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Ex bff still hasn’t killed himself lol guess I worried for nothing you fucking bastard 🩷

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you see i don't miss my ex best friend. i miss the feeling of community and companionship that i felt when i was with them. i miss the sense of belonging. i miss feeling like i was part of a group. part of something bigger. i miss feeling like i had a Group of FriendsTM. with a Chaotic Discord ServerTM and Inside JokesTM and being able to go places and Hang Out With My FriendsTM. i miss feeling like a normal person who was close to people. i miss thinking "wow these people who are not related to me love me and i love them and that is beautiful". i miss the Idea of Friendship. i miss goofy little jokes and photos and the smell of their house. i miss their pets. i miss when they would send me things because they thought i would like it. i'm having a really hard time and i miss being able to just fucking talk to someone about it instead of screaming into the void on a zero follower tumblr account. i miss feeling like every day was an episode of a quirky sitcom.

i miss not being the main character of my own life.

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i really did pick the worst possible time to take a political science class, huh?

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Why the fuck do I miss someone I hate? What is wrong with me?

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Just so we’re all clear, it is okay to miss people you no longer want in your life.

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Haha thinking about when I first started tumblr and created an art blog and one of the only people who followed me was a literal pro Ana Lexia thinspo blog that always posted about self harm

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starting to think that maybe i am meant to be alone for the rest of my life and i should just accept it and become a hermit bc everyone i love will either die or leave me like its happened five times its never going to stop happening no wonder i'm afraid of getting close to people

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Abusive friendships need to be discussed more.

If you have a friend that lies to you, excludes you, doesn’t respect your boundaries, does not make themselves a safe person to say ‘no’ to or otherwise criticise, refuses to take responsibility for their actions, if they force you to therapize them but then drop you the moment something else comes along, if they recurrently threaten suicide—they are abusing you.

All of the above are personal experiences I dealt with. In fact, they are likely what led to my symptoms of conduct disorder to stabilise into ASPD.

Friendship abuse is real and traumatising.

Just because it’s a friend telling you they’d kill themselves if it weren’t for you being in their life and not a romantic partner doesn’t mean it’s suddenly okay. Just because it’s a friend who is making undue and invasive comments about your body and life and not a family member doesn’t make it okay.

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Someone else is suffering and that means you’re invalid, someone else is suffering and that means you’re invalid, someone else is suffering and that means you’re invalid, someone else is suffering and that means you’re…

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mommy fwiend by penelope scott type of sadness

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Therapist Friend things

�� wanting to be there for everyone

• checking on your friends constantly

• not telling your "friends" stuff about you cause they have their own shit to deal with and you don't want to be a burden

• worrying constantly they wont confide in you anymore- getting validation from them talk you

• the friendship being mildly toxic - always focused on the other person

• no words of thanks, just kinda expected to be there.

• having your own problems you don't tell anyone about

• them only initiating text to spil crap

• And maybe, just maybe falling the Frick in live with them cause your a stupid bisexual

Feel free to add your own - the list goes on

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Wow it’s almost like constantly having to bow before another person and constantly put their thoughts above your own will you fuck up