lonelylawstudent

[lonelylawstudent]

trying to decide if i'd rather be a tortoise or a turtle. on the one hand I prefer dry land, on the other hand turtles can breathe out of their cloacae so. it's tricky

[lonelylawstudent]

Hello there

Hum... I don't really know where to start. I just need to vent out I guess ? So here I go.

Here some stuff about me : I'm a French girl, I'm a law student and these days I feel awfully lonely.

So just thought that starting a studyblr will keep me busy.

I just started my second year of law school. This is the firsy tile in many years that I come back to school alone. Last year, my best friend was with me, but she has to repeat the first year. This year, I'm essentially alone in the middle of thousand of people.

I mean, yes, technically there are like 3 people I know from high school, and this girl I befriend, but it just feels off. People are not means, just... Distant.

All of my school life, what makes me happy to go to school was the fact that I would spent the day with my friends. Now none of them are by my side through those way to long lectures.

Obviously I still see them, but we are all in different college, so our schedule don't really match.

And like I said, I'm French, so I go to a French university, which is quote different from the U.S system for exemple. We don't have such campus life, and most classes are just long lecture with thousand of people in one amphitheater : peole come at the begging, left afterward, and that it.

Actually, from what I noticed, it's those who smoke who make friend the fastest. Not surprising.

And beside that, people meet through parties. But if there is one thing that I can't handle, it's this. Being surrounded by numerous, loud, drunk people in a small place with music I don't like is way to hard for me, my social battery can't keep up.

Then comes the topics of my major. I'm... lost. I get into law school because I didn't really know what I wanted to do, my best friend was here and I thought it suited me. Last years was not that bad actually : I had a hard time adapting to this new environnement, to my young adult life, but otherwise not too bad.

But this year.... The classes are not interesting. They are not meant to. It's a necessity for me to know about administration (especially the French one), but it's honestly boring. And the teachers saying "it's the hardest year, and the keast interesting one" everyday is not motivating at all.

So here is my everyday life for the next school year : going everyday to a place where I don't feel at peace, without any real friend, to study thing I'm less and less interested in, and with an awful schedule. Very nice.

To be continued I guess ?