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And the most redundant lie is tell is," I didn't cry, I'm happy, look I'm smiling "

Sometimes the lies we tell reveal more about ourselves than the truth ever could.

- Mathew A Silva

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#that's me

I blog for the girls who cry on their birthdays and lose a little bit of themselves during the summer months

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cry ?

Nah, I prefer to bleed on paper.

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Couldn't be more true

"Some days I’m Van Gogh’s starry night, other days I’m his suicide letter."

-Via —souu-h

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There's nothing more intimate in life than simply being understood.

-Brad Meltzer

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What do you do when people confide in you, tell you their secrets and vent out to you trusting you,

But when you need a shoulder to lean on, or an ear to hear your anxiety, emotional overflow, you are "melodramatic", "you're stressing for nothing, I've been dealing with way more than this all my life", "you're making me depressed", "you're ungrateful", "you're adding into my depression", "stop being negative"

Your pillow becomes your confidant, let the darkness calm you and your blanket caress and comfort and you let it all out... without offending a soul around you.

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Too much stress and regret, need to say some things to some folks that are messing with the peace of my mind

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Nothings the same anymore. There were gifts, food and cake but something was missing, the magic , the spark that make my childhood memories sparkle despite the hard times.

I never asked for any of those,food and cake yes, that was a big part of all my birthday memories, new clothes for the new year. But now... Strained relationships, new bad habits, midlife crisis, different adult personalities all clashing together in silence, trying really hard to keep up a facade of happiness and peace, so looking back at pictures from today won't trigger tears; but it's too late, the damage is already done. I guess I have to be grateful they tried their best to keep it together for my sake.

I want the peace and genuineness of my family back. This is not it.

Maybe im just older and more aware of what was always obvious.

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Pulling an all nighter tonight, cleaning my den of a room I case I die, no one has to come into a room that looks like an explosion to take my lifeless body

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Happy Birthday to me

August in itself was a cheerful and celebrated month for me growing up, inspite of having midterms in school while growing up. But now... as much as I try to duplicate those emotions for the month, even my birth anniversary- it's all very lack luster. My sibling asked me what I wanted for my birthday, I had nothing I could ask him, but deep in my head, I wished I never woke up ever from my sleep on the morn of.

My tombstone would look cool, born and died the same day. Almost like a full cycle. Don't know if I ever fulfilled my life purpose, great if I did, if I didn't well, We'll see.

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Idk

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I think I've come to terms with the fact that there will always be a ribbon of loneliness running through who I am.

— Jenny Slate, Little Weirds

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Waited all week for someone to get a day off from work, prepared to stay up all night even though I have work the next day, but they chose to hang out with their friends, rather than this idiotic person they tied the knot with 7 months ago. Long distance across continents and time zones suck! It's okay, I'll get used to it.

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My crutch to support me and my lack of energy and life through work today #crutch #emotionallydrained #gottapaythebills #ineededthatextraooph

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Regrets

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