"I'm SO fucking done with you dude" you throw a punch fully charged making him fly off the building.

Karli got her hand in another handgun, the two of you stand face to face guns drawn on each other.

You let a breathy chuckle, Karli empties her magazine on you and you simply built up high voltage static to reduce the bullets to dust "Poor thing. Never, ever threaten a family of someone than can be merciless kid" you fire several shots, the silencer on your gun barely makes any sound. The young woman falls on the floor and begins to drag herself away from you, Sharon walks from behind you.

"She is Power Broker!" The kid tries her last card.

"Tell me something I didn't know" you say with a shrug.

Sharon looks at you then at the panicked kid "We have a deal Grom Volk" you nod and holster back the untraceable gun to grab your usual one "and a deal we have" you fire a last shot on her chest.

"What about Walker?" Carter asks looking the last breath leave the kid "such a shame".

"We had a deal Volkov".

"Present time Sharon".

"Steve insisted in arresting the others soldiers" she points out grimacing at the pain on the gun shot she got courtesy of Karli.

You nod holstering back your gun "I have that covered. Before you are in your nice penthouse, the job will be done".

"You have open pass to the compound. No one but Nick and I know your alter ego" you point at her gun shot wound.

She nods *Volkov, I heard gun shots. Do you have Karli?*

*She is dead cap. She shot Agent 13*

---

Everything goes hitch less when the police was taking the captured super soldier to custody the next day vehicle exploded, terminated them. It wasn't your doing per se. But you gave Baron Zemo the means.

You were with Sharon on her hospital room at the compound when the news were talking about the assesination.

"Impressive, I take our friend in common had his hand on this?".

You simply nod, Sharon gives you a friendly smile and offers you her hand to shake "word for a word Grom Volk".

----

The next years you were truth to your word. You were an executioner for Power Broker. Luckily Sharon, listened and her path to world domination was casted aside for money and power. Fury was up to date on everything, feeling a little at ease knowing Madripoor was mostly under Carter's control.

Aileen truly thrives with your's and Hill's care, as soon as she had full control on her shifting abilities she started school. And man the kid was brilliant.

The kid became a Volkov-Hill a couple of months after the Flag-Smashers were terminated. Tony and Pepper got everything arrenged and the sign of papers was at the compound.

Lee like you all call her now was super excited, she was shy to call you mama and Maria mom, but now that it was official she couldn't stop calling you both her moms.

Yelena, Natasha and the Maximoffs were already her aunts and uncles. Kate chocked in feels when Lee called her aunt too since she was officially Yelena's girlfriend.

Hate to admit the kid was a prodigy at fighting, keen senses, inhuman reflexes of course. She was absolutely good in everything sports and training related. Just for the sake of her being safe, you and Maria trained her. At ten she knew how to fire weapons and identify danger.

Her wolf form was big, she was almost three quarters your size at ten. Her thunder powers were powerful enough to zap the actual god of thunder at just ten years old.

But even with all the craziness around she was a kid. She was sweet, but hot-headed at times. Stubborn as heck and Kate's and Yelena's influence didn't helped much on that field but, Maria and you wouldn't change that for anything. You love your kid as she is.

What was quite surprising for everyone was first: Natasha and James end up rekindling their relationship, especially after a mission they found a baby that turned out to be born from their genetics. They named him Steve, Stevie as everyone calls him. Aileen was eight when this happened and she loved his cousin dearly.

Turns out that laboratory where Stevie was found had several genetic material from your Widow sisters, which made you angry as heck. They sterilezed them but kept their genetics for their wicked ends. You were about to go all war mode when Maria and Nick calmed you down.

Second was that even when they had quite the rocky relationship, not because lack of love. It was jus that Kate and Yelena had such strong personalities that they tended to clash, hard. But they loved each other dearly. When Aileen was ten, Stevie two. Kate decided to surprise Yelena.

And what a surprise, she begged Helen and Banner for help and she managed to conceive a baby, half Yelena and half her. In Yelena's words it was the best birthday present she ever had.

A very worried Eleanor Bishop called you to meet her at Bishop Security. Kate is already an active Avenger and now she is pregnant and mama Bishop was beyond worried, happy but, worried for her daughter and granddaughter safety.

"Mrs. Bishop, I can assure you. No one will ever hurt your daughter, not easily that is. My little sister loves your daughter to death. And I consider her my family too. I give you my word".

The woman smiles greatfuly at you but her face turns pensive and a little sour as she takes a sip of her own drink. "Do you think I did wrong? Letting her follow her Avenger dream?" The woman wondered outloud "I'm not getting any younger, and this company, it was meant to be Kate's".

You offer her a little time taking a drag of the cigar in your right hand as you swirl the offered vodka with your left.

"Your daughter is one of the best agents I've worked with, as quick thinker as her mouth-" Eleanor guffaws at your comment, she tries to hide her wide grin behind her hand, you only grin and take another drag of the cigar

"In all seriousness, she is really good and keeps improving, compassionate. She now carries the Hawkeye mantle. IT wasn't a mistake, she loves her job... If you are worried for the company future. Fear not, Kate is very aware that someday she will own and direct this. This is her legacy too".

"In the mean time if you ever need help Yelena and I wouldn't mind a couple of extra coins" your crooked grin makes the woman snort again.

"You Russians, all business".

---

How much you wish to sometimes just follow your gut and kill your enemies when you can.

A very worried Kate just called you telling you that Walker is stalking them, she is six months pregnant now and she has Aileen and Stevie with her. You told her to stay calm but keep aware. They were supposed to be having a fun and relaxed day in central park. Earlier, Mrs. Bishop took your word from the conversation a couple of months ago and requested your input for some jobs the company was taking.

Luckily you were already close when Kate's call came through your earbud, you give all the speed to your bike, you just skid to a halt the closest to were Kate and the Rugrats are. You run the rest of the way to intercept the now called US Agent. Maria is already sending backup.

"Walker!" You shout putting yourself between him and Kate.

"Grom Volk the Mauler" he says with a smirk "I come with a message, surrender your pup. And she keeps hers" the blonde quickly draws his gun on Kate and you literally growl at him.

"Oh? Did I made the dog mad?" He tauntingly says. With your experienced years and refined senses you hear the actual amount of agents he has, and knowing De la Fountain... Is gonna be a shit show.

"Is your mouth big only because of your backup? Last time you weren't that cocky".

You take off your cellphone, necklace, bike keys and hand it to your daughter, her hand shakily takes the items. Last but no least you give her your handgun "do not engage, got it?" You dare a glance back and the kid nods as she ties the holster to her hip.

You shift into your standard wolf white eyes sparkling dangerously. You hear Kate's collapsible bow setting in.

("KATE NO").

("KATE YES") she answers in your mind you look at her walking up to be standing beside you with a cheeky smile and arrow ready and pointed at a target behind Walker.

You growl at her in annoyance ("I give you an open, you and the kids run") you see hesitation in her eyes ("do it for your unborn baby and Yelena, please") she nods finally but she is still ready to fight.

("Aileen grab Stevie") luckily your daughter doesn't hesitate to obey, Stevie clings to her like a little monkey, you can smell the fear emanating from him and you feel awful, no kid should go through this.

The fight brakes out, and you manipulate the electricity and static beyond your body to keep them all safe. You know how accurate and good Kate is, so you keep your attention on Walker and the other agents daring to come too close.

Bullets do nothing to you and Walker gets into close combat, you claw at him several times. A couple of agents try to sneak behind John's attacks to grab your daughter. But you ram them away with your body fully charged ("Run! Now").

You keep between the attackers and your family when you are close to Kate's BMW SUV a bullet wheezes past you but you fry it before it hits Kate. Immediately you turn around and protect then with a static bubble, you dart your eyes and ears around to locate the sniper ("eleven o'clock, third floor").

("I can't hit it, is too far") you nod and begin to gather energy.

("I'll fry them up close, and shield you with my biggest form. Run to your vehicle and drive away. I'll be right behind you").

It goes as planned, you shield them with your biggest shape, as they run you but in the frenzy you lost Walker.

By pure reflex you saw the glinting of a knife and the scream from Aileen alerted you of the danger way too close to them.

When walker tried to swing his hunting knife at Kate's front. You jumped in tackling him off. On the rolling away he latched to your fur and blindly stabbed you on the belly. You growled and zapped him away. A vehicle tried to crash against the BMW but you jumped in and crashed your body against it before. Kate took the chance and revived the engine to drive away.

You tried to jump up to the roof of the car but Walker pounced on your back stabbing you on the back in the start of your upper back barely missing your spine by two inches, his falling body end up slashing all the way along your back. This time you growled in agony loosing your grip on the vehicle, as both of you fell off the BMW you let off a massive discharge that even knocked you out briefly on the asphalt. Luckily Kate put themselves first and drove away.

The sound of screeching tires woke you up. You saw Walker on the floor, no heartbeat. Raising up was a challenge, with blurry eyes you saw Kate's retreating vehicle, but two other non shield vans got right behind them. No time to lick your wounds. You tumbled a little but you raised up to get rid of the vehicles.

You had to be careful to not cause civilian fatalities which earnt you several wounds: a vehicle running over you, a bus impacted you and a couple of gunshots. But in the end you scorted Kate's vehicle along other two shield SUVs up to the compound.

Steve, Natasha, Bucky, Sam and Pietro took care of the remaining attackers in central park and along the way. Your sister wired the motorcycle to use it.

As the small convoy reached the compound you begun to shrink back to your usual size. Maria was right by the main lobby waiting for you all with a medical team. Kate called her on the way and told her what she could see.

With wobbly legs you made it to the lobby and collapsed belly down. It has been a long time since you fought in wolf shape and used your powers like that.

Maria had a hard time keeping up her profesional persona. She prioritized your daughter, Kate's and Stevie's wellbeing, making sure they were fine before going to your side.

But Aileen had other plans as soon as Stevie was in Maria's arms and handed her the items you give her, she shifted to hurry to go to your side and nuzzle against you licking your face worriedly. You did your best to rub your muzzle against her to apeace her.

The medical team lowered an stretcher by your left side, with a last ditch of effort you raised barely enough to collapse on the stretcher sighing in relief at the comfyness.

Maria finally came by your side "is ok Y/N. They will take good care of you" you noded and licked her hand before the medical team rolled you away.

---

Four hours later Yelena's aircraft landed on the tarmac, she simply strolled in, in search of her wife. She found her with her mother Eleanor by her side. Kate seeing her panicked state behind the guarded look, she raised up and let Yelena have a good look at her.

"Thank God. You okey?" Yelena says craddling her wife face gently pulling her down to kiss her forehead. On the side Eleanor just smiled at the sight, she might not always see eye to eye with the blonde Widow but, there's no doubt her daughter is loved.

"My sestra, where is she?" Yelena asked looking around in a borderline frantic way.

Maria was walking in when she heard Yelena "She is okay. She is out still, Helen put her down to avoid she moving around much" coming closer she gave Yelena a gentle squeeze on her bicep, trying to ease her down.

"She protected me from getting stabbed" Kate said kissing Yelena's head lacing her hands tightly.

"The Rugrats?"

Eleanor walks close and puts a gentle hand on Yelena's shoulder "Darling why don't you just sit and take a breath? Kate is fine, the little troop is fine, your sister had medical treatment. She is good now.

"I-sure, ok" the Widow relents, Kate directs Yelena to a chair and both sit down leaning on each other. A couple of minutes later Antonia walked in with Yelena's mission bag, she told her to stay. They will take the others back to the farm.

Antonia asked Maria to just let her see you, and she accepted.

Aileen pup form yipped excitedly at the sight of the Widow.

("Tonia!")

"Hey pup! She kneeled down to hug the little shifter "taking care of your mama?”

("Yes! Will she be ok?") She asks the last with a wobbly voice.

"She will, she is one of the strongest women I've ever known and she trained me when I was a kid" she winked playfully. Antonia went ahead and ran a gentle hand through your fur before leaving, not without hugging little puppy Aileen tightly.

It took you a week to recover from the largest wound, well recover to a point where you could move around without feeling like being thorn apart. You had to stay in your wolf form, which was the best thing for the kids, funny as heck for the team and not so fun to Maria, who just wanted to kiss you, she enjoyed the cuddling though and playing with the soft-velvet wolf ears.

Kate, being Kate was so happy of you being in wolf form. She and Yelena weren't stopping anytime soon on thanking you for keeping them safe. Truth to be said you enjoyed cuddling your head against Kate's belly feeling the baby's feet and hand pushing against you and hearing her strong little heartbeat.

Now back in your human self Nick called you to his office.

"Given that the public knows who you are and Valentina knows you are alive. Is up to you if you keep your powers hidden still".

And you didn't, it was a waste of power for missions, you were now known as Thunder Wolf basically and obviously your original code name but now I'm English. You are now an official Avenger. But the greatest thing about this was the pride in Aileen's eyes "my aunts and uncles are Avengers, my mama is one too and my mom is their boss".

---

Things with Maria have it's ups and downs specially when it involves certain off grid jobs for Power Broker... Like is really hard to fool Maria, she is a great spy for a reason, your soul aches and dies a little everytime you have to deceive her to do what it has to be done. But you remember you are doing it for your daughter and for Maria.

Nick trusts you completely to handle this side missions. And usually you are able to pair them or make them simultaneously to helping out Yelena at freeing Widows.

As Aileen has grown older it has been a little easier to have alone time with Maria, alone time as in to have glorious sex marathons. Specially when the kid sleeps at a friend's house or she stays with her cousins. At fifteen she even babysits Wanda's twin sons, who are an adorable mayhem. They are three years old now. Other times she goes to Tony's house to nerd hard with Morgan.

The house is silent safe from the loud and unashamed pleasure screams scaping Maria's mouth. You took her to a fancy dinner, at your return to the house your wife surprised you with a jaw-dropping set of lingerie. Like a predator, after admired her you went to attack, you fucked her senseless is was a little rough you left hyckies all over her skin, her nipples are deliciously sore. And her pussy is already over sensitive and swollen from the endless make out sessions. Hill didn't let you get off easily, at some point she handcuffed you to a chair and gave you the sexiest and dirtiest lapdance ever, your back is deliciously scratched, hickeys? Maria never holds back your neck is a constellation, that she loves to take pictures of, due to you enhanced healing they usually heal way too fast for her liking.

The dark haired woman is stretched over you, her left bare leg over your hips, her breasts on yours. Blissfully naked and a little sticky with sweat, but Maria claimed being to sore to stand a shower, and too comfy to ditch this moment for a bath. And who are you to disobey your queen?

"Darling, Aileen is dangerously setting her mind on becoming an Avenger" she plants several kisses on your sternum before looking at you.

You sigh in defeat you try to reach out for the half smoked cigar but Maria stops your right hand with her left intertwining your fingers with a gentle firm grip.

"Talk to me" Maria rubs her thumb over the back of your hand.

"Is not that I don't want her. She is absolutely powerful and a excellent fighter. I just-" you sigh again in a little frustration "I don't want her life attached to this because she knows nothing better".

"The things we see, the things we do... I'm pretty sure Kate regrets it sometimes. People calls us heroes and yet they have no idea of the villainous, atrocious things we must do when the cameras aren't focused on us to keep them safe".

You feel her nodding her head before she sets her face on your skin "where's the kid that just wanted to be a UFC pro and a rockstar?" Maria says with a fond smile.

---

Even with the ups and downs Aileen was a raising MMA star. The kid was dangerous on the mats and the octagon. Maria and you supported her completely, Tony being the eccentric uncle even equiped the gym were she trained with the best of best. She had to wear a power damper but still she was a prodigy.

You and Maria made sure she had a private coach to work on her skills. Your wife and you couldn't be more proud of the kid, she was an excellent student, a soaring athlete and yes, she still had that rockstar dream floating around, she is an excellent bass player, she has the keen ear obviously and a powerful singer. Like she can pull off a Lzzy Hale or sing clean voice beautifully.

Usually you blast rock and metal on your car which has been quite bonding for the two of you, while Maria pretends she hates it, she loves it. Which makes Aileen laugh, her mom supposedly don't like rock and Metal but is the first at buying tickets for concerts.

When she is set to do gigs you and Maria go, if by any major reason your can't always at least one of the team go. Usually is Nat, Yelena or Wanda, Kate tags along with anyone that goes.

If someone had told you that after all you've been through. Life will give you a beautiful badass wife and an amazing daughter you wouldn't have believe it. But is true.

----

Aileen's manager thought it would be a good idea to engage social media platforms. The young fighter uploads videos of her training sessions, cooking her meals, sometimes even some of the Avengers join her making her comment section light up.

Today is the third time you joined her. The two of you decided to hit the climbing wall on the training facilities of the compound. Both of you with cargo pants and sports bra.

Aileen's friends were the ones recording the shenanigans you both pulled off. First you got along Aileen's standard training with her coaches before finally hitting off the climbing wall.

You both got into several rounds of racing up trying to defeat the other but youth versus experience was proving to be quite the tie.

"Come on Lee! Your mama is kicking your ass" her friends were teasing both of you but specially Lee since she was too self assure she could easily win... Boy she was wrong. Even with power damperer.

You playfully flex your arms "Decades in the making pup" you tease her "Besides this is easy cake comparing it to climbing a treacherous rock side with full battle gear on".

"Let's spice it up" Aileen said with a smirk "we put weighted vests and see who hits the clock faster".

You smile broadly at her, you gotta give it to her she has confidence "if I win, you cook and do laundry for a month".

"Easy, done" she says excitedly.

You wear a 70lb vest and Aileen a 35lb.

The first to go is Aileen who breaks the record by 35 seconds. She lets herself fall celebrating a presumably easy win.

"Come on mama Wolf, show her who is the boss!" Her friends had their money on you, the little shits.

You get yourself ready and as soon as the whistle is blown you move. With strength and agility you climb up faster than Aileen with ten seconds left you playfully hang with your left arm to show off with a playful hang loose sign you smirk at your daughter before pressing the timer botton with two seconds to spare.

"HELL YES!" Some of her friends shout in glee.

Is dinner time, courtesy of Aileen cooking when you see her flexing her face in disgust.

Maria quickly asks her what's wrong and the girl just pouts "nothing is just. I'm pretty used to people commenting on 'how hot' I look" she says with quote marks "but is quite disturbing when they say that about your mother".

You raise a curiously eyebrow and motion her to lend you her phone, she hesitantly does and your begin to scroll down the comments, they are priceless.

'mama wolf rail me'

'you lucky gal, sexiest mom alive you got there'

'is it me or the scars make mama Volkov hotter?'

'i bet her strap game is strong, Mrs. Volkov I respectfully ask you to rail me against the wall'

You completely loose it a that last one you read, you laugh a little more and recite Maria that epic comment.

"What's your connoceur opinion at that last comment Mrs.Hill?" You ask with a smirk.

Maria gives you a mischievous smile "out of ten? I'll give you a twenty darling"

"Oh god no! I don't wanna hear this. I'm out" Aileen gets impossibly red, snatches her phone out of your hand "enough ego stroking"

You only give her a loop sided grin.

"You know what, forget it. I'm sleeping at Aunt Yelena's place".

----

And right know sparring with your daughter feels surreal. Both of you wear power dampers, to relay fully on your skill. She is eighteen barely an inch shorter than Maria, you still have borderline three inches more but the kid has you on your toes.

Kate, Yelena and Natasha are outside the ring coaching both of you. The little ones are on Aileen's side "kick her butt Lee!" Tommy shouts at the top of his lungs making you chuckle. They might be nonblood cousins, but sometimes they act more like siblings.

Oh the beauty of youth. Aileen has fast punches. But the her danger resides on the fact that her style shifts along the fight she can be stoic and brutal, evasive and graceful like her widow aunts.

And the ultimate proof is how she ends you. You see it coming Natasha's Widow iconic move, but she uses it like Yelena. She just hauls you against the wire cage. Before you can react she jumps on your shoulders, grabs you by the neck with her legs and flips you with the momentum. You smack on the floor hard, she doesn't let go of her hold and tightens. You try rolling to stand but she rolls with you, like a crocodile. You could only tap out before you pass out.

"YES!" Morgan, Billy and Tommy shouted at the top of their lungs.

You raspily chuckled sprawled on the mat, your pup indeed kicked your ass.

"Still alive?" Yelena asks hovering with a wide smirk.

Aileen was kneeling by your right looking at you with a nervous and yet proud smile. She tapped your stomach "you ok mama?".

In a sudden move you pull the young woman to you to hug her tightly "Man, I've never been happier at getting my ass hurled to the floor".

"Volkov! Don't smother my daughter before her big fight" Maria shouts strolling in.

The two of you laugh "Nah I just strangled her she can't scape ME anymore" Aileen said with a cheeky grin.

"You little shit" you grumbled as she helped you raising up.

"My dear sestra, you are getting old" Yelena said patting your back forcibly, you glared at her "put on your gloves little shit".

Kate cut in quickly getting between you too "No, no, no, no. Enough you two. I don't want my wife all banged up tomorrow, we must slay that front row".

The rest of the day was all recovery for Aileen, tomorrow night is her first big stellar fight.

Big fight, big crowd. The whole A-team and troop was there at front row. Courtesy of Tony. While the others enjoyed the fights Maria and you were on the prep room with Aileen. The kid was over excited and buzzing with energy, you are pretty sure that if it wasn't for her power damper she would have electricity running over her skin.

She is restless even when the coach tells her to chill out she is ready. Maria goes to her and gently holds her shoulders "Love, you are ready, you are one of the best, just think is your mama there and kick her ass".

"Hey!" Your smile shifts into offended mode making Aileen and the coach crew laugh.

Before Maria and you leave to take your seats you two hug and kiss the kid in the head wishing her the best.

You lean forehead to forehead with her "You got this mor grom shchenok give em hell".

Maria and you exit hand to hand the locker room, you offer her your arm in a chivalrous manner. Like you know she rocks the shit out of her high heels, but you love how she walks flush to you when your arms are interlocked.

The roar of the public when Aileen "Thunder Punch" Volkov-Hill is called to the octagon is deafening. Truly electrifying.

You see her stepping in with so much focus and confidence. Man you couldn't be prouder, and your smile tells it all. Maria interlocks your fingers and you can feel her pride. When you take the chance to look at her you see her looking at the kid with so much pride.

"You got this Lee!" The tiny twins, Stevie, Stella and Morgan shout at the top of their lungs.

"Kick her ass Lee!" Tommy shouts right after making everyone around laugh.

"That's twenty to the swear jar!" Steve says with a wink. Like you all doesn't give much a damn about the kids saying a bad word once in a while, none of you are better.

[lonewolfwrittenuniverses]

Hi @simp4panos thanks for reading, I'm happy you enjoyed the story.

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BODYGUARD

This is Maria Hill x reader.

Synopsis: reader is a super soldier rescued by Maria Hill and the Avengers. Will they end up together on a world of spies, fights and lies?

Read to find out.

Enjoy.

Darkness, coldness, emptyness. There was a time where your ears used to ache in silence, now like this dark room is emptyness.

You can't remember how you got at this point, you just remember training, learning while you were human you suck it all up and did Hydras will you even did missions along the Winter Soldier, you worked well together, two out of the six best assassins on the organization. after being experimented on everything changed, you got all the attributes of a super soldier. That's when Hydra lost the leash, you tried several times to scape, followed by awful punishments when captured. The longest you got away was six months. When they captured you again the changed the leash for chains, straight jacket and muzzle. You killed at least 25 agents. When you were unnecessary you where thrown into cryo freeze.

Now for missions they injected something and put a collar with locator. You saw like a first point of view everything. They left you with no means to scape. You had a schedule, you can even say they pooty trained you, it sounds 'fun' you still wonder where that word comes from.

Back to present endeavors, the guard are late to bring in your meal, if you can call that awful poultry food. The light that comes from the narrow window of the metal door has been flickering for some time. Which is odd and yet not uncommon.

Then you heard it, the screams, the guns shots, some punches, more screams. You see one of the guards pass across the narrow window trying to get in. But someone shots him down, his blood sprinkles the already dirty glass.

A female voice, raspy tone, she might be talking into some device. Chosing to make no sound you stay on the dark. When things settle down you'll try to break free. The straight jacked has been already giving out, you've been forcing it for a couple of months.

No luck you hear the woman messing with the electronic lock until it clicks open. Another pair of boots arraive. You hear nothing until the door is kicked open and two figures appear on the door threshold. One tall and lean, other smaller and athletic. They keep their guns drown.

Then the strong lights are flicked on leaving you momentary blinded, but you can hear them marching close with tactical steps.

When your sight adjusts you see them clearer, indeed two women, the tall one black hair a bright blue eyes. The other redhead and with green eyes. Both look trained and strong guns still on you, that's wise. The logo on their uniform, they are S.H.I.E.L.D well if they kill you at least the nightmare is over.

"Are you a prisoner or an agent?" The redhead questions.

You choose silence, is not like you could talk easy with the muzzle on.

"Do you speak English? Rasiya? Español?" The dark haired woman tries next.

Silence.

You hear them discussing that maybe is the muzzle, it seems to imped your jaw movement.

The taller woman unsheathes her hunting knife showing you and getting close "I'm going to take the muzzle off. Not hurt you" you blink once, after some struggle the muzzle is loosened, taking the opportunity you open and close your jaw and move it side to side "better?" She asks you nod. The redhead tries to grab the metal clasp keeping you against the wall but you halt her grunting a "no". Then you look at the panel on the left side.

After a couple of minutes the metal clasps open and you almost fall face on the floor, but the tall woman catches you on time and lays you on the floor. The two of them together free you from the straight jacket and help you out.

You follow their lead while your body gets it's senses but as soon as you feel somewhat loosened up you bolt away from them.

It doesn’t take long for your body to get in working mode. When their briefly turn their backs on. You flee away

*Guys the woman we found is trying to scape! She is running to the east side... She is jumping down the stairs from the fifth floor* the red head shouts through their communication device.

Not your lucky day, two other intercept you. Captain America with his shield and for your surprise the Winter Soldier is there.

"Mad Dog?! Stay down" thmetal arm man says, his voice sounds different, more human, his eyes too, bright blue, unlike the dullness they had before.

"We don't want to hurt you, come with us" Captain America says.

"Get out of my way" you growl at them.

"Can't do".

A fight breaks loose you manage two put up with them even in your state. But when Iron Man comes to play you loose. A ram with the shield sends you to crack a wall, Iron Man fires a stun wave, you brave on to be met on a exchange with the soldat who knocks you out after a combo of upper cut on your liver with his metal arm, blow to the head and metal elbow on your jaw.

The next thing you know you wake up on another metal room, you sigh and raise up to sit on the cot and let your head bang against the wall. Well, you are still alive, why can't you just die?.

The next days the redhead and the winter soldier come to interrogate you, you give them some one word answers and request to speak with Director Fury, which at first was denied. And you refused to speak anymore.

Two weeks later the man walked in "So?" He asks standing in front of you.

"Why am I still alive? You question is simple but interesting for the man.

"Intel".

You humm and tilt your head "What do you want? After that you kill me, right?".

Nick was warn by Natasha about your seemingly lack of interest in being alive. He nods.

"ask away".

"The other soldats, where are kept?".

"Dead".

"How come?".

"I Killed them".

"Why?".

"They were bad people, unstable, cold blooded" well mark it down that's the longest answer you've given.

"What are you?"

You shrug and look at is only eye "worse".

Giving the director all the Intel you knew was easy, you never saw him again. The redhead Natasha, Bucky the winter soldier, another guy that came Clint, Hawkeye and Maria the tall dark haired woman. Came almost every day or every other day. You even were given the chance to train, your wounds were tended, you were fed three meals for the first time. The food was amazing.

A month later Maria and Fury came in and offered you a job. Being an agent and Avenger. You had nothing to loose, if they are not killing you, then you need to work.

Turns out you are a great addition to the team, skilled, strong and quick-thinker. You could work along with the Avengers, you could go solo on very hard missions and came out alive.

Still you kept to your own business, sometimes reading, training or simply enjoying a smoke on central park. If not, in your room.

At first the team, specially Tony seemed on the mission of making you talk. But it wasn't your thing, it wasn't long until Natasha treathen them to leave you alone and you were greatful.

As things settle down you begun forming bonds with all the team members, simple things. You even get along with Maria the team even jokes that you are her personal bodyguard, it was a recurring joke you even chuckled at it. It was all fun until Hydra in alliance with other mob groups did an assassination attempt on her.

Luckily that day you tagged along with her, she insisted on you wearing a vest under your clothes. After some arguing you did.

It was supposed to be an Intel retrieval with one of her sources, and you were weary. You weren't wrong, a small army came from the back industrial gate. Everything played out so fast, you end up using the snitch as a shield for Maria and together shoot your way out to the armored black Yukon but you were greeted by another spray of bullets. You tackled down Maria and used your body to protect her. Now you were pissed as fuck "Get in" you ordered.

Pissed as heck you stand up and begun shooting down the snipers with a deadly accuracy. For the people coming through the warehouse you grabbed a small explosive from the back of your belt and threw it at them. As the building explode you drove away.

At first you thoughts it was over until you saw the three vans and five bikes coming right behind you.

"Duck!" You shouted as bullets hit the SUV.

After the first rush of bullets and Maria and you took turns at shooting down the attackers specially the bikes.

You used all your ability to drive her away luckily back up came and they opened a clear path for you to reach the Avengers tower.

Hate to admit you sloppy halted the vehicle on the underground garage. The two of you were panting, hearts over beating with adrenaline "your agents need better response timing Hill" you said playfully at her. She laughed, whole heartedly "Of course the longest sentence you ever tell me will be that" you tried to chuckle but pain stopped you instead you grunted you looked down your dark dress shirt looked darker and wet in some places you rip it open, oh no that's bad enter and exit holes on the bullet vest "Fuck".

"Shit! They hit you" maria exclaimed *I need medical assistance, agent Mad Dog was hit several times* Natasha, Sam and Bucky were running to the vehicle when they heard through the comms the request of medical.

Sam and Bucky hurried to your side and helped you out. Luckily Sam was there to instruct the others to put pressure on the wounds, but you already lost a lot of blood and passed out.

Surgery, a long one and two days later you woke up, hazzy and disoriented.

"Hi hero of the day" a husky voice said by your left Natasha.

"Hi, is Maria ok?" You don't see her in the room and it makes you worried "I'm not hero".

"She is, and yes you are a hero. Even when you don't like it".

Shrugging you settle down on the bed, Nat offers you some water which you gladly take. After the doctors came Maria also came to visit you, you smiled at her and she chuckled "You look proud of yourself" she said with a teasing tone.

"I am, you are good. Just some minor wounds".

From there you all got closer and for their dismay you became the team bodyguard, even to Clint and that's not an easy feat. Sam's recent way to tease you was singing "I will always love you" which make you cackle, the man was a goofball.

"Tone it down bird brain" you say after calming down your ribs still sore from your recent stunt to save Clint from falling twelve stories down. You managed to shove him into the building but end up falling six stories into some ducts. Earning you a split eyebrow and broken ribs. That was a month ago.

"My Mad Savoir!" Clint exclaimed coming to give you a side hug and a kiss on the cheek, you grunted in fake annoyance.

For four years everything was calm that is until Tony decided to try the brilliant idea of making Ultron come to life after you all recovered the scepter. The night of the show down you saved Dr. Cho.

"-You all are killers, specially those two" the robot said pointing at Bucky and you. The Winter Soldier and Mad Dog".

You got visibly angry "Don't be mad darling, you can't even remember your life before. But I read it all. The best infiltration killer for the American army. You were trapped on the same facility as James, you are the original Hydra Winter Soldier. Mad Dog the feared soldier, you made blood baths. But you don't remember, do you?”…

After his little speech the fight broke loose. You aid Bruce before Natasha took over, after destroying a couple of robots you saw one going for doctor Cho. You ran in her aid and after killing a couple they ganged on you. Earning a blast on your chest at point blank, the blast sent you to the floor down crashing a glass table. Giving you a mild cardiac arrest. After Thor destroyed the robot, they heard Cho asking for help.

They all run to you "She was shot at blank point" Helen says checking your pulse.

"Ok, Helen please move aside a little" Tony used his repulsor a couple of times until your heartbeat got normal again.

That night you retired to your room, while the others fought and bickered with Tony about this new threat.

On Johanessburg you stopped the Maximoffs from getting to Bruce, you fought against both. Before knocking out the girl she send some red smoky energy in your head, you managed to fight through the haze and held the boy at gun point "ok, pretty boy. Last chance, get your sister and fuck off or I'll kill you both" something blurred your sight, when you blinked a soldier on second world war uniform was begging mercy. Your hold faltered between tightening and loosing up.

"Ok! Ok! I give up. Let me go, we will go". His frantic accented voice brings you to present.

"Y/N?" Bruce asks walking from behind you "Stay there Bruce" you let go of the boys neck and see him speeding off with his sister.

The fly back was a mess. As soon as the quinjet landed on the farm, you went to Clint's barn to get your spare motorcycle.

"Mad Dog!" Sam shouted running behind you "Y/N!"

You straddle the bike put your helmet on and revive the engine Sam tood on the door "Y/N, get off the bike. Let's talk it out" you ignore him and maneuvered beside him and went away.

Unknown to them you went back to New York, you didn't felt stable enough to not being a danger to Clint's kids and you loved the Rugrats.

At the tower Maria was waiting for you when you step into the common room to grab a bottle of whiskey, she drinks with you. You tell her a little about what Wanda made you see. That night you end up having messy half drunk sex with her, is not the first time nor the last one. Is just that, Maria and you take what the other offer for the moment, no tags, no strings, no issues. Just flickery moments of solace in each other's arms.

When everyone was back you saw them, the Maximoff twins were there and no sign of Natasha. You didn't gave a damn about the craddle or what they were bitching about. You went for Steve "Where is she?!"

"Y/N calm down" Steve tried.

"Y/N back off, this is about the cradle" Tony tried "We need this, to defeat Ultron-"

"An that's your fucking problem Stark! mine is finding Natasha" you looked around and walked to the twins "you two better tell me where that machine has her" the glass gives up under Pietro and he falls.

"Pietro!" She tries to move but the barrel of your gun greets her and make her halt "Talk".

Everything became a circus after that, Vision was 'born' then you all went into battle. Bruce rescued Nat, while you all went to fight.

The rest of the team went to the city you all walk down the ramp you see the Captain America graffiti "you have a fan base cap" making Sam and Bucky laugh.

"seriously?" He says before taking off his helmet and hurling it back in the jet "You barely talk and when you do is for this?"

You shrug and jog away, to investigate around some key buildings, nothing. Wondering what the heck the robot has planned, you stay standing for a little bit. He wants to destroy everything, extinction he said... A bomb? Where can he hide something big if it's not on the buildings... You slap your head, of course underground.

*Maximoffs any big abandoned structure on the city?*

*Y/N you are uncharacteristically hyper-verbal on this mission* Tony teases you on the comms.

*I can see your ass standing still. Move it* Bucky says with a playful tone *We got people to evacuate*

*that's your mission can opener, not mine* you fire back.

*The church on the center* Wanda answers.

You don't answer anything else and make your way to the church. Instructing people to leave the city. At first they pay no mind, they look apprehensive and afraid of you, you can't blame them you are armed to the teeth, on top the M249 SAW and you got two belts of ammo crossing your torso.

*Our dear Mad Dog is scaring the civilians* Sam said with a singy teasing voice. That was until robots begun appearing from everywhere.

*Y/N/N I think is time you let the dog loose* Tony said looking around *I'll go to the church*.

There's a point in battle where all of you regroup on the church fight to protect the key to Ultron's dispositive.

When things quiet down a little you hear someone calling you "Tell me that's not your blood" Natasha says coming closer to grab your chin and inspect your face, you shrug.

"Clint, I took some elderly and pregnant woman to the quinjet. Fly them to the Hellicarrier" you say Barton nods "I give you a ride old man" he picks him up as speeds away.

*Hey Clint! You make a beautiful bride* Bucky says teasing the blonde man through the comms.

*Fuck off all of you*

When the group splits again you stay with Wanda covering her six. Her twin comes back with two ammunition belts "This ok for you?" He hands them over, you quickly asses them and nod.

"Go help civilians" Wanda says to her twin, they get into bickering and you grin internally at their banter. Which gets interrupted by an incoming bot that Wanda shoots down before you "Go".

If this couldn't get worse the battle intensifies even more, to the point of you keeping the dispositive and Wanda safe. Until S.H.I.E.L.D and Sokovian military back up arraived to let you breath a little.

The battles rages on.

Your weapon carelessly falls on the ground and you put pressure on the deep cut on your right arm, looking at it you see that is bleeding heavily, shit. At least the robot couldn't stab the brunette on the back since you shoved her away to save her.

After a quick patch up by one of the S.H.I.E.L.D agents the battle went on harshly until Vision let you all know that Ultron was gone, but his mini-mes were trying to get away.

Yeah, it was quite fun one moment they are trying to stab you on the heart, luckily it halted to flee away "Wanda, you and S.H.I.E.L.D guard this shit. Military with me".

Who knows how later, but it was night time you walked to one of the ports where civilians were loaded to the Hellicarrier. For their safety they will spend the night on the ship. Until the city is thoroughly swept clean.

"Mad Dog" oh no stern voice, the deputy is pissed. You try to pass her by to avoid her wrath but she grabs you by the back of your uniform neck with a harsh tug that make your whole body ache.

"Why haven't you answered you damned comm link?"

You take the small device out of your pant pocket "Broken".

Maria makes you turn around and shines a lamp on your face "For fucks sake agent. Where were you?"

"Fighting".

She shakes her head partly in amusement, part angry at your carelessness "Med ward, NOW".

"Yes ma'am" Tired, hungry and hurted you didn't had the will to argue or run. You boarded one of the transfer vehicles and went to get tended.

You end up laying on a gurney only with your undergarments, you had cuts and scrapes all over. And that's how Wanda found you for her embarrassment. Smirking at her blashfulness you raised an enquiring eyebrow.

"Sorry! I just, um Natasha asked me to look for you here. Dinner is about to be served" nodding at her you closed your eyes to hid your pain when the doctor opened the cut on your arm to wash it thurougly, dirt and blood fell off.

"We need about half an hour, her backside is no better" the doctor said, the brunette nodded and went away.

For your surprise she and her twin were outside the room at your exit "Hi" she said shily "Let us help you" Pietro said when he saw the limp on your left sife getting on your affected side he helped you put your arm over his shoulders "Lean on me". They helped you getting to the dining area.

"Well, I won't feel that bad about myself. Look how Mad Dog ended" Sam said with a wide smile, he was quite banged too. Almost all the team was beaten except Vision for obvious robotic reasons and Bruce.

When you were sitting Wanda helped you getting you a plate of food in front of you, you gave her a small smile and a soft thank you which earn the two of you a bunch of teasing from almost everyone.

When dinner was over Nick and Maria walked in and gave instructions, the first was you and Barton benched, that prompted a grumpy Hawkeye and you tilted your head in defiance at the director.

"Mad Dog, you are benched. I saw your medical report" you breath out forcibly through your nose "I'm good".

"You look like a beaten dog Y/L/N I won't repeat myself" Nick said giving you his unnerving stare.

"Control room?".

"She can tag along with me, there's a lot of paperwork to fill in" Maria said.

That's how you found yourself dozing off at three am in Maria's office on your fight to stay awake you didn't see the soft smile drawn on her lips. When your head finally lost the battle, she went to your side and lift you bridal style to lay you on the small couch of her office, using one of the cushions are your pillow and the other to keep your ankle risen. She brushed away some stray hairs and kissed your forehead before going back to work.

The next day you woke up to an empty office, you figured Maria was busy. So you decided to make yourself useful and ended the paperwork she left on her desk before going out.

Nick benched you, that doesn't mean you will do as he says. You respect him and wouldn't hesitate to lay down your life at his command but, not today. You might be hurt and aching, you can still fight.

After arming yourself to the teeth again you join Melinda, Daisy, Bobbi and Hunter on their turn to sweep clean buildings. Three hours into working along them your comm link cracks to life with a very pissed Agent Romanoff *Agent Mad Dog, bring your ass back to the Hellicarrier, immediately*.

"hahahaha roasted" Daisy exclaimed and you glared at her.

"You snuck away really good this time, took them longer" Bobbi said with a fist bump and a very displeased Melinda glaring at you both.

*Agent Romanoff, Mad Dog is good with us. Her strength help us check between debris".

Mark it down you are proud. Fifteen more robots, three alive civilians found, three dogs and two cats you all go back to the Hellicarrier.

Nick and Maria intercepted you at the med ward. Fury on his very director persona threaten to fire your ass if you pulled shit like that again and left you under Maria's supervision.

Three months later all of you are back on the Avengers Tower. Tony is already building the Avengers compound set to be open on a year or year and a half tops.

Right now you find yourself on the meeting room with Nick, Maria, Natasha and Clint.

"The Maximoffs, they need formal training. On all bases. Hill will supervise you three during their training. They must function not only as enhanced individuals for Avengers, they must be able to work as field agents. Am I clear?"

"Aye Aye sir" Clint said playfully making you all roll your your eyes.

Unexpectantly for everyone as the training of the twins went on, you found yourself being like an older sister to them. Natasha was a step away from adopting them, Clint, well Clint was Clint he already treat them like if they were their children. And his kids saw them as older siblings.

Your quiet nature didn't change, but with them it fell at ease. While Natasha taught them how to spy and manipulation, you and her made a team for teaching them hand to hand combat, Bucky joined and taught them weaponry prompting some fights between the three of you about methods, which was fun to witness. Clint being the must experienced one, to not say old taught them protocols and survival.

With the Maximoffs addition the disfuctional family got bigger. Missions rolled around. And now you stand by the tarmac on the rooftop of the tower. Smoking a cigarette, you are set to go undercover for four months in Africa. Hydra got on the ivory illegal market, just to move around their shady deals for their own financial benefit. Is going to be dangerous as heck, but is you find the right thread you will find the base where operations are run by. Ulysses already acceded to help in exchange on a high-tech prosthetic for his lost arm.

You see the wind carryon the smoke your bags are already on the jet.

"Change of plans agent. We are going by commercial airline" Maria says walking closer to you.

"We?" You ask blowing smoke to the wind again.

"How's your military jargon? You are joining VETPAWS to get there with an undercover".

"If you mean WWII jargon I'm expert, otherwise I could use some help".

Maria was with you for a week before leaving. From there you were with the organization, operating with and without them. When you found a solid lead you parted ways they offered you to be on touch for backup.

The mission was completed a week before the time-frame. The whole Avengers team came and swept clean the base before destroying it to the ground. When the fight was over and the shambles were burning down Wanda and Pietro came running to you and gave you a giant hug.

"We fucking missed you" Pietro said before Wanda, she put her hands on your cheeks and studied your face "You look tired, are you hurt?"

You took Wanda's hands and put them over your temples signaling her to read your mind ("I was, I got hit by a dart with poison. I've felt tired since then").

"ohmygod, Y/N!"

"oh huh that's not good" Sam said walking closer. When Wanda told them all what you said they got worried, you shrugged and took a cigarette from the crumpled box. You haven't had much chance to smoke, always at the risk of being exposed by the smell.

On the fly back Bruce and Sam put you on a drip and did some tests to find what it was. A very effective rudimentary poison from a three, capable to kill an elephant.

"You are lucky you are a super soldier Y/N otherwise you'd be dead" Bruce said with a frown. S.H.I.E.L.D scientists were already working on a antidote. You had body aches and cramps once in a while, you were better than when you were first poisoned.

"You couldn't move out of the way?" Tony asked confused at how you got hit.

"It was a dart. That damned shit makes no noise, I realized when I felt it hit my neck. From there it was a hazzy memory of three days: I almost got rammed by a rhino and mawled by a pack of lions".

"How did you scaped?" Pietro asked with curiosity written all over his face.

"No fucking idea... Maybe if Wanda reads my mind you can find out".

Wanda tried, your mind was a disaster of blurry memories. She screamed in freight when she saw the memory of the rhino. And got scared out of her skin by the lions hunting you in night time.

Back at the compound you got the debrief done before a very condecending Fury sent you to rest on your room, get a bath and wait for medical. You did. Like a clock the doctors were there half an hour after, put you on a antidote drip and fluids. Rest for 48hrs.

Luckily after lunch time, the twins and you settled for watch some movies. Mostly kid-rated ones, four movies and a obscene amount of junk food later, mostly Pietro and you eating they left to rest.

Fast asleep, you were still on edge from the mission, it was truly nerve wracking after the poison. Scratch that you were almost paranoid. The sound of your door being opened without warning make you pull out your gun to whoever was sneaking on you.

"Hey Y/N, calm down. Is me I'm sorry, never meant to scare you".

When your eyes focus you see Maria's slander body shape and her voice calms you down "I could have shot you".

"Yeah, I didn't think it through. Next time I'll knock.

Clearing the chamber, you put back the gun under the pillow and extend your left hand to her, she smiles "Let me change". You fall asleep again. Before getting on the bed Maria "speaks to you softly to not spook you again" when she lays down you automatically pull her closer to you "Y/N You will pull out the drip"

"Don't care"

"Too bad, I do. Let me fix this thing" after some more rustling the two of you finally settle to fall asleep.

A successful mission meant a week off duty to recover.

Maria tried to get off bed at five am but, you didn't let her "Y/N, I have work to do".

"Me too, lie in my bed. I will work you good" you said with a smirk. Your arms reach out to wrap around her waist and she gives up, you smile triumphally as she rolls the two of you over to straddle your hips.

Your left palm sets below your head as your right hand finger nails graze up her tigh under her loose shorts. You feel her shiver and you smile widely. She does a quick job taking off her tank top and you admire her beauty, damn woman she is fit.

"Do all your agents get this reward after a successful mission?".

"No, just an insufferable one that is quiet everywhere but in bed with me".

Lifting up your torso you begin to plant ope mouthed kisses from below her sternum to her clavice, neck... How much you love kissing and grazing your teeth on her neck, feeling her tendons stretch and contract, her breath hitches. Kisses along her chiseled-goddess-like jawline. The two of you continue the make out session while your hands knead and work her breasts, rolling her nipples and tugging them gently. Her fingernails claw your back, making you shiver "Damaged goods get no refund, darling".

"Good. I'm keeping you" she gently pushes you back, and helps you taking off your shirt to lie in bed. "You should be resting" briefly getting off of you she takes off her short and undies to straddle you again, making you humm in appreciation "Already that wet?" You wiggle your eyebrows playfully, your hands immediately attach to her firm butt kneading te muscles.

"Oh shut up and put that mouth to work" she glares down at you, her eyes look dark with her pupils dilated.

Without a warning you drag her with your hold on her butt, she quickly adjust to straddle your face. You tease her a little nipping and kissing the inside of her tighs, which proves hard when you can feel her wetness falling on your neck, the warmth of her core and that divine smell.

"Stop teasing me and fuck me" she orders with her deputy voice, you chuckle before diving in to make out with her lower lips, tugging, nipping and sucking like a starving woman. She buckles and trembles. You make her loose control and she moans, whimpers and screams your name. Oh this will earn you a shit ton of teasing from the Avengers, but right now you don't give a damn, and you can't really heard it, het tighs pressing and squeezing your head muffled her sounds, and you want to hear them. You work her to overdrive, your hands give her butt cheeks a last slap before moving up to her breasts she tries to keep you off but her strength is no match when her mind if foggy with pleasure.

Like a predator waiting to strike you play with her breast and nipples until your feel her almost getting to climax. That's when you strike pinching and tugging her nipples. As she voices the dirtiest-loudest moan while her body shakes and trembles as it shoots down in pleasure. You gently guide her to lay down your head still between her legs. You kiss her mound and navel while her hands tug and graze your hair with each pleasure tremor.

As her body relaxes and she reaches for your hands, and frowns when she feels the IV entry. You already dozed off again, using her front as pillow. Luckily Maria is tall, she reaches out and grabs the small first aid kit you keep on the side table. After gently taking it out she clean it and wrap it with a band-aid, she jiggled at the design with paw prints. Pietro bought it for you as joke since is veterinary use. But you use it anyway since they are self adherent.

For everybody's surprise not only Tony got married, he decided to retire and went back to live in the city. None of you was against it that is, and with the twins now more experienced and powers under control his absence was felt, yes. But the team managed. Wanda and Vision started dating now they have two years of official relationship, let's be honest they were dating at least half a year before. You an Natasha noticed. But Vision was a good guy, he was still awkward and learning, but he was gentle and attentive. And if Pietro's shovel talk was dramatic yours was worse when you showed him a magazine with vibranium bullets you stole from Ulysses.

"You break her heart Vision, and I will leave you like a perforated metal panel, am I clear?".

"I-I yes, ma'am" he said nervously side glancing at Wanda "Is that all Y/N/N?" She asked with a mix of pride and annoyance.

You only gave her a nod.

Fury assigned you to a mission that did a number between Maria and you. You went undercover for a year with a group of dangerous black market dealers in Madripoor. It wasn't about the time, it was about how dangerous it was. You end up having to use drugs and do awful things to blend in. Which Maria detested. You also had to deal with Baron Zemo, that was the easiest part. The man is a snake but he has a code.

Along the mission you found something absolutely dreading, apparently the Red Room was up and operating. You couldn't believe it and led by Dreykov. But Natasha killed Dreykov, a look a like? Someone using the name?

You tried to dig in to that, and pure dead-ends. The only solid clue and thread you had was the child trafficking. But the organization you were in didn't stole or buy the kids. Once in a while they shared transport with one of the crime organization who did.

Unfortunately, to keep cover your code name begun popping up on Ross radar. You had to do some awful shit to stay in, The Mawler.

You are gazing at the sea on Siloso Beach, Singapore. Lazily resting on a sun bed, smoking a cigar and beer in hand.

“I’m pulling you out of this mission. Effective immediately” Maria said after she took the sun bed beside you.

Without moving your head you side glance at her and you almost get a heart-attack. She is wearing a damned sexy one piece swimsuit.

“With that you aren’t passing unadverted” you say taking a drag of your cigar.

“I’m hoping this convives you to go back”

“Quite close, but I can’t. I’m close to what we need”.

Maria and you spent a week there. It was a bitter sweet week. Where you two bickered and fought which only resulted in hateful make out sex.

In the end on the last day Maria decided to put an end to the relationship. She could no longer put up with what you were doing to yourself for this mission. Your elbows sport the evidence of the needles, heroine. She told you about Ross close eyes on you.

You didn’t wanted to let her go but, you understood her fears, you had them too. You were getting way to deep.

When you finally came back after bringing down the organization with Coulson's team. You were greeted by Wanda, Pietro and Vision, yes in the end you got along with the android he is good company full of facts that blow your mind.

When you saw Maria and Natasha cozy on the living room, you knew. You had lost your chance. Not gonna lie you love Maria, but both of you got awfully guarded around each other during your mission. Natasha and Maria have been on an off on the past, so you just accept it and move on.

Now with the looming danger of the Red Room, you must to what you do best. Keeping them all safe. And that means keeping this secret and going behind everyone's backs to dig intel.

Months went by, before you used to keep on your own at the compound. Now any given free time you are out, traveling or driving, you even go AWOL during missions. Making Maria doubtful of your loyalties. Even Fury us having second thoughts. And everything goes to shit when you all are tasked to keep world leaders safe during a submit and the place is attacked. You got there late, Fury notified you of the mission, but you went awol again chasing threads on the red room.

Is messy, a disaster. Between the attackers and trying to stay on the shadows you see two familiar uniforms, their moves like Natasha's. Without report or orders you go for them. After a brief fight, you found two undetonated bombs. You notified the team and guard it until authorities aradheren

When you returned to the team Steve was angry "Where were you?!"

"Chasings suspects"

"Oh yeah? I don't see any" Sam said crossing his arms.

"They got away. I lost them between the fleeting people".

48 hours later, you were set on a week mission. Unknown to you it was to keep you away and gather declarations and evidence, you were framed as participant of the bombing. In your ignorance you went AWOL again.

When you returned, the twins, Natasha and Bucky were on a mission and they were due to be back the next day. Ross and his elite team got in the compound after lunch time. Demanding the director to hand you over. All the evidence was lay out to you on the conference room, Ross and Fury previously got into an agreement. You are handed over, the press never knows about this. And for your heart-break they did. Everything fell into place to frame you as mole.

"Fury! You gotta the shitting me. I was helping, I went there as an Avenger"

"You went awol 36 hours before that mission. You did it again, in your last mission. All evidence points to you".

"Bullshit! I've been nothing but loyal to you and this cause".

Ross retrieves something from his jacket "Explain your possession of vibranium bullets".

"I got them from Ulysses Klaue an exchange during a mission time ago".

"An you never handed them over to your superior?"

"What I do or not is not of your inconvenience" you growl at the man.

"Search her" he orders sternly.

One of his men come behind you and with his baton puts you on a choke hold. The agents quickly pat you down and expose the drugs you have on you (fucking shit, not my day).

"Hmm... Is this the quality of agents keeping civilians safe? Fury" the old man taunts the Director who stands glaring at you. Yeah, you are fucked.

"Maria please, this is a fucking mistake. I'm not involved in that bombing. You know me" you beg and plead for her to believe you but is a lost cause. You see it in her eyes, the admiration, commaderie, friendship and love is gone "Agent Y/N Y/L/N you are under arrest, your rank, badges and credentials are cancelled effective immediately".

You physically feel something breaking inside your chest, it takes mere fraction of seconds for your face to become blank and lifeless. A price to pay, to lost it all. At least she will be happy.

The agents handle you roughly and you don't give a damn. You simply take it all and let them push you around to the awaiting transport.

Along the hallways you cross gazes with Bobbi and Sharon, but the agent behind you smacks you in the eyebrow with the butt of his rifle "eyes to the front Mad Dog" he orders, and you get angry. Stopping abruptly.

"Move!" You don't give an inch.

"YN, just go" Bobbi says worriedly.

You cross gazes with the agent hurrying you "Fuck you!" You break out on a fight, a fight that gets the attention of everyone. And you go completely animal, honoring your code name until electrified batons and elephant grade tranquilizers put you down.

When you wake up you are bumping and rolling around in the back of a vehicle that jumps up and down, you hit your head several times but the tranquilizer still has its hold on you.

"What do you mean, Ross arrested her and not even three hours later lost her? Are you kidding?! Wanda and Pietro protest angrily.

The team get into a massive verbal fight, some believe it, others don't. Is a circus.

When you wake up, the first thing you see is the blurry shape of an IV on your elbow, with a blue liquid.

"Where's Romanoff?" A husky voice from somewhere around questions.

You ignore it and keep quiet, from there is who knows how many days of being beaten up. That is until you hear one of the women calling the other Yelena. Between the hazy moments you catched the hour glass on their uniform... Could it be? Yelena Belova, Natasha's long lost little sister.

Groaning as you get concious again you hear the blonde getting close, her face half hidden by a bandana "wakey-wakey imposter".

"So, will you talk? Or do I begin pulling off nails, maybe a sever a finger?"

You lift your head to look at her hazel eyes "Look. I don't know what you want with Natasha but, I am no disguise. I end up being framed and accused guilty. If I'm no use just kill me already".

Turns out she was indeed Yelena, and the other woman is a Black Widow too. Both Red Room deserters. They explained everything, with nothing else to loose you offer them your help to find that hell hole.

A year later you got contact with the twins again. They hugged you tightly when you saw them again. They cried like little kids. You held them and kissed their heads. From there you got in touch once in a while and mostly when they were alone on missions or with Vision.

Only once you got in touch with Maria, and it was during a scouting mission she had in Turkey.

Wanda gave you the heads up on Maria going solo to that mission. You were in Bulagary so you took the chance.

She was sitting outside a tea shop, you've been observing her. Someone tip her mark, from the outside you saw him getting suspicious. Ever honoring your nick name you got some key intel on the man. You made some deals with him, but he is a fake fat fish. You already flipped him off and deal with someone more important.

After buying a tea, you casually walk to her table and clear your throat to catch her attention "May I make you some company?"

Maria hides her surprise perfectly and motions for you to seat "What brings you here?" She asks.

"I was just passing by and I saw you. Figured we could have a friendly chat" you look directly at her hand below the table, she was about to rat you out.

She puts the cellphone on the table and leans back crossing her arms "you escaped Ross".

You chuckle at her words "Is not hard to begin with... You shouldn't believe everything Ross says, I thought Nick and you were better. The masters in deceive got deceived by made up evidence" you gave her a mockery low applaud "Outstanding".

Maria's eyebrows furrow "you know there's a protocol for that, you escaped and never came back".

"You should have trusted me and believed in me, darling" you take a sip of the tea to stop your tongue from lashing out.

Maria looks at you with disbelief "well darling, you were recurrent on going AWOL during missions, you consumed drugs, you were on possession of drugs when you were arrested. Vibranium bullets? Madripoor did a number, didn't it? You were acting off, you wanted trust?"

You grit your teeth hard enough, that even on the busy market she hears it "Did it ever crossed your mind that I could have a good reason? I did nothing but keep you all safe, because you all were my family, I loved you. Stupidly I still do, that's why I am here to tell you that your mission is a waste of time".

Maria's eyes widen at your words "Then come back with me, now. Let's clear this out".

Shaking your head you gulp down the last of your tea "Too late for that. You two abandoned me in the woods, I learnt to be a wolf" standing you you retrieve a little journal and put it in front of her "write a good essay for me, will you?"

Maria watched you go, you blended in faster than she could have guessed.

Three years later, Oksana, Yelena and you keep hitting dead ends. Nothing, no trace of a physical place. All former installations, abandoned relics, nothing. Three laps around the sun on the run, god knows how many vodka bottles and a obscene amount of cigarettes and cigars. The three of you became a dangerous team, doing mercenary jobs here and there to finance the search. Madripoor your recurrent hiring spot.

Wanda contacted you a few days ago. You were in Croatia. After barely scaping Task Master you took two airplanes, train and boat to meet Wanda and Vision who where undercover. She told you Steve and the others would be closed but, shouldn't be a problem.

You met them on a small local coffeeshop. She looked adorable with her beanie, and you couldn't help but tease her. The one that got roasted was Vision, you didn't know he opted for a human-like look you almost tackle him off Wanda when you saw them cuddling on the booth.

The three of you spend a good couple of hours talking, they told you some trouble they had got into, talked about some missions. Wanda was begging you to stay the night with them Pietro was sneaking off later to see you.

"Wanda you know I love you like my little sister but, this is dangerous. If Ross finds out-“ The t.v broadcasting news cut your train of thought. Aliens, Spaceships in New York?"

"What are you-" Wanda and Vision turned around to see it, the now redhead gasped and Vision started backing off "We must head back no-" his pained scream made both of you turn around.

"Viz!"

You pushed Wanda towards Vision to get her out of the way of a blast. That sent you to the other side of the street.

A fight broke loose against giant and strong as heck aliens. As much as you tried you were still very beaten from the previous fight. Four blasts later and a failed attempt to scape the aliens got the three of you cornered on the train station.

You see Wanda standing between Vision and the blue-like creatures while you were behind the aliens, they beat you and left you on the floor. You see it in her eyes, Wanda is terrified even more after they saw you beaten you down.

Something catches their attention, you sense him too. Steve and the back up is here. After his badass catch of the lance another fight breaks out, but it ends with Natasha stabbing one forcing them to retreat.

Pietro comes to your aid and help you up, you hug him tightly but briefly "I gotta go" you kiss the side of his head and begin walking off.

"We could use some help" Steve says behind you.

"Call Ross" you say waving him off.

"They kicked your ass and you run away with your tail between your legs?" Natasha taunts making you halt.

"Y/N/N, please?" Wanda says you make the mistake of looking at her, her damn pout.

You walk back to them "If you rat me out".

"We won't".

On the way back you texted Yelena and Oksana, you are no stupid their contacts were listed as Lena and Ana.

Natasha sits by your left and shamelessly peeks on your phone "Who do you text?"

"Girlfriend and roommate" you say, none of that is true. But this is not the right time to out Yelena. Wanda told you that Maria and Natasha were no longer together since a year ago.

As soon as you stepped on the conference room you saw Ross on a video call with Rhodes, Nick, Coulson and Hill "Director Fury, arrest that criminal right-" with a wave of Rhodes hand the call was over.

"Guess, is all hands on deck" Rhodes says looking at you, a shrug from you is his answer.

Not wanting to get into their useless banter. You walk away in search of your room, if it still is. It isn't. Is barren. No weapons, no battle suit. No clothes, well for a fact you know the twins have your civilian clothes.

Pietro zooming in the room confirms your theory "Your clothes are comfy" he hands you toiletteries and underwear, which is fun is a sports bra and one of his boxers. Before speeding off he tells you he will try to get you a battle suit.

The shower feels so good, you went for cold water the blasts left burns on your back, stomach and rribs the cold water soothes them.

What you didn't anticipated was Hill waiting for you sitting on the bed with a first-aid kit, you don't bother to utter a word and simply put the towel over your shoulders. Underwear already on.

In the corner of your eye you see her reaching out to caress the old bruises and new scars. She says nothing you just see the sadness in her eyes, the moment is bittersweet for both. Maria internally scolds her self, she shouldn't be touching you as if nothing happened, but you don't seem to pull away.

"Let me tend your wounds?" She asks hopefully, maybe this could be a little step forward, you shrug and sit on the edge of the bed. Letting her inspect and treat the wounds, you hiss when she disinfect the burn on your ribs which is the worse "Should I see the other guy?" She says playfully.

Chuckling you shake your head "Nah, this time I got fucked".

Maria smirks at your words but frowns as she inspects the deep bruises littering your body "These bruises, who did this?".

"You make awful enemies while on the run".

She hums thoughtfully, when the wounds are tended, she pats your shoulder. Taking a leap her hands cup your cheeks, her thumbs softly drawing half circles. You close your eyes and enjoy the contact. This feels so right, like nothing happened. As it has always been between the two of you, taking the moment.

"When this fight is over, come back? Let's clear this out. I've been searching, you were right. We got deceived" she leans down to kiss your forehead her lips lingering on the skin.

"I don't care, if I was framed guilty. There's something bigger behind that. That's what I've been searching, three years of dead ends. Can't do this on my own anymore" you feel her lips leaving your skin, opening your eyes you see her beautiful blue eyes.

"You won't. We will have your back this time. I will stand with you" you smile s little at her words before pulling her in to kiss her hungrily. When you feel her lips answering the battle you groan. How much you missed this. Your hands move around her body to grab her tighs and make her straddle you and the rolling the two of you over so you have her under you. Her breath hitches when you travel to her jaw and neck. Your hands control hers pinning them above her head. With your teeth you pull down her uniform zipper to below her breasts, with your tongue you trail up to her neck column and suck hard at the bottom to leave it marked "Hey! No love marks" her voice doesn't match with her body language when she buckles when you plant another one in the other side. You smirk against her skin and begin trailing down with open mouthed kisses. When. You are kissing inside her breasts the door is suddenly open

"I found a battle suit Tony had on the ma- shit!" He speeds to leave it over the desk and retreats to the door again "Go get some sis!" Blindly you snatch a scalpel from the aid kit and throw it at him, of course with a laugh he dodges it closing the door that gets the damage.

Maria laughs whole heartedly under you "Way to kill the mood" you grumble burying your face on her neck.

Steve and Bruce decided to head to Wakanda. If there was a genius that could figure out how to take the soul stone from Vision without killing him was Shuri. Tony was still M.I.A. and Thor had left to Asgard since two years ago.

When the ramp lowered, Wanda helped out Vision. You couldn't help but marble at the beauty of Wakanda. It's like anything you've seen. Bucky told you that unfortunately he had a relapse as the Winter Soldier when one of the Hydra Generals got his hands on the red book and activated the programming in his head. Tony had to blew his arm off before he killed Natasha. After that T'achalla offered his resources. Now Bucky is free from the programming and has a brand new arm.

Romanoff and Hill restocked you with weaponry, now you stand ready for battle.

You stand beside Bucky as you smoke a cigarette. When Nat and Steve come back to the lines you know these aliens are dead-serious about getting the stone. Over your dead body.

Sure, all of you are getting your ass handed over, big time. Luckily for Steve who was nearby Thor showed up with a three and a Talkin raccoon? The heck is going on?.

Natasha and Okoye were fighting Proxima Midnight, you were nearby but swamped by aliens. You need to hurry to help them out, when you thought it was lost cause Wanda showed up and saved them, hurling those wheel like machines like they were weightless. Holy fuck you barely dived into the ditch. Looking up you see the alien responding through her comm link, well you assume is something like it. And dashes away into the woods.

"Wanda, Natasha, Okoye wipe clean this area"

"I'm going for evil smurfette".

---

You barely made it on time to intercept them before they pulled off the gem from Visions head, you ran in from behind them and tackled both off the android.

"Seems you didn't had enough from hour last fight" Proxima says calling her weapon. While the other, Corvus swirls his blade.

Standing two to one you crack your neck and stand ready to fight. The battle field stay dead silent and still.

"So, will you stop us by standing still?" Proxima taunts.

You know they are taunting and yet you run head first into the battle. Vision is conflicted between running and staying until you scream at him to get the fuck away. He does.

Staying two to one is hardly fair, they hit you repeatedly on the wounds of your previous fight. You take it all just to get opens and do damage.

The first going down is Corvus. You served a well placed knee on his previous stab wound. Quickly retrieving the vibranium machetes from your back sheaths you cross stab him in the chest, he can't even scream and with all your strength cut him through with an x shape. With your back opened Proxima blasts you at blank point sending you several feet away.

You hear her heavy footsteps nearing, you try to crawl away but she stomps on the burn of your back, making you groan in pain.

"I will spill your guts on the ground and take your head as price" she says anger over flowing her speech.

You laugh at her words and she kicks you in the face, making you roll on your back, when you open your eyes she is hovering over "your blast didn't kill me but surely your face can give me a heart attack" you say with a chuckle. She gets angrier and stomps you on the chest at least three times "Insignificant creature" she curses.

And you laugh at her anger "I still killed him" you give her a bloody smile. She raises her spear with both hands to stab you through. And you take the chance to call back one of the machetes, it buries on her middle, you quickly sweep off her legs with both of yours. The machete goes through completely. You mount her chest to ground and pound, you should kill her. But you are still angry about the cuts her attack left on Wanda's face.

Proxima still exchanges several hits with you, but you have a last one you call back the machete impaling her again until it gets through. She does the same with her lance but you dodge it in time before lashing her neck. Her head lulls to her right and she smiles before she is gone.

Then you feel it, dread. That strange feeling you get when you dive into the darkness of the unknown, on a dark hallway or room. That goosebumps that sell out your fear.

When you look back you see a giant purple humanoid being. He walks out of that portal and makes his way to you, his aura is unnerving to say the least.

"Who are you?" Your voice betrays your fear making you sound confident. A long his path he retrieves Corvus lance, his giant body making it look like a stick.

Calling back your other machete you get in guard.

"The people who fear me call me the Mad Titan".

You smirk at him "And the people who don't?".

"Thanos, but you won't live long enough to say it. It is impressive though, you killed two of my best warriors. Two of my children".

While he talked you observed, the gaunlet on his left hand it has five out of six stones. There's no fucking way you can loose this time.

The two of you get into a fight, a fight you regret right away when his giant fist impacts your whole face, you literally felt your jaw micro fracturing under his strength. You wobble back and get in guard, you side step his knee just to be intercepted by the gaunlet, that fist broke more than half your ribs, the impact is solid. He left you like a still punch bag. He pulls back his fist just to catch you with the same hand grabbing your head with his metal covered fingers to make you look up at him "I'll let them know you fought well" he plunges in Corvus blade burying it all the way "life for a life".

Unknown to you Thanos wiped out the battle field, the only one still standing was Wanda who was doing her best at destroying the stone before the Mad Titan get his hold on it.

*Mad Dog?!*

*Y/N!*

*Where are you? Wanda is the last one standing between that purple giant and Vision* Natasha's frantic voice wakes you up, when your unfocused sight adjusts you see the pool of blood you ate kneeling in. When you try to move the spear reminds you of it's placement.

One last fight you think to yourself. One last effort.

Gathering all the strength and balls you have you lean back to free the lance from the ground, and slowly pull it out, groaning and heaving in pain. When the blade is finally out you use it as a cane to lean on it. While you cough blood.

*Y/N?* You hear Natasha's worried tone.

Fishing around the pocket of your cargo pants you find the red inhalator. Luckily it wasn't damaged. This red thing will leave you like a rabid dog until the effects dies down or your body shuts down, Yelena might drag you from hell just to kill you for stealing this from her safe.

You inhale it all, after a few seconds the agonizing pain on your chest vanishes.

*Mad Dog here, I'm coming*.

Along the way you take the other forgotten lance and run as fast as you can towards the others, you can feel Wanda's powers building up.

You make it in time to see an half concious Wanda on the floor and it makes you angry as heck. Along the way you saw a shivering Bruce, Nat and Okoye trapped under some heavy vines, T'achalla passed out, Steve, Bucky, Sam and Pietro were knocked out.

You stop when you see he only caresses Wanda's head and goes to Vision's dead body. What you didn't expected was he reviving him, you see him chocking Vision.

With all your strength you throw the single blade lance stabbing the purples asshole on the back of his left shoulder, making him growl as his hold on Vision loosens.

He turns around and glares at you "You are a nuisance, this time I will kill you for good".

You run up to him blasting him several times with Próxima's weapon.

"Wanda get Vision away from here!".

"But-"

"No fucking buts! GO!" You get on another round with Thanos, this time your punches, kicks and the force behind the lance is stronger, reflexes better. When he feels you could actually have a chance after you stab him a little too shallowy twice she blasts you wit the power stone. And kicks mid air to send you against one of the giant threes.

Falling on your hands on knees the wind as completely knocked out of you, heaving several times only bring blood to your mouth. Man you are angry, you hear his heavy steps closing in. You try to stand up on wobbly legs. You dodge his first punch of the gaunlet, a second punch your body doesn't move in time. His free hand slams you back again on the three.

"Where's your fire now child?" He taunts out of nowhere he manifests Próxima's lance again, you give him a bloody smile breathing has become extremely hard "Didn't learn from last time? You need more than that" you say with ragged breath.

He gives you a sinister smile "If you are still alive by the time I finish this, you are coming back to my army" with a swift move the three blade lance goes through you pinning you against the wood. At this very moment you regret your taunting words.

What you didn't know is that Wanda was reading your mind, when she saw Thanos impaling you she and Vision turned around and decided to got back and fight.

You cant let this giant asshole get to Vision, you can't loose. With a lot of effort and will power you begin to retreat the weapon off your body, the pain is unbelievable, this time you groan and scream.

"Y/N! Don't!" You hear Natasha scream from somewhere around. But you don't give a damn.With blurry sight you saw the lightning of Thor's powers, there's was a explosion like sound. The attack hiding your last scream as you unburied the blade. Once more you used the lance as cane, leaning heavily on it.

When you looked up you saw Thor hovering down over a kneeled Thanos who had the massive ax buried on his chest.

"Don't fuck around kill him!" You shout at the god of thunder, but you see him he is blinded by rage, that rage that loss brings.

Deciding to take the matter in your own hands, you unstuck the lance and run up to them ignoring Natasha's and Steve's shouts for you to stop. You should have.

Almost simultaneously you jumped up to bury the lance on the titans head, Vision shoot a laser beam from the mind stone. Both hit the target, but the laser beam got further and went through you too on your lower abdomen. The last thing you had conciousness about was something hot hitting you and the hardness of the ground.

Vision fell on his knees and told Wanda to run to you.

The firsts reaching you were Natasha and Steve, followed by an absolute distressed Pietro then Wanda.

Natasha gently lifts you up to lay you on her lap. While the others franticly tear up your battle suit to reach your wounds, they all gasp. And get hands on to try to stop the bleeding, you groan in pain and wake up. You try to wiggle away from the pain but Natasha's hands on your face stop you "Easy there Y/N we are trying to help you, ok?"

"Nat?" You whisper brokenly.

Your left hand moves shakingly to grab the bandage roll you hid, you move it to her eye sight "Red Room, still active. Hid intel here... I- I didn't, I didn't go rogue. I was framed".

"Sestra, calm down. We know, ok? You are one of us" Pietro says with tears blurring his sight.

"Yelena alive. I've been working with her. Cellphone, Lena" you say with blood scaping your mouth "Sorry I lied. Budapest".

Natasha's tears finally run down "Is ok, Y/N/N, no hard feelings. Just stay still, ok?".

T'achalla calls to have medical ready. Steve looks at the speedster "Pietro, can you take her?".

"I'd be damned if I don't".

You chuckle at his words "Wan, Piet" you call them softly.

"Don't you dare to say goodbye Y/N. You can't, you are strong. You are our big sister, we need you, ok?" Is unmistakable how Wanda's pressure on your wound increases with her words.

"I love you guys, you the best little siblings" your eyes get lost. And Steve helps Pietro gathering you in his arms.

He runs faster than ever, the medics instruct him to lay you on a floating gurney. You groan in pain when they shift you, blindly you search for Pietro's hand "Tell Maria I love her?".

"I will. You better wake up to tell her yourself".

When things quiet down and the battle field was wiped clean. The avengers found themselves on the med bay. All of them needed medical, some more urgently than others.

Even Wakanda with all the advanced tech the doctors were having such a hard time keeping you alive.

By the time Maria and Nick landed, six hours later. You were wheeled on a room with ICU critically unstable. Against protocols the doctors let the twins in, they had to use a special suit though. They each grabbed one of your hands, even the latex gloves couldn't hide the coldness of your skin.

"Wan, can you read her?" Pietro asked softly, the female twin tried. Yes she could read you but your thoughts were a mess. Good memories, bad memories but above all there was guilt and uncertainty. She digged in deeper. And found you feeling angry about being framed guilty of the bombing and how you felt betrayed by everyone. Your guilt of keeping the Red Room Intel from Natasha, about Yelena working along with you.

Wanda wasn't stupid, none of them. You were literally dying and yet you were being hold down by your regrets. With tears running down her eyes she showed Pietro.

The twins were devastated, they didn't wanted to let go. But they also understood you were fighting over time. You saved them all at the cost of your life.

"Sestra, we know you are suffering. Is ok, we now know you were inocent. We love you, we never doubted you".

"Maria and Nick are coming ok? Just hold on a little more. We love you" both kiss your forehead, they wish they could replace the coldness of your skin with your usual warmer temperature. Your hugs were the best your the right amount of tight and warm.

They talk to you a little more while Nick and Maria get ready to enter.

"How is she?" Maria asks.

Natasha and Bucky shift uncomfortably "the doctors don't think she is going to make it" he says with a low tone, those are words none of the team members never wish to say out loud.

The twins and the directors switch and Maria grabs your right hand between hers, is warm thanks to Pietro. But is not your usual warmth, you always ran at a slight warmer temperature.

Nick walks to your left side and outs a fatherly hand on your shoulder "Agent. We made a mistake, a grave mistake. You were right, for that we are sorry. Thank you for all your service. You did good kid" he gives you a last gentle squeeze and leaves the room for Maria to have a private moment with you.

"Darling, I'm sorry. Like Nick said, we were wrong. Sorry is not enough. We lost time, how many nights I could have had you by my side. You were all, you are my everything" the monitor on your heartbeat spikes a little.

"hey, no love. Is ok, calm down" her words seem to work and makes you settle down "No matter what, I will always love you..." She jiggles softly at her own words, as tears blurry her sight "You did again baby. You saved us all" she softly traces your face, the features she loves hidden under swollen and bruised skin and muscle. The skin is cold. When she leans away she sees your eyes barely open.

"Hi" she softly says "I was told you were a total badass out there" you have a respirator on and with the fog clouding the mask she can't see the smile grin on your lips. Even Maria isn't sure if you are awake. You aren't supposed to be conscious.

She sits with you, talking to you.

The others outside just watch, Pietro has Wanda on a protective side hug "Is she?" The brunette nods "she isn't fully conscious but, somehow she seems to understand".

After a while the doctors ask Maria to leave, she kisses you cheek and temple before leaving the room.

That same night your body shuts down for good, it wasn't nothing over dramatic. Your heartbeat slowed until it stood still. The medical team tried their best at bringing you back. But you stayed forever asleep.

Everyone were devastated but, the three shattered were Maria and the twins. If your dead wasn't enough when news of your death spread out Ross came to the Avengers compound demanding Fury to surrender your body, government's property he said. Maria almost decked him.

Luckily your body was already cremated in Wakanda, and for Ross there was no use. So he left. Natasha left Wakanda the same night you died.

They all held back the service waiting for Tony and Peter to come back, a month later Carol Danvers brought them all, even with news adds they called themselves Guardians of the Galaxy.

Two weeks later Natasha came back with Yelena and Oksana. The team welcomed both, with open arms.

The service wasn't too over the top for Tony's over the top dismay. It was more intimate, the team, Clint's family, pepper, aunt May. Coulson's team.

When the service was over Maria stayed by your dead stone. This was actually your favorite place to have a smoke, you even had a stone ash tray you carved, she lit up a cigar and left it there for you, she lit a cigarette for herself and sat beside the headstone "you would have laughed at how we wept like little kids" she said to the forest.

By the second cigarette, Yelena and Wanda came back. The brunette sat by Maria's left and Yelena sat by the other side of the tomb stone. They all lit a cigarette and Yelena passes over a vodka bottle.

“She was good fighter and good friend” Yelena says looking at the headstone “I thought she was invincible. I was unsure of facing Natasha again. Y/N was right, I had nothing to be unsure”.

Yelena downs a gulp off the bottle “she loved you, she still does” she fishes around her long coat over sized inside pocket and gives Maria a couple of journals “everything we know of Red Room here, she has a couple of personal stuff there”.

Maria has been avoiding looking through the last two journals. One had everything Red Room and Hydra related. The second ones were personal. It’s been a month… 30 days of over thinking and beating herself on how stupid she was on doubting you.

Blame the vodka and the lonely nights. She ends up venturing to read the one that looks more worn, older.

The first pages are about your mission in Madripoor. Notes and heads up for your mission. Hand draw schematics.

She notices the difference on the strokes, sometimes well done others scribbled, hurried… some pages even have some brown-ish stains coffee mostly. But theres blood too. The she sees the first page with a long text, the format looks like a letter. Two months into the mission

<I’m pretty sure I’m writing this and never send it.

It’s been almost two months, 56 days into this task. I’m missing you like crazy, through out the day I catch myself wondering if you are safe, how are you, missing your presence… is stupid, maybe. I blame the vodka and the aftermath of using drugs. I hate it, but I had to. I had to blend in they are suspecting I’m a spy… I might not see past the second month.

If I die, and by a miracle you find this know that I love you Maria Hill. Tell the others I miss them too.

P.D. Tell Fury I will haunt his old man ass>

Maria laughs for the first time.

She keeps flipping through the pages.

Six months in.

<Well, another drugs and vodka fueled letter. I’ve known regret, but nothing like this. The things I’ve had to do… they are haunting me. Know I get the appeal of drugs, if I don’t sleep I don’t dream… if I inject enough heroin or pain killers I have memory-less sleep. And the maker knows I need some sleep. I’m paranoid. Maybe is the drugs.

I understand you are worried Maria, but this is beyond me. Far more complex. The Red Room might be alive. This black market is cruel… I see kids, women, babies being traded like stuff. Potentially deadly substances and vial locked diseases hurl around like canned food. Is worrisome how this underworld doesn’t care about anything but money. Fucking filthy money.

I know I’ve been ghosting you on Intel. I’ve been reporting directly to Fury. I’m sorry love.

We fought on this last meeting and I’m sorry. I unloaded a lot of shit on you, sit you are not to blame about. I’m just tired and drained. I pray for this mission to be over soon.

Love you.

P.D. for Fury:

FUCK YOU>

Maria keeps searching for this letters. Each become more dark, haunted. Is palpable how your psiche was suffering the beat down of what you saw.

<I’m sorry. I had to.

I was played, they gave me something.

I was feral… I am scared of myself. How can I make that much damage bare-handed?.

All this time I’ve been a dormant monster. What am I?

Do I still deserve you?

I’m so, sorry.

I love you Maria. That’s the only thing I’m certain>

Maria squeezes her eyes trying to hold back tears. She flips forward until a couple of Polaroids shows up. Her eyes widen in surprise.

Is from Singapore, one when she was sunbathing on the beach. The other a picture of her naked, barely covered by the hotel bedsheet. She was sound asleep on her stomach

<Today I lost the only person I’ve ever truly loved.

I feel stupid. But no one said this line of work was easy. I pushed you away. They are trailing me.

This feels wrong, I should not cling to these polaroids. But sometimes a little breath of hope is needed. Maybe when this is over I can fix my stupid decisions.

You don’t know this. My primary mission is over. But I found something else, I’m already inside so no use on backing away and sending a newbie in.

You are the light that I look for though this dark time. Now it might just be a hopeful memory. But I need to cling to it or might loose myself into this darkness.

I will always love you.

P.D. Fury is a dick. If I lose you for good I will kill him myself>

Well, now it makes sense… and she didn’t see through your lies. Maria sighs and looks up to the ceiling of her office. Wishing she could find the answer. A way to turn this back and change this cruel outcome. She doesn’t blame Fury. Is just the way this spy and assassins game is.

She spends the night reading your notes and letters. She saw it all. The hurt it did when they foolishly turned their backs on you.

As the pages are turned she witness the change from rage to sadness and last acceptance.

Is clear that drunk your hand slips there’s even some little notes from Yelena. Leaving Maria unsure if she put them after or while you were writing.

<Wanda asked me to meet them in a few days in Scotland. She said something about a secret mission there. Which is kind of odd. The place. Not one to judge after being deep inside Madripoor.

The little birdie has been trying to play match maker again. I’ve been thinking… I miss them… I miss you. This solo mission I’ve been carrying on with Yelena and Oksana is been hard. We are being hunted by the Red Room. Honestly a little breather would be welcomed.

P.D you looked beautiful on that little café in Italy. I saw you and I’m still smitten>

The next pages are blank… until the last one. Scrabbled messy writing.

<I don’t even know why I’m writing this… before this battle. Maybe is just reflex, maybe is because I’m nervous. This aliens kicked the crap out of me last time. I was hurt already. But man I felt like a ragdoll.

If I don’t make it out of this. Know that I love you still. That make out before parting ways was a true oxygen intake to my soul.

P.D. I love you, you looked beautiful as ever. I was a stupid for staying away for so long>

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I'm glad you enjoy it, thanks you for reading

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BODYGUARD

This is Maria Hill x reader.

Synopsis: reader is a super soldier rescued by Maria Hill and the Avengers. Will they end up together on a world of spies, fights and lies?

Read to find out.

Enjoy.

Darkness, coldness, emptyness. There was a time where your ears used to ache in silence, now like this dark room is emptyness.

You can't remember how you got at this point, you just remember training, learning while you were human you suck it all up and did Hydras will you even did missions along the Winter Soldier, you worked well together, two out of the six best assassins on the organization. after being experimented on everything changed, you got all the attributes of a super soldier. That's when Hydra lost the leash, you tried several times to scape, followed by awful punishments when captured. The longest you got away was six months. When they captured you again the changed the leash for chains, straight jacket and muzzle. You killed at least 25 agents. When you were unnecessary you where thrown into cryo freeze.

Now for missions they injected something and put a collar with locator. You saw like a first point of view everything. They left you with no means to scape. You had a schedule, you can even say they pooty trained you, it sounds 'fun' you still wonder where that word comes from.

Back to present endeavors, the guard are late to bring in your meal, if you can call that awful poultry food. The light that comes from the narrow window of the metal door has been flickering for some time. Which is odd and yet not uncommon.

Then you heard it, the screams, the guns shots, some punches, more screams. You see one of the guards pass across the narrow window trying to get in. But someone shots him down, his blood sprinkles the already dirty glass.

A female voice, raspy tone, she might be talking into some device. Chosing to make no sound you stay on the dark. When things settle down you'll try to break free. The straight jacked has been already giving out, you've been forcing it for a couple of months.

No luck you hear the woman messing with the electronic lock until it clicks open. Another pair of boots arraive. You hear nothing until the door is kicked open and two figures appear on the door threshold. One tall and lean, other smaller and athletic. They keep their guns drown.

Then the strong lights are flicked on leaving you momentary blinded, but you can hear them marching close with tactical steps.

When your sight adjusts you see them clearer, indeed two women, the tall one black hair a bright blue eyes. The other redhead and with green eyes. Both look trained and strong guns still on you, that's wise. The logo on their uniform, they are S.H.I.E.L.D well if they kill you at least the nightmare is over.

"Are you a prisoner or an agent?" The redhead questions.

You choose silence, is not like you could talk easy with the muzzle on.

"Do you speak English? Rasiya? Español?" The dark haired woman tries next.

Silence.

You hear them discussing that maybe is the muzzle, it seems to imped your jaw movement.

The taller woman unsheathes her hunting knife showing you and getting close "I'm going to take the muzzle off. Not hurt you" you blink once, after some struggle the muzzle is loosened, taking the opportunity you open and close your jaw and move it side to side "better?" She asks you nod. The redhead tries to grab the metal clasp keeping you against the wall but you halt her grunting a "no". Then you look at the panel on the left side.

After a couple of minutes the metal clasps open and you almost fall face on the floor, but the tall woman catches you on time and lays you on the floor. The two of them together free you from the straight jacket and help you out.

You follow their lead while your body gets it's senses but as soon as you feel somewhat loosened up you bolt away from them.

It doesn’t take long for your body to get in working mode. When their briefly turn their backs on. You flee away

*Guys the woman we found is trying to scape! She is running to the east side... She is jumping down the stairs from the fifth floor* the red head shouts through their communication device.

Not your lucky day, two other intercept you. Captain America with his shield and for your surprise the Winter Soldier is there.

"Mad Dog?! Stay down" thmetal arm man says, his voice sounds different, more human, his eyes too, bright blue, unlike the dullness they had before.

"We don't want to hurt you, come with us" Captain America says.

"Get out of my way" you growl at them.

"Can't do".

A fight breaks loose you manage two put up with them even in your state. But when Iron Man comes to play you loose. A ram with the shield sends you to crack a wall, Iron Man fires a stun wave, you brave on to be met on a exchange with the soldat who knocks you out after a combo of upper cut on your liver with his metal arm, blow to the head and metal elbow on your jaw.

The next thing you know you wake up on another metal room, you sigh and raise up to sit on the cot and let your head bang against the wall. Well, you are still alive, why can't you just die?.

The next days the redhead and the winter soldier come to interrogate you, you give them some one word answers and request to speak with Director Fury, which at first was denied. And you refused to speak anymore.

Two weeks later the man walked in "So?" He asks standing in front of you.

"Why am I still alive? You question is simple but interesting for the man.

"Intel".

You humm and tilt your head "What do you want? After that you kill me, right?".

Nick was warn by Natasha about your seemingly lack of interest in being alive. He nods.

"ask away".

"The other soldats, where are kept?".

"Dead".

"How come?".

"I Killed them".

"Why?".

"They were bad people, unstable, cold blooded" well mark it down that's the longest answer you've given.

"What are you?"

You shrug and look at is only eye "worse".

Giving the director all the Intel you knew was easy, you never saw him again. The redhead Natasha, Bucky the winter soldier, another guy that came Clint, Hawkeye and Maria the tall dark haired woman. Came almost every day or every other day. You even were given the chance to train, your wounds were tended, you were fed three meals for the first time. The food was amazing.

A month later Maria and Fury came in and offered you a job. Being an agent and Avenger. You had nothing to loose, if they are not killing you, then you need to work.

Turns out you are a great addition to the team, skilled, strong and quick-thinker. You could work along with the Avengers, you could go solo on very hard missions and came out alive.

Still you kept to your own business, sometimes reading, training or simply enjoying a smoke on central park. If not, in your room.

At first the team, specially Tony seemed on the mission of making you talk. But it wasn't your thing, it wasn't long until Natasha treathen them to leave you alone and you were greatful.

As things settle down you begun forming bonds with all the team members, simple things. You even get along with Maria the team even jokes that you are her personal bodyguard, it was a recurring joke you even chuckled at it. It was all fun until Hydra in alliance with other mob groups did an assassination attempt on her.

Luckily that day you tagged along with her, she insisted on you wearing a vest under your clothes. After some arguing you did.

It was supposed to be an Intel retrieval with one of her sources, and you were weary. You weren't wrong, a small army came from the back industrial gate. Everything played out so fast, you end up using the snitch as a shield for Maria and together shoot your way out to the armored black Yukon but you were greeted by another spray of bullets. You tackled down Maria and used your body to protect her. Now you were pissed as fuck "Get in" you ordered.

Pissed as heck you stand up and begun shooting down the snipers with a deadly accuracy. For the people coming through the warehouse you grabbed a small explosive from the back of your belt and threw it at them. As the building explode you drove away.

At first you thoughts it was over until you saw the three vans and five bikes coming right behind you.

"Duck!" You shouted as bullets hit the SUV.

After the first rush of bullets and Maria and you took turns at shooting down the attackers specially the bikes.

You used all your ability to drive her away luckily back up came and they opened a clear path for you to reach the Avengers tower.

Hate to admit you sloppy halted the vehicle on the underground garage. The two of you were panting, hearts over beating with adrenaline "your agents need better response timing Hill" you said playfully at her. She laughed, whole heartedly "Of course the longest sentence you ever tell me will be that" you tried to chuckle but pain stopped you instead you grunted you looked down your dark dress shirt looked darker and wet in some places you rip it open, oh no that's bad enter and exit holes on the bullet vest "Fuck".

"Shit! They hit you" maria exclaimed *I need medical assistance, agent Mad Dog was hit several times* Natasha, Sam and Bucky were running to the vehicle when they heard through the comms the request of medical.

Sam and Bucky hurried to your side and helped you out. Luckily Sam was there to instruct the others to put pressure on the wounds, but you already lost a lot of blood and passed out.

Surgery, a long one and two days later you woke up, hazzy and disoriented.

"Hi hero of the day" a husky voice said by your left Natasha.

"Hi, is Maria ok?" You don't see her in the room and it makes you worried "I'm not hero".

"She is, and yes you are a hero. Even when you don't like it".

Shrugging you settle down on the bed, Nat offers you some water which you gladly take. After the doctors came Maria also came to visit you, you smiled at her and she chuckled "You look proud of yourself" she said with a teasing tone.

"I am, you are good. Just some minor wounds".

From there you all got closer and for their dismay you became the team bodyguard, even to Clint and that's not an easy feat. Sam's recent way to tease you was singing "I will always love you" which make you cackle, the man was a goofball.

"Tone it down bird brain" you say after calming down your ribs still sore from your recent stunt to save Clint from falling twelve stories down. You managed to shove him into the building but end up falling six stories into some ducts. Earning you a split eyebrow and broken ribs. That was a month ago.

"My Mad Savoir!" Clint exclaimed coming to give you a side hug and a kiss on the cheek, you grunted in fake annoyance.

For four years everything was calm that is until Tony decided to try the brilliant idea of making Ultron come to life after you all recovered the scepter. The night of the show down you saved Dr. Cho.

"-You all are killers, specially those two" the robot said pointing at Bucky and you. The Winter Soldier and Mad Dog".

You got visibly angry "Don't be mad darling, you can't even remember your life before. But I read it all. The best infiltration killer for the American army. You were trapped on the same facility as James, you are the original Hydra Winter Soldier. Mad Dog the feared soldier, you made blood baths. But you don't remember, do you?”…

After his little speech the fight broke loose. You aid Bruce before Natasha took over, after destroying a couple of robots you saw one going for doctor Cho. You ran in her aid and after killing a couple they ganged on you. Earning a blast on your chest at point blank, the blast sent you to the floor down crashing a glass table. Giving you a mild cardiac arrest. After Thor destroyed the robot, they heard Cho asking for help.

They all run to you "She was shot at blank point" Helen says checking your pulse.

"Ok, Helen please move aside a little" Tony used his repulsor a couple of times until your heartbeat got normal again.

That night you retired to your room, while the others fought and bickered with Tony about this new threat.

On Johanessburg you stopped the Maximoffs from getting to Bruce, you fought against both. Before knocking out the girl she send some red smoky energy in your head, you managed to fight through the haze and held the boy at gun point "ok, pretty boy. Last chance, get your sister and fuck off or I'll kill you both" something blurred your sight, when you blinked a soldier on second world war uniform was begging mercy. Your hold faltered between tightening and loosing up.

"Ok! Ok! I give up. Let me go, we will go". His frantic accented voice brings you to present.

"Y/N?" Bruce asks walking from behind you "Stay there Bruce" you let go of the boys neck and see him speeding off with his sister.

The fly back was a mess. As soon as the quinjet landed on the farm, you went to Clint's barn to get your spare motorcycle.

"Mad Dog!" Sam shouted running behind you "Y/N!"

You straddle the bike put your helmet on and revive the engine Sam tood on the door "Y/N, get off the bike. Let's talk it out" you ignore him and maneuvered beside him and went away.

Unknown to them you went back to New York, you didn't felt stable enough to not being a danger to Clint's kids and you loved the Rugrats.

At the tower Maria was waiting for you when you step into the common room to grab a bottle of whiskey, she drinks with you. You tell her a little about what Wanda made you see. That night you end up having messy half drunk sex with her, is not the first time nor the last one. Is just that, Maria and you take what the other offer for the moment, no tags, no strings, no issues. Just flickery moments of solace in each other's arms.

When everyone was back you saw them, the Maximoff twins were there and no sign of Natasha. You didn't gave a damn about the craddle or what they were bitching about. You went for Steve "Where is she?!"

"Y/N calm down" Steve tried.

"Y/N back off, this is about the cradle" Tony tried "We need this, to defeat Ultron-"

"An that's your fucking problem Stark! mine is finding Natasha" you looked around and walked to the twins "you two better tell me where that machine has her" the glass gives up under Pietro and he falls.

"Pietro!" She tries to move but the barrel of your gun greets her and make her halt "Talk".

Everything became a circus after that, Vision was 'born' then you all went into battle. Bruce rescued Nat, while you all went to fight.

The rest of the team went to the city you all walk down the ramp you see the Captain America graffiti "you have a fan base cap" making Sam and Bucky laugh.

"seriously?" He says before taking off his helmet and hurling it back in the jet "You barely talk and when you do is for this?"

You shrug and jog away, to investigate around some key buildings, nothing. Wondering what the heck the robot has planned, you stay standing for a little bit. He wants to destroy everything, extinction he said... A bomb? Where can he hide something big if it's not on the buildings... You slap your head, of course underground.

*Maximoffs any big abandoned structure on the city?*

*Y/N you are uncharacteristically hyper-verbal on this mission* Tony teases you on the comms.

*I can see your ass standing still. Move it* Bucky says with a playful tone *We got people to evacuate*

*that's your mission can opener, not mine* you fire back.

*The church on the center* Wanda answers.

You don't answer anything else and make your way to the church. Instructing people to leave the city. At first they pay no mind, they look apprehensive and afraid of you, you can't blame them you are armed to the teeth, on top the M249 SAW and you got two belts of ammo crossing your torso.

*Our dear Mad Dog is scaring the civilians* Sam said with a singy teasing voice. That was until robots begun appearing from everywhere.

*Y/N/N I think is time you let the dog loose* Tony said looking around *I'll go to the church*.

There's a point in battle where all of you regroup on the church fight to protect the key to Ultron's dispositive.

When things quiet down a little you hear someone calling you "Tell me that's not your blood" Natasha says coming closer to grab your chin and inspect your face, you shrug.

"Clint, I took some elderly and pregnant woman to the quinjet. Fly them to the Hellicarrier" you say Barton nods "I give you a ride old man" he picks him up as speeds away.

*Hey Clint! You make a beautiful bride* Bucky says teasing the blonde man through the comms.

*Fuck off all of you*

When the group splits again you stay with Wanda covering her six. Her twin comes back with two ammunition belts "This ok for you?" He hands them over, you quickly asses them and nod.

"Go help civilians" Wanda says to her twin, they get into bickering and you grin internally at their banter. Which gets interrupted by an incoming bot that Wanda shoots down before you "Go".

If this couldn't get worse the battle intensifies even more, to the point of you keeping the dispositive and Wanda safe. Until S.H.I.E.L.D and Sokovian military back up arraived to let you breath a little.

The battles rages on.

Your weapon carelessly falls on the ground and you put pressure on the deep cut on your right arm, looking at it you see that is bleeding heavily, shit. At least the robot couldn't stab the brunette on the back since you shoved her away to save her.

After a quick patch up by one of the S.H.I.E.L.D agents the battle went on harshly until Vision let you all know that Ultron was gone, but his mini-mes were trying to get away.

Yeah, it was quite fun one moment they are trying to stab you on the heart, luckily it halted to flee away "Wanda, you and S.H.I.E.L.D guard this shit. Military with me".

Who knows how later, but it was night time you walked to one of the ports where civilians were loaded to the Hellicarrier. For their safety they will spend the night on the ship. Until the city is thoroughly swept clean.

"Mad Dog" oh no stern voice, the deputy is pissed. You try to pass her by to avoid her wrath but she grabs you by the back of your uniform neck with a harsh tug that make your whole body ache.

"Why haven't you answered you damned comm link?"

You take the small device out of your pant pocket "Broken".

Maria makes you turn around and shines a lamp on your face "For fucks sake agent. Where were you?"

"Fighting".

She shakes her head partly in amusement, part angry at your carelessness "Med ward, NOW".

"Yes ma'am" Tired, hungry and hurted you didn't had the will to argue or run. You boarded one of the transfer vehicles and went to get tended.

You end up laying on a gurney only with your undergarments, you had cuts and scrapes all over. And that's how Wanda found you for her embarrassment. Smirking at her blashfulness you raised an enquiring eyebrow.

"Sorry! I just, um Natasha asked me to look for you here. Dinner is about to be served" nodding at her you closed your eyes to hid your pain when the doctor opened the cut on your arm to wash it thurougly, dirt and blood fell off.

"We need about half an hour, her backside is no better" the doctor said, the brunette nodded and went away.

For your surprise she and her twin were outside the room at your exit "Hi" she said shily "Let us help you" Pietro said when he saw the limp on your left sife getting on your affected side he helped you put your arm over his shoulders "Lean on me". They helped you getting to the dining area.

"Well, I won't feel that bad about myself. Look how Mad Dog ended" Sam said with a wide smile, he was quite banged too. Almost all the team was beaten except Vision for obvious robotic reasons and Bruce.

When you were sitting Wanda helped you getting you a plate of food in front of you, you gave her a small smile and a soft thank you which earn the two of you a bunch of teasing from almost everyone.

When dinner was over Nick and Maria walked in and gave instructions, the first was you and Barton benched, that prompted a grumpy Hawkeye and you tilted your head in defiance at the director.

"Mad Dog, you are benched. I saw your medical report" you breath out forcibly through your nose "I'm good".

"You look like a beaten dog Y/L/N I won't repeat myself" Nick said giving you his unnerving stare.

"Control room?".

"She can tag along with me, there's a lot of paperwork to fill in" Maria said.

That's how you found yourself dozing off at three am in Maria's office on your fight to stay awake you didn't see the soft smile drawn on her lips. When your head finally lost the battle, she went to your side and lift you bridal style to lay you on the small couch of her office, using one of the cushions are your pillow and the other to keep your ankle risen. She brushed away some stray hairs and kissed your forehead before going back to work.

The next day you woke up to an empty office, you figured Maria was busy. So you decided to make yourself useful and ended the paperwork she left on her desk before going out.

Nick benched you, that doesn't mean you will do as he says. You respect him and wouldn't hesitate to lay down your life at his command but, not today. You might be hurt and aching, you can still fight.

After arming yourself to the teeth again you join Melinda, Daisy, Bobbi and Hunter on their turn to sweep clean buildings. Three hours into working along them your comm link cracks to life with a very pissed Agent Romanoff *Agent Mad Dog, bring your ass back to the Hellicarrier, immediately*.

"hahahaha roasted" Daisy exclaimed and you glared at her.

"You snuck away really good this time, took them longer" Bobbi said with a fist bump and a very displeased Melinda glaring at you both.

*Agent Romanoff, Mad Dog is good with us. Her strength help us check between debris".

Mark it down you are proud. Fifteen more robots, three alive civilians found, three dogs and two cats you all go back to the Hellicarrier.

Nick and Maria intercepted you at the med ward. Fury on his very director persona threaten to fire your ass if you pulled shit like that again and left you under Maria's supervision.

Three months later all of you are back on the Avengers Tower. Tony is already building the Avengers compound set to be open on a year or year and a half tops.

Right now you find yourself on the meeting room with Nick, Maria, Natasha and Clint.

"The Maximoffs, they need formal training. On all bases. Hill will supervise you three during their training. They must function not only as enhanced individuals for Avengers, they must be able to work as field agents. Am I clear?"

"Aye Aye sir" Clint said playfully making you all roll your your eyes.

Unexpectantly for everyone as the training of the twins went on, you found yourself being like an older sister to them. Natasha was a step away from adopting them, Clint, well Clint was Clint he already treat them like if they were their children. And his kids saw them as older siblings.

Your quiet nature didn't change, but with them it fell at ease. While Natasha taught them how to spy and manipulation, you and her made a team for teaching them hand to hand combat, Bucky joined and taught them weaponry prompting some fights between the three of you about methods, which was fun to witness. Clint being the must experienced one, to not say old taught them protocols and survival.

With the Maximoffs addition the disfuctional family got bigger. Missions rolled around. And now you stand by the tarmac on the rooftop of the tower. Smoking a cigarette, you are set to go undercover for four months in Africa. Hydra got on the ivory illegal market, just to move around their shady deals for their own financial benefit. Is going to be dangerous as heck, but is you find the right thread you will find the base where operations are run by. Ulysses already acceded to help in exchange on a high-tech prosthetic for his lost arm.

You see the wind carryon the smoke your bags are already on the jet.

"Change of plans agent. We are going by commercial airline" Maria says walking closer to you.

"We?" You ask blowing smoke to the wind again.

"How's your military jargon? You are joining VETPAWS to get there with an undercover".

"If you mean WWII jargon I'm expert, otherwise I could use some help".

Maria was with you for a week before leaving. From there you were with the organization, operating with and without them. When you found a solid lead you parted ways they offered you to be on touch for backup.

The mission was completed a week before the time-frame. The whole Avengers team came and swept clean the base before destroying it to the ground. When the fight was over and the shambles were burning down Wanda and Pietro came running to you and gave you a giant hug.

"We fucking missed you" Pietro said before Wanda, she put her hands on your cheeks and studied your face "You look tired, are you hurt?"

You took Wanda's hands and put them over your temples signaling her to read your mind ("I was, I got hit by a dart with poison. I've felt tired since then").

"ohmygod, Y/N!"

"oh huh that's not good" Sam said walking closer. When Wanda told them all what you said they got worried, you shrugged and took a cigarette from the crumpled box. You haven't had much chance to smoke, always at the risk of being exposed by the smell.

On the fly back Bruce and Sam put you on a drip and did some tests to find what it was. A very effective rudimentary poison from a three, capable to kill an elephant.

"You are lucky you are a super soldier Y/N otherwise you'd be dead" Bruce said with a frown. S.H.I.E.L.D scientists were already working on a antidote. You had body aches and cramps once in a while, you were better than when you were first poisoned.

"You couldn't move out of the way?" Tony asked confused at how you got hit.

"It was a dart. That damned shit makes no noise, I realized when I felt it hit my neck. From there it was a hazzy memory of three days: I almost got rammed by a rhino and mawled by a pack of lions".

"How did you scaped?" Pietro asked with curiosity written all over his face.

"No fucking idea... Maybe if Wanda reads my mind you can find out".

Wanda tried, your mind was a disaster of blurry memories. She screamed in freight when she saw the memory of the rhino. And got scared out of her skin by the lions hunting you in night time.

Back at the compound you got the debrief done before a very condecending Fury sent you to rest on your room, get a bath and wait for medical. You did. Like a clock the doctors were there half an hour after, put you on a antidote drip and fluids. Rest for 48hrs.

Luckily after lunch time, the twins and you settled for watch some movies. Mostly kid-rated ones, four movies and a obscene amount of junk food later, mostly Pietro and you eating they left to rest.

Fast asleep, you were still on edge from the mission, it was truly nerve wracking after the poison. Scratch that you were almost paranoid. The sound of your door being opened without warning make you pull out your gun to whoever was sneaking on you.

"Hey Y/N, calm down. Is me I'm sorry, never meant to scare you".

When your eyes focus you see Maria's slander body shape and her voice calms you down "I could have shot you".

"Yeah, I didn't think it through. Next time I'll knock.

Clearing the chamber, you put back the gun under the pillow and extend your left hand to her, she smiles "Let me change". You fall asleep again. Before getting on the bed Maria "speaks to you softly to not spook you again" when she lays down you automatically pull her closer to you "Y/N You will pull out the drip"

"Don't care"

"Too bad, I do. Let me fix this thing" after some more rustling the two of you finally settle to fall asleep.

A successful mission meant a week off duty to recover.

Maria tried to get off bed at five am but, you didn't let her "Y/N, I have work to do".

"Me too, lie in my bed. I will work you good" you said with a smirk. Your arms reach out to wrap around her waist and she gives up, you smile triumphally as she rolls the two of you over to straddle your hips.

Your left palm sets below your head as your right hand finger nails graze up her tigh under her loose shorts. You feel her shiver and you smile widely. She does a quick job taking off her tank top and you admire her beauty, damn woman she is fit.

"Do all your agents get this reward after a successful mission?".

"No, just an insufferable one that is quiet everywhere but in bed with me".

Lifting up your torso you begin to plant ope mouthed kisses from below her sternum to her clavice, neck... How much you love kissing and grazing your teeth on her neck, feeling her tendons stretch and contract, her breath hitches. Kisses along her chiseled-goddess-like jawline. The two of you continue the make out session while your hands knead and work her breasts, rolling her nipples and tugging them gently. Her fingernails claw your back, making you shiver "Damaged goods get no refund, darling".

"Good. I'm keeping you" she gently pushes you back, and helps you taking off your shirt to lie in bed. "You should be resting" briefly getting off of you she takes off her short and undies to straddle you again, making you humm in appreciation "Already that wet?" You wiggle your eyebrows playfully, your hands immediately attach to her firm butt kneading te muscles.

"Oh shut up and put that mouth to work" she glares down at you, her eyes look dark with her pupils dilated.

Without a warning you drag her with your hold on her butt, she quickly adjust to straddle your face. You tease her a little nipping and kissing the inside of her tighs, which proves hard when you can feel her wetness falling on your neck, the warmth of her core and that divine smell.

"Stop teasing me and fuck me" she orders with her deputy voice, you chuckle before diving in to make out with her lower lips, tugging, nipping and sucking like a starving woman. She buckles and trembles. You make her loose control and she moans, whimpers and screams your name. Oh this will earn you a shit ton of teasing from the Avengers, but right now you don't give a damn, and you can't really heard it, het tighs pressing and squeezing your head muffled her sounds, and you want to hear them. You work her to overdrive, your hands give her butt cheeks a last slap before moving up to her breasts she tries to keep you off but her strength is no match when her mind if foggy with pleasure.

Like a predator waiting to strike you play with her breast and nipples until your feel her almost getting to climax. That's when you strike pinching and tugging her nipples. As she voices the dirtiest-loudest moan while her body shakes and trembles as it shoots down in pleasure. You gently guide her to lay down your head still between her legs. You kiss her mound and navel while her hands tug and graze your hair with each pleasure tremor.

As her body relaxes and she reaches for your hands, and frowns when she feels the IV entry. You already dozed off again, using her front as pillow. Luckily Maria is tall, she reaches out and grabs the small first aid kit you keep on the side table. After gently taking it out she clean it and wrap it with a band-aid, she jiggled at the design with paw prints. Pietro bought it for you as joke since is veterinary use. But you use it anyway since they are self adherent.

For everybody's surprise not only Tony got married, he decided to retire and went back to live in the city. None of you was against it that is, and with the twins now more experienced and powers under control his absence was felt, yes. But the team managed. Wanda and Vision started dating now they have two years of official relationship, let's be honest they were dating at least half a year before. You an Natasha noticed. But Vision was a good guy, he was still awkward and learning, but he was gentle and attentive. And if Pietro's shovel talk was dramatic yours was worse when you showed him a magazine with vibranium bullets you stole from Ulysses.

"You break her heart Vision, and I will leave you like a perforated metal panel, am I clear?".

"I-I yes, ma'am" he said nervously side glancing at Wanda "Is that all Y/N/N?" She asked with a mix of pride and annoyance.

You only gave her a nod.

Fury assigned you to a mission that did a number between Maria and you. You went undercover for a year with a group of dangerous black market dealers in Madripoor. It wasn't about the time, it was about how dangerous it was. You end up having to use drugs and do awful things to blend in. Which Maria detested. You also had to deal with Baron Zemo, that was the easiest part. The man is a snake but he has a code.

Along the mission you found something absolutely dreading, apparently the Red Room was up and operating. You couldn't believe it and led by Dreykov. But Natasha killed Dreykov, a look a like? Someone using the name?

You tried to dig in to that, and pure dead-ends. The only solid clue and thread you had was the child trafficking. But the organization you were in didn't stole or buy the kids. Once in a while they shared transport with one of the crime organization who did.

Unfortunately, to keep cover your code name begun popping up on Ross radar. You had to do some awful shit to stay in, The Mawler.

You are gazing at the sea on Siloso Beach, Singapore. Lazily resting on a sun bed, smoking a cigar and beer in hand.

“I’m pulling you out of this mission. Effective immediately” Maria said after she took the sun bed beside you.

Without moving your head you side glance at her and you almost get a heart-attack. She is wearing a damned sexy one piece swimsuit.

“With that you aren’t passing unadverted” you say taking a drag of your cigar.

“I’m hoping this convives you to go back”

“Quite close, but I can’t. I’m close to what we need”.

Maria and you spent a week there. It was a bitter sweet week. Where you two bickered and fought which only resulted in hateful make out sex.

In the end on the last day Maria decided to put an end to the relationship. She could no longer put up with what you were doing to yourself for this mission. Your elbows sport the evidence of the needles, heroine. She told you about Ross close eyes on you.

You didn’t wanted to let her go but, you understood her fears, you had them too. You were getting way to deep.

When you finally came back after bringing down the organization with Coulson's team. You were greeted by Wanda, Pietro and Vision, yes in the end you got along with the android he is good company full of facts that blow your mind.

When you saw Maria and Natasha cozy on the living room, you knew. You had lost your chance. Not gonna lie you love Maria, but both of you got awfully guarded around each other during your mission. Natasha and Maria have been on an off on the past, so you just accept it and move on.

Now with the looming danger of the Red Room, you must to what you do best. Keeping them all safe. And that means keeping this secret and going behind everyone's backs to dig intel.

Months went by, before you used to keep on your own at the compound. Now any given free time you are out, traveling or driving, you even go AWOL during missions. Making Maria doubtful of your loyalties. Even Fury us having second thoughts. And everything goes to shit when you all are tasked to keep world leaders safe during a submit and the place is attacked. You got there late, Fury notified you of the mission, but you went awol again chasing threads on the red room.

Is messy, a disaster. Between the attackers and trying to stay on the shadows you see two familiar uniforms, their moves like Natasha's. Without report or orders you go for them. After a brief fight, you found two undetonated bombs. You notified the team and guard it until authorities aradheren

When you returned to the team Steve was angry "Where were you?!"

"Chasings suspects"

"Oh yeah? I don't see any" Sam said crossing his arms.

"They got away. I lost them between the fleeting people".

48 hours later, you were set on a week mission. Unknown to you it was to keep you away and gather declarations and evidence, you were framed as participant of the bombing. In your ignorance you went AWOL again.

When you returned, the twins, Natasha and Bucky were on a mission and they were due to be back the next day. Ross and his elite team got in the compound after lunch time. Demanding the director to hand you over. All the evidence was lay out to you on the conference room, Ross and Fury previously got into an agreement. You are handed over, the press never knows about this. And for your heart-break they did. Everything fell into place to frame you as mole.

"Fury! You gotta the shitting me. I was helping, I went there as an Avenger"

"You went awol 36 hours before that mission. You did it again, in your last mission. All evidence points to you".

"Bullshit! I've been nothing but loyal to you and this cause".

Ross retrieves something from his jacket "Explain your possession of vibranium bullets".

"I got them from Ulysses Klaue an exchange during a mission time ago".

"An you never handed them over to your superior?"

"What I do or not is not of your inconvenience" you growl at the man.

"Search her" he orders sternly.

One of his men come behind you and with his baton puts you on a choke hold. The agents quickly pat you down and expose the drugs you have on you (fucking shit, not my day).

"Hmm... Is this the quality of agents keeping civilians safe? Fury" the old man taunts the Director who stands glaring at you. Yeah, you are fucked.

"Maria please, this is a fucking mistake. I'm not involved in that bombing. You know me" you beg and plead for her to believe you but is a lost cause. You see it in her eyes, the admiration, commaderie, friendship and love is gone "Agent Y/N Y/L/N you are under arrest, your rank, badges and credentials are cancelled effective immediately".

You physically feel something breaking inside your chest, it takes mere fraction of seconds for your face to become blank and lifeless. A price to pay, to lost it all. At least she will be happy.

The agents handle you roughly and you don't give a damn. You simply take it all and let them push you around to the awaiting transport.

Along the hallways you cross gazes with Bobbi and Sharon, but the agent behind you smacks you in the eyebrow with the butt of his rifle "eyes to the front Mad Dog" he orders, and you get angry. Stopping abruptly.

"Move!" You don't give an inch.

"YN, just go" Bobbi says worriedly.

You cross gazes with the agent hurrying you "Fuck you!" You break out on a fight, a fight that gets the attention of everyone. And you go completely animal, honoring your code name until electrified batons and elephant grade tranquilizers put you down.

When you wake up you are bumping and rolling around in the back of a vehicle that jumps up and down, you hit your head several times but the tranquilizer still has its hold on you.

"What do you mean, Ross arrested her and not even three hours later lost her? Are you kidding?! Wanda and Pietro protest angrily.

The team get into a massive verbal fight, some believe it, others don't. Is a circus.

When you wake up, the first thing you see is the blurry shape of an IV on your elbow, with a blue liquid.

"Where's Romanoff?" A husky voice from somewhere around questions.

You ignore it and keep quiet, from there is who knows how many days of being beaten up. That is until you hear one of the women calling the other Yelena. Between the hazy moments you catched the hour glass on their uniform... Could it be? Yelena Belova, Natasha's long lost little sister.

Groaning as you get concious again you hear the blonde getting close, her face half hidden by a bandana "wakey-wakey imposter".

"So, will you talk? Or do I begin pulling off nails, maybe a sever a finger?"

You lift your head to look at her hazel eyes "Look. I don't know what you want with Natasha but, I am no disguise. I end up being framed and accused guilty. If I'm no use just kill me already".

Turns out she was indeed Yelena, and the other woman is a Black Widow too. Both Red Room deserters. They explained everything, with nothing else to loose you offer them your help to find that hell hole.

A year later you got contact with the twins again. They hugged you tightly when you saw them again. They cried like little kids. You held them and kissed their heads. From there you got in touch once in a while and mostly when they were alone on missions or with Vision.

Only once you got in touch with Maria, and it was during a scouting mission she had in Turkey.

Wanda gave you the heads up on Maria going solo to that mission. You were in Bulagary so you took the chance.

She was sitting outside a tea shop, you've been observing her. Someone tip her mark, from the outside you saw him getting suspicious. Ever honoring your nick name you got some key intel on the man. You made some deals with him, but he is a fake fat fish. You already flipped him off and deal with someone more important.

After buying a tea, you casually walk to her table and clear your throat to catch her attention "May I make you some company?"

Maria hides her surprise perfectly and motions for you to seat "What brings you here?" She asks.

"I was just passing by and I saw you. Figured we could have a friendly chat" you look directly at her hand below the table, she was about to rat you out.

She puts the cellphone on the table and leans back crossing her arms "you escaped Ross".

You chuckle at her words "Is not hard to begin with... You shouldn't believe everything Ross says, I thought Nick and you were better. The masters in deceive got deceived by made up evidence" you gave her a mockery low applaud "Outstanding".

Maria's eyebrows furrow "you know there's a protocol for that, you escaped and never came back".

"You should have trusted me and believed in me, darling" you take a sip of the tea to stop your tongue from lashing out.

Maria looks at you with disbelief "well darling, you were recurrent on going AWOL during missions, you consumed drugs, you were on possession of drugs when you were arrested. Vibranium bullets? Madripoor did a number, didn't it? You were acting off, you wanted trust?"

You grit your teeth hard enough, that even on the busy market she hears it "Did it ever crossed your mind that I could have a good reason? I did nothing but keep you all safe, because you all were my family, I loved you. Stupidly I still do, that's why I am here to tell you that your mission is a waste of time".

Maria's eyes widen at your words "Then come back with me, now. Let's clear this out".

Shaking your head you gulp down the last of your tea "Too late for that. You two abandoned me in the woods, I learnt to be a wolf" standing you you retrieve a little journal and put it in front of her "write a good essay for me, will you?"

Maria watched you go, you blended in faster than she could have guessed.

Three years later, Oksana, Yelena and you keep hitting dead ends. Nothing, no trace of a physical place. All former installations, abandoned relics, nothing. Three laps around the sun on the run, god knows how many vodka bottles and a obscene amount of cigarettes and cigars. The three of you became a dangerous team, doing mercenary jobs here and there to finance the search. Madripoor your recurrent hiring spot.

Wanda contacted you a few days ago. You were in Croatia. After barely scaping Task Master you took two airplanes, train and boat to meet Wanda and Vision who where undercover. She told you Steve and the others would be closed but, shouldn't be a problem.

You met them on a small local coffeeshop. She looked adorable with her beanie, and you couldn't help but tease her. The one that got roasted was Vision, you didn't know he opted for a human-like look you almost tackle him off Wanda when you saw them cuddling on the booth.

The three of you spend a good couple of hours talking, they told you some trouble they had got into, talked about some missions. Wanda was begging you to stay the night with them Pietro was sneaking off later to see you.

"Wanda you know I love you like my little sister but, this is dangerous. If Ross finds out-“ The t.v broadcasting news cut your train of thought. Aliens, Spaceships in New York?"

"What are you-" Wanda and Vision turned around to see it, the now redhead gasped and Vision started backing off "We must head back no-" his pained scream made both of you turn around.

"Viz!"

You pushed Wanda towards Vision to get her out of the way of a blast. That sent you to the other side of the street.

A fight broke loose against giant and strong as heck aliens. As much as you tried you were still very beaten from the previous fight. Four blasts later and a failed attempt to scape the aliens got the three of you cornered on the train station.

You see Wanda standing between Vision and the blue-like creatures while you were behind the aliens, they beat you and left you on the floor. You see it in her eyes, Wanda is terrified even more after they saw you beaten you down.

Something catches their attention, you sense him too. Steve and the back up is here. After his badass catch of the lance another fight breaks out, but it ends with Natasha stabbing one forcing them to retreat.

Pietro comes to your aid and help you up, you hug him tightly but briefly "I gotta go" you kiss the side of his head and begin walking off.

"We could use some help" Steve says behind you.

"Call Ross" you say waving him off.

"They kicked your ass and you run away with your tail between your legs?" Natasha taunts making you halt.

"Y/N/N, please?" Wanda says you make the mistake of looking at her, her damn pout.

You walk back to them "If you rat me out".

"We won't".

On the way back you texted Yelena and Oksana, you are no stupid their contacts were listed as Lena and Ana.

Natasha sits by your left and shamelessly peeks on your phone "Who do you text?"

"Girlfriend and roommate" you say, none of that is true. But this is not the right time to out Yelena. Wanda told you that Maria and Natasha were no longer together since a year ago.

As soon as you stepped on the conference room you saw Ross on a video call with Rhodes, Nick, Coulson and Hill "Director Fury, arrest that criminal right-" with a wave of Rhodes hand the call was over.

"Guess, is all hands on deck" Rhodes says looking at you, a shrug from you is his answer.

Not wanting to get into their useless banter. You walk away in search of your room, if it still is. It isn't. Is barren. No weapons, no battle suit. No clothes, well for a fact you know the twins have your civilian clothes.

Pietro zooming in the room confirms your theory "Your clothes are comfy" he hands you toiletteries and underwear, which is fun is a sports bra and one of his boxers. Before speeding off he tells you he will try to get you a battle suit.

The shower feels so good, you went for cold water the blasts left burns on your back, stomach and rribs the cold water soothes them.

What you didn't anticipated was Hill waiting for you sitting on the bed with a first-aid kit, you don't bother to utter a word and simply put the towel over your shoulders. Underwear already on.

In the corner of your eye you see her reaching out to caress the old bruises and new scars. She says nothing you just see the sadness in her eyes, the moment is bittersweet for both. Maria internally scolds her self, she shouldn't be touching you as if nothing happened, but you don't seem to pull away.

"Let me tend your wounds?" She asks hopefully, maybe this could be a little step forward, you shrug and sit on the edge of the bed. Letting her inspect and treat the wounds, you hiss when she disinfect the burn on your ribs which is the worse "Should I see the other guy?" She says playfully.

Chuckling you shake your head "Nah, this time I got fucked".

Maria smirks at your words but frowns as she inspects the deep bruises littering your body "These bruises, who did this?".

"You make awful enemies while on the run".

She hums thoughtfully, when the wounds are tended, she pats your shoulder. Taking a leap her hands cup your cheeks, her thumbs softly drawing half circles. You close your eyes and enjoy the contact. This feels so right, like nothing happened. As it has always been between the two of you, taking the moment.

"When this fight is over, come back? Let's clear this out. I've been searching, you were right. We got deceived" she leans down to kiss your forehead her lips lingering on the skin.

"I don't care, if I was framed guilty. There's something bigger behind that. That's what I've been searching, three years of dead ends. Can't do this on my own anymore" you feel her lips leaving your skin, opening your eyes you see her beautiful blue eyes.

"You won't. We will have your back this time. I will stand with you" you smile s little at her words before pulling her in to kiss her hungrily. When you feel her lips answering the battle you groan. How much you missed this. Your hands move around her body to grab her tighs and make her straddle you and the rolling the two of you over so you have her under you. Her breath hitches when you travel to her jaw and neck. Your hands control hers pinning them above her head. With your teeth you pull down her uniform zipper to below her breasts, with your tongue you trail up to her neck column and suck hard at the bottom to leave it marked "Hey! No love marks" her voice doesn't match with her body language when she buckles when you plant another one in the other side. You smirk against her skin and begin trailing down with open mouthed kisses. When. You are kissing inside her breasts the door is suddenly open

"I found a battle suit Tony had on the ma- shit!" He speeds to leave it over the desk and retreats to the door again "Go get some sis!" Blindly you snatch a scalpel from the aid kit and throw it at him, of course with a laugh he dodges it closing the door that gets the damage.

Maria laughs whole heartedly under you "Way to kill the mood" you grumble burying your face on her neck.

Steve and Bruce decided to head to Wakanda. If there was a genius that could figure out how to take the soul stone from Vision without killing him was Shuri. Tony was still M.I.A. and Thor had left to Asgard since two years ago.

When the ramp lowered, Wanda helped out Vision. You couldn't help but marble at the beauty of Wakanda. It's like anything you've seen. Bucky told you that unfortunately he had a relapse as the Winter Soldier when one of the Hydra Generals got his hands on the red book and activated the programming in his head. Tony had to blew his arm off before he killed Natasha. After that T'achalla offered his resources. Now Bucky is free from the programming and has a brand new arm.

Romanoff and Hill restocked you with weaponry, now you stand ready for battle.

You stand beside Bucky as you smoke a cigarette. When Nat and Steve come back to the lines you know these aliens are dead-serious about getting the stone. Over your dead body.

Sure, all of you are getting your ass handed over, big time. Luckily for Steve who was nearby Thor showed up with a three and a Talkin raccoon? The heck is going on?.

Natasha and Okoye were fighting Proxima Midnight, you were nearby but swamped by aliens. You need to hurry to help them out, when you thought it was lost cause Wanda showed up and saved them, hurling those wheel like machines like they were weightless. Holy fuck you barely dived into the ditch. Looking up you see the alien responding through her comm link, well you assume is something like it. And dashes away into the woods.

"Wanda, Natasha, Okoye wipe clean this area"

"I'm going for evil smurfette".

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You barely made it on time to intercept them before they pulled off the gem from Visions head, you ran in from behind them and tackled both off the android.

"Seems you didn't had enough from hour last fight" Proxima says calling her weapon. While the other, Corvus swirls his blade.

Standing two to one you crack your neck and stand ready to fight. The battle field stay dead silent and still.

"So, will you stop us by standing still?" Proxima taunts.

You know they are taunting and yet you run head first into the battle. Vision is conflicted between running and staying until you scream at him to get the fuck away. He does.

Staying two to one is hardly fair, they hit you repeatedly on the wounds of your previous fight. You take it all just to get opens and do damage.

The first going down is Corvus. You served a well placed knee on his previous stab wound. Quickly retrieving the vibranium machetes from your back sheaths you cross stab him in the chest, he can't even scream and with all your strength cut him through with an x shape. With your back opened Proxima blasts you at blank point sending you several feet away.

You hear her heavy footsteps nearing, you try to crawl away but she stomps on the burn of your back, making you groan in pain.

"I will spill your guts on the ground and take your head as price" she says anger over flowing her speech.

You laugh at her words and she kicks you in the face, making you roll on your back, when you open your eyes she is hovering over "your blast didn't kill me but surely your face can give me a heart attack" you say with a chuckle. She gets angrier and stomps you on the chest at least three times "Insignificant creature" she curses.

And you laugh at her anger "I still killed him" you give her a bloody smile. She raises her spear with both hands to stab you through. And you take the chance to call back one of the machetes, it buries on her middle, you quickly sweep off her legs with both of yours. The machete goes through completely. You mount her chest to ground and pound, you should kill her. But you are still angry about the cuts her attack left on Wanda's face.

Proxima still exchanges several hits with you, but you have a last one you call back the machete impaling her again until it gets through. She does the same with her lance but you dodge it in time before lashing her neck. Her head lulls to her right and she smiles before she is gone.

Then you feel it, dread. That strange feeling you get when you dive into the darkness of the unknown, on a dark hallway or room. That goosebumps that sell out your fear.

When you look back you see a giant purple humanoid being. He walks out of that portal and makes his way to you, his aura is unnerving to say the least.

"Who are you?" Your voice betrays your fear making you sound confident. A long his path he retrieves Corvus lance, his giant body making it look like a stick.

Calling back your other machete you get in guard.

"The people who fear me call me the Mad Titan".

You smirk at him "And the people who don't?".

"Thanos, but you won't live long enough to say it. It is impressive though, you killed two of my best warriors. Two of my children".

While he talked you observed, the gaunlet on his left hand it has five out of six stones. There's no fucking way you can loose this time.

The two of you get into a fight, a fight you regret right away when his giant fist impacts your whole face, you literally felt your jaw micro fracturing under his strength. You wobble back and get in guard, you side step his knee just to be intercepted by the gaunlet, that fist broke more than half your ribs, the impact is solid. He left you like a still punch bag. He pulls back his fist just to catch you with the same hand grabbing your head with his metal covered fingers to make you look up at him "I'll let them know you fought well" he plunges in Corvus blade burying it all the way "life for a life".

Unknown to you Thanos wiped out the battle field, the only one still standing was Wanda who was doing her best at destroying the stone before the Mad Titan get his hold on it.

*Mad Dog?!*

*Y/N!*

*Where are you? Wanda is the last one standing between that purple giant and Vision* Natasha's frantic voice wakes you up, when your unfocused sight adjusts you see the pool of blood you ate kneeling in. When you try to move the spear reminds you of it's placement.

One last fight you think to yourself. One last effort.

Gathering all the strength and balls you have you lean back to free the lance from the ground, and slowly pull it out, groaning and heaving in pain. When the blade is finally out you use it as a cane to lean on it. While you cough blood.

*Y/N?* You hear Natasha's worried tone.

Fishing around the pocket of your cargo pants you find the red inhalator. Luckily it wasn't damaged. This red thing will leave you like a rabid dog until the effects dies down or your body shuts down, Yelena might drag you from hell just to kill you for stealing this from her safe.

You inhale it all, after a few seconds the agonizing pain on your chest vanishes.

*Mad Dog here, I'm coming*.

Along the way you take the other forgotten lance and run as fast as you can towards the others, you can feel Wanda's powers building up.

You make it in time to see an half concious Wanda on the floor and it makes you angry as heck. Along the way you saw a shivering Bruce, Nat and Okoye trapped under some heavy vines, T'achalla passed out, Steve, Bucky, Sam and Pietro were knocked out.

You stop when you see he only caresses Wanda's head and goes to Vision's dead body. What you didn't expected was he reviving him, you see him chocking Vision.

With all your strength you throw the single blade lance stabbing the purples asshole on the back of his left shoulder, making him growl as his hold on Vision loosens.

He turns around and glares at you "You are a nuisance, this time I will kill you for good".

You run up to him blasting him several times with Próxima's weapon.

"Wanda get Vision away from here!".

"But-"

"No fucking buts! GO!" You get on another round with Thanos, this time your punches, kicks and the force behind the lance is stronger, reflexes better. When he feels you could actually have a chance after you stab him a little too shallowy twice she blasts you wit the power stone. And kicks mid air to send you against one of the giant threes.

Falling on your hands on knees the wind as completely knocked out of you, heaving several times only bring blood to your mouth. Man you are angry, you hear his heavy steps closing in. You try to stand up on wobbly legs. You dodge his first punch of the gaunlet, a second punch your body doesn't move in time. His free hand slams you back again on the three.

"Where's your fire now child?" He taunts out of nowhere he manifests Próxima's lance again, you give him a bloody smile breathing has become extremely hard "Didn't learn from last time? You need more than that" you say with ragged breath.

He gives you a sinister smile "If you are still alive by the time I finish this, you are coming back to my army" with a swift move the three blade lance goes through you pinning you against the wood. At this very moment you regret your taunting words.

What you didn't know is that Wanda was reading your mind, when she saw Thanos impaling you she and Vision turned around and decided to got back and fight.

You cant let this giant asshole get to Vision, you can't loose. With a lot of effort and will power you begin to retreat the weapon off your body, the pain is unbelievable, this time you groan and scream.

"Y/N! Don't!" You hear Natasha scream from somewhere around. But you don't give a damn.With blurry sight you saw the lightning of Thor's powers, there's was a explosion like sound. The attack hiding your last scream as you unburied the blade. Once more you used the lance as cane, leaning heavily on it.

When you looked up you saw Thor hovering down over a kneeled Thanos who had the massive ax buried on his chest.

"Don't fuck around kill him!" You shout at the god of thunder, but you see him he is blinded by rage, that rage that loss brings.

Deciding to take the matter in your own hands, you unstuck the lance and run up to them ignoring Natasha's and Steve's shouts for you to stop. You should have.

Almost simultaneously you jumped up to bury the lance on the titans head, Vision shoot a laser beam from the mind stone. Both hit the target, but the laser beam got further and went through you too on your lower abdomen. The last thing you had conciousness about was something hot hitting you and the hardness of the ground.

Vision fell on his knees and told Wanda to run to you.

The firsts reaching you were Natasha and Steve, followed by an absolute distressed Pietro then Wanda.

Natasha gently lifts you up to lay you on her lap. While the others franticly tear up your battle suit to reach your wounds, they all gasp. And get hands on to try to stop the bleeding, you groan in pain and wake up. You try to wiggle away from the pain but Natasha's hands on your face stop you "Easy there Y/N we are trying to help you, ok?"

"Nat?" You whisper brokenly.

Your left hand moves shakingly to grab the bandage roll you hid, you move it to her eye sight "Red Room, still active. Hid intel here... I- I didn't, I didn't go rogue. I was framed".

"Sestra, calm down. We know, ok? You are one of us" Pietro says with tears blurring his sight.

"Yelena alive. I've been working with her. Cellphone, Lena" you say with blood scaping your mouth "Sorry I lied. Budapest".

Natasha's tears finally run down "Is ok, Y/N/N, no hard feelings. Just stay still, ok?".

T'achalla calls to have medical ready. Steve looks at the speedster "Pietro, can you take her?".

"I'd be damned if I don't".

You chuckle at his words "Wan, Piet" you call them softly.

"Don't you dare to say goodbye Y/N. You can't, you are strong. You are our big sister, we need you, ok?" Is unmistakable how Wanda's pressure on your wound increases with her words.

"I love you guys, you the best little siblings" your eyes get lost. And Steve helps Pietro gathering you in his arms.

He runs faster than ever, the medics instruct him to lay you on a floating gurney. You groan in pain when they shift you, blindly you search for Pietro's hand "Tell Maria I love her?".

"I will. You better wake up to tell her yourself".

When things quiet down and the battle field was wiped clean. The avengers found themselves on the med bay. All of them needed medical, some more urgently than others.

Even Wakanda with all the advanced tech the doctors were having such a hard time keeping you alive.

By the time Maria and Nick landed, six hours later. You were wheeled on a room with ICU critically unstable. Against protocols the doctors let the twins in, they had to use a special suit though. They each grabbed one of your hands, even the latex gloves couldn't hide the coldness of your skin.

"Wan, can you read her?" Pietro asked softly, the female twin tried. Yes she could read you but your thoughts were a mess. Good memories, bad memories but above all there was guilt and uncertainty. She digged in deeper. And found you feeling angry about being framed guilty of the bombing and how you felt betrayed by everyone. Your guilt of keeping the Red Room Intel from Natasha, about Yelena working along with you.

Wanda wasn't stupid, none of them. You were literally dying and yet you were being hold down by your regrets. With tears running down her eyes she showed Pietro.

The twins were devastated, they didn't wanted to let go. But they also understood you were fighting over time. You saved them all at the cost of your life.

"Sestra, we know you are suffering. Is ok, we now know you were inocent. We love you, we never doubted you".

"Maria and Nick are coming ok? Just hold on a little more. We love you" both kiss your forehead, they wish they could replace the coldness of your skin with your usual warmer temperature. Your hugs were the best your the right amount of tight and warm.

They talk to you a little more while Nick and Maria get ready to enter.

"How is she?" Maria asks.

Natasha and Bucky shift uncomfortably "the doctors don't think she is going to make it" he says with a low tone, those are words none of the team members never wish to say out loud.

The twins and the directors switch and Maria grabs your right hand between hers, is warm thanks to Pietro. But is not your usual warmth, you always ran at a slight warmer temperature.

Nick walks to your left side and outs a fatherly hand on your shoulder "Agent. We made a mistake, a grave mistake. You were right, for that we are sorry. Thank you for all your service. You did good kid" he gives you a last gentle squeeze and leaves the room for Maria to have a private moment with you.

"Darling, I'm sorry. Like Nick said, we were wrong. Sorry is not enough. We lost time, how many nights I could have had you by my side. You were all, you are my everything" the monitor on your heartbeat spikes a little.

"hey, no love. Is ok, calm down" her words seem to work and makes you settle down "No matter what, I will always love you..." She jiggles softly at her own words, as tears blurry her sight "You did again baby. You saved us all" she softly traces your face, the features she loves hidden under swollen and bruised skin and muscle. The skin is cold. When she leans away she sees your eyes barely open.

"Hi" she softly says "I was told you were a total badass out there" you have a respirator on and with the fog clouding the mask she can't see the smile grin on your lips. Even Maria isn't sure if you are awake. You aren't supposed to be conscious.

She sits with you, talking to you.

The others outside just watch, Pietro has Wanda on a protective side hug "Is she?" The brunette nods "she isn't fully conscious but, somehow she seems to understand".

After a while the doctors ask Maria to leave, she kisses you cheek and temple before leaving the room.

That same night your body shuts down for good, it wasn't nothing over dramatic. Your heartbeat slowed until it stood still. The medical team tried their best at bringing you back. But you stayed forever asleep.

Everyone were devastated but, the three shattered were Maria and the twins. If your dead wasn't enough when news of your death spread out Ross came to the Avengers compound demanding Fury to surrender your body, government's property he said. Maria almost decked him.

Luckily your body was already cremated in Wakanda, and for Ross there was no use. So he left. Natasha left Wakanda the same night you died.

They all held back the service waiting for Tony and Peter to come back, a month later Carol Danvers brought them all, even with news adds they called themselves Guardians of the Galaxy.

Two weeks later Natasha came back with Yelena and Oksana. The team welcomed both, with open arms.

The service wasn't too over the top for Tony's over the top dismay. It was more intimate, the team, Clint's family, pepper, aunt May. Coulson's team.

When the service was over Maria stayed by your dead stone. This was actually your favorite place to have a smoke, you even had a stone ash tray you carved, she lit up a cigar and left it there for you, she lit a cigarette for herself and sat beside the headstone "you would have laughed at how we wept like little kids" she said to the forest.

By the second cigarette, Yelena and Wanda came back. The brunette sat by Maria's left and Yelena sat by the other side of the tomb stone. They all lit a cigarette and Yelena passes over a vodka bottle.

“She was good fighter and good friend” Yelena says looking at the headstone “I thought she was invincible. I was unsure of facing Natasha again. Y/N was right, I had nothing to be unsure”.

Yelena downs a gulp off the bottle “she loved you, she still does” she fishes around her long coat over sized inside pocket and gives Maria a couple of journals “everything we know of Red Room here, she has a couple of personal stuff there”.

Maria has been avoiding looking through the last two journals. One had everything Red Room and Hydra related. The second ones were personal. It’s been a month… 30 days of over thinking and beating herself on how stupid she was on doubting you.

Blame the vodka and the lonely nights. She ends up venturing to read the one that looks more worn, older.

The first pages are about your mission in Madripoor. Notes and heads up for your mission. Hand draw schematics.

She notices the difference on the strokes, sometimes well done others scribbled, hurried… some pages even have some brown-ish stains coffee mostly. But theres blood too. The she sees the first page with a long text, the format looks like a letter. Two months into the mission

<I’m pretty sure I’m writing this and never send it.

It’s been almost two months, 56 days into this task. I’m missing you like crazy, through out the day I catch myself wondering if you are safe, how are you, missing your presence… is stupid, maybe. I blame the vodka and the aftermath of using drugs. I hate it, but I had to. I had to blend in they are suspecting I’m a spy… I might not see past the second month.

If I die, and by a miracle you find this know that I love you Maria Hill. Tell the others I miss them too.

P.D. Tell Fury I will haunt his old man ass>

Maria laughs for the first time.

She keeps flipping through the pages.

Six months in.

<Well, another drugs and vodka fueled letter. I’ve known regret, but nothing like this. The things I’ve had to do… they are haunting me. Know I get the appeal of drugs, if I don’t sleep I don’t dream… if I inject enough heroin or pain killers I have memory-less sleep. And the maker knows I need some sleep. I’m paranoid. Maybe is the drugs.

I understand you are worried Maria, but this is beyond me. Far more complex. The Red Room might be alive. This black market is cruel… I see kids, women, babies being traded like stuff. Potentially deadly substances and vial locked diseases hurl around like canned food. Is worrisome how this underworld doesn’t care about anything but money. Fucking filthy money.

I know I’ve been ghosting you on Intel. I’ve been reporting directly to Fury. I’m sorry love.

We fought on this last meeting and I’m sorry. I unloaded a lot of shit on you, sit you are not to blame about. I’m just tired and drained. I pray for this mission to be over soon.

Love you.

P.D. for Fury:

FUCK YOU>

Maria keeps searching for this letters. Each become more dark, haunted. Is palpable how your psiche was suffering the beat down of what you saw.

<I’m sorry. I had to.

I was played, they gave me something.

I was feral… I am scared of myself. How can I make that much damage bare-handed?.

All this time I’ve been a dormant monster. What am I?

Do I still deserve you?

I’m so, sorry.

I love you Maria. That’s the only thing I’m certain>

Maria squeezes her eyes trying to hold back tears. She flips forward until a couple of Polaroids shows up. Her eyes widen in surprise.

Is from Singapore, one when she was sunbathing on the beach. The other a picture of her naked, barely covered by the hotel bedsheet. She was sound asleep on her stomach

<Today I lost the only person I’ve ever truly loved.

I feel stupid. But no one said this line of work was easy. I pushed you away. They are trailing me.

This feels wrong, I should not cling to these polaroids. But sometimes a little breath of hope is needed. Maybe when this is over I can fix my stupid decisions.

You don’t know this. My primary mission is over. But I found something else, I’m already inside so no use on backing away and sending a newbie in.

You are the light that I look for though this dark time. Now it might just be a hopeful memory. But I need to cling to it or might loose myself into this darkness.

I will always love you.

P.D. Fury is a dick. If I lose you for good I will kill him myself>

Well, now it makes sense… and she didn’t see through your lies. Maria sighs and looks up to the ceiling of her office. Wishing she could find the answer. A way to turn this back and change this cruel outcome. She doesn’t blame Fury. Is just the way this spy and assassins game is.

She spends the night reading your notes and letters. She saw it all. The hurt it did when they foolishly turned their backs on you.

As the pages are turned she witness the change from rage to sadness and last acceptance.

Is clear that drunk your hand slips there’s even some little notes from Yelena. Leaving Maria unsure if she put them after or while you were writing.

<Wanda asked me to meet them in a few days in Scotland. She said something about a secret mission there. Which is kind of odd. The place. Not one to judge after being deep inside Madripoor.

The little birdie has been trying to play match maker again. I’ve been thinking… I miss them… I miss you. This solo mission I’ve been carrying on with Yelena and Oksana is been hard. We are being hunted by the Red Room. Honestly a little breather would be welcomed.

P.D you looked beautiful on that little café in Italy. I saw you and I’m still smitten>

The next pages are blank… until the last one. Scrabbled messy writing.

<I don’t even know why I’m writing this… before this battle. Maybe is just reflex, maybe is because I’m nervous. This aliens kicked the crap out of me last time. I was hurt already. But man I felt like a ragdoll.

If I don’t make it out of this. Know that I love you still. That make out before parting ways was a true oxygen intake to my soul.

P.D. I love you, you looked beautiful as ever. I was a stupid for staying away for so long>

[lonewolfwrittenuniverses]

BODYGUARD

This is Maria Hill x reader.

Synopsis: reader is a super soldier rescued by Maria Hill and the Avengers. Will they end up together on a world of spies, fights and lies?

Read to find out.

Enjoy.

Darkness, coldness, emptyness. There was a time where your ears used to ache in silence, now like this dark room is emptyness.

You can't remember how you got at this point, you just remember training, learning while you were human you suck it all up and did Hydras will you even did missions along the Winter Soldier, you worked well together, two out of the six best assassins on the organization. after being experimented on everything changed, you got all the attributes of a super soldier. That's when Hydra lost the leash, you tried several times to scape, followed by awful punishments when captured. The longest you got away was six months. When they captured you again the changed the leash for chains, straight jacket and muzzle. You killed at least 25 agents. When you were unnecessary you where thrown into cryo freeze.

Now for missions they injected something and put a collar with locator. You saw like a first point of view everything. They left you with no means to scape. You had a schedule, you can even say they pooty trained you, it sounds 'fun' you still wonder where that word comes from.

Back to present endeavors, the guard are late to bring in your meal, if you can call that awful poultry food. The light that comes from the narrow window of the metal door has been flickering for some time. Which is odd and yet not uncommon.

Then you heard it, the screams, the guns shots, some punches, more screams. You see one of the guards pass across the narrow window trying to get in. But someone shots him down, his blood sprinkles the already dirty glass.

A female voice, raspy tone, she might be talking into some device. Chosing to make no sound you stay on the dark. When things settle down you'll try to break free. The straight jacked has been already giving out, you've been forcing it for a couple of months.

No luck you hear the woman messing with the electronic lock until it clicks open. Another pair of boots arraive. You hear nothing until the door is kicked open and two figures appear on the door threshold. One tall and lean, other smaller and athletic. They keep their guns drown.

Then the strong lights are flicked on leaving you momentary blinded, but you can hear them marching close with tactical steps.

When your sight adjusts you see them clearer, indeed two women, the tall one black hair a bright blue eyes. The other redhead and with green eyes. Both look trained and strong guns still on you, that's wise. The logo on their uniform, they are S.H.I.E.L.D well if they kill you at least the nightmare is over.

"Are you a prisoner or an agent?" The redhead questions.

You choose silence, is not like you could talk easy with the muzzle on.

"Do you speak English? Rasiya? Español?" The dark haired woman tries next.

Silence.

You hear them discussing that maybe is the muzzle, it seems to imped your jaw movement.

The taller woman unsheathes her hunting knife showing you and getting close "I'm going to take the muzzle off. Not hurt you" you blink once, after some struggle the muzzle is loosened, taking the opportunity you open and close your jaw and move it side to side "better?" She asks you nod. The redhead tries to grab the metal clasp keeping you against the wall but you halt her grunting a "no". Then you look at the panel on the left side.

After a couple of minutes the metal clasps open and you almost fall face on the floor, but the tall woman catches you on time and lays you on the floor. The two of them together free you from the straight jacket and help you out.

You follow their lead while your body gets it's senses but as soon as you feel somewhat loosened up you bolt away from them.

It doesn’t take long for your body to get in working mode. When their briefly turn their backs on. You flee away

*Guys the woman we found is trying to scape! She is running to the east side... She is jumping down the stairs from the fifth floor* the red head shouts through their communication device.

Not your lucky day, two other intercept you. Captain America with his shield and for your surprise the Winter Soldier is there.

"Mad Dog?! Stay down" thmetal arm man says, his voice sounds different, more human, his eyes too, bright blue, unlike the dullness they had before.

"We don't want to hurt you, come with us" Captain America says.

"Get out of my way" you growl at them.

"Can't do".

A fight breaks loose you manage two put up with them even in your state. But when Iron Man comes to play you loose. A ram with the shield sends you to crack a wall, Iron Man fires a stun wave, you brave on to be met on a exchange with the soldat who knocks you out after a combo of upper cut on your liver with his metal arm, blow to the head and metal elbow on your jaw.

The next thing you know you wake up on another metal room, you sigh and raise up to sit on the cot and let your head bang against the wall. Well, you are still alive, why can't you just die?.

The next days the redhead and the winter soldier come to interrogate you, you give them some one word answers and request to speak with Director Fury, which at first was denied. And you refused to speak anymore.

Two weeks later the man walked in "So?" He asks standing in front of you.

"Why am I still alive? You question is simple but interesting for the man.

"Intel".

You humm and tilt your head "What do you want? After that you kill me, right?".

Nick was warn by Natasha about your seemingly lack of interest in being alive. He nods.

"ask away".

"The other soldats, where are kept?".

"Dead".

"How come?".

"I Killed them".

"Why?".

"They were bad people, unstable, cold blooded" well mark it down that's the longest answer you've given.

"What are you?"

You shrug and look at is only eye "worse".

Giving the director all the Intel you knew was easy, you never saw him again. The redhead Natasha, Bucky the winter soldier, another guy that came Clint, Hawkeye and Maria the tall dark haired woman. Came almost every day or every other day. You even were given the chance to train, your wounds were tended, you were fed three meals for the first time. The food was amazing.

A month later Maria and Fury came in and offered you a job. Being an agent and Avenger. You had nothing to loose, if they are not killing you, then you need to work.

Turns out you are a great addition to the team, skilled, strong and quick-thinker. You could work along with the Avengers, you could go solo on very hard missions and came out alive.

Still you kept to your own business, sometimes reading, training or simply enjoying a smoke on central park. If not, in your room.

At first the team, specially Tony seemed on the mission of making you talk. But it wasn't your thing, it wasn't long until Natasha treathen them to leave you alone and you were greatful.

As things settle down you begun forming bonds with all the team members, simple things. You even get along with Maria the team even jokes that you are her personal bodyguard, it was a recurring joke you even chuckled at it. It was all fun until Hydra in alliance with other mob groups did an assassination attempt on her.

Luckily that day you tagged along with her, she insisted on you wearing a vest under your clothes. After some arguing you did.

It was supposed to be an Intel retrieval with one of her sources, and you were weary. You weren't wrong, a small army came from the back industrial gate. Everything played out so fast, you end up using the snitch as a shield for Maria and together shoot your way out to the armored black Yukon but you were greeted by another spray of bullets. You tackled down Maria and used your body to protect her. Now you were pissed as fuck "Get in" you ordered.

Pissed as heck you stand up and begun shooting down the snipers with a deadly accuracy. For the people coming through the warehouse you grabbed a small explosive from the back of your belt and threw it at them. As the building explode you drove away.

At first you thoughts it was over until you saw the three vans and five bikes coming right behind you.

"Duck!" You shouted as bullets hit the SUV.

After the first rush of bullets and Maria and you took turns at shooting down the attackers specially the bikes.

You used all your ability to drive her away luckily back up came and they opened a clear path for you to reach the Avengers tower.

Hate to admit you sloppy halted the vehicle on the underground garage. The two of you were panting, hearts over beating with adrenaline "your agents need better response timing Hill" you said playfully at her. She laughed, whole heartedly "Of course the longest sentence you ever tell me will be that" you tried to chuckle but pain stopped you instead you grunted you looked down your dark dress shirt looked darker and wet in some places you rip it open, oh no that's bad enter and exit holes on the bullet vest "Fuck".

"Shit! They hit you" maria exclaimed *I need medical assistance, agent Mad Dog was hit several times* Natasha, Sam and Bucky were running to the vehicle when they heard through the comms the request of medical.

Sam and Bucky hurried to your side and helped you out. Luckily Sam was there to instruct the others to put pressure on the wounds, but you already lost a lot of blood and passed out.

Surgery, a long one and two days later you woke up, hazzy and disoriented.

"Hi hero of the day" a husky voice said by your left Natasha.

"Hi, is Maria ok?" You don't see her in the room and it makes you worried "I'm not hero".

"She is, and yes you are a hero. Even when you don't like it".

Shrugging you settle down on the bed, Nat offers you some water which you gladly take. After the doctors came Maria also came to visit you, you smiled at her and she chuckled "You look proud of yourself" she said with a teasing tone.

"I am, you are good. Just some minor wounds".

From there you all got closer and for their dismay you became the team bodyguard, even to Clint and that's not an easy feat. Sam's recent way to tease you was singing "I will always love you" which make you cackle, the man was a goofball.

"Tone it down bird brain" you say after calming down your ribs still sore from your recent stunt to save Clint from falling twelve stories down. You managed to shove him into the building but end up falling six stories into some ducts. Earning you a split eyebrow and broken ribs. That was a month ago.

"My Mad Savoir!" Clint exclaimed coming to give you a side hug and a kiss on the cheek, you grunted in fake annoyance.

For four years everything was calm that is until Tony decided to try the brilliant idea of making Ultron come to life after you all recovered the scepter. The night of the show down you saved Dr. Cho.

"-You all are killers, specially those two" the robot said pointing at Bucky and you. The Winter Soldier and Mad Dog".

You got visibly angry "Don't be mad darling, you can't even remember your life before. But I read it all. The best infiltration killer for the American army. You were trapped on the same facility as James, you are the original Hydra Winter Soldier. Mad Dog the feared soldier, you made blood baths. But you don't remember, do you?”…

After his little speech the fight broke loose. You aid Bruce before Natasha took over, after destroying a couple of robots you saw one going for doctor Cho. You ran in her aid and after killing a couple they ganged on you. Earning a blast on your chest at point blank, the blast sent you to the floor down crashing a glass table. Giving you a mild cardiac arrest. After Thor destroyed the robot, they heard Cho asking for help.

They all run to you "She was shot at blank point" Helen says checking your pulse.

"Ok, Helen please move aside a little" Tony used his repulsor a couple of times until your heartbeat got normal again.

That night you retired to your room, while the others fought and bickered with Tony about this new threat.

On Johanessburg you stopped the Maximoffs from getting to Bruce, you fought against both. Before knocking out the girl she send some red smoky energy in your head, you managed to fight through the haze and held the boy at gun point "ok, pretty boy. Last chance, get your sister and fuck off or I'll kill you both" something blurred your sight, when you blinked a soldier on second world war uniform was begging mercy. Your hold faltered between tightening and loosing up.

"Ok! Ok! I give up. Let me go, we will go". His frantic accented voice brings you to present.

"Y/N?" Bruce asks walking from behind you "Stay there Bruce" you let go of the boys neck and see him speeding off with his sister.

The fly back was a mess. As soon as the quinjet landed on the farm, you went to Clint's barn to get your spare motorcycle.

"Mad Dog!" Sam shouted running behind you "Y/N!"

You straddle the bike put your helmet on and revive the engine Sam tood on the door "Y/N, get off the bike. Let's talk it out" you ignore him and maneuvered beside him and went away.

Unknown to them you went back to New York, you didn't felt stable enough to not being a danger to Clint's kids and you loved the Rugrats.

At the tower Maria was waiting for you when you step into the common room to grab a bottle of whiskey, she drinks with you. You tell her a little about what Wanda made you see. That night you end up having messy half drunk sex with her, is not the first time nor the last one. Is just that, Maria and you take what the other offer for the moment, no tags, no strings, no issues. Just flickery moments of solace in each other's arms.

When everyone was back you saw them, the Maximoff twins were there and no sign of Natasha. You didn't gave a damn about the craddle or what they were bitching about. You went for Steve "Where is she?!"

"Y/N calm down" Steve tried.

"Y/N back off, this is about the cradle" Tony tried "We need this, to defeat Ultron-"

"An that's your fucking problem Stark! mine is finding Natasha" you looked around and walked to the twins "you two better tell me where that machine has her" the glass gives up under Pietro and he falls.

"Pietro!" She tries to move but the barrel of your gun greets her and make her halt "Talk".

Everything became a circus after that, Vision was 'born' then you all went into battle. Bruce rescued Nat, while you all went to fight.

The rest of the team went to the city you all walk down the ramp you see the Captain America graffiti "you have a fan base cap" making Sam and Bucky laugh.

"seriously?" He says before taking off his helmet and hurling it back in the jet "You barely talk and when you do is for this?"

You shrug and jog away, to investigate around some key buildings, nothing. Wondering what the heck the robot has planned, you stay standing for a little bit. He wants to destroy everything, extinction he said... A bomb? Where can he hide something big if it's not on the buildings... You slap your head, of course underground.

*Maximoffs any big abandoned structure on the city?*

*Y/N you are uncharacteristically hyper-verbal on this mission* Tony teases you on the comms.

*I can see your ass standing still. Move it* Bucky says with a playful tone *We got people to evacuate*

*that's your mission can opener, not mine* you fire back.

*The church on the center* Wanda answers.

You don't answer anything else and make your way to the church. Instructing people to leave the city. At first they pay no mind, they look apprehensive and afraid of you, you can't blame them you are armed to the teeth, on top the M249 SAW and you got two belts of ammo crossing your torso.

*Our dear Mad Dog is scaring the civilians* Sam said with a singy teasing voice. That was until robots begun appearing from everywhere.

*Y/N/N I think is time you let the dog loose* Tony said looking around *I'll go to the church*.

There's a point in battle where all of you regroup on the church fight to protect the key to Ultron's dispositive.

When things quiet down a little you hear someone calling you "Tell me that's not your blood" Natasha says coming closer to grab your chin and inspect your face, you shrug.

"Clint, I took some elderly and pregnant woman to the quinjet. Fly them to the Hellicarrier" you say Barton nods "I give you a ride old man" he picks him up as speeds away.

*Hey Clint! You make a beautiful bride* Bucky says teasing the blonde man through the comms.

*Fuck off all of you*

When the group splits again you stay with Wanda covering her six. Her twin comes back with two ammunition belts "This ok for you?" He hands them over, you quickly asses them and nod.

"Go help civilians" Wanda says to her twin, they get into bickering and you grin internally at their banter. Which gets interrupted by an incoming bot that Wanda shoots down before you "Go".

If this couldn't get worse the battle intensifies even more, to the point of you keeping the dispositive and Wanda safe. Until S.H.I.E.L.D and Sokovian military back up arraived to let you breath a little.

The battles rages on.

Your weapon carelessly falls on the ground and you put pressure on the deep cut on your right arm, looking at it you see that is bleeding heavily, shit. At least the robot couldn't stab the brunette on the back since you shoved her away to save her.

After a quick patch up by one of the S.H.I.E.L.D agents the battle went on harshly until Vision let you all know that Ultron was gone, but his mini-mes were trying to get away.

Yeah, it was quite fun one moment they are trying to stab you on the heart, luckily it halted to flee away "Wanda, you and S.H.I.E.L.D guard this shit. Military with me".

Who knows how later, but it was night time you walked to one of the ports where civilians were loaded to the Hellicarrier. For their safety they will spend the night on the ship. Until the city is thoroughly swept clean.

"Mad Dog" oh no stern voice, the deputy is pissed. You try to pass her by to avoid her wrath but she grabs you by the back of your uniform neck with a harsh tug that make your whole body ache.

"Why haven't you answered you damned comm link?"

You take the small device out of your pant pocket "Broken".

Maria makes you turn around and shines a lamp on your face "For fucks sake agent. Where were you?"

"Fighting".

She shakes her head partly in amusement, part angry at your carelessness "Med ward, NOW".

"Yes ma'am" Tired, hungry and hurted you didn't had the will to argue or run. You boarded one of the transfer vehicles and went to get tended.

You end up laying on a gurney only with your undergarments, you had cuts and scrapes all over. And that's how Wanda found you for her embarrassment. Smirking at her blashfulness you raised an enquiring eyebrow.

"Sorry! I just, um Natasha asked me to look for you here. Dinner is about to be served" nodding at her you closed your eyes to hid your pain when the doctor opened the cut on your arm to wash it thurougly, dirt and blood fell off.

"We need about half an hour, her backside is no better" the doctor said, the brunette nodded and went away.

For your surprise she and her twin were outside the room at your exit "Hi" she said shily "Let us help you" Pietro said when he saw the limp on your left sife getting on your affected side he helped you put your arm over his shoulders "Lean on me". They helped you getting to the dining area.

"Well, I won't feel that bad about myself. Look how Mad Dog ended" Sam said with a wide smile, he was quite banged too. Almost all the team was beaten except Vision for obvious robotic reasons and Bruce.

When you were sitting Wanda helped you getting you a plate of food in front of you, you gave her a small smile and a soft thank you which earn the two of you a bunch of teasing from almost everyone.

When dinner was over Nick and Maria walked in and gave instructions, the first was you and Barton benched, that prompted a grumpy Hawkeye and you tilted your head in defiance at the director.

"Mad Dog, you are benched. I saw your medical report" you breath out forcibly through your nose "I'm good".

"You look like a beaten dog Y/L/N I won't repeat myself" Nick said giving you his unnerving stare.

"Control room?".

"She can tag along with me, there's a lot of paperwork to fill in" Maria said.

That's how you found yourself dozing off at three am in Maria's office on your fight to stay awake you didn't see the soft smile drawn on her lips. When your head finally lost the battle, she went to your side and lift you bridal style to lay you on the small couch of her office, using one of the cushions are your pillow and the other to keep your ankle risen. She brushed away some stray hairs and kissed your forehead before going back to work.

The next day you woke up to an empty office, you figured Maria was busy. So you decided to make yourself useful and ended the paperwork she left on her desk before going out.

Nick benched you, that doesn't mean you will do as he says. You respect him and wouldn't hesitate to lay down your life at his command but, not today. You might be hurt and aching, you can still fight.

After arming yourself to the teeth again you join Melinda, Daisy, Bobbi and Hunter on their turn to sweep clean buildings. Three hours into working along them your comm link cracks to life with a very pissed Agent Romanoff *Agent Mad Dog, bring your ass back to the Hellicarrier, immediately*.

"hahahaha roasted" Daisy exclaimed and you glared at her.

"You snuck away really good this time, took them longer" Bobbi said with a fist bump and a very displeased Melinda glaring at you both.

*Agent Romanoff, Mad Dog is good with us. Her strength help us check between debris".

Mark it down you are proud. Fifteen more robots, three alive civilians found, three dogs and two cats you all go back to the Hellicarrier.

Nick and Maria intercepted you at the med ward. Fury on his very director persona threaten to fire your ass if you pulled shit like that again and left you under Maria's supervision.

Three months later all of you are back on the Avengers Tower. Tony is already building the Avengers compound set to be open on a year or year and a half tops.

Right now you find yourself on the meeting room with Nick, Maria, Natasha and Clint.

"The Maximoffs, they need formal training. On all bases. Hill will supervise you three during their training. They must function not only as enhanced individuals for Avengers, they must be able to work as field agents. Am I clear?"

"Aye Aye sir" Clint said playfully making you all roll your your eyes.

Unexpectantly for everyone as the training of the twins went on, you found yourself being like an older sister to them. Natasha was a step away from adopting them, Clint, well Clint was Clint he already treat them like if they were their children. And his kids saw them as older siblings.

Your quiet nature didn't change, but with them it fell at ease. While Natasha taught them how to spy and manipulation, you and her made a team for teaching them hand to hand combat, Bucky joined and taught them weaponry prompting some fights between the three of you about methods, which was fun to witness. Clint being the must experienced one, to not say old taught them protocols and survival.

With the Maximoffs addition the disfuctional family got bigger. Missions rolled around. And now you stand by the tarmac on the rooftop of the tower. Smoking a cigarette, you are set to go undercover for four months in Africa. Hydra got on the ivory illegal market, just to move around their shady deals for their own financial benefit. Is going to be dangerous as heck, but is you find the right thread you will find the base where operations are run by. Ulysses already acceded to help in exchange on a high-tech prosthetic for his lost arm.

You see the wind carryon the smoke your bags are already on the jet.

"Change of plans agent. We are going by commercial airline" Maria says walking closer to you.

"We?" You ask blowing smoke to the wind again.

"How's your military jargon? You are joining VETPAWS to get there with an undercover".

"If you mean WWII jargon I'm expert, otherwise I could use some help".

Maria was with you for a week before leaving. From there you were with the organization, operating with and without them. When you found a solid lead you parted ways they offered you to be on touch for backup.

The mission was completed a week before the time-frame. The whole Avengers team came and swept clean the base before destroying it to the ground. When the fight was over and the shambles were burning down Wanda and Pietro came running to you and gave you a giant hug.

"We fucking missed you" Pietro said before Wanda, she put her hands on your cheeks and studied your face "You look tired, are you hurt?"

You took Wanda's hands and put them over your temples signaling her to read your mind ("I was, I got hit by a dart with poison. I've felt tired since then").

"ohmygod, Y/N!"

"oh huh that's not good" Sam said walking closer. When Wanda told them all what you said they got worried, you shrugged and took a cigarette from the crumpled box. You haven't had much chance to smoke, always at the risk of being exposed by the smell.

On the fly back Bruce and Sam put you on a drip and did some tests to find what it was. A very effective rudimentary poison from a three, capable to kill an elephant.

"You are lucky you are a super soldier Y/N otherwise you'd be dead" Bruce said with a frown. S.H.I.E.L.D scientists were already working on a antidote. You had body aches and cramps once in a while, you were better than when you were first poisoned.

"You couldn't move out of the way?" Tony asked confused at how you got hit.

"It was a dart. That damned shit makes no noise, I realized when I felt it hit my neck. From there it was a hazzy memory of three days: I almost got rammed by a rhino and mawled by a pack of lions".

"How did you scaped?" Pietro asked with curiosity written all over his face.

"No fucking idea... Maybe if Wanda reads my mind you can find out".

Wanda tried, your mind was a disaster of blurry memories. She screamed in freight when she saw the memory of the rhino. And got scared out of her skin by the lions hunting you in night time.

Back at the compound you got the debrief done before a very condecending Fury sent you to rest on your room, get a bath and wait for medical. You did. Like a clock the doctors were there half an hour after, put you on a antidote drip and fluids. Rest for 48hrs.

Luckily after lunch time, the twins and you settled for watch some movies. Mostly kid-rated ones, four movies and a obscene amount of junk food later, mostly Pietro and you eating they left to rest.

Fast asleep, you were still on edge from the mission, it was truly nerve wracking after the poison. Scratch that you were almost paranoid. The sound of your door being opened without warning make you pull out your gun to whoever was sneaking on you.

"Hey Y/N, calm down. Is me I'm sorry, never meant to scare you".

When your eyes focus you see Maria's slander body shape and her voice calms you down "I could have shot you".

"Yeah, I didn't think it through. Next time I'll knock.

Clearing the chamber, you put back the gun under the pillow and extend your left hand to her, she smiles "Let me change". You fall asleep again. Before getting on the bed Maria "speaks to you softly to not spook you again" when she lays down you automatically pull her closer to you "Y/N You will pull out the drip"

"Don't care"

"Too bad, I do. Let me fix this thing" after some more rustling the two of you finally settle to fall asleep.

A successful mission meant a week off duty to recover.

Maria tried to get off bed at five am but, you didn't let her "Y/N, I have work to do".

"Me too, lie in my bed. I will work you good" you said with a smirk. Your arms reach out to wrap around her waist and she gives up, you smile triumphally as she rolls the two of you over to straddle your hips.

Your left palm sets below your head as your right hand finger nails graze up her tigh under her loose shorts. You feel her shiver and you smile widely. She does a quick job taking off her tank top and you admire her beauty, damn woman she is fit.

"Do all your agents get this reward after a successful mission?".

"No, just an insufferable one that is quiet everywhere but in bed with me".

Lifting up your torso you begin to plant ope mouthed kisses from below her sternum to her clavice, neck... How much you love kissing and grazing your teeth on her neck, feeling her tendons stretch and contract, her breath hitches. Kisses along her chiseled-goddess-like jawline. The two of you continue the make out session while your hands knead and work her breasts, rolling her nipples and tugging them gently. Her fingernails claw your back, making you shiver "Damaged goods get no refund, darling".

"Good. I'm keeping you" she gently pushes you back, and helps you taking off your shirt to lie in bed. "You should be resting" briefly getting off of you she takes off her short and undies to straddle you again, making you humm in appreciation "Already that wet?" You wiggle your eyebrows playfully, your hands immediately attach to her firm butt kneading te muscles.

"Oh shut up and put that mouth to work" she glares down at you, her eyes look dark with her pupils dilated.

Without a warning you drag her with your hold on her butt, she quickly adjust to straddle your face. You tease her a little nipping and kissing the inside of her tighs, which proves hard when you can feel her wetness falling on your neck, the warmth of her core and that divine smell.

"Stop teasing me and fuck me" she orders with her deputy voice, you chuckle before diving in to make out with her lower lips, tugging, nipping and sucking like a starving woman. She buckles and trembles. You make her loose control and she moans, whimpers and screams your name. Oh this will earn you a shit ton of teasing from the Avengers, but right now you don't give a damn, and you can't really heard it, het tighs pressing and squeezing your head muffled her sounds, and you want to hear them. You work her to overdrive, your hands give her butt cheeks a last slap before moving up to her breasts she tries to keep you off but her strength is no match when her mind if foggy with pleasure.

Like a predator waiting to strike you play with her breast and nipples until your feel her almost getting to climax. That's when you strike pinching and tugging her nipples. As she voices the dirtiest-loudest moan while her body shakes and trembles as it shoots down in pleasure. You gently guide her to lay down your head still between her legs. You kiss her mound and navel while her hands tug and graze your hair with each pleasure tremor.

As her body relaxes and she reaches for your hands, and frowns when she feels the IV entry. You already dozed off again, using her front as pillow. Luckily Maria is tall, she reaches out and grabs the small first aid kit you keep on the side table. After gently taking it out she clean it and wrap it with a band-aid, she jiggled at the design with paw prints. Pietro bought it for you as joke since is veterinary use. But you use it anyway since they are self adherent.

For everybody's surprise not only Tony got married, he decided to retire and went back to live in the city. None of you was against it that is, and with the twins now more experienced and powers under control his absence was felt, yes. But the team managed. Wanda and Vision started dating now they have two years of official relationship, let's be honest they were dating at least half a year before. You an Natasha noticed. But Vision was a good guy, he was still awkward and learning, but he was gentle and attentive. And if Pietro's shovel talk was dramatic yours was worse when you showed him a magazine with vibranium bullets you stole from Ulysses.

"You break her heart Vision, and I will leave you like a perforated metal panel, am I clear?".

"I-I yes, ma'am" he said nervously side glancing at Wanda "Is that all Y/N/N?" She asked with a mix of pride and annoyance.

You only gave her a nod.

Fury assigned you to a mission that did a number between Maria and you. You went undercover for a year with a group of dangerous black market dealers in Madripoor. It wasn't about the time, it was about how dangerous it was. You end up having to use drugs and do awful things to blend in. Which Maria detested. You also had to deal with Baron Zemo, that was the easiest part. The man is a snake but he has a code.

Along the mission you found something absolutely dreading, apparently the Red Room was up and operating. You couldn't believe it and led by Dreykov. But Natasha killed Dreykov, a look a like? Someone using the name?

You tried to dig in to that, and pure dead-ends. The only solid clue and thread you had was the child trafficking. But the organization you were in didn't stole or buy the kids. Once in a while they shared transport with one of the crime organization who did.

Unfortunately, to keep cover your code name begun popping up on Ross radar. You had to do some awful shit to stay in, The Mawler.

You are gazing at the sea on Siloso Beach, Singapore. Lazily resting on a sun bed, smoking a cigar and beer in hand.

“I’m pulling you out of this mission. Effective immediately” Maria said after she took the sun bed beside you.

Without moving your head you side glance at her and you almost get a heart-attack. She is wearing a damned sexy one piece swimsuit.

“With that you aren’t passing unadverted” you say taking a drag of your cigar.

“I’m hoping this convives you to go back”

“Quite close, but I can’t. I’m close to what we need”.

Maria and you spent a week there. It was a bitter sweet week. Where you two bickered and fought which only resulted in hateful make out sex.

In the end on the last day Maria decided to put an end to the relationship. She could no longer put up with what you were doing to yourself for this mission. Your elbows sport the evidence of the needles, heroine. She told you about Ross close eyes on you.

You didn’t wanted to let her go but, you understood her fears, you had them too. You were getting way to deep.

When you finally came back after bringing down the organization with Coulson's team. You were greeted by Wanda, Pietro and Vision, yes in the end you got along with the android he is good company full of facts that blow your mind.

When you saw Maria and Natasha cozy on the living room, you knew. You had lost your chance. Not gonna lie you love Maria, but both of you got awfully guarded around each other during your mission. Natasha and Maria have been on an off on the past, so you just accept it and move on.

Now with the looming danger of the Red Room, you must to what you do best. Keeping them all safe. And that means keeping this secret and going behind everyone's backs to dig intel.

Months went by, before you used to keep on your own at the compound. Now any given free time you are out, traveling or driving, you even go AWOL during missions. Making Maria doubtful of your loyalties. Even Fury us having second thoughts. And everything goes to shit when you all are tasked to keep world leaders safe during a submit and the place is attacked. You got there late, Fury notified you of the mission, but you went awol again chasing threads on the red room.

Is messy, a disaster. Between the attackers and trying to stay on the shadows you see two familiar uniforms, their moves like Natasha's. Without report or orders you go for them. After a brief fight, you found two undetonated bombs. You notified the team and guard it until authorities aradheren

When you returned to the team Steve was angry "Where were you?!"

"Chasings suspects"

"Oh yeah? I don't see any" Sam said crossing his arms.

"They got away. I lost them between the fleeting people".

48 hours later, you were set on a week mission. Unknown to you it was to keep you away and gather declarations and evidence, you were framed as participant of the bombing. In your ignorance you went AWOL again.

When you returned, the twins, Natasha and Bucky were on a mission and they were due to be back the next day. Ross and his elite team got in the compound after lunch time. Demanding the director to hand you over. All the evidence was lay out to you on the conference room, Ross and Fury previously got into an agreement. You are handed over, the press never knows about this. And for your heart-break they did. Everything fell into place to frame you as mole.

"Fury! You gotta the shitting me. I was helping, I went there as an Avenger"

"You went awol 36 hours before that mission. You did it again, in your last mission. All evidence points to you".

"Bullshit! I've been nothing but loyal to you and this cause".

Ross retrieves something from his jacket "Explain your possession of vibranium bullets".

"I got them from Ulysses Klaue an exchange during a mission time ago".

"An you never handed them over to your superior?"

"What I do or not is not of your inconvenience" you growl at the man.

"Search her" he orders sternly.

One of his men come behind you and with his baton puts you on a choke hold. The agents quickly pat you down and expose the drugs you have on you (fucking shit, not my day).

"Hmm... Is this the quality of agents keeping civilians safe? Fury" the old man taunts the Director who stands glaring at you. Yeah, you are fucked.

"Maria please, this is a fucking mistake. I'm not involved in that bombing. You know me" you beg and plead for her to believe you but is a lost cause. You see it in her eyes, the admiration, commaderie, friendship and love is gone "Agent Y/N Y/L/N you are under arrest, your rank, badges and credentials are cancelled effective immediately".

You physically feel something breaking inside your chest, it takes mere fraction of seconds for your face to become blank and lifeless. A price to pay, to lost it all. At least she will be happy.

The agents handle you roughly and you don't give a damn. You simply take it all and let them push you around to the awaiting transport.

Along the hallways you cross gazes with Bobbi and Sharon, but the agent behind you smacks you in the eyebrow with the butt of his rifle "eyes to the front Mad Dog" he orders, and you get angry. Stopping abruptly.

"Move!" You don't give an inch.

"YN, just go" Bobbi says worriedly.

You cross gazes with the agent hurrying you "Fuck you!" You break out on a fight, a fight that gets the attention of everyone. And you go completely animal, honoring your code name until electrified batons and elephant grade tranquilizers put you down.

When you wake up you are bumping and rolling around in the back of a vehicle that jumps up and down, you hit your head several times but the tranquilizer still has its hold on you.

"What do you mean, Ross arrested her and not even three hours later lost her? Are you kidding?! Wanda and Pietro protest angrily.

The team get into a massive verbal fight, some believe it, others don't. Is a circus.

When you wake up, the first thing you see is the blurry shape of an IV on your elbow, with a blue liquid.

"Where's Romanoff?" A husky voice from somewhere around questions.

You ignore it and keep quiet, from there is who knows how many days of being beaten up. That is until you hear one of the women calling the other Yelena. Between the hazy moments you catched the hour glass on their uniform... Could it be? Yelena Belova, Natasha's long lost little sister.

Groaning as you get concious again you hear the blonde getting close, her face half hidden by a bandana "wakey-wakey imposter".

"So, will you talk? Or do I begin pulling off nails, maybe a sever a finger?"

You lift your head to look at her hazel eyes "Look. I don't know what you want with Natasha but, I am no disguise. I end up being framed and accused guilty. If I'm no use just kill me already".

Turns out she was indeed Yelena, and the other woman is a Black Widow too. Both Red Room deserters. They explained everything, with nothing else to loose you offer them your help to find that hell hole.

A year later you got contact with the twins again. They hugged you tightly when you saw them again. They cried like little kids. You held them and kissed their heads. From there you got in touch once in a while and mostly when they were alone on missions or with Vision.

Only once you got in touch with Maria, and it was during a scouting mission she had in Turkey.

Wanda gave you the heads up on Maria going solo to that mission. You were in Bulagary so you took the chance.

She was sitting outside a tea shop, you've been observing her. Someone tip her mark, from the outside you saw him getting suspicious. Ever honoring your nick name you got some key intel on the man. You made some deals with him, but he is a fake fat fish. You already flipped him off and deal with someone more important.

After buying a tea, you casually walk to her table and clear your throat to catch her attention "May I make you some company?"

Maria hides her surprise perfectly and motions for you to seat "What brings you here?" She asks.

"I was just passing by and I saw you. Figured we could have a friendly chat" you look directly at her hand below the table, she was about to rat you out.

She puts the cellphone on the table and leans back crossing her arms "you escaped Ross".

You chuckle at her words "Is not hard to begin with... You shouldn't believe everything Ross says, I thought Nick and you were better. The masters in deceive got deceived by made up evidence" you gave her a mockery low applaud "Outstanding".

Maria's eyebrows furrow "you know there's a protocol for that, you escaped and never came back".

"You should have trusted me and believed in me, darling" you take a sip of the tea to stop your tongue from lashing out.

Maria looks at you with disbelief "well darling, you were recurrent on going AWOL during missions, you consumed drugs, you were on possession of drugs when you were arrested. Vibranium bullets? Madripoor did a number, didn't it? You were acting off, you wanted trust?"

You grit your teeth hard enough, that even on the busy market she hears it "Did it ever crossed your mind that I could have a good reason? I did nothing but keep you all safe, because you all were my family, I loved you. Stupidly I still do, that's why I am here to tell you that your mission is a waste of time".

Maria's eyes widen at your words "Then come back with me, now. Let's clear this out".

Shaking your head you gulp down the last of your tea "Too late for that. You two abandoned me in the woods, I learnt to be a wolf" standing you you retrieve a little journal and put it in front of her "write a good essay for me, will you?"

Maria watched you go, you blended in faster than she could have guessed.

Three years later, Oksana, Yelena and you keep hitting dead ends. Nothing, no trace of a physical place. All former installations, abandoned relics, nothing. Three laps around the sun on the run, god knows how many vodka bottles and a obscene amount of cigarettes and cigars. The three of you became a dangerous team, doing mercenary jobs here and there to finance the search. Madripoor your recurrent hiring spot.

Wanda contacted you a few days ago. You were in Croatia. After barely scaping Task Master you took two airplanes, train and boat to meet Wanda and Vision who where undercover. She told you Steve and the others would be closed but, shouldn't be a problem.

You met them on a small local coffeeshop. She looked adorable with her beanie, and you couldn't help but tease her. The one that got roasted was Vision, you didn't know he opted for a human-like look you almost tackle him off Wanda when you saw them cuddling on the booth.

The three of you spend a good couple of hours talking, they told you some trouble they had got into, talked about some missions. Wanda was begging you to stay the night with them Pietro was sneaking off later to see you.

"Wanda you know I love you like my little sister but, this is dangerous. If Ross finds out-“ The t.v broadcasting news cut your train of thought. Aliens, Spaceships in New York?"

"What are you-" Wanda and Vision turned around to see it, the now redhead gasped and Vision started backing off "We must head back no-" his pained scream made both of you turn around.

"Viz!"

You pushed Wanda towards Vision to get her out of the way of a blast. That sent you to the other side of the street.

A fight broke loose against giant and strong as heck aliens. As much as you tried you were still very beaten from the previous fight. Four blasts later and a failed attempt to scape the aliens got the three of you cornered on the train station.

You see Wanda standing between Vision and the blue-like creatures while you were behind the aliens, they beat you and left you on the floor. You see it in her eyes, Wanda is terrified even more after they saw you beaten you down.

Something catches their attention, you sense him too. Steve and the back up is here. After his badass catch of the lance another fight breaks out, but it ends with Natasha stabbing one forcing them to retreat.

Pietro comes to your aid and help you up, you hug him tightly but briefly "I gotta go" you kiss the side of his head and begin walking off.

"We could use some help" Steve says behind you.

"Call Ross" you say waving him off.

"They kicked your ass and you run away with your tail between your legs?" Natasha taunts making you halt.

"Y/N/N, please?" Wanda says you make the mistake of looking at her, her damn pout.

You walk back to them "If you rat me out".

"We won't".

On the way back you texted Yelena and Oksana, you are no stupid their contacts were listed as Lena and Ana.

Natasha sits by your left and shamelessly peeks on your phone "Who do you text?"

"Girlfriend and roommate" you say, none of that is true. But this is not the right time to out Yelena. Wanda told you that Maria and Natasha were no longer together since a year ago.

As soon as you stepped on the conference room you saw Ross on a video call with Rhodes, Nick, Coulson and Hill "Director Fury, arrest that criminal right-" with a wave of Rhodes hand the call was over.

"Guess, is all hands on deck" Rhodes says looking at you, a shrug from you is his answer.

Not wanting to get into their useless banter. You walk away in search of your room, if it still is. It isn't. Is barren. No weapons, no battle suit. No clothes, well for a fact you know the twins have your civilian clothes.

Pietro zooming in the room confirms your theory "Your clothes are comfy" he hands you toiletteries and underwear, which is fun is a sports bra and one of his boxers. Before speeding off he tells you he will try to get you a battle suit.

The shower feels so good, you went for cold water the blasts left burns on your back, stomach and rribs the cold water soothes them.

What you didn't anticipated was Hill waiting for you sitting on the bed with a first-aid kit, you don't bother to utter a word and simply put the towel over your shoulders. Underwear already on.

In the corner of your eye you see her reaching out to caress the old bruises and new scars. She says nothing you just see the sadness in her eyes, the moment is bittersweet for both. Maria internally scolds her self, she shouldn't be touching you as if nothing happened, but you don't seem to pull away.

"Let me tend your wounds?" She asks hopefully, maybe this could be a little step forward, you shrug and sit on the edge of the bed. Letting her inspect and treat the wounds, you hiss when she disinfect the burn on your ribs which is the worse "Should I see the other guy?" She says playfully.

Chuckling you shake your head "Nah, this time I got fucked".

Maria smirks at your words but frowns as she inspects the deep bruises littering your body "These bruises, who did this?".

"You make awful enemies while on the run".

She hums thoughtfully, when the wounds are tended, she pats your shoulder. Taking a leap her hands cup your cheeks, her thumbs softly drawing half circles. You close your eyes and enjoy the contact. This feels so right, like nothing happened. As it has always been between the two of you, taking the moment.

"When this fight is over, come back? Let's clear this out. I've been searching, you were right. We got deceived" she leans down to kiss your forehead her lips lingering on the skin.

"I don't care, if I was framed guilty. There's something bigger behind that. That's what I've been searching, three years of dead ends. Can't do this on my own anymore" you feel her lips leaving your skin, opening your eyes you see her beautiful blue eyes.

"You won't. We will have your back this time. I will stand with you" you smile s little at her words before pulling her in to kiss her hungrily. When you feel her lips answering the battle you groan. How much you missed this. Your hands move around her body to grab her tighs and make her straddle you and the rolling the two of you over so you have her under you. Her breath hitches when you travel to her jaw and neck. Your hands control hers pinning them above her head. With your teeth you pull down her uniform zipper to below her breasts, with your tongue you trail up to her neck column and suck hard at the bottom to leave it marked "Hey! No love marks" her voice doesn't match with her body language when she buckles when you plant another one in the other side. You smirk against her skin and begin trailing down with open mouthed kisses. When. You are kissing inside her breasts the door is suddenly open

"I found a battle suit Tony had on the ma- shit!" He speeds to leave it over the desk and retreats to the door again "Go get some sis!" Blindly you snatch a scalpel from the aid kit and throw it at him, of course with a laugh he dodges it closing the door that gets the damage.

Maria laughs whole heartedly under you "Way to kill the mood" you grumble burying your face on her neck.

Steve and Bruce decided to head to Wakanda. If there was a genius that could figure out how to take the soul stone from Vision without killing him was Shuri. Tony was still M.I.A. and Thor had left to Asgard since two years ago.

When the ramp lowered, Wanda helped out Vision. You couldn't help but marble at the beauty of Wakanda. It's like anything you've seen. Bucky told you that unfortunately he had a relapse as the Winter Soldier when one of the Hydra Generals got his hands on the red book and activated the programming in his head. Tony had to blew his arm off before he killed Natasha. After that T'achalla offered his resources. Now Bucky is free from the programming and has a brand new arm.

Romanoff and Hill restocked you with weaponry, now you stand ready for battle.

You stand beside Bucky as you smoke a cigarette. When Nat and Steve come back to the lines you know these aliens are dead-serious about getting the stone. Over your dead body.

Sure, all of you are getting your ass handed over, big time. Luckily for Steve who was nearby Thor showed up with a three and a Talkin raccoon? The heck is going on?.

Natasha and Okoye were fighting Proxima Midnight, you were nearby but swamped by aliens. You need to hurry to help them out, when you thought it was lost cause Wanda showed up and saved them, hurling those wheel like machines like they were weightless. Holy fuck you barely dived into the ditch. Looking up you see the alien responding through her comm link, well you assume is something like it. And dashes away into the woods.

"Wanda, Natasha, Okoye wipe clean this area"

"I'm going for evil smurfette".

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You barely made it on time to intercept them before they pulled off the gem from Visions head, you ran in from behind them and tackled both off the android.

"Seems you didn't had enough from hour last fight" Proxima says calling her weapon. While the other, Corvus swirls his blade.

Standing two to one you crack your neck and stand ready to fight. The battle field stay dead silent and still.

"So, will you stop us by standing still?" Proxima taunts.

You know they are taunting and yet you run head first into the battle. Vision is conflicted between running and staying until you scream at him to get the fuck away. He does.

Staying two to one is hardly fair, they hit you repeatedly on the wounds of your previous fight. You take it all just to get opens and do damage.

The first going down is Corvus. You served a well placed knee on his previous stab wound. Quickly retrieving the vibranium machetes from your back sheaths you cross stab him in the chest, he can't even scream and with all your strength cut him through with an x shape. With your back opened Proxima blasts you at blank point sending you several feet away.

You hear her heavy footsteps nearing, you try to crawl away but she stomps on the burn of your back, making you groan in pain.

"I will spill your guts on the ground and take your head as price" she says anger over flowing her speech.

You laugh at her words and she kicks you in the face, making you roll on your back, when you open your eyes she is hovering over "your blast didn't kill me but surely your face can give me a heart attack" you say with a chuckle. She gets angrier and stomps you on the chest at least three times "Insignificant creature" she curses.

And you laugh at her anger "I still killed him" you give her a bloody smile. She raises her spear with both hands to stab you through. And you take the chance to call back one of the machetes, it buries on her middle, you quickly sweep off her legs with both of yours. The machete goes through completely. You mount her chest to ground and pound, you should kill her. But you are still angry about the cuts her attack left on Wanda's face.

Proxima still exchanges several hits with you, but you have a last one you call back the machete impaling her again until it gets through. She does the same with her lance but you dodge it in time before lashing her neck. Her head lulls to her right and she smiles before she is gone.

Then you feel it, dread. That strange feeling you get when you dive into the darkness of the unknown, on a dark hallway or room. That goosebumps that sell out your fear.

When you look back you see a giant purple humanoid being. He walks out of that portal and makes his way to you, his aura is unnerving to say the least.

"Who are you?" Your voice betrays your fear making you sound confident. A long his path he retrieves Corvus lance, his giant body making it look like a stick.

Calling back your other machete you get in guard.

"The people who fear me call me the Mad Titan".

You smirk at him "And the people who don't?".

"Thanos, but you won't live long enough to say it. It is impressive though, you killed two of my best warriors. Two of my children".

While he talked you observed, the gaunlet on his left hand it has five out of six stones. There's no fucking way you can loose this time.

The two of you get into a fight, a fight you regret right away when his giant fist impacts your whole face, you literally felt your jaw micro fracturing under his strength. You wobble back and get in guard, you side step his knee just to be intercepted by the gaunlet, that fist broke more than half your ribs, the impact is solid. He left you like a still punch bag. He pulls back his fist just to catch you with the same hand grabbing your head with his metal covered fingers to make you look up at him "I'll let them know you fought well" he plunges in Corvus blade burying it all the way "life for a life".

Unknown to you Thanos wiped out the battle field, the only one still standing was Wanda who was doing her best at destroying the stone before the Mad Titan get his hold on it.

*Mad Dog?!*

*Y/N!*

*Where are you? Wanda is the last one standing between that purple giant and Vision* Natasha's frantic voice wakes you up, when your unfocused sight adjusts you see the pool of blood you ate kneeling in. When you try to move the spear reminds you of it's placement.

One last fight you think to yourself. One last effort.

Gathering all the strength and balls you have you lean back to free the lance from the ground, and slowly pull it out, groaning and heaving in pain. When the blade is finally out you use it as a cane to lean on it. While you cough blood.

*Y/N?* You hear Natasha's worried tone.

Fishing around the pocket of your cargo pants you find the red inhalator. Luckily it wasn't damaged. This red thing will leave you like a rabid dog until the effects dies down or your body shuts down, Yelena might drag you from hell just to kill you for stealing this from her safe.

You inhale it all, after a few seconds the agonizing pain on your chest vanishes.

*Mad Dog here, I'm coming*.

Along the way you take the other forgotten lance and run as fast as you can towards the others, you can feel Wanda's powers building up.

You make it in time to see an half concious Wanda on the floor and it makes you angry as heck. Along the way you saw a shivering Bruce, Nat and Okoye trapped under some heavy vines, T'achalla passed out, Steve, Bucky, Sam and Pietro were knocked out.

You stop when you see he only caresses Wanda's head and goes to Vision's dead body. What you didn't expected was he reviving him, you see him chocking Vision.

With all your strength you throw the single blade lance stabbing the purples asshole on the back of his left shoulder, making him growl as his hold on Vision loosens.

He turns around and glares at you "You are a nuisance, this time I will kill you for good".

You run up to him blasting him several times with Próxima's weapon.

"Wanda get Vision away from here!".

"But-"

"No fucking buts! GO!" You get on another round with Thanos, this time your punches, kicks and the force behind the lance is stronger, reflexes better. When he feels you could actually have a chance after you stab him a little too shallowy twice she blasts you wit the power stone. And kicks mid air to send you against one of the giant threes.

Falling on your hands on knees the wind as completely knocked out of you, heaving several times only bring blood to your mouth. Man you are angry, you hear his heavy steps closing in. You try to stand up on wobbly legs. You dodge his first punch of the gaunlet, a second punch your body doesn't move in time. His free hand slams you back again on the three.

"Where's your fire now child?" He taunts out of nowhere he manifests Próxima's lance again, you give him a bloody smile breathing has become extremely hard "Didn't learn from last time? You need more than that" you say with ragged breath.

He gives you a sinister smile "If you are still alive by the time I finish this, you are coming back to my army" with a swift move the three blade lance goes through you pinning you against the wood. At this very moment you regret your taunting words.

What you didn't know is that Wanda was reading your mind, when she saw Thanos impaling you she and Vision turned around and decided to got back and fight.

You cant let this giant asshole get to Vision, you can't loose. With a lot of effort and will power you begin to retreat the weapon off your body, the pain is unbelievable, this time you groan and scream.

"Y/N! Don't!" You hear Natasha scream from somewhere around. But you don't give a damn.With blurry sight you saw the lightning of Thor's powers, there's was a explosion like sound. The attack hiding your last scream as you unburied the blade. Once more you used the lance as cane, leaning heavily on it.

When you looked up you saw Thor hovering down over a kneeled Thanos who had the massive ax buried on his chest.

"Don't fuck around kill him!" You shout at the god of thunder, but you see him he is blinded by rage, that rage that loss brings.

Deciding to take the matter in your own hands, you unstuck the lance and run up to them ignoring Natasha's and Steve's shouts for you to stop. You should have.

Almost simultaneously you jumped up to bury the lance on the titans head, Vision shoot a laser beam from the mind stone. Both hit the target, but the laser beam got further and went through you too on your lower abdomen. The last thing you had conciousness about was something hot hitting you and the hardness of the ground.

Vision fell on his knees and told Wanda to run to you.

The firsts reaching you were Natasha and Steve, followed by an absolute distressed Pietro then Wanda.

Natasha gently lifts you up to lay you on her lap. While the others franticly tear up your battle suit to reach your wounds, they all gasp. And get hands on to try to stop the bleeding, you groan in pain and wake up. You try to wiggle away from the pain but Natasha's hands on your face stop you "Easy there Y/N we are trying to help you, ok?"

"Nat?" You whisper brokenly.

Your left hand moves shakingly to grab the bandage roll you hid, you move it to her eye sight "Red Room, still active. Hid intel here... I- I didn't, I didn't go rogue. I was framed".

"Sestra, calm down. We know, ok? You are one of us" Pietro says with tears blurring his sight.

"Yelena alive. I've been working with her. Cellphone, Lena" you say with blood scaping your mouth "Sorry I lied. Budapest".

Natasha's tears finally run down "Is ok, Y/N/N, no hard feelings. Just stay still, ok?".

T'achalla calls to have medical ready. Steve looks at the speedster "Pietro, can you take her?".

"I'd be damned if I don't".

You chuckle at his words "Wan, Piet" you call them softly.

"Don't you dare to say goodbye Y/N. You can't, you are strong. You are our big sister, we need you, ok?" Is unmistakable how Wanda's pressure on your wound increases with her words.

"I love you guys, you the best little siblings" your eyes get lost. And Steve helps Pietro gathering you in his arms.

He runs faster than ever, the medics instruct him to lay you on a floating gurney. You groan in pain when they shift you, blindly you search for Pietro's hand "Tell Maria I love her?".

"I will. You better wake up to tell her yourself".

When things quiet down and the battle field was wiped clean. The avengers found themselves on the med bay. All of them needed medical, some more urgently than others.

Even Wakanda with all the advanced tech the doctors were having such a hard time keeping you alive.

By the time Maria and Nick landed, six hours later. You were wheeled on a room with ICU critically unstable. Against protocols the doctors let the twins in, they had to use a special suit though. They each grabbed one of your hands, even the latex gloves couldn't hide the coldness of your skin.

"Wan, can you read her?" Pietro asked softly, the female twin tried. Yes she could read you but your thoughts were a mess. Good memories, bad memories but above all there was guilt and uncertainty. She digged in deeper. And found you feeling angry about being framed guilty of the bombing and how you felt betrayed by everyone. Your guilt of keeping the Red Room Intel from Natasha, about Yelena working along with you.

Wanda wasn't stupid, none of them. You were literally dying and yet you were being hold down by your regrets. With tears running down her eyes she showed Pietro.

The twins were devastated, they didn't wanted to let go. But they also understood you were fighting over time. You saved them all at the cost of your life.

"Sestra, we know you are suffering. Is ok, we now know you were inocent. We love you, we never doubted you".

"Maria and Nick are coming ok? Just hold on a little more. We love you" both kiss your forehead, they wish they could replace the coldness of your skin with your usual warmer temperature. Your hugs were the best your the right amount of tight and warm.

They talk to you a little more while Nick and Maria get ready to enter.

"How is she?" Maria asks.

Natasha and Bucky shift uncomfortably "the doctors don't think she is going to make it" he says with a low tone, those are words none of the team members never wish to say out loud.

The twins and the directors switch and Maria grabs your right hand between hers, is warm thanks to Pietro. But is not your usual warmth, you always ran at a slight warmer temperature.

Nick walks to your left side and outs a fatherly hand on your shoulder "Agent. We made a mistake, a grave mistake. You were right, for that we are sorry. Thank you for all your service. You did good kid" he gives you a last gentle squeeze and leaves the room for Maria to have a private moment with you.

"Darling, I'm sorry. Like Nick said, we were wrong. Sorry is not enough. We lost time, how many nights I could have had you by my side. You were all, you are my everything" the monitor on your heartbeat spikes a little.

"hey, no love. Is ok, calm down" her words seem to work and makes you settle down "No matter what, I will always love you..." She jiggles softly at her own words, as tears blurry her sight "You did again baby. You saved us all" she softly traces your face, the features she loves hidden under swollen and bruised skin and muscle. The skin is cold. When she leans away she sees your eyes barely open.

"Hi" she softly says "I was told you were a total badass out there" you have a respirator on and with the fog clouding the mask she can't see the smile grin on your lips. Even Maria isn't sure if you are awake. You aren't supposed to be conscious.

She sits with you, talking to you.

The others outside just watch, Pietro has Wanda on a protective side hug "Is she?" The brunette nods "she isn't fully conscious but, somehow she seems to understand".

After a while the doctors ask Maria to leave, she kisses you cheek and temple before leaving the room.

That same night your body shuts down for good, it wasn't nothing over dramatic. Your heartbeat slowed until it stood still. The medical team tried their best at bringing you back. But you stayed forever asleep.

Everyone were devastated but, the three shattered were Maria and the twins. If your dead wasn't enough when news of your death spread out Ross came to the Avengers compound demanding Fury to surrender your body, government's property he said. Maria almost decked him.

Luckily your body was already cremated in Wakanda, and for Ross there was no use. So he left. Natasha left Wakanda the same night you died.

They all held back the service waiting for Tony and Peter to come back, a month later Carol Danvers brought them all, even with news adds they called themselves Guardians of the Galaxy.

Two weeks later Natasha came back with Yelena and Oksana. The team welcomed both, with open arms.

The service wasn't too over the top for Tony's over the top dismay. It was more intimate, the team, Clint's family, pepper, aunt May. Coulson's team.

When the service was over Maria stayed by your dead stone. This was actually your favorite place to have a smoke, you even had a stone ash tray you carved, she lit up a cigar and left it there for you, she lit a cigarette for herself and sat beside the headstone "you would have laughed at how we wept like little kids" she said to the forest.

By the second cigarette, Yelena and Wanda came back. The brunette sat by Maria's left and Yelena sat by the other side of the tomb stone. They all lit a cigarette and Yelena passes over a vodka bottle.

“She was good fighter and good friend” Yelena says looking at the headstone “I thought she was invincible. I was unsure of facing Natasha again. Y/N was right, I had nothing to be unsure”.

Yelena downs a gulp off the bottle “she loved you, she still does” she fishes around her long coat over sized inside pocket and gives Maria a couple of journals “everything we know of Red Room here, she has a couple of personal stuff there”.

Maria has been avoiding looking through the last two journals. One had everything Red Room and Hydra related. The second ones were personal. It’s been a month… 30 days of over thinking and beating herself on how stupid she was on doubting you.

Blame the vodka and the lonely nights. She ends up venturing to read the one that looks more worn, older.

The first pages are about your mission in Madripoor. Notes and heads up for your mission. Hand draw schematics.

She notices the difference on the strokes, sometimes well done others scribbled, hurried… some pages even have some brown-ish stains coffee mostly. But theres blood too. The she sees the first page with a long text, the format looks like a letter. Two months into the mission

<I’m pretty sure I’m writing this and never send it.

It’s been almost two months, 56 days into this task. I’m missing you like crazy, through out the day I catch myself wondering if you are safe, how are you, missing your presence… is stupid, maybe. I blame the vodka and the aftermath of using drugs. I hate it, but I had to. I had to blend in they are suspecting I’m a spy… I might not see past the second month.

If I die, and by a miracle you find this know that I love you Maria Hill. Tell the others I miss them too.

P.D. Tell Fury I will haunt his old man ass>

Maria laughs for the first time.

She keeps flipping through the pages.

Six months in.

<Well, another drugs and vodka fueled letter. I’ve known regret, but nothing like this. The things I’ve had to do… they are haunting me. Know I get the appeal of drugs, if I don’t sleep I don’t dream… if I inject enough heroin or pain killers I have memory-less sleep. And the maker knows I need some sleep. I’m paranoid. Maybe is the drugs.

I understand you are worried Maria, but this is beyond me. Far more complex. The Red Room might be alive. This black market is cruel… I see kids, women, babies being traded like stuff. Potentially deadly substances and vial locked diseases hurl around like canned food. Is worrisome how this underworld doesn’t care about anything but money. Fucking filthy money.

I know I’ve been ghosting you on Intel. I’ve been reporting directly to Fury. I’m sorry love.

We fought on this last meeting and I’m sorry. I unloaded a lot of shit on you, sit you are not to blame about. I’m just tired and drained. I pray for this mission to be over soon.

Love you.

P.D. for Fury:

FUCK YOU>

Maria keeps searching for this letters. Each become more dark, haunted. Is palpable how your psiche was suffering the beat down of what you saw.

<I’m sorry. I had to.

I was played, they gave me something.

I was feral… I am scared of myself. How can I make that much damage bare-handed?.

All this time I’ve been a dormant monster. What am I?

Do I still deserve you?

I’m so, sorry.

I love you Maria. That’s the only thing I’m certain>

Maria squeezes her eyes trying to hold back tears. She flips forward until a couple of Polaroids shows up. Her eyes widen in surprise.

Is from Singapore, one when she was sunbathing on the beach. The other a picture of her naked, barely covered by the hotel bedsheet. She was sound asleep on her stomach

<Today I lost the only person I’ve ever truly loved.

I feel stupid. But no one said this line of work was easy. I pushed you away. They are trailing me.

This feels wrong, I should not cling to these polaroids. But sometimes a little breath of hope is needed. Maybe when this is over I can fix my stupid decisions.

You don’t know this. My primary mission is over. But I found something else, I’m already inside so no use on backing away and sending a newbie in.

You are the light that I look for though this dark time. Now it might just be a hopeful memory. But I need to cling to it or might loose myself into this darkness.

I will always love you.

P.D. Fury is a dick. If I lose you for good I will kill him myself>

Well, now it makes sense… and she didn’t see through your lies. Maria sighs and looks up to the ceiling of her office. Wishing she could find the answer. A way to turn this back and change this cruel outcome. She doesn’t blame Fury. Is just the way this spy and assassins game is.

She spends the night reading your notes and letters. She saw it all. The hurt it did when they foolishly turned their backs on you.

As the pages are turned she witness the change from rage to sadness and last acceptance.

Is clear that drunk your hand slips there’s even some little notes from Yelena. Leaving Maria unsure if she put them after or while you were writing.

<Wanda asked me to meet them in a few days in Scotland. She said something about a secret mission there. Which is kind of odd. The place. Not one to judge after being deep inside Madripoor.

The little birdie has been trying to play match maker again. I’ve been thinking… I miss them… I miss you. This solo mission I’ve been carrying on with Yelena and Oksana is been hard. We are being hunted by the Red Room. Honestly a little breather would be welcomed.

P.D you looked beautiful on that little café in Italy. I saw you and I’m still smitten>

The next pages are blank… until the last one. Scrabbled messy writing.

<I don’t even know why I’m writing this… before this battle. Maybe is just reflex, maybe is because I’m nervous. This aliens kicked the crap out of me last time. I was hurt already. But man I felt like a ragdoll.

If I don’t make it out of this. Know that I love you still. That make out before parting ways was a true oxygen intake to my soul.

P.D. I love you, you looked beautiful as ever. I was a stupid for staying away for so long>